I was dress up and ready for the party. I wore a more modern vampire costume. At first I bought a real costume but Kendall made me take it back this afternoon. Kendall didn't want to look stupid so instead of the full on Dracula look we went for more of a 'The Vampire Diaries' look. I had dark blue jeans, a red shirt, black jacket and blood around my mouth. Jamie had fake blood laying in his room. I think he was a zombie last year and never used the rest of it. I was beyond excited for tonight and my parents were totally cool with it. Last time they hadn't found out about the party but they were so against it. Now they're fine with it and with Kendall still. I was surprised because of how most parents react to their child dating on TV shows. Overprotective, I think my parents just really like Kendall. He kept them buying the fake life he painted for them. If they knew the truth I'm sure they would still like him. Yes he ditches class but he still has good grades and is an athlete. I can't do any better than that. Kendall even joked a few times that any other guy I dated after him would be all downhill. My parents probably knew that and didn't want to ruin things for me but scaring him away. I looked in the mirror. I looked so grown up it was kind of scaring me. I was too much of a kid to look this grown. Sabrina loaned me a cute pair of boots for the most perfect nice ever in her words. I want it to be a perfect night. I sat in the living room all alone. My parents drove down to Philly to see my grandparents, to give out candy. I didn't know where Jamie was going tonight but he wasn't home either. Kendall showed up a little bit later and we drove to the party.
"Here we are." He said as we pulled up and he turned off the car. The places where everything started. I felt strange, like I didn't belong here.
"Wow." I smiled at him and we got out of the car and walked up the steps we once sat. I had full on chills.
"You look hot." Kendall said kissing my lips and taking my hand to bring me into the living room. The house was full of people dressed with little clothing or covered in blood and gore.
"Thanks." I said looking around for Sabrina. She was going to dress as pirate and Josh was going as a baseball player. He found my dad's jersey and he took it so he didn't have to buy a costume.
We danced for a little but and then went to get snacks. I texted Sabrina and she was running late. She showed up about five minutes later.
"Hey!" Sabrina said loudly trying to talk over the music.
"Sabrina!" I smiled big and hugged her and then Josh. Kendall stood there angrily. I knew he wanted me all to himself. What was I suppose to do? Avoid Sabrina while at the same party? That's ridiculous she would get suspicious at why.
"Yo." Kendall shook my uncle's hand and they both seemed disinterested.
Sabrina and I talked for a few minutes and then we all danced for a bit until Josh and Sabrina went off on their own. I saw Lucas while I was dancing. He was dancing with Missy, I had classes with her. It shocked me. I didn't know he was interest in her. I guess I'm happy for him, finding someone he likes. I just miss him. Kendall pulled me to the side and whispered in my ear.
"Let's go upstairs." He said. I nodded yes but I didn't really want to go anywhere. I wanted to find Sabrina and Josh but I went anyway.
Sabrina's POV
I was dancing with Josh. It wasn't as romantic as the last time we danced when it was just the two of us. It was still really nice. I needed this after the week I've had. Josh knew it too and we danced the night away it seemed. I'm glad he was showing me a good time here. I just have bad memories of fighting with Rowan here and it made me feel bad about the way I treated her that night. At least things are great between us now. We got drinks, non alcoholic drinks. Everyone at the party was pretty much wasted and we didn't want to be apart of it. I saw Lucas and Missy walk into the kitchen and next to us getting chips.
"Lucas?" I said looking at them. Josh stood next to us and nodded his head to them.
"Oh hey Sabrina." He said as we went to hug each other. "Josh." Lucas smiled at Josh and shook his hand.
"Missy right?" I said pulling away from Lucas.
"Yeah." Missy said taking Lucas' hand immediately. She seemed threatened by that exchange. I guess it was no secret I use to have a thing for Lucas but I think he could clearly see I've moved on.
"How have you been?" Lucas asked me.
"I've been better but things are looking up." I said. Lucas reached out to me on the phone a few nights ago to check in after Rowan texted him. We talked for about ten minutes.
"That's good! I'm sorry about everything. I wish I could do more." Lucas said as Missy and Josh stood there letting us talk it out.
"Can we have a minute?" I looked at Josh.
"Missy right?" He said guiding her to the other side of the room. Josh was seriously the best.
"I'm sorry Lucas." I said sighing.
"About what?" He asked me.
"Everything, for being so selfish." I admitted, I was selfish that night he admitted his feelings for Rowan and I made them both feel like shit for. I was selfish for not checking in on him like he did for me. I was selfish for not trying to be his friend.
"You're not selfish." Lucas tried to comfort me.
"Maybe not but I have been lately." I looked down. "I want you to know, I'm happy with Josh."
"You're dating? That's amazing Sabrina, I'm so happy for you." He smiled.
"Kind of but the thing is. I realized how I shouldn't treat you the way I have been. You deserve to be happy and I won't stop you from being with Rowan if that's what you want." I admitted my true feelings that once were clouded.
"She's with Kendall, I'm with Missy. That ship has sailed." Lucas sighed. I knew he appreciated my honesty even if it was late.
"I know for that I feel the worse about." I hugged him again. "If you get the chance. Go for it."
I pulled away and Josh walked back over with Missy. Lucas stared at me thinking about all I had said. They went off and left us here.
"What was that about?" Josh asked me.
"I was telling him to go for Rowan." I told Josh.
"And Kendall?" Josh asked.
"What about him?" I smiled.
I liked Kendall but I loved Lucas and if Rowan truly had feelings for Lucas then her and Kendall would never work out anyway. All I was doing was letting the truth go. Josh and I spent a little longer at the party but we got sick of it. I texted Rowan letting her know we were leaving and we took off. I went back home and we both had dinner with Shawn. It was really nice.
Rowan's POV
Kendall lead me upstairs. I felt sick to my stomach. We entered an empty room, it wasn't the same room I pictured in my dreams. In the dream it was Bridget's room. We were in her parent's room. It was pretty big. Kendall laid down and I checked my phone and saw a text from Sabrina saying she and Josh were leaving. I texted her back that I was good here. I wasn't really. I didn't want to be alone at this party. Kendall stands up and takes my phone, tossing it on the table. I looked at him.
"You look amazing." He kissed me hungrily.
"Thank you." I said once we pulled away.
He brushed his hand on my thigh and kissed my neck. I swallowed and felt butterflies in my stomach but it wasn't the cute romantic type of butterflies.
"I love you." I took a deep breath trying to remind myself that I did love him and this is what couples in love do.
"I love you too." Kendall smiled grabbing my face and kissing me deeply.
It felt good but it scared me.
He took off my jacket and then his, I felt shaky. My mind kept flashing back to my dream where Kendall is on top of me.
Kissing me.
Touching me.
But this time I'm not saying no.
Author's Note:
Next chapter picks up where I left off so any guesses? It's going to be all Rowan's POV and a long one. I want a lot of feedback on your thoughts about this story and the characters if you want chapter 21! It's all written so it's up to you now haha!
