I laid in bed with Kendall on top of me. I was crying and screaming but no one heard me. He wouldn't stop. His hands were all over me. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Kendall got up and looked at me.

"Where are you going?" I asked him frantically.

"You aren't enough for me anymore." He stared and walked out.

"No! Come back Kendall! Please?" I yelled through my tears. Why was I so upset? I sat on the bed scared and alone.

I woke up in a sweat. Why do I keep having these dreams? It was really scaring me because I didn't know what it meant at this point. I felt the pain in my back from last night. I got up and went into the shower. I let the water hit my bruised skin. The pain was almost unbearable. It's scary how much pain Kendall put me through and that I miss him. How can I miss someone that hurt me this way? I got out of the shower and looked in the mirror. My lower half looks like I was in a car accident or jumped. I wasn't sure how to hide this. If I go to school I would risk getting caught. I stumble on the word "caught" like I did something bad. I got dressed and even that was painful. I put on my black leggings and a cheetah print top with a cardigan. I decided I would skip school and go somewhere. That way I don't get caught by my parents and no one from school. I also wanted to avoid Jamie. My parents wouldn't let me stay home again since I missed so much school this year from Kendall. I debated on if I should call Kendall or not. I think it probably would be a good idea for a break from him.

My phone rang and I answered it. "Hello?" I asked knowing it was Sabrina.

"Hey Row, You never texted me back." My best friend's voice fills my room.

"Sorry. I got home late and crashed so I had to take a shower this morning."

"Do you want me to come over? Is Kendall picking you up?" Sabrina asked me.

"Actually, Kendall and I are ditching for the day." I lied because there was no way she would believe me if I said it was just me.

"What? You wouldn't." She laughed.

"I have before." I referred to the time we stopped being friends and the era we don't speak of.

"Oh yeah, I forgot." She said softly

"I'll call you tomorrow." I said and we hang up.

Now I would actually have to call Kendall so he didn't show up at school. I guess I was seeing him today, I grabbed my bag and I walked to the front door. I almost made it before I was stopped by my parents.

"Where are you going?" My mom asks.

"School!" I lied trying to leave.

"I'll drive you just wait." My dad offered.

"Guys I have a ride." I was annoyed so I kept it short. He didn't notice.

"Who?" She asks me.

"Kendall, We are going to meet at the donut shop down the street and then he was going to take us to school." I was a good liar.

"Okay. Have fun honey." My dad walks over and kisses my head then my mom hugged me. I felt really guilty in that moment.

I walked out of the apartment and the door opened after I closed it. "Where are you going?" I heard from behind me.

"To meet up with Kendall." I said turning around to meet my brother's concerned look.

"After what happened last night?" Jamie said crossing his arms. Josh walked out to us and I sighed knowing it was not a good sign.

"Yes it was a fight not a breakup." I said looking at my uncle.

"You said you were going to take a break! You haven't even thought about it. You're just running back to him after something bad clearly happened but you won't tell me." Jamie shouted and Josh looked at the both of us.

"Jamie, I can look out for myself." I just want him to drop it I looked over at Josh for some help.

"I don't think you can." Josh admitted trying to back up Jamie.

"Leave me alone!" I yelled walking out.

Josh's POV

I watched my niece leave the house and saw the hurt look on Jamie's face. He was really beating himself up over all of this. Rowan was going through a lot with Kendall. I didn't know what was going on exactly but I knew pieces and she had the whole family worried. I wish I could do more. I felt bad I didn't help much but I knew she wasn't going to listen. I wanted Jamie to know I had his back.

"I'm sorry Jame." I said rubbing Jamie's shoulder.

"I don't know how she can be this stupid." He said out of worry. He knew she was smarter than this.

"You have to give her time and space to make her own decisions. She wants to be with him then she will fight us to the earth to be with him." I ease his pain.

"I know that you're probably right for some reason I can't understand but she's my little sister and I can't watch her make a mistake. It's my job to watch out for her." Jamie said looking at me. I understood what he was feeling. "I won't let her down."

Jamie left for school and I went to meet up with Sabrina.

"Hey hot stuff." I heard from behind me.

"Hey!" I smiled looking at the gorgeous blonde standing next to me. I kissed her lips.

"I will never get use to that." She giggled after we pulled away.

Rowan's POV

I got outside after dealing with my brother and uncle. I didn't want to hurt my brother like that but he was going to ruin it all if he didn't let me go. He just needed to mind his own business. I dialed Kendall's number looking for him. I didn't know if I was ready to see him but I was feeling really weak I needed to relax and rest. Instead of being at school.

"Hello?" An unfamiliar voice answered and it made my stomach churn.

"Who is this?" I asked.

"Kendall's Mom." I breathed in relief.

"Can I talk to him?" I asked her.

"Sure." She hands the phone to Kendall.

"Yes?" Kendall answers.

"It's me." I gulped hoping his mood changed.

"Hi." He says shamefully.

"Can we meet up?" I asked him quietly.

"Of course." He smiled.

Kendall picked me up twenty minutes later and I took a deep breath before getting into the car. I looked at him for a second before loosing it and he watched me break down.

"How could you just leave me there like that?" I cried looking for his motive.

"I don't know." Kendall breathed trying to hold back tears. "I-I got scared. I saw you laying there I thought I killed you." He took a deep breath.

"You just walked away."

"I know." He looked down at my knees.

"I can't keep doing this Kendall." I said fearing my life. "The next time it happens. Don't call me." I was bold and I was serious this time.

"It won't." He took my hand into his. "All I want is you."

I felt safer knowing that if he touched me again things would be over. I hope it doesn't happen again, maybe it will motivate him not to. We went to his house after his Mom left. I would have rather her stay. I felt safer knowing she was around. I sat on his bed and fell asleep.

"Rowan?" Kendall said shaking me.

I fliched. "Yeah?" I snapped out of it and woke up. "What time is it?"

"11 am." He said. "You were sleeping for two hours."

We sat up and he got me something to eat. I was starving. I didn't eat much lately, I was usually in pain or he was making me diet. I ate a small snack and then we put on a movie to watch and we cuddled. It was nice laying in his arms. It was nice not fighting. He leaned over and kissed me. I blushed.

"What was that for?" I asked my boyfriend.

"It's for being so in love with you." He teared up. "Your heart is so full and I love the way you have it in you heart to accept me and us." Kendall was so sweet, his heart was so open when it came to me. He always knew the right thing to say.

"I love you so much." I laughed and kissed him.

He held my face and I ran my fingers through his hair. He kissed me and I deepened it.

Kendall sucked my neck rubbing his hand on my breast. I moaned and he took off his shirt. I ran my hands against his abs. He looked so sexy. We smiled and he unbuttoned my top. I sat up and gently removed my bra so it wouldn't hurt my back too much. I laid back and he kissed my breast and placed kisses down my body. It felt really good. Kendall undid his belt and took off his pants and I got nervous. He came back to me and started kissing me but rougher. As if he was hungry and I was the food. I started getting flashing images of my previous dreams and I panicked.

"Stop." I whispered. On top of the mental images in my head I felt sick to my stomach.

"What? No!" He yelled. This was the third time this happened. I was scared that he wouldn't be as forgiving the third time around.

"Please!" I cried.

I started feeling sicker. I rolled over and got sick all over the bed. He got up and rubbed my back. It yelped as I was still in pain.

"Sorry!" He said apologizing when he realized he touched my bruised back.

I wiped my mouth and sighed before getting sick again.