Lucas' POV
I was speechless I looked at the girl I loved telling me the answers to the questions I've had this whole time. I didn't like the answers. I wanted Kendall's head for this. I knew he was terrible but rape? How can someone be so disgusting. I didn't know what to say so I held her in my arms and rocked her. This whole thing must be so difficult. I don't know where her strength came from but Rowan was the strongest person I've ever known. To go through this while carrying a child. I couldn't believe she had been going through this all alone. I wouldn't let her do that again.
"I'm so sorry Row." I whispered in her ear as she cried.
"Thank you." She said pulling away. "I just don't know what to do."
"We should report him to the police. He needs to be accountable for his actions." I thought about how much I would love to see this horrible human being get jail time.
"No Lucas, I'm not ready for all that." Rowan sighed. "I'm not ready for everyone to know about the rape and the baby."
"I understand that, I do but he can't just get away with it." I looked in her sad eyes.
She nodded. "I know that but I don't want to go through this anymore."
"I know you don't but you're going through it and your body has been through a lot. You need to see a doctor and tell your parents." I suggested knowing it wouldn't be easy trying to convince her.
"I can't tell them. I'm so scared." Rowan pleaded for my silence. I didn't plan on telling anyone what she told me but I'm not going to sit here and not suggest her to do so.
"Why are you scared to tell them?" I wondered knowing Cory and Topanga aren't heartless. She wasn't going to get in trouble for being raped.
"If I tell them it makes everything real." She looked down.
"It already is real." I looked at her small stomach. It's not like I could tell unless I suspected something but it was still happening. "Sooner or later it's going to get out and wouldn't you rather them find out from you?"
"I guess so. I never really thought about it." Rowan admitted it had been to hard to think about how her parents would react. "I can't deal with the stares I'm going to get Lucas." She cried. "What if no one believes me?"
"You're not somebody else's opinion of you." I wanted her to see past the judgement of others and do what she thinks is right. "All that matters is we know the truth."
"It's scary, being in a world where I can tell my truth and have no one believe a word. Kendall made me his girlfriend so it would make me look like a liar if I went to the police." She sobbed. It broke my heart to see her like this.
I took her hand. "I won't ever let you have to go through this alone again." I was serious, I wasn't her boyfriend or the father of her child but I don't care about that.
Rowan's POV
I was so scared of all of this coming out but Lucas was so understanding. I knew it was important for the truth to come out but I was still nervous. I already have people in my family looking at me differently for knowing about the abuse. I never wanted my parents to look at me like that, like I was some tragic little victim. I was so much more than who Kendall his made me be. I wanted to be this strong person people keep saying I am but it's so hard to be strong. Lucas called Jamie and told him I was safe and I dialed my mom's number. She was so relieved to hear from me even thought she was angry I skipped school. I didn't have the strength yet to tell her the truth and especially not over the phone. So I told her I found out Kendall was lying to me so we broke up and Lucas took me to have a day off from school. She believed me.
"Are you sure you don't want to go to the police?" Lucas asked me again after I got off the phone.
"Yes. I'm not ready to go through that. I'm still healing and it's a process. It's all I can handle right now." He understood me even if he wanted something different and that meant a lot.
"Let's get you home." Lucas half smiled to cheer me up.
Lucas didn't treat me so differently like I had thought he would. It went with me feeling somehow better than I did before. I was going home to my brother's questions and I knew he deserved the answers too. I think the truth might set me free. I think I'm ready to finally talk to my brother.
Sabrina's POV
Josh and I waited for Shawn to pick us up. Cory and Topanga took Jamie home to wait for Rowan while they went out to look for her. Shawn was going to join them after dropping us off at my house in case Rowan showed up here. I was so worried and was seconds away from telling them how dangerous Kendall was. I called Lucas and he didn't answer. Jamie had it in his head that Lucas was going to Kendall's house. I hoped he found her safe.
"She'll be okay." Josh snapped me out of my own head.
"I hope so." I sighed, leaning my head on his shoulder. "I feel bad that we didn't call the police or tell her parents the full story."
"We don't have the full story and we will do what it takes to find her if she doesn't get back to us." He squeezed my hand. "I promise." Josh stood up when Shawn showed up.
"Did you hear anything?" I asked Shawn.
He shook his head. "Not yet. I'm sorry guys, I'm sure she's fine." Shawn tried to comfort us through his worry.
We got in the car and headed to my house. The only reason I didn't call the police yet was because we haven't heard from Lucas. I kept trying to reach him but it went to voicemail every time. I knew Topanga and Cory were heading to Kendall's house once they dropped off Jamie and checked to see if she was home yet. I was afraid of what they would find. I had never seen Shawn so worried even though he was hiding it pretty well. It was obvious and it made me uneasy.
"Hello?" Josh said answering his phone.
"Who is it?" I said anxiously.
He waved his arm. "Really?" Josh smiled. "Good! Let me know how it goes."
"What?!" Shawn and I both said as Josh got off the phone.
"Good new! Lucas called Jamie and Rowan's been with him." Josh smiled at me.
"That's amazing!" Shawn said relieved.
"She's okay?" I asked feeling relieved but worried.
"From what I heard she's fine and she called my brother and told him she was with Lucas all day." Josh gave me a look.
Rowan was not with Lucas today but at least she's safe and we can go to her parents with the truth after. All that matters is her safety and I won't let this happen again. Josh and Jamie probably won't let her out of their sight ever again. I wanted to talk to her and find out why she went with Kendall. I figured she was in a lot of trouble so I would have to sneak into her room and talk to her. Shawn took us to get something to eat before dropping us off at the Matthew's house. I was so excited to hug my best friend and know she was okay with my own eyes.
"Before we go inside, I just want you to know that I adore your big heart." Josh said placing a kiss on my lips.
I pulled away. "I adore yours." I giggled and kissed him again.
"Let's go check on our girl." We went inside hand in hand.
Author's Note:
I want to tell this story as authentically as I can and after researching everything myself. I heavily researched abortion and hearing woman speak about it. It's a lot different then I assumed it would be. I will fight to ends earth to make sure woman have a right to their own body and own decisions. I think any woman that goes through that is so strong. As for this story, I don't think I can write that story line correctly. I don't want to make people uncomfortable for my lack of knowledge. I'm leaning towards miscarriage or keeping the baby. I'm trying to to go with what the majority would like to see but at the same time keeping true to the characters I've written and figuring how what Rowan would actually do.
Miscarriage she would be loosing control which I agree is not what she needs but she can also relate to her mom on it and they can build a bond from it.
I would like to know if you would be interested in reading her going through with the pregnancy. I know there wasn't many that suggested it but maybe after this one chapter you might have a different opinion. There's also the possibility of loosing the child at birth. My own parents went through that. It does allow her to gain control before she looses it again. So that's what I'm thinking but please that me know.
PS: No one voted in the poll on my profile and the comments/messages are really torn
