Sabrina's POV
Josh and I walked into the Matthew's house and I saw my best friend on the couch with Lucas. They were relaxing and talking but that stopped when she saw us come in. A smile formed on her face. One that I really needed to see. It was so good to see her face after today. I practically attacked her with love. She was excited to see me and I was surprised to see Lucas still here. I gave him a quick hug after and Josh hugged Rowan.
"Is everything okay?" Josh asked Rowan as we both looked at the worry on Lucas' face.
"I should be going." Lucas blurted out.
"I'll talk to you tomorrow okay?" Rowan said before hugging him tightly.
They pulled away after awhile and Lucas went to get Jamie to take him home. I wondered what had happened today. Lucas and Rowan weren't on the best of terms but now it looks like they were inseparable. I was relieved to see my best friends being close again but the reason made me afraid. Jamie walked out into the living room to take Lucas home and I noticed he was really upset.
"I'll be back in ten. Call me if you need anything." Jamie said rubbing Rowan's back.
"Thanks." She half smiled and Jamie headed out with Lucas.
The way Jamie and Rowan were acting scared me, it was clear something wasn't right. All I wanted was my friends all happy and healthy, I looked at Josh nervously. He kissed my head and it calmed me down a little.
"I'm going to hop in the shower." Josh says looking at us both. "Unless you want to talk Row?" He turned his head to Rowan.
Rowan shook her hug. "No it's okay Josh. We can talk later." She informed him.
Josh hugged Rowan. "Whatever is going on, I'm sorry but just remember you're not alone." She nodded and Josh pecked my cheek.
"We need to have a conversation." Rowan said to me once Josh left.
"What?" I asked her knowing this was it. Whatever it was.
"Alone?" She took my hand and lead me outside of the apartment. We went up to the roof. She didn't want to be interrupted.
"It must be serious huh?" I asked looking at her expression and the fact that she had to take me here.
"Yeah it is." She looked out at the dark sky. "Remember when we use to come up here?" She laughed as we both thought about the good old days of our childhood before life got so complicated.
"Of course I do." I giggled envisioning the memories.
"I'm sorry for everything that's happened with us. The fighting and the pushing you away." Rowan apologized for things I wasn't blaming her for.
"You don't have to be. I understand you had a lot going on and I didn't help by the way I wasn't there for you." We were both feeling sorry.
"I wasn't there for you either. I'm not going to be like that anymore." She looked at me. "Let's be better." She smiled.
"That's sounds nice." I smiled watching her smile fade quickly.
"Good because the thing I needed to talk to you about is that I was raped." Rowan looked at me after admitting the truth of what happened to her and my mouth swung open. There was a moment of quiet and I tried to speak but nothing came out. She was wrestling with what to say next as was I. "And I'm pregnant." She stood there letting a tear fall down her face.
I stood there in shock. I couldn't even think of a word that would make her feel better. I knew this girl as much as I knew myself. This must be breaking her, I felt so awful about it and about everything she went through. The things I had no idea about. I couldn't have predicted any of this. I promised her we would be better and I intend on being much better. I will prove that to my best friend but for now I did all I knew how to do. I held my emotions of worry and anger and just let her cry on my shoulder. We didn't say much but it wasn't what mattered. We're together and nothing will stop us.
Rowan's POV
I woke up the next morning after one of the hardest days of my life. Sabrina and I were up late, staring at the sky. I asked her to go home, I need to be alone for awhile after such a hectic day. I knew she would have more questions once the shock wears off. I fell asleep easier than expected because I was exhausted from all the crying. Thankfully Kendall didn't invade my dreams. I think the honesty really helped my mind heal a little. I had been lying to everyone for so long and it felt good getting it off my chest, even if it was painful. I checked my phone and was relieved to see I didn't have any messages from him. I just wanted him to go away. It was nice seeing the people most important to me not freak out on me. I just hope they don't look at me the way I know everyone else will. My uncle knocked on my door and walked in to check on me.
"Hey." He said causally which made me relieved to see.
"Hi." I half smiled.
"How are you doing?" He asked me.
I hadn't had a chance to talk to Josh about everything but I knew that he knew. "I guess better would be the word." I said looking at my uncle towering over me, with his messy bed head. "I think getting everything out really is helping me heal inside."
"That's good that it helps." I could tell he was speechless and didn't want to say the wrong things.
"You can talk to me you know?" I said being frustrated as he raised his eyebrow. "I can take whatever you say Josh but please just don't walk on egg shells around me." I pleaded for some sanity in my life.
"I'm sorry. I just feel helpless." He apologized.
"I understand but the last thing I want is my family treating me differently." I explained hoping he would adjust to the situation as much as possible.
He nodded. "Have you thought about what your going to do? About the baby?" Josh asked me while trying to keep me from getting upset.
"Somewhat Josh. It's not an easy decision." I sighed thinking about my limited choices and my limited time.
Josh's POV
Ever since I heard the knew about my niece last night I felt like my role as her uncle was being misused. I was battling her by taking Sabrina's side when they fought while she was going through this horrible pain. I was an asshole and so was Jamie. We made a pack not to ever let her down again. Jamie was a wreck last night, he was close to going over there and ringing Kendall's neck but I stopped him. Then he was up crying because he felt so guilty. While I did feel guilty like he did, I understood the fact that I couldn't change the past but the future was unwritten. I was going to protect my niece, my nephew and my girlfriend from any pain. There was already enough to go around for a lifetime. I wanted to help.
I nodded and was trying to think of something else to make her feel better when I noticed her guitar. "You should write the pain away." I suggested, picking up her guitar and handing it to her.
Rowan's POV
I looked at Josh holding my guitar in his hands. I was caught off guard. I took the guitar from him and looked down at it. I thought about what my uncle said write the pain away was a good suggestion. I strummed the cords slowly and looked at Josh as he smiled.
"Maybe I will." I said grabbing my notebook and a pen from my drawer.
"Good." He shook his head and headed for the door. "I'll leave you to it."
"Thanks Josh." I said looking up at him.
He smiled. "Keep your head up kid."
I sat on my bed staring at my notebook, jotting down ideas. After awhile it was coming along everything was pouring out of me. It felt really good putting my pain on paper. It's what I needed to get back to my old self. I knew it would be a long journey but for once I felt a glimmer of hope.
Sabrina's POV
I walked into the Matthew's house with Shawn following behind me. Shawn was going to do something with Cory and I had plans with Rowan. It kinda ruled having your guardian be your best friend's best friend. I walked by Josh's room before I went to Rowan's and saw him laying down. I laid down next to him, cuddling into his arms. Everything going on with Rowan made me realize how lucky I was to have Josh. I never wanted to loose him. We were both really upset over what was happening to Rowan and it made me feel so much closer to him. Just knowing how horrible some guys can be makes me really value what I have.
"I'm so lucky I have someone like you in my life." I said with my head on my boyfriend's chest.
"You're lucky? It's the other way around." He held my hand, smiling.
"I'm serious." I said sitting up and looking at his handsome smile. "I'm so happy with you Josh. The happiest I've ever felt in my entire life." I poured my heart to him.
Josh's face lit up. "I feel the same way Sabrina. I didn't know how happy I could be until now especially with everything going wrong. You're the right." I bent down to kiss his lips.
We pulled away. "I love you Joshua Gabriel Matthews. More than you could ever know." I stared at him after proclaiming my love.
His smile filled the room. "Oh Maya." Josh sat up, cupping my face. "I love you too." He kissed me softly.
Author's Note:
Thank you for reading and there will be a new chapter soon. Please review for chapter 37 Rowan/Lucas stuff coming.
