Trigger warning I decided to go with abortion after I wrote the last chapter so I changed the ending if you wanna go back and reread the ending. If you don't here's what it basically is I researched stuff and since the story is set in New Jersey I will be going with those laws of there not having to be a waiting period to get an abortion like in many states.
Lucas' POV
Rowan and I walked into the clinic she asked if I could sit in and wait with her. The doctor talked to her about how it was going to be done and made sure that she was sure. It was hard watching her be hurting so much. When it was time for her to go back into the room I stayed and waited. She was being sedated and once it kicked in I left and waited. I felt bad like her parents and should be here not me. I was happy to support her, I just didn't feel like I was doing my best. I sighed and looked in my wallet. I went up to the nurses station and I asked if I could pay for the abortion. By the time I was done so was she. I went back and saw her crying. My heart broke.
Rowan's POV
I walked outside and sat in on the curb, hugging my knees. My tear stained face was emotionless. I felt like a zombie, looked up to see Lucas standing there. I had let him come into the room, he knew what happened and he was so distraught for me. It was written all over his face. After it happened I had a panic attack in the room. It was terrifying and it wasn't something I exactly wanted Lucas to see.
"I'm so sorry Rowan." Lucas said trying to comfort me. "I know it was hard but it's over now." He added to make it seem like things would be better now.
"I know." I said not being able to make any eye contact.
It was over but it also had just begun. The pain and the loss, I felt it in the pit of my stomach. It had been about a half hour of sitting there. Lucas respected the fact that I needed time to process. My phone rang and I looked down. It was my brother, I handed the phone to Lucas. I couldn't talk right now. He asked Jamie to pick us up and he agreed, with Lucas sat next to me and we waited. I stared at my feet and placed my hand on my stomach. I shivered, feeling so cold. Jamie picked Lucas and I up from the clinic. I didn't speak a word. I got into the backseat and laid down. I overheard Lucas catching Jamie up on what happened. I couldn't talk about it. I don't know why it was so difficult for me to get out. I know I wanted this. I just didn't know it would be like this. I felt empty. I was empty. I stuck by me not wanting this baby but it didn't make it easier. The pain was bearable but the emotional pain was something I never thought about.
Jamie's POV
I felt so helpless with Rowan. I wish she would've told me she was considering abortion. I would've been by her side. Our parents should've been and I know she needs her time and space to deal with this but it's getting to be too much. My blood boiled with rage over what Kendall had done to her. He took away everything. I wasn't going to let him do anymore. What my sister did was so brave. Choosing an abortion and knowing that her decision was the right one for herself and the child that would have grown into a horrible situation. In that moment I felt so proud of my baby sister. She found the strength inside her to make such a difficult decision. She stopping running and being afraid. I picked up the medication the doctor gave Rowan and then I dropped off Lucas and I drove home. Rowan fell asleep so I carried her up into her room.
Her eyes flutter open. "I'm so sorry." I said once I tucked her in.
"It's okay." It wasn't. She was broken inside and out but it's the start of the rest of her life.
"I want you to know I think what you choose was so brave." I hugged her softly, knowing she was sore.
"It just hurts that I'll never be normal again." She sighed as I pulled away.
"You will have normal one day." I said and I meant it. "It's a rough time now but don't ever stop being you."
"I don't know Jam." She shook her head.
Rowan's POV
I didn't know what normal was and I certainly didn't know who I even was anymore. I lost too much in all of this pain that this year has become. I looked at my brother who was trying his best to make sure I was going to be okay. I was thankful for that I have supportive people in my life but I don't know if I'll be okay with anything that's happened.
"I promise you that you'll have your normal one day." He rubbed my head.
"I'll never be about to have my first time with someone I trust and love." I thought about everything Kendall took away from me and it made me feel weaker.
"You didn't loose your first time." Jamie stated sternly. "You were raped and it doesn't count. It wasn't your choice."
It wasn't my choice those words rang in my head over and over again. My brother was right and I needed to believe it.
For now on my choices had to be mine and that started with today.
Topanga's POV
I walked to my daughter's room to see if she wanted to run to the store with me. I wanted to spend more time with her she has been so distant lately. I want her to feel comfortable coming to me and Cory. I noticed she was in the shower. I started cleaning up Rowan's room, I normally don't but I knew she wasn't feeling good so I decided she would appreciate it. I went to put away a pair of socks when I felt a piece of plastic in her sock drawer. I picked it up and my eyes widened. A pregnancy test? I gulped seeing the word pregnant. No, I thought. It explained a lot of the moodiness and the skipping school because she was sick. I couldn't fathom it, she was still my baby she can't be having one. I heard the shower shut off and I put the test back, closing the sock drawer. I left her room before she walked out and I walked into my bedroom. I was pacing back and fourth wondering if I should talk to her before I talked to Cory.
"What's going on dear?" Cory asked as he entered our room.
I stopped pacing and fell onto the bed. "I'm freaking out." I sighed.
"Why?" He came over to me.
"Don't freak out." I warned him.
"I can't promise you that." He put his hands up like a goofball.
I rolled my eyes. "This is serious Cor."
"I'm sorry." He said apologizing for not taking me more serious.
I took a breath. "I found a pregnancy test in Rowan's room." I looked at Cory almost bearing tears.
He froze. "W-hat." Cory manged to say.
"I don't know anything else except it said pregnant and I think that's why she's been acting out lately." I explained to my husband who's face was still covered in shock.
"I-I don't know what to say." He was getting emotional as was I.
We both talked for awhile about what we were going to do. We were extremely angry at our daughter for being irresponsible and at ourselves for not paying close attention to her. I wanted to kick Kendall's ass for getting my baby pregnant. Cory and I were way more heartbroken than angry. The plan was to offer her support but also let her know that she was to be responsible for her child. That meant getting a job and helping support her family. It was hard for me to grasp how hard it was for me to get pregnant and loosing a baby just for her to get pregnant so young. Why is that fair and why did this have to happen. Cory and I were a wreck.
Author's Note:
I'm sorry I've been I had to think about the future direction of this story and it takes time to plan that stuff out. Next chapter is written review if you want it.
