Josh's POV

It was the best feeling to have everything off my chest and having Sabrina be there for me. She's the most special girl in the whole wide. I felt so lucky that she choice to love me. I intended on doing everything I can to make her feel as loved as she has made me feel today. I wanted her to know how much I her unconditional love and kindness means to me.

"It means everything to me that you've accepted me for me." I said with tears in my eyes as I held Sabrina's hands. "I've been in very a dark place for a long time and you've always been a light in all of it Sabrina."

She smiled through tears. "You have no idea how happy I am to be that person for you." I wiped her eyes.

"I'm sorry I could never give you all of me." I looked into her soft, beautiful, big blue eyes. "I was so weighed down with my pain and my secrets. I felt so heavy." I explained to my girlfriend as she nodded her head. "That conversation we had this morning was one of the hardest things I've ever had to say." I exhaled. "It's not easy for me to open up like that. I've gone through a lot in my life and I never had anyone to share my pain with before."

"Josh I want to be that person you share everything with. The good, the bad and everything in between." She said as she looked into my eyes and kissed me.

I kissed her and couldn't stop smiling. "Suddenly I don't feel so heavy anymore." She smiled and rested her head on my shoulder.

Sabrina's POV

It was a really intense day but I was so happy to finally emotionally connect with Josh on that level. He was finally trusting me that way I trusted him when he was there for me after my mom left. It's going to make us so much stronger. My heart ached for and seeing him be in pain but I was so happy he saw me as his light in the hardest times. I felt that way about him. After Josh left I walked into the kitchen to find Shawn waiting for me.

"When did you get home?" I asked him, realizing he probably knew I skipped school.

"A few minutes ago." He pulled the chair out for me to sit down with him. "So do you want to tell me why I got a call from Cory saying you weren't in school today?"

I sat down and sighed. "Do you trust me?" I asked him.

"You know I do kiddo." Shawn looked at me.

"Then please don't ask me why." I looked at him and I could tell he saw all the emotions going through in my head all over my face. "I needed today it wasn't about me but it was more important than anything else."

Shawn nodded. ""I get it you get a pass this one time but don't let it happen again." He patted my back.

"It won't I promise." It was a great feeling that Shawn trusted me at my word. That kind of trust is something I never want to lose.

"Hungry?" He smiled, holding up a take out menu.

"Please! I'm starving." I laughed.

"Okay but over dinner we have to discuss your birthday plans." Shawn reminded me.

A big smile appeared on my face. Things were really falling into place in my life and I was so happy.

Jamie's POV

I waited so long in the parking lot after school for my sister but she didn't show. I drove home after a while and decided to wait for her there. I didn't want to overwhelm her but I was running out of things to say. I've tried so hard to be there for her but I didn't know how to help her. I wish I did. My mind was racing. I sat on the couch as Josh walked in.

"Hey man." Josh says at he sits down next to me. "Where is everyone?"

I shrugged. "Hey are you alright?" I asked him knowing he missed school.

He nodded. "Yeah nothing to worry about I needed a day to figure out some stuff with Sabrina." I noticed he didn't really want to talk about it.

"Have you seen Rowan?" I asked him to change the subject.

"No I haven't. How is she doing?" Josh questioned me.

"Not good." I sighed as Josh looked at me with concern. "I feel like we're losing her." I said honestly.

"She's dealing with so much Jamie but she's still Rowan." Josh looked at me. "We'll get her back."

It was scaring me, the thought of losing her. There was already so much of her gone from what Kendall did to her but I couldn't watch her completely disappear. I missed my baby sister.

Rowan's POV

I sat outside on the cold bench across from my house with no jacket in February. I spent all night walking around till my feet hurt. I didn't want to be there with my family. I couldn't take another day pretending to be happy when I was miserable. It's exhausting to pretend when all you want to do is lay in bed. I didn't want to be constantly asked about how I'm doing when no one understands when I tell them how empty I feel.

"Hey." Josh said softly as he sat down next to me. I didn't expect to see him here of all people.

"Hi." I replied with no emotion.

He looked over at me. "Aren't you freezing out here?" I could tell he was concerned. "It's dark. Please come inside." Josh pleaded.

"I'm fine." I turned my head away.

"Talk to me please?" He asked with worry in his voice. "You can't shut everyone out."

I exhaled deeply. "No one understands Josh." I shivered, Josh took off his jacket it and handed it to me. "Thanks." I put it on.

"I know it's hard to talk about it but I'm a really good listener." I looked at Josh as he tried to make an effort to find out what was going on with me.

"I feel empty." I looked at my uncle. "I know the decisions I've made were right for me. The abortion was necessary and I don't regret it." I said sternly. "But I feel like I lost something and I can't fathom that pain because I chose this." I held back tears.

Josh's face softened. "You're grieving." He looked at me with pain in his eyes.

"Grieving? How can I grieve something I chose? How can I be allowed to grieve?" I asked as the tears fell from my face.

"It doesn't matter if it was your choice Row." He reached out for my hand and held it to comfort me. "Grief is losing someone and you lost something." Josh explained. "It's okay to be sad about it." He validated my feelings.

"How do I move on from this?" I asked him as the tears flowed down my face.

"You can't escape grief but you can get stronger and it'll get easier." Josh put his arm around me. "You will get through this."

"I don't think I can. This pain is unbearable." I felt so weak.

"You know I can't imagine the pain you're dealing with from everything you were put through this past year." He looked at me. "I know what losing a child is like and it's the worst pain you can't even imagine." I looked at my uncle's face as tears fell. "I know that you weren't sure about keeping the baby but you still lost something and beyond just that."

"You lost a baby?" My heart fell.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you especially after your abortion I wasn't ready but I am now. You're not alone in your pain Rowan." He explained to me.

I couldn't believe Josh had a baby. That he lost a baby. He knew what I was going through. I realized I had someone I wasn't alone anymore.