Rowan's POV

Josh and I talked for awhile about his son. I felt so horrible for him. It was dark what he went through. I knew what darkness can do to you. I didn't want to keep losing myself. It really gave me some perspective on the world. We all have pain in our lives. Some worse that other but pain is pain. I didn't want this pain to consume me anymore. I wanted to get better for myself and for my family. I know things will never be the way it was before Kendall came into my life but I wanted to take my life back.

"I'm sorry for the way I've been acting." I apologized to Josh. "I'm going to try harder."

He shook his head. "You have nothing to be sorry for." My uncle squeezed my hand. "We all understand."

"Do you think I have the ability to live a normal life as a regular teenager again?" I asked him, wondering if it was even possible.

He pondered. "No probably not the way you want to." Josh said honestly, I looked down. "When you go through hell and make it back on the other side you gain life experience that ages you way beyond the rest of of your peers." He was right. "You can do so much good with your experience and pain."

"I don't want it to be like this." I sighed, thinking about how much I wanted to be normal.

"I know you don't but you have to take those experiences and use it to help other girls who have been in your position." Josh looked at me with hope.

"I can hardly talk to you about this how could I help anyone?" I asked him, not understanding how he can see so much potential in me that I didn't.

"How did you feel when I told you about Julian?" He asked me. I knew it wasn't easy for him to say that.

"I felt like you understood me. I felt like I wasn't alone anymore." I stated, everything clicked.

"Exactly. My pain and my story helped you feel something." Josh smiled at me. "If I can do that for you imagine what you could do for other girls."

I didn't know if I was brave enough to tell my story but Josh believing in me meant a lot. I wanted to help other girls.

Sabrina's POV

I walked downstairs on the morning of my sixteenth birthday. I wasn't expecting anything but Shawn making us breakfast but as I walked into the kitchen I saw my best friend sitting with my boyfriend at the kitchen table. I smiled big and saw a ton of food from waffles, eggs, bacon, sausage and the stack of pancakes on the table and Shawn came from behind me with balloons and a few wrapped gifts. This was all I wanted. I could almost cry at the sight I was seeing. I walked towards them and they all greeted me with so much love.

"Happy Birthday Sabrina!" Rowan said with a huge smile on her face as she hugged me tightly.

"Thank you." I nearly choked up seeing her smile. Seeing Rowan smile was the best gift I could ever receive. She still smiles but not that famous smile she gave when she was so happy and excited. It was like she was a kid on Christmas morning when you saw her smile like this. I missed this so much.

She let go and before I could turn around Josh gave me the biggest hug. "Happy Birthday pretty girl." He let me go and smiled before kissing me, passionately.

"Alright enough of that." Shawn chuckled as he interrupted our kiss. "Happy Birthday Sabrina." He gave me a hug. I felt so loved.

I put the gifts in the living room and we all sat down to eat the giant breakfast and then I got ready for a small party. It wasn't anything big, just the people important to me.

"How's being sixteen feel? What's it like?" Rowan asked with a giggle, handing me the present she picked out for me.

I smiled sweetly. "It's great." I unwrapped the gift and opened the small periwinkle box.

It was two heart necklaces, best friend necklaces.

I looked at her softly. "I'll never take this off. I love it." I pulled my best friend in for a big hug.

"I'm so glad you love it." She pulled away. "I'm going to do better Sabrina. You don't have to worry anymore." There were a couple tears in her eyes.

I wiped away her tears. " I will always worry about you. That's apart of being best friends." I took her necklace and she turned around so I could put it on her and she did the same for me. "We are in this together. All of us and we'll be here for each other in the good and the bad times."

"That makes me feel so good." We smiled.

Josh came over and asked me for a dance. We put on some music and danced although no one else was dancing we really didn't care. I loved that about him. He didn't care what anyone else thought. We could be so genuinely ourselves with one another. I loved this boy.

"I have something special for you." He whispered in my ear, softly.

"What?" I asked, excited and anxious.

"Come with me." He took my hand and lead me to my room.

"Tell me already!" I laughed.

"Close your eyes." He asks, I closed my eyes and waited. "Okay open."

Josh stood in front of me with a guitar. "I wrote you a song." He started playing as my heart flooded with so much love.

"Take my hands tonight. We can run so far. We can change the world to anything we want. We can talk for hours just staring at the stars. They shine down to show us. That you know when the sun forgets to shine. I'll be there to hold you through the night, and we'll be running so fast we can fly tonight, and even when we're miles and miles apart. You're still holding all of my heart I promise it will never be dark I know we're inseparable."

I watched my boyfriend sing to me these beautiful lyrics that he wrote for me. I was in disbelief and I couldn't stop crying and smiling at the same time.

"I would give it up to never let you fall because you know we're inseparable. I would give it all just to show you I'm in love, yeah you know we're inseparable that you know when the sun forgets to shine. I'll be there to hold you through the night and we'll be running so fast we can fly tonight and even when we're miles and miles apart.
You're still holding all of my heart I promise it will never be dark. I know we're inseparable"

"Josh I don't know what to say." I was speechless.

He removed the guitar and put it on the bed. "I love you Sabrina and I hope you know how deeply I care about you." He reached his hands out for me.

"Of course I do." I took his hands and pulled him up, we kissed. "I love you."

My Birthday was great. Josh's song was the most special thing I've ever gotten and I'm so happy. Today made up for so many bad ones. Rowan always did things for me for my birthday but I never got to have a birthday party like this one. The kind of birthday where you feel special not just to my best friend but to so many people I love. I got to spend the day happy with my self made family. My best friends, my boyfriend and Shawn. That's what mattered to me. It's everything I wanted but a part of me was in pain knowing my mom was out there knowing what today is and didn't even pick up the phone. That will be a hole that I will always have in my life. I didn't let it ruin my day.


Author's Note: This song is by the jonas brothers