Sabrina's POV

Once everyone went home from my party, I took Josh upstairs to my room. The timing was perfect. Shawn was out with Corey and Topanga. We had a few hours to ourselves. I was nervous but it was good nerves.

"Turn around." I say to Josh as we entered my bedroom.

"What?" He chuckled, confused.

"Just do it please." I laughed sternly.

"Okay silly." He turned around.

I took off my shirt and then my skirt, tossing it across the room. "You can turn around now." I stood directly behind him in my bra and underwear.

He looked at me, surprised. "You look amazing Sabrina." Josh was speechless.

I blushed. "Thank you." I walked over to him, unzipping his pants.

He took off his shirt and jeans. "Are you ready for this?" He questioned me before doing anything else.

I smiled. "I've waited for this moment for so long." I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him down for a kiss.

He picked me up and brought me to the bed. I sat on his lap and we made out for a while until I couldn't take it anymore and I needed him. I undid my bra and I laid back and Josh hovered over top of me. I looked at him with love in my eyes.

He stroked my hair. "You're so beautiful." I smiled, he kissed me passionately. Josh placed kisses down my body as he reached my sweet spot, I moaned softly. "Are you sure you're okay with this?" Josh asked before he took off my underwear.

I smiled sweetly. "I'm sure." He took them off.

He moved between my legs and slowly slipped his member inside of me. I was nervous but in a good way. I felt so safe with Josh. I adjusted my back in discomfort as it was a little painful. He saw the look on my face and went very slow. Josh was so gentle with me, he kissed my forehead. The pain subsided and it started to feel better. He picked up the pace after he make sure that I adjusted. He looked into my eyes with so much passion as he kept pushing deeper into me. The pleasurable was so intense. It felt like the whole world had stop and it was just the two of us, as we both reached our climaxes together.

"I love you Josh." I whispered in his ear, in his arms.

He kissed my head. "I love you so much." Josh said softly, I buried my head into his chest.


We woke up the next morning, my eye widened. "Josh!" I said frantically. We didn't mean to fell asleep.

His eyes fluttered open. "Huh?" He said, groggy.

"Wake up!" I shouted, he sat up and stretched his arms. "We fell asleep." I looked at the clock. "It's 10."

Josh rushed out of bed. "Shawn and Cory are going to kill me." He got dressed as if he had super speed.

"Maybe they won't notice." I said optimistically, helping him gather items.

"In what world." Josh put his shoes on and walked over to me.

"I love you gorgeous girl." Josh placed a soft kiss on my lips.

"I love you too." I said warmly. "Last night was really great Josh and I've never felt so close to you."

"It was wonderful and so are you Sabrina." He smiled and kissed me passionately, before leaving.

The amount of happiness I'm feeling from last night is undescribable. It hurt at first but Josh made me feel so calm and safe.

I went downstairs once I was dressed. Shawn must have still been sleeping. I made a bowl of cinnamon toast crunch and sat at the table. I got so lucky Shawn didn't walk in out us last night.

"Good morning." Shawn said softly, walking into the kitchen. He was suffering.

"Good morning?" I looked at him, confused. "Are you okay?"

Shawn sat down next to me. "Too many drinks last night. Don't drink." He groaned.

I stood up and grabbed him some advil, water and heated him up a leftover patty melt. "Here you go." I handed Shawn the medicine.

He looked up. "Thank you." Shawn took it.

"I'm use to it from when my mom did it." I said uncomfortably.

His face softened. "I'm sorry Sabrina. I don't do this a lot." He said, worried about me. "Cory and I got carried away last night. Well I did." I could hear the remorse in his voice.

"It's fine." I said, it wasn't easy. "I know you aren't her but it brings up memories. Ones I don't like to think about."

"I know how hard it is." We had a lot in common.

I gave him his food and he suggested I go hangout with Rowan. I got ready and headed to her house.


Rowan's POV

I sat on my bed writing lyrics. I was inspired. Things were changing. Before I could finish the song there was a knock on my window. I glanced over and saw Sabrina. She climbed through and sat at the bay window. I smiled big and got up to sit next to her.

"Hey Row." She had a look on her face that I couldn't make out. She hugged me.

"What's going on?" I questioned the look on her face as she pulled away.

She laughed at the fact that I knew her so well. "Last night after my birthday party. Josh and I had sex." Sabrina said with a smile.

I was shocked. "Wow that's big sab." I looked at Sabrina, worried how she was feeling.

"I know but I felt like I was ready." She said confidently about her choice.

"How was it?" I asked before realizing that I didn't want to hear details about my uncle's sex life. "Not how was it because that's my uncle, gross." We laughed. "But how are you?" I asked her.

"I'm really great." She said smiling. "He treated me very nicely and I feel really happy." Sabrina glowed.

I smiled. "I'm happy for you." I hugged her.

My best friend took a really big step today. I was happy for her but just hope she knows what she's doing and I hope Josh does too. I was confident that they did.


We ordered a pizza and put on a movie. It was really nice spending time with Sabrina. I needed some time alone with my best friend. We don't get much of that anymore but it reminds me that not everything has to be so bad. Things can be good. We can have fun and I can feel normal.

"So what happened with you and Lucas last night?" She wondered.

I sighed. "Last night I apologized to him for everything and he was so understanding."

"Then why are you upset?" She caught the tone in my voice

"I told him that I was sorry for taking so long to see him and I wanted to tell him so much more but it couldn't come out." I described to Sabrina.

She grabbed my hand. "I'm proud of you for opening up to him." Sabrina stated.

"I just want more." I said not really knowing what that meant.

"More like you want to be more than friends?" She asked me, wondering.

"I don't know. I don't know if I'm ready for something more." I paused. "But I want it."

Sabrina smiled softly. "It's not going to be easy but if you want something more with Lucas than you should go for it. If you wait till you feel ready than you'll never be ready."

"What if I screw it up? Our friendship. I can't lose him Sab." I said with fear, my eyes watered.

She tightened her grip. "That will never happen. Lucas has always been there for you and that will never change." Sabrina reassured me.

I looked at her tears in my eyes. "Why couldn't I let myself go there with him before all of these bad things happened to me." I cried.

"It's not fair I know it's not but you will get through it all. I know you will because you have." She pulled me into her arms.

"Thank you for always knowing what to say." I calmed down.

"It's what I'm here for." She said comforting me.


Author's Note:

It's my Birthday!