Sabrina's POV

"What is it?" I said anxiously waiting for Josh's answer.

"As you know my parent's brought up the idea that they want me to go to the same college my brother went to. I had a lot of options and I got a couple of acceptances." Josh looked at me.

"I'm proud of you. I know you worked really hard." I smiled slightly at him but inside I felt like I was going to scream if he didn't spit it out already.

"Leaving home was a thing that made me become a better person. I don't want to go back there."

"Does that mean you're staying?"

"I decided to go to Stockton." He said with a smile.

"That's amazing!" I yelled in excitement.

"It's not a far car ride away so I should be home a lot on the weekends and special occasions." He explained.

"What made you choose to go there?." I worried that I was the reason he wasn't going somewhere else.

"It has a lot of interesting things to offer for my future and I wanted to be close to you and close to my family. This feels like the right place for me."

"Then I'm excited for you." I kissed him.

We spent the night celebrating the boy I loved. It felt really good knowing that we wouldn't really have to do the long distance thing very much. I got the weekends with my boy and the rest of the summer. This was a good thing for the both of us. We went and found our friends later on. Rowan told us her big news and Josh told them his news. Everyone was so excited and I was really happy for everyone. Though parts of me felt sad seeing things changing. It was the first time I wasn't going to spend the summer with my best friend ever. Lucas isn't going to want to spend the next couple months being a third wheel. I know him too well. I expected us all to have all these adventures this summer together especially since Josh is going to be around less next year. It was now just going to be Josh and I this summer.


I walked into my living room to look for my bag. I was going to go shopping with Rowan and her mom to get her ready for the big trip. I wanted to fit in as much time as we could before she leaves. On the cough I saw Shawn sitting there waiting for me. It was bringing up a lot of things for me. The look on his face made my stomach knot and I felt fear filling my body as so many possibilities filled my mind.

*Flashback*

"I'm home!" I said walking into my house with my backpack on.

Shawn sat on the stairs with his head in his hands. I dropped my bag and went over to him.

"Dad?" I placed my hand on his arm. I had just recently started calling him dad.

He looked up at me with teary eyes. My heart pounded.

"Hey kiddo." He whispered with a broken voice.

"What happened?" I teared up seeing his face. My body was shaking.

"You mom and I broke up, honey." Those words were something I was scared to hear since the day they started dating.

"What why?" I said in fear of what this meant.

"I don't want to get into the details of it all." He looked at me with these sad eyes.

"She messed up didn't she?" I asked him.

He never answered but I knew. We sat there for while both knowing this meant he wouldn't be in my life anymore. We were both scared. There wasn't anything we could do about it. This time he's been around for my mom and I have been the best year and a half of our lives. It was special and I felt like I had a dad and a family but I was losing everything again.

"Shawn?" I asked him, worried.

"Hey Sab. Why don't you sit down? I need to talk to you." He said seriously and I knew it was about what I saw the other day.

"I'm scared, please tell me." I stood there frozen.

"Sabrina when I moved in here and decided to foster you, I mentioned that I wanted to adopt you." Shawn reminds me with a grin. "I've met with your case worker and started the process of adopting you."

"Really?" I smiled hopefully.

"Yeah but there's been a slight issue." He sighed.

"What?" I said as I felt the fear rising again.

"Your birth father is contessing it."

My fear turned into hot anger quickly. I clenched my fist and took a deep breath to calm down. Shawn looked at me and I knew he understood what I was feeling.

"Are you kidding me? My father? The guy who left us and ruined my entire family?" My blood boiled.

"I know you're upset. I would be too. He wants to talk to you."

"He wants to talk to me? Why would I ever entertain that?"

"It's the only way he'll change his mind."

"So what am I supposed to do to face that man? He left me Shawn. He's the cause of everything bad that has ever happened to my mom and to me. I can't do this." I wanted to cry and scream.

"I know you don't think that you can but it's possible. I believe that you can because I've been there and I think it'll make you feel a lot less angry and in pain."

"I really don't want to do this Shawn please don't make me." I begged him.

"Then you don't have to. I would never make you do that." He hugged me.

"What happens if I don't?" I asked scared about losing him again.

"Things just stay the way that it is right now. Nothing has to change but if you change your mind you let me know."

Shawn's POV

I looked into the eyes of this little girl hurting in front of me. I was so angry along with her. I wanted with everything in me to make things right and better for her. I know that adopting Sabrina is the right thing but if she doesn't want to face her birth father I understand it. The second hardest thing I've ever done was face my father when he died it mess me up for while. The hardest thing I've ever done though was walking away from Sabrina when Katy broke my heart. I saw myself being left again after I left that night. It took me a year to get my life back together after that.

My mind took me back to the day I had to say goodbye to her for a long time.

"Does this mean I don't have a dad anymore?" Sabrina asked softly, with a shaky voice. "Again."

I looked at her painful stare of sorrow. "I will always be here for you. Even if I can't be with your mom. You still have me forever." I wiped the tears off her cheek.

"Nothing's going to be the same anymore." She cried.

"I'm so sorry." I couldn't find the words to explain how badly I felt.

"I thought we were going to be a happy family. I spent so many years wishing for a father after mine left me. Then you came into the picture and you met every expectionation I held and beat every doubt I had." She wiped her tears away. "You amazed me. You amazed my mother. Things were different. You gave me everything I missed out on."

I looked at his little girl who had such deep pain in her. I wanted to take it all away but I couldn't change this for her.

"I had hope and everything and now you're leaving." Sabrina looked away.

"I wanted all the same things. I was so happy being with your mother and being here for you. I wanted the big happy family. I always have and you've become everything I've always dreamed about." She looked back at me, teary eyed. "After my mom left and my dad shortly after I spent my whole life wanting to have this family. I got to have my dreams through you. I don't want to go but I don't have a choice."

"I guess this was how it was always how it was supposed to go. I was never supposed to have a dad, it was never meant to be."

"I just want you to know Sabrina. I really wanted to be your dad."

"I really wanted you to be my dad."

I wrapped my arms around her as she cried into my chest and I cried with her.


Author's Note:

Hey the first half of this story is Rowan focused and I loved writing this but I think it's time to for second half which will be more Sabrina focused. I hope you enjoy this and let me know what you think. If you want to see more of Sabrina's life comment below.