Rowan's POV

I had all my bags packed and spend the last few days completely busy getting everything ready for my trip. I've barely had the time to sit down and eat dinner. I realized that everything was done and it made me anxious now I have time to think about what I'm about to do. As that made me feel overwhelmed I decided to call my best friend.

"Hey Row." Sabrina said with a shaky voice.

"What's wrong?" I said worrying.

"Everything." Her voice breaks and she couldn't find the words to say anything.

"I'm coming over." I said, hanging up.

I grabbed my stuff quickly and walked into the living room. I saw Josh was in the kitchen getting a drink. I looked at the front door and saw that my parents keys were gone.

"Is everyone out?" I asked him.

"Yeah your parents went shopping and Jamie is breaking up with his girlfriend." He said so casually.

"Huh?"

"He wants to be single for the summer." He chuckles.

"Gross." I rolled my eyes.

"Are you going somewhere?" He saw my bag.

"Sabrina's. Can you take me over there?" I asked him.

"Of course. I tried calling her earlier and she never called me back." He got his keys.

"Something's wrong. She was upset." I explained feeling uneasy. He looked worried.

We got into the car and drove to Sabrina's house. On the way we talked about my trip. It was nice seeing how encouraging he is. We also talked about his college choice. I was excited for him. Once we got to Sabrina's I walked right in and up the stairs. Josh followed behind. I was more comfortable here then he is.

"Hello?" I said, walking into Sabrina's room.

She was crying. "Hi." She was curled up in a ball, holding he pillow and hiding her face.

I walked over and sat down on the bed. "What's going on Sabrina?" I rubbed her leg.

She was so small and sad. It was never easy seeing her like this. She's been through so much with her family and I wanted the best for her. Once I saw her I knew this had to be something with her family. I know trauma when I see it these days. I just wanted to hold her tight and show her how loved she is.

Josh's POV

I stood by the door wondering if I should be here or I should leave this to Rowan but I too worried to leave the room. She called Rowan over here for a reason and I wasn't going to get in the way of their friendship unless I was needed. I just needed to know that she was okay. Seeing Sabrina like this broke my heart.

She sat up and looked over at me. "My dad wants to contact me." She hugged Rowan.

"Wow. That's big." Rowan pulled away and put her arm around her.

"I don't know what to do. He's making me choose between seeing him or remaining parentless. He won't let Shawn adopt me without seeing me." Sabrina panicked.

"Do you think you're going to see him?" I asked her.

"I don't know what to do." She sobbed.

This side of Sabrina wasn't something I'll ever get use to seeing. She's always so strong and knows what to do. She makes everyone feel cared for. She's always the one anyone would want to be there for you in any situation. When it comes to her parent's they turn her into this little girl who is absolutely shattered inside. It's heart breaking knowing that they've caused her this pain. The people that were supposed to love you the most in the world. They left here alone. It must mess with your head immensely. I was lucky enough to never experience this type of abandonment but I'm so glad that she has Shawn in her life. He is the person she could relate to and it's a gift to have someone that shares your pain by yourself when you feel this alone. I love Sabrina but there's only so much I can do for her. I can't make her parents better people. I know that what I can do is provide a safe place for her to talk about anything she wants.

I walked over and pulled over her desk chair. "You don't have to do anything you don't want to." I held her hand.

"I know but Shawn is important to me. I want him to be my dad officially." She stated.

"He's your dad. You don't need it to be official for that." Rowan said.

"Yeah he loves you." I said to her.

"I know that he loves me but I dreamed of him adopting me so long ago. That dream was ruined for me by my mom years ago. I have that opportunity again and I don't want to loose that." Sabrina looked at us with teary eyes.

"If you want to do it. I'll be there for you." I told her.

"This guy broke my heart. He did so much damage to my life. How could I face him? Do I yell at him? Do I play nice to get what I want? I haven't seen him since I was a child. Since he left us. Since my mom developed an alcohol problem to cope with the pain. Since I had to cook and clean everyday instead of doing my homework or playing with my friends. The things I had to go through because he decided he couldn't be a dad. The amount of resentment my mother has for me because I'm the reason he left. How do I face him and tell him all that?" Sabrina said with anger and pain.

"I don't know what you say Sabrina but I know that if you speak from your heart and honesty that it's the best thing you can do for yourself. To heal things." Rowan said to her.

"How can you be so sure that me telling him all of this will heal me?" She asked her.

"Getting to tell Kendall how hurt I was healed a big part of me." Rowan said.

"You think I can do this?" She asked us.

"You can do anything." Rowan smiled.

"I know that you're brave enough to. You show me how brave you are everyday." I wiped her tear away.


Sabrina's POV

Josh and I sat in his car across from the cafe I was meeting my father at. It was the next day and I had only asked him to meet me this morning. I thought I would have more time to think about what I was going to say. It was his only day he had open this week. Josh being here was the only reason I was remaining as calm as I was. I still was freaking out. I was shaking and my nerves. We didn't say a word. I couldn't breakdown right now. I wanted to scream. I wanted to let him have it. I knew what I was going to say. I was going to tell him how he missed out on knowing the best thing he could've ever been apart of. I would tell him how I was going to be great without him. I wanted to make him feel the pain he put me through.

"I'm ready to go in." I said with no emotion.

"Are you sure?" Josh asked.

"I have to do it." I got up and out.

I stood there and took a deep breath before I walked into the cafe. I needed to make sure I was ready to give him the speech I had in my head. I wanted him to see the anger. I wanted to hurt him. I made him wait an hour and it felt great. I thought about how much he hurt me. I was ready.

I looked around and then my eyes saw him. I froze completely. He stood up and looked at me with excitement. We both paused and took the moment in. He had the biggest smile on his face. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I ran over to him and hugged him. I don't know what had gotten into me. I couldn't stop myself. I clung onto him and he wrapped his arms around me tightly. I started crying. My emotions were all over the place and I couldn't control them.

He pulled away and looked at me. "Wow. You're all grown up." There he stood, staring at me with a smile.

The tears poured from my eyes. "Why?" I said with a shaky voice.

"What?" He said.

"Why did you leave?" I broke down.