Izukus POV
I sat in class fidgetting with my pin. Aizawa stared at me making me just more anxious. "Midoriya see me after class." He spoke. This reminded me of that one sub. My eyes widened and i yelled. "No!" Aizawas eyes widen I had never raised my voice.
"Problem child are you okay..?" He walked over to me and placed a hand on my shoulder. I slapped his hand away and activated my quirk. "GET BACK! I'M NOT QUIRKLESS AMD HELPLESS ANYMORE!" Aizawas eyes widened as he stared at me. "Problem child... talk to me please.." I shouted. "NO YOU ARE JUST TRYING TO R*PE ME JUST LIKE EVEYRONE ELSE!..." Aizawas eyes widened more as he pulled me close with his binding cloth.
"P-Problem child please speak to me I dont wanna hurt you..." He erased my quirk as i was in tears.
"Midoriya" "(Uh, yeah?)"
"Right this way please, Midoriya"
"What can I do for you today?"
"Yeah, I just need something to take this edge off and I'll be on my way"
"Well, I can't just give them to you" "(What the fuck? why not?)"
"Why don't you take a seat and we'll hava a little chat?"
"Every single day it breaks me to pieces
I've tasted defeat at the feet of my demons
I'm such a fucking waste of achievement
I should put this trigger to my brain and just squeeze it
'Cause Lord, I know I ain't been no saint
But tell me what I did to deserve this pain
Tell me what I did to deserve this hurt
When all I ever did was put everybody first"
"(And how does that make you feel?)"
"These days I just don't feel shit
I don't feel a thing at all, I don't feel like I exist
That's why I need my fix, so I can just feel something
How do you describe the word empty?
Try to describe the word nothing
Wait, fuck that
Use my name as a definition
Write it on my forehead, defective out of commission
I'm sick of it, losing myself, I'm sick of it
Take my fingerprints, you'll see how little the percentages is
I've given it my all
I've given it my all and so much more
But everybody still walking out that door
I've given it my all
It's getting to the point where it's sad as fuck
I've given it my all, but it's not enough, it's not enough
The sleeping pills don't work, the healing pills don't work
I still feel pain with pain pills, now those same pills don't work
If I don't get a couple perks, I'm about to go berzerk
I swear to god nobody can fix this shit, not even the church
Now tell me what good would a pastor do?
Except be mad at you, and tell you that you sinned a bunch of times
But I've forgiven you
You know they won't admit it, and god himself is forbid it
But it's probably still just half of all the shit the priest committed"
"(And how does that make...)"
"Ask me one more time how the fuck I feel
I'ma fucking lose my mind
Step aside I need the pills
Step aside I need the Xannies
Step aside I need the Vicodin, and I'll be on my way
So I can just get back to my life again
You do not give a shit
Stop pretending, stop lying
'Cause to you I'm just a check, bitch, just a dollar sign
Another vaycay with the kids, hubby couldn't be prouder
And all you had to do was ask me how I feel for an hour
See, that's the problem with pretentious technicalities
You preach insanity, and then expect my weekly salary?
So tell me who's the crazy person now, bitch
And yet you think you qualified to treat me? Shit
I've given it my all
I've given it my all and so much more
But everybody still walking out that door
I've given it my all
It's getting to the point where it's sad as fuck
I've given it my all, but it's not enough, it's not enough
Man, I came up a long way
Just a young Jozi n*gga
Bullet at my temple
Afraid I might pull this trigger
It's fucking anxiety
Fucking anxiety
My demons are callin' and sayin' they want whatever's inside of me
I'ma give it to 'em (Hell, yeah)
I'ma give 'em all of it
Used to be a smooth operetor
Now it's the opposite
Anxiety
Oh, big time, anxiety, yeah
I feel it swimmin' through my veins
I'm afraid I might get the blade
Make a slit and let the blood spill out
Anxiety
Oh, big time, anxiety"
(Song lyrics by BMike)
Everyone stared at me and I ran out crying. I ran to the roof. Thats where i went when i was stressed. I scrolled through my phone and saw that th sub who did it was released. "What... H-he barely served two years..!" I was done. These heroes naver cared did they. Then those words replayed in my head. "If you really wanna be a hero there might be another way, prya you'll be born with a quirk in your next life then take a swan dive off the roof of the building."
I smiled as tears rolled down my cheeks. I stood over the edge and smiled letting myself fall. Before I knew it i felt weak as if Ofa was taken from me. "Its better this way." I thought. I smiled a bit as I fell and hit the ground. I woke up in thw hospital and the doctor looked surprised. "... your awake Mr Midoriya.." I looked down. "Please tell them i died on impact..." The doctors eyes widened. "But..." I pulled out 500¥ and handed it to him he nodded and went out telling them i didnt make it. I could hear the crying and i stopped myself from walking out there.
I climbed down the building and wandered off keeping my hood up and my face hidden. When i stumbled upon an 'abandoned' factory. I assumed itnwould be the perfect place to live temporarily. I wemt inside snd saw it was a hideout for villains.
"..." I tried to sneak put but before i could AFO was behind me smirking. "Well good to see you. Son."
