Lauren

So I woke up in a funk. I almost wished I was dead with all that is constantly going on in my head. I had all the answers I deserved and they didn't come from Bo's mouth. They came from her memories.

I spent most of the morning going over everything that I heard last night. I have no doubt any of it wasn't true because I do have powers and Bo's memories. Let me tell you it's all bullshit. This could be the best thing that could have happened to me though because now I know what I meant to her. Just a body in her bed when she didn't want or couldn't have Dyson. And apparently she wanted him as soon as she saw him. I mean really jumping through a window running from Aife really required her to go all the way with him?

Why am I so devoted to someone that can't be loyal to anyone that doesn't fit her needs? Or doesn't want the same things that she does? It is almost maddening because I can't tell what memories are mine and what are hers. But I can tell you that I would never succumb to a penis. I would never kick Kenzi out of the only home she has known for the last 4 years. I would never let anyone keep me from doing anything that I wanted. Some people have said that I hold her back.

How have I held her back? Was I the one that was Dyson's biggest cheerleader even when he lied to me? Was I the one that pimped him out to Bo when I barely knew him a month? Was I the one that told her to let go of Aife as she hung from Bo's hand? Better yet was I the one that told Dyson to protect a Succubus? The same Succubus that I saw take out the Lich and his flunkies? I am not the one that knew where I was but didn't tell Bo until they lost my location. Oh and Bo? Bo said nothing but find her Dyson. No anger. Just find her. It was all behid the scenes but now we all know.

How have I held her back? Am I a Blood Sage? Am I the one that knew who Aife was when she arrived after Bo but didn't tell her? Am I the one that thought Bo was so weak that she always needed protecting? That she couldn't fight anyone on her own? Am I a guard dog? No.

I admit I did convince her not to go after Vex but she ended up going anyways. Don't tell me I stopped her with my body. She wanted my body. I had to go back to the clubhouse because I had forgotten my dog collar that she threw at my feet.

How have I held her back? When I asked for the break that's just what she gave me. She didn't protect me like she did Dyson or Kenzi. She didn't even bother to come looking for me, happened upon me at Taft's and when she found me again, she was back riding her lame dick dog.

How have I held her back? Am I the one that took whatever part of her ass she offered whether she enjoyed it or not? Am I the one that begged her to look at me while she was on top of me? No that was not me.

Now you will say oh I thought you and Dyson were friends. Please. How can I be friends with a fraud and a liar. The bastard didn't even bother to tell me Bo was missing or that she had lost her memories. The same memories I share with her now.

The same bastard that didn't even tell Bo that I called or wanted to come home but didn't feel it was safe to going by his words. The same bastard that nearly wet himself doing anything and everything the Blood King commanded him to do.

I knew who Bo was. I knew who she was better than any of them. The only thing I didn't know was exactly how powerful she is. The same powers that I hold now too. You cannot sacrifice love that was stolen from your dumb ass. Besides Bo didn't need that to win her fight with Aife.

Enough of this shit. I have stuff to do. I can't spend my life worrying about what they are doing when I don't know when he is coming back. I can feel him though and he's a bit of a genius but evil. I need to find out any and everything I can about him and I know the first place to look.

The Dal

"Bo? Isn't a bit early to be drinking and this much? Trick asked looking at empty bottle after empty bottle resting on top of his bar.

"Trick you know the drill. When she doesn't get what she wants she pouts or drinks. She basically cleaned out the clubhouse". Kenzi said. She wasn't living there but did go back to get her liquor that was now gone.

"I can drink whatever I want in here". Bo slurred. She felt embarrassed when she heard herself slur. What the fuck did she see and hear last night? Lauren has his powers and her memories. Holy shit. This was not good. She knows everything. Damn it.

"Well I can't make money if you clean out my barrel rooms". Trick said.

"Who cares? It's not like you actually charge anyone". Bo seethed. It was true. She didn't even know how Trick got the liquor. He didn't have any money. Maybe he called in thousands of years of favors.

Bo wanted to go home. But what was there? Every spot she had sex with the parade of Fae she brought in. She nearly took one home last night but the Camaro had other ideas when it kept stalling. After the incidents at the Dal yesterday she knew most Fae wouldn't come near her. Not if they knew that she knows Lauren.

No home. Home was empty. Kenzi lived at the Dal. She had no idea where the hell Dyson or Tamsin were. Maybe they were doing each other. She didn't care to know either. None of them have been supportive of her lately. She wasn't a Faeby sitter.

Was what Hades told her true? How would she prove it? When would she prove it? She can't send anyone after Lauren because her scent is new. Her brain is new. Lauren was already a genius but having Hades powers pretty much makes her a God and unstoppable. The Succubus found that bit to be hot. But even her arousal couldn't get her up and off of her barstool. It still felt final. Lauren wouldn't want her help. Wouldn't need her help. For the first time she felt that they would come to blows. But she couldn't do that. Her Succubus wouldn't allow it either.

She bowed her head over the memory thing. The hatred that infests Lauren now will be all jumbled because Bo never talked to her about any of it. After the Vex thing, she promised Lauren a talk and never made the time for it. She said she would give Lauren space and she wasn't going anywhere but she did. So much time had passed and she had made space for other people in her heart. In her bed. In her shower. On her couch. On her floors.

She had made space between her love for Lauren and their friendship. Neither one was bigger than the other at the moment. Lauren left her for goodness sakes. Bo had gone in and out of her Dawning. When she came out she felt different. She felt powerful. She felt important. Lauren couldn't adjust to that apparently. But that wasn't Bo's fault. She could have told her why she wanted the break. She could have told her why she ran off to Taft's. She could have told her why she stayed in Evony's bed. Ok that was low but it was pretty much the same in her mind. She knows. Damn it.

She downed an entire bottle at the thought of Lauren in Evony's bed. In Evony's arms. Under Evony's protection. If she was afraid of the Una Mens. She could have protected her. But who was Bo kidding? She didn't even know they were in her clubhouse until they were already in her bedroom the night they took Dyson. Lauren's a big girl. She can take care of herself. Bo thought downing another bottle.

"What do you really make of that? Trick asked pointing to Bo. He needed bigger trash bags to keep up with all the empty bottles.

"I'm guessing she has seen Lauren or knows what happened to her". Kenzi said taking a bite of food. She had partied like Bo too but now needed carbs.

"No that can't be it. Look at her. There is nothing there but a body". Trick said. It was true Bo looked so pale. Like she had nothing to hang on to. Nothing to fight for. But she brought it all on herself. She kicked all of them out. Wouldn't listen to anyone. He admitted he wasn't always forthcoming with his own knowledge of the Fae but when he was finally ready to tell her, she ran off with Rainer. Trusted that Rainer was her best ally. Like none of them did anything for her. Took deadly risks for her. Namely Kenzi and Lauren. But the Lauren that nearly burned downed his bar wasn't that Lauren anymore.

Admittedly he never wanted to know about Bo's sex life. He did however wish she would pick Dyson. He was loyal. He was obedient. He was Fae. But what could he say about Lauren after last night? He wasn't one to bend over and kiss ass but there was something new and enticing about the Doctor. As the Blood King he wanted to know what she was and what she could do besides start fires with Fae bodies. He knew he wouldn't get that from Lauren so he would try his best and see what Bo knows about it.

"Don't Trick". Bo said softly.

"Don't what Bo? Trick asked wiping down the bar in front of her.

"I know when you want to ask a question and I won't tell you". Bo said softly again. She knew people would do this. Come to her about Lauren. The Fae could be nosy bastards and now they wanted to know about Lauren Lewis? The same Lauren Lewis that wasn't good enough just to be a human Doctor but a slave? The same Lauren Lewis that Dyson often mocked with her servitude while Bo sat there and did nothing about it other than ask if he always had to be him?

"Bo I'm just..concerned". Trick said.

"No there is something that you don't know and need to know so you will interfere". Bo said. It was true. Trick just needed to know any and everything so he could do something about it or have the Elders do something about it.

"We all saw her Bo. We know there is something different. You need to tell me so I can help". Trick said.

"Help? Since when have you ever wanted to help Lauren? Bo laughed. Just as she thought. He wanted to kiss ass.

"Bo...". Trick started.

"Trust me Trick. You don't want any of that". Bo said. She knew if her Succubus could take out an army, Lauren could likely take out the entire colony.

Bo and Trick stood still when a strong gust of wind blew past them.

"What the hell was that? Bo asked but had an idea.

"You felt that too? Kenzi asked running over.

"I don't know but it appears to be over". Trick said picking up the bottles that had fallen over.

The trio all took turns looking around the bar. It was a bit crowded but not busy for a Saturday night.

"What's wrong with you guys? You all look like you've seen a ghost". Tamsin said walking in with Dyson.

"Trick what's wrong? Dyson asked with his hand on his gun.

"Nothing". Bo said softly. The last thing she knew they needed now was a territorial wolf. Dyson didn't get it and it was pissing him off. By his own words Bo wasn't in love with him anymore and he thought his penis would change that.

"Ahhh here it is. Now I can go". Lauren said making her way back up the stairs.

The wind from before filled the room again and Trick held on to whatever bottles he could reach hoping not too many would fall over and bust.

"Don't mind me. Just here to get my book back". Lauren laughed appearing out of thin air.

"Lauren? How did you? Dyson asked.

"Dyson don't". Bo warned.

"She still leads you like a good boy by your balls huh? Lauren laughed pointing at Bo's obedient servant.

"Lauren...". Bo said softly.

"I know. I know. I need to leave". Lauren laughed again. She wasn't planning on staying anyways. She had her own bar to keep her whistle wet.

"Lauren! Dyson screamed reaching out for her.

"Dyson don't touch her". Bo said.

"And if he does? What will you do Bo? Stay mad? We all know you forgive him as easily as you blink". Lauren said taking a shot from Kenzi.

"Lauren what are you talking about? Bo asked slowly turning around to the Doctor.

"Lying to you about Saskia. Ooops. I mean Aife. But you forgave him and slept with him because you knew he was just trying to protect you. Does any of that ring a bell? Lauren winked downing another shot.

"Lauren listen". Bo said softly.

"No". Lauren said flatly.

"No? Bo asked.

"I don't have to listen it's all in here". Lauren laughed pointing at her head so Bo would catch on. The other ears didn't need to know what they both knew.

"Lauren I can fix all of this". Bo said.

"So can I. By leaving this dump". Lauren said picking her book off of the counter.

"Lauren stop and listen to me". Bo said.

"Bye Felicia". Lauren laughed winking at Bo as she started walking towards the exit.

"Bye Felicia". Kenzi had to laugh.

"Bye Felicia? What the hell does that even mean? Bo asked.

"It means she wants nothing to do with your ass". Kenzi laughed.

"Pretty much". Lauren said.

"Wait, you are just going to let her go Bo? Tamsin laughed.

"No. If Bo wants her to stay she will". Dyson laughed.

"Doubt it". Lauren said. She was bored with this group already. Same old shit.

Lauren took some steps towards the door again and Dyson tried to stop her from leaving. He needed to know what the hell was going on. He thought he and Lauren were buddies. Or at least why she seemed livid at him.

"Lauren? Dyson growled.

"You can't handle me Dyson". Lauren laughed.

"She's right Dyson. Leave her alone". Bo said.

"Bullshit. She's mad at me and I want to know why? Dyson growled again.

Taking a deep breath Lauren was about to give him everything he wanted.

"I'm mad at you for being the bastard you've always been to me. Like you were that day on the couch over there. I'm mad at you for mocking my humanity when in reality you were just jealous because my brain is larger than the pea sized one you have. I'm mad at you for telling me it wasn't safe to come home after I saved your sorry ass. Leaving me exposed to the Una Mens. But I'm sure Bo didn't care. In fact I have proof she didn't. I'm mad at you for not telling me Bo was missing. Too bad that fake marriage didn't work out huh? Still have the ring? But most importantly you didn't tell me Bo had lost her memories. I am, was her Doctor after all. But I get it, you get to have Bo anywhere and any time you want. Can't really blame a dog for being a dog. Hop to it bow wow, you can have her". Lauren finished. She was a bit winded and thirsty now but she felt great.

"Lauren". Bo said softly.

"Don't Bo". Lauren said waving off whatever she was about to say. Lauren took one last look at her and finally got up to leave for good.

"Are you still mad that I told you Bo and I kissed and it wasn't a feed? Tamsin laughed. She thought Lauren was over that by now.

Lauren stopped for a minute but started again.

"Tamsin". Kenzi said softly. She was like a daughter to her after all.

"Tamsin what? This is the great Dr. Lewis and she's leaving because she's a little jealous of Dyson? Of me? Tamsin laughed. This was funny. The human Doctor finally had her fill of the Fae.

"First of all to be jealous would mean he wants something that I do. I don't want Bo. Both of you can have her". Lauren said over her shoulder.

"You're so full of shit Lauren. You still want Bo. Isn't that the reason you ran to Evony's bed? Tamsin laughed.

"As I said. Either one of you can have her. I'm done". Lauren said.

"Ahhh I see. You're mad because I locked you in that closet at Taft's so Bo wouldn't find you in the operating room. But don't worry I told Evony where you were, since I no longer wanted to deliver Bo to her anymore. At least you didn't die though right? Tamsin laughed.

"Speaking of delivering something". Lauren said as she swerved and punched Tamsin dead in her eye. Her body went flying across the room taking out an entire wall. Trick cringed at the sound and closed his eyes. Damn it.

"Hades' check will bounce and you won't be doubting anyone with that eye again". Lauren laughed. She felt a bit of heat behind her and turned around to see what it was.

"Ahhhh the Succubus wants to play I see. What's the matter? Did I hurt your girlfriend? She's not the most alive person you have ever met now is she? Lauren laughed.

"Lauren". Bo seethed. This was not Lauren and she wasn't sure she would ever be again.

"Succubus? Lauren laughed.

When Lauren's eyes changed Bo lunged forward gently grabbing her by her neck.

"Uhhh what do you think that's going to do? Lauren laughed. Bo must have forgotten, they are equally matched in power. Almost she winked inside.

"Lauren it's me. This isn't you. Just come back I'm right here". Bo said softly.

"Aww that's sweet. Now where have I heard that before? Lauren laughed.

"Lauren". Bo said softly again. She didn't want to have to do what was stirring inside of her but she had to try something.

"Tamsin really Bo? You want to fight me over Tamsin? Well I guess it makes sense since she's part of the reason I left you". Lauren laughed.

It hurt to hear but Bo had to take it. "Lauren please". Bo pleaded.

"Bo! Dyson screamed running up behind the Succubus.

Lauren laughed. "Your bf is calling you. Maybe he wants that threesome you've longed for. Never moan my name again while you're enjoying the sight of that shit. You should know I wouldn't allow him inside of me but Tamsin would. All you have to do is ask her. She loves you".

"Oh for pete's sake Lauren! Bo snapped slamming her lips against Lauren. The Doctor was not responding so Bo pulled back with her hand still around her neck.

"That wouldn't have worked. I stole my Koushang back that you never returned. Too bad it won't work on you! Lauren laughed slamming her lips into Bo. The remaining group stood as they were. There was a huge, white glow coming off of the two ladies.

Lauren pulled back dropping Bo to ground.

"Bo! Trick screamed as he ran over with Dyson close behind him.

"I told her not to touch me". Lauren laughed licking her lips.

TBC