Lauren

It had been a long, long night. I was up most of the night as memory after memory of Bo's clouded my head. Some upset me but others didn't. They were things I already knew but were now confirmed.

I had quickly showered and gone down to my lab to run some tests. While they were running I ran over to the Dal to gather some old books of Trick's. The place was thankfully empty. It wasn't really stealing. What were the others going to do with them? They always came to me or Trick for help with the Fae that they didn't know about.

There has to be something in them that could help me rid myself of Bo's memories. On one hand they are great to have. They give me an unedited view into what others have said, done and did to me in Bo's eyes.

Pardon my unorthodox language but it was a big pile of shit. They all hated me to the to point that my death or absence was a welcomed present. Like Bo in Dyson's arms as they drove past me being kidnapped. She remembered everyone but me. No. I take that back, she only wanted to remember everyone but me. She never lost her memory, she hid behind that lie so that everyone would do as she wanted. Like when Dyson told her he had lost me. You have to know where something was in order to say that you lost it.

She didn't bother asking him how he lost me. Or where I had been at his insistence. She just asked him to go and find me. While she stayed home to party with Kenzi. Like dancing to the Spice Girls at the Dal, while I was chained to a wall confessing my past to the only woman that would listen and care. Yes Crystal was a one nighter, but she listened.

The Fae had trapped her in it's grasp like they had trapped me using Nadia. I never even knew what happened to her. Evony despised humans, so she probably met a horrific death.

You may be bored by now asking why am I thinking of all of this. Well perhaps if I think of it, it will go away. Or bury itself so deep that it never comes to mind again.

I have been a Doctor for years but even I have no idea how to wipe out memories, without wiping out my own. Hades was a bastard but in a way he helped me a lot. I blindly thought all of them were friends of mine. But they were only nice to me so that they could see what was wrong with Bo or needed my medical expertise.

In my professional opinion there was nothing wrong with Bo besides a broken heart. The same one she claimed that I broke. I wasn't the one that asked to be in a relationship and left the other one feeling like they were in it by themself. I am not the one that slept with other people to get over Bo. I am not the one that left my human gf at Taft's when I saved both humans and Fae. I am not the one that told Tamsin that I didn't know where they took Bo and then didn't bother looking for her in only one operating room. One!

Then there was their fight. I mean really. Have you seen Bo's powers? She couldn't kick a Valkyrie's ass? She fought her with kid gloves but when it came to me, she used big girl gloves. She never slapped me but she may as well have. I got the nasty Bo while everyone else got the sweet Bo. The Bo that didn't care if someone was hired by her father to find her. The same Bo that was so worried about my whereabouts that she allowed said traitor to climb into the tub with her. Sleep in my apartment. Eat my cereal. Wear my robe. Of course Bo didn't know of that betrayal at the time, but she allowed it. She even said she didn't care. Even taking Dyson into my apartment. Yeah like he was going to help her find me!

I know now what I am to Bo. What I always was. Someone she had to have and then when she couldn't the nasty came out. She treated me like a call girl only she didn't leave money on the table the next morning.

She thought I was sleeping with Evony on a daily basis or whim. If she really wanted to know what I was doing, she could have stormed her bedroom like she did when she wanted to get Vex's help to fight the Garuda.

I admit I did and hid some things from her but I never said I was sleeping with Evony. Bo hurt herself thinking of the worst and then tried to hang it all on me. No.

I asked for a break. It was needed then and it's needed now. I remember telling Dyson about it and how he looked at the exit to the Dal wondering if he would get lucky had he gone to Bo then. Well his heart would have been broken. Bo was with Tamsin. Holding Tamsin. Letting her in the same way I did by leaving my door open to that bitch.

How adorable it is how gently she treats her. If she only knew of the shit Tamsin did to me, she would probably be upset. But all Tamsin would have to do is blame it on her past life or say she was sorry and Bo would forgive her. Tamsin was hired to bring Bo to the Wanderer but he used me to come instead. I am glad he did though, otherwise I would still be dead and Bo would have been in Rainer's bed claiming that I broke her heart.

When Dyson died she was in hysterics over it. Her tears fell all over his shirt. I was right there. I was right there when she nearly kissed him. I was there when she slept with him to heal. She even grieved for Flora not long after imagining her to be me sleeping with Dyson. He never used condoms. Even if I was into men, I would make him wear like ten before sleeping with him. As old as he is, he's bound to have some kind of STD. I warned Bo that he was well traveled. He was bound to have male lovers too.

I'm her Doctor I know that wasn't needed. Not after she killed the Lich. I have seen her Succubus more than anyone in our little group. I honestly think the Succubus cares more for me than Bo ever did.

She showed up for the Lich and backed down at the sex club and all I had to do was talk to her. There is no talking to Bo. She wants what she wants the way she wants it. Namely someone she can't have naked in her bed. Until Kenzi or someone calls her about a case and off she goes.

Like the day after we had made love as a couple. When the fake Kenzi asked her to help on a case and she left me there with Vex. Screw that, I got dressed and left. Then she had another case. Bo was acting as a therapist with no training and mocked my profession.

She got hit by a car and Dyson pressured her to sleep with him saying it was either him or an ambulance. Something that Bo failed to mention. Since when did Fae go to a hospital? There was Fae all over that precinct. She could have fed from anyone of them. But none of them was Dyson. Her golden boy. She wanted him. It was in how she kissed him. How she unbuckled his pants. How she straddled and rode him for hours and hours against the walls and table. Long after her wound had healed. See. Her memories tell the truth.

When the guilt was too much she had no choice but to tell me about it. It was over. The purity and innocence about our relationship was over. I couldn't sate her like a Fae could. I had to share her. I agreed to it.

That's where the one woman relationship surfaced. It was my fault. I was so in love with Bo that I had forgotten she was a Succubus. I was so in love with Bo that I missed the lie laced truth in her eyes. I agreed she could sleep with other people to feed and heal but I had enough when Tamsin said she kissed her without feeding. Tell me show she could tell me she slept with Dyson and not about the kiss Tamsin? The kiss sounded more of a betrayal than the tryst with her dog did.

Isaac Taft showed up at my door and I literally followed him out. I remember the night of Bo's birthday party I had two gifts to give her. The stars and the necklace. I found the necklace inappropriate to give her at the party so I hid it in the drawer. My only mistake was not correcting her about it's meaning. I was thankful to her for giving me the freedom to love, but I meant Nadia. We had been apart for years. Although it was a struggle, I wanted to work on that relationship but thanks to my ties to Bo, the Garuda literally struck close to home.

The next day Bo showed up asking me what secrets Nadia told the Garuda. Was she serious? How was I going to find that out? Bring Nadia back to life and ask her? My pain then didn't matter to her then, so why would hers matter to me when she dumped all over me for the Fae. Jumped into Dyson's bed so easily after telling her he knew who Aife was. Me? I was waiting at the clinic for our talk that would never come. It wasn't important enough.

I threw the book to the ground. There was nothing in it that would help me. If Hades could take her memories and put them into me, maybe I could pull them out and put them back into Bo. Maybe it would serve her right if I put my memories into her.

Like the day the Ash put me in his dungeon. Ryan was the one that told Bo about it and she just blinked it away. There was no thrall then. Was she so desperate to get over me that she wouldn't even get angry anymore about my mistreatment? Oopps sorry I was away with Nadia then. But she had stormed his office when he punked me into recommitting to him again. Why not the dungeon? Or was she just ready to sleep with Ryan and the girl she pretended was me. You all saw her, she looked nothing like me.

Back to this memory plan. I will have to muster my Doctor experience and find a way to do it. Or suck it up and leave them be. They could come in handy for when Bo plays point that finger at me for being at fault in all of our problems.

Like the time she said she would give me space but calls me two days later asking for closure. That was Kenzi's prodding but she still picked up her phone to call me after Kenzi had walked out.

Kenzi. Dyson's biggest cheerleader besides Trick. When she asked Bo if she and Dyson were good again Bo replied that they had no more secrets between them. He was off brooding because the Norn had taken his love from him and all for nothing apparently. Trick had already written in his blood and I have given Bo a Koushang. Aife wasn't going to win that fight but she certainly loved her daughter enough to ask her to let her go. If someone lied about my mother or knew where she was but didn't tell me, I would be madder longer than two seconds.

I am mad. I am mad at myself for not running when I had the chance. I am mad at myself for falling for someone who rarely if ever stood up for me. So what if she saved Nadia. She killed her too. Likely because Dyson wasn't available and Tamsin wasn't in her life yet.

Admittedly I did do everything for Bo but those days are gone. Now that I know Hades powers and have seen hers. She never needed any of our help. She just used us long enough to find Rainer again. She had apparently known him before all of us. So we were nothing. Nadia and Ciara were found again and killed for nothing. I kind of laughed at Dyson sleeping with her so often for nothing. Her heart was elsewhere. Her alliance was elsewhere. She could have been the Dark Fae leader long before Evony surfaced. So how did I break someone's heart that was never mine to begin with?

Bo

I don't know what to do. I know what I want to do. I want to go over and have my way with Lauren. It has been far too long since we kissed at Evony's party. She wanted to stay and I left her there. Like I thought she had wanted to stay at Taft's.

She said she loved me. How was I to know that was just a ploy in her plan to get Taft to trust her? Didn't he already trust her when she left me for him? Didn't he already trust her when he allowed her to walk around the compound without chains on her legs, arms and neck? Was she trying to tell me she ran off with him to gain her freedom? The same freedom I gave her when I woke Nadia up? She could have ran then and kept running. I would have understood. It would have hurt, but I would have understood. That's partly why I did it. So she would free.

Free to run and be happy. I never wanted her to run and be without love. Without happiness. She clearly wasn't happy at Taft's. I thought I was the reason and I likely was, but there was something else in her eyes. A hurt that had nothing to do with Taft. A hurt like knowing I was there for Dyson. A confession she heard from my own mouth. I promised her that I could get both of them out safely.

The big bad Succubus didn't show up that day. Only Aife used her powers. Tamsin and I had gone back to get her before we separated. All we found was the Cabbit's dead body. I had to run and tell Trick. He would likely know where she had gone. Tamsin had her orders to go and get Dyson. I didn't look for Lauren. I had trusted that she and Dyson had a plan, come to find out their only plan belonged to Dyson and Kenzi. More so Dyson's because he was the only one that had spoken to Lauren and knew where she was. He didn't tell me her whereabouts. He didn't tell her I was missing. He kept us both out of the loop about each other. But that is my fault. I trusted him.

I trusted what Lauren had said. She said she loved me. But that was a lie. A clear diversion to get me to go along with what she was doing. I hadn't seen Lauren in days. I didn't know if he had done something to her mind. She knew who I was. She even gave me hints when she said Dyson's name the last time before she walked out. She didn't want me following her and I should have.

Tamsin could have rounded up Kenzi and Dyson. I should have gone after Lauren. She was mine at one time. All I had to do was fight for her instead of leaving her behind to fend for herself. The biggest reality is that if I didn't go to the Dal that day, I would have not been taken.

After slamming my car door I reached into the back seat for a duffel bag I had packed. When I picked it up an envelope fell to the floor. I cringed when I saw my name written on it. It wasn't Dyson's handwriting. It wasn't Kenzi's handwriting nor was it Trick's or Aife's.

"For Isabeau". was on the front.

Slamming the bag down on the passenger seat, I opened it.

Dear Isabeau,

My darling daughter. If you are reading this, I must be dead. I had left word with one of my men to deliver this to you. I know you wouldn't allow anyone into that hubble you call a home, so it was to be placed in your precious car. The person that delivered it had been instructed to cut his throat and allow himself to bleed out. You can find him behind the clubhouse. I wrote this the day I brought the Doctor back.

I must have died at the Doctor's hands. She was such an easy mark that you left open and vulnerable. While you were out running the streets with the Valkyrie or the wolf, I had my eyes on her. It was Tamsin's job to cause even more problems between the two of you. Imagine my surprise when the good Doctor slapped the hell out of ole Tam Tam for telling her about your kiss that wasn't a feed.

Now you are probably wondering how I know all of this. Like I said Tamsin has always worked for me. She reported everything back to me every time she went to Valhalla. I was always just a phone call away. I laugh about it now because you always thought Evony was your biggest threat to getting the Doctor back. Your biggest threat has always been yourself. Your decisions cost you the Doctor.

Lying about where you were during her award ceremony. Running off on case after case with Dyson, Kenzi or Tamsin. Your biggest mistake was leaving Lauren at Taft's. That allowed Evony to scoop her up. She saw how the Dark lived and didn't want to go back to the stingy Light Fae.

She wasn't sleeping with Evony like you thought. She was Dark, you could have gone to see her and see what she was doing instead of guessing. She was working to free you from your contract which you signed and then had the nerve to think that fraud was the real Rainer. She would have gone back with you that day had you not said you were Dark. She literally put herself on the line for you daily. Evony has always been an evil woman. She could have melted the Doctor whenever she felt like it or thought of it.

You never thought she was in danger. You just thought she chose Evony over you. Your whining and moping paranoia worked brilliantly for me. If you ever play her in Poker, you would lose. That's how good her poker face is. You fell for it every time she needed you to. It's not really a lie, if you don't know the truth. She didn't play you Isabeau. She played the game. You my dear still have so much to learn.

When I discovered the depths of your love for the Doctor, I realized I wasn't going to need Tamsin's services anymore. That's why I had someone stand in the street and wait for her to slam into him, taking one of her lives. Now that she is on her last one, it shouldn't be much longer before she dies for good.

Your biggest weakness has always been the Doctor. That's why I seized her body and the opportunity when that fraud you thought was Rainer killed her. I needed to get inside of her. To give her my powers. To give her your memories. As long as she has both, she will be just as powerful as you are. And as long as she has your memories, she will never forget how little you thought of her. How little you stood up to the Blood King, wolf and human for her. How cold you were to her when you were so forgiving of the others. Even Tamsin. She will never forget how she died and you did nothing to bring her back, not like you did your dog. He should be in Valhalla by now. Freyja had him down to scrub urinals. Fitting end for a pissy dog.

I wish I had the time to say these things to your face. I am sure it is priceless right now. You are my daughter but Lauren is my second best creation. She doesn't like you very much right now. And she shouldn't. You're not worthy of such attention or presence of powers like that right now. The more she resists you, the more my Succubus will try and surface again. Boy does she not like your ex-human or what?!

Lauren can either bring my Succubus out or calm her down. The former works for me. Whew! Lauren's heart is big. Good luck trying to win it again! (laughing)

-Hades.

I screamed. He was a bastard but he was right. I had left her exposed to everyone but my own protection. I walked out of her apartment when she asked for a break. I walked out of Taft's. I walked out of Evony's party. I even stopped and looked back but kept going believing what Lauren was telling me. Part of it was true. The Light Fae wasn't really her family. Besides me the only people that would have welcomed her back would be the Elders wanting her dead.

Dyson. Kenzi. Trick. None of them liked her. None of them needed her. So why would she want to come back to me now? With me now? Dyson is dead. Trick is dead. Kenzi had better be somewhere Lauren is not.

Lauren was right. I have work to do and a lot of it. My only solace is that wherever she is, she is safe. She can kick ass whenever she wants to. She doesn't even have to be looking at the person to do it.

That's another thing I will need to get used to. Lauren doesn't need my protection. I swallowed hard wondering if she will ever need me again. Starting up the car, I peeled away not knowing where I was going, hoping my heart would guide me.

Kenzi

Well this is a big bag of shitballs. Dyson is dead. Bo is gone after Lauren, who's the reason he's dead. She could have brought him back, but chose to stick me to his dead body. I ain't letting that shit go no matter what Bo said.

I mean come on Bo? What the Fae? This was Dyson we were talking about. You brought him back once you could do it again. I asked you to and you still denied me. Well that bitch Succubus of yours denied me. I'm the Kenz. Bo's one time claimed human. That should count for something.

Here I am on the streets again. Nowhere to go. The Dal is an option but I'm not claimed anymore. Can't say I wouldn't get my ass kicked.

Lauren didn't exactly touch me when she placed me on top of Dyson but that's the same thing as touching me. I told Bo a long time ago, she wasn't good enough for her. Now look at what happened. Look where we all are, separated. I don't know why Bo is tripping with me. I thought we would be friends forever. I thought we were on our way back to being friends. Yes the Rainer shit hurt but Dyson and I were sticking in there with her. I just didn't want to be claimed. Lauren told me herself that she had enough when she left the clubhouse. That was the nice Lauren. The Lauren that came back to life, I have no idea who the fuck she is, but she's not good for Bo either.

I still have a family. I just need to find one of them. Which is where I am going right now. Tam Tam has to be around somewhere. Mama Kenzi needs her right now.

"Dude stop blowing up my phone already. I found her". Tamsin said dropping down in front of Kenzi.

"You scared the shit out of me just now young lady". Kenzi said.

"Sorry mom. But I found her". Tamsin said.

"Let's go! Kenzi said.

"Dude I will drop you off but I will not be staying". Tamsin said.

"Don't tell me you're scared! Kenzi laughed.

"She has Hades powers which means she has Bo's powers too. I am on my last life and I want to keep it". Tamsin confessed.

"She won't harm us. We are close to Bo. We matter to Bo". Kenzi said softly.

"Kenzi. I respect you for helping to raise me. But you are being silly about this. The fact that you want to go and see the woman you have hated for years is nuts. That's not the Lauren you knew. She is not going to just welcome you with open arms. She's angry. I can tell by the way she drove home". Tamsin explained.

"You're right. I did raise you which is why I am asking you to do this for me. Take me to Lauren. I will worry about the other stuff later". Kenzi said.

"Ok. What's the worse that could happen? I could die which wouldn't be a bad thing should our resident Succubus show up too. But I'm only dropping you off like I said". Tamsin said. Kenzi was nuts but she owed it to her to help her. But that didn't mean she would hang around long enough for Lauren to snap on her.

Twenty minutes later.

"Well. Well. Well. If it isn't the human that thinks her shit didn't stink, like mine when I was a human". Lauren laughed as she circled around Kenzi. She had looked to the sky and saw the Valkyrie flying away.

"I...I'm not scared of you". Kenzi stuttered.

"You should be. You should be very afraid. Bo has many enemies. You are unclaimed and whew do you need a bath. You smell like dead dick". Lauren laughed again.

"I did have Bo unclaim me, but nobody will harm me". Kenzi said.

"Honey once you go Fae, you never go back. It's like the Crips and Bloods. Once you're in the only way out is to die". Lauren explained as she continued circling Kenzi.

"What are you doing? Kenzi asked when she was finally able to look into Lauren's eyes.

"I'm searching for wounds. That has to be the only sane reason you would have come here. You should have fled when the Valkyrie dropped you off. A little idiot girl like you could get hurt out here". Lauren laughed.

"Dude what's with the insults? Kenzi asked.

"You come here looking for me and have the nerve to ask why I'm pissed off?! I actually know why you're here, I just want to know if you have the balls to tell me". Lauren said.

"You owe me for destroying my favorite pair of pants and Bo's a wreck". Kenzi rambled off. Lauren was seething, she saw it.

"Tsk. After all of the shit have you done to me, said about me. How you spat on my humanity like I was nothing while you stand here, the only human between us scared as hell of me. And Bo is fine. As her Dr. I have seen the insides and outsides of her. Spots you have never seen". Lauren laughed.

"What else do you know? Kenzi asked bowing her head. She had never seen Lauren's eys like that. She knew she should have stayed away but someone had to try and talk some sense into the Doctor.

"I know she warned you not to come after me. I know she told you that I was her only focus right now and for you to stay away frome me. Now isn't that sugar that smells like shit? Lauren laughed.

"Well someone has to talk to you". Kenzi said.

"So talk but don't waste my time with that tired as shit about me not being good enough for Bo. Not about how Dyson was going to live longer than me when he's maggot food right Bo's hands. Not about me being bossy when you tried your best to run Bo's life. You even convinced her to seek closure when I asked for a break, not even two days later. That wasn't the Kitsune that was you". Lauren bristled. She laughed internally when Kenzi flinched. Maybe this would be good for her to learn to be afraid. Lauren had never been a pushover. She could kick ass when she wanted to even as a human. Yet here was her former fellow human trying to stand up to her, unclaimed.

"You and Bobo need a go between, I am trying to be that". Kenzi said softly.

"Shut the front door. No you're not. You're trying to see if I will just spread my legs for Bo or convince her to go and get Dyson back. I won't do that and neither will Isabeau". Lauren said.

"She would if you ask her to". Kenzi said.

"I will never ask her. Like he and you never told her where I was hiding from the Una Mens until he had to. That cowardly dog is where he belongs. Now if you don't mind, get the hell off of my property. Cowardly fool". Lauren snapped turning to walk across her expansive lawn.

"So that's it? The all powerful Docotor Lewis still runs away?! Kenzi screamed.

Lauren snapped her fingers and never looked back. She didn't need to. Kenzi's screams were all she needed to hear to know the young woman was afraid.

"Good luck on your landing! Lauren laughed as the guards opened the door for her.

"I'm sorry about that Madam Lewis. She just fell from the sky". The guard said.

"She will fall again soon but it won't be here. Besides don't feel bad. That was therapeutic and fun! Lauren laughed clapping her hands.

"Very well ma'am but we will keep a better look out". The guard replied as Lauren walked down the long hall.

"What the fuck man?! She didn't even turn back and I went flying! Kenzi screamed as her body flew up and was now flying backwards from which she came.

Kenzi barely weighed a hundred pounds which meant her body was flying fast and hard.

"Tamsin! Kenzi screamed when she couldn't grab a tree branch to stop herself.

"Dude tone it down. She could hear you and I'm already a one-eyed Valkyrie". Tamsin said scooping Kenzi into her arms.

"Let's go home". Kenzi said tiredly.

"You're lucky she didn't kill you just now, but if you go home Bo will after telling you to stay away from her. You can't go to the Dal because that bitch Aife might be there. So you really have no home right now. Besides you're not a kite, you need to be on the ground and soon". Tamsin said.

"Where...where can I go? Kenzi asked. She really hadn't thought this through enough. She thought she could try and talk to Lauren and she would come and see Bo or call the Succubus. Neither one seemed an option right now.

"Dyson's old gym. At least he had a bed". Tamsin suggested.

"Yes. Take me there". Kenzi said.

Bo

My Succubus turned up for a minute. I warned you Kenzi. But at least due to your and Tamsin's antics I didn't need to search very far. Lauren looked beautiful just now. I saw the whole scene. She was only talking to Kenzi.

I know the looks Lauren gets. That one was pure anger. She didn't hit her and who knows what the hell Kenzi said to her but it was enough for Lauren to snap her fingers and send her flying. I'm not Superwoman, I don't have the wings to catch her. But would I?

I really do have a lot of work to do. I can't be friends with Kenzi right now. Not if I want Lauren back and I do. This was going to be painful. But really how much a choice would it be? Kenzi asked me to unclaim her and moved out.

Lauren never told me to kick rocks. She only said I have work to do. And damned if I wasn't about to start. But first I needed to get out of here. Get a good nights rest and start fresh early. I need to get a room somewhere to think and I don't need anyone in my ear about Lauren but Lauren when I see her in the morning.

I can't go to her now. She looked so mad after her talk with Kenzi, it wouldn't be right showing up at her door. I will come back early and preferably with her favorite breakfast. It's time to make things right. I have to keep my thoughts off the radar. With dad's powers she might know I'm here.

I slowly pulled away once I was certain Tamsin and Kenzi were gone. Tamsin will protect her since she no longer wanted mine. Tomorrow I go after Lauren. Not as my Succubus but as me, Bo.

TBC

Kenzi upsets Aife

Bo tries to reach Lauren.