Bo's POV

To say I am pissed off would be the biggest understatement ever. I left Lauren's to get some air. Some time to think. I didn't even want to be in the same car anymore so I drove it home and rented a blue Mustang convertible. Nobody was likely to notice me since I have never driven a blue anything.

After Kenzi called I just wanted to get some quiet time. I know she is expecting me and for once, she can wait. There is nothing on my mind and heart right now but Lauren and our talk. There is so much anger and damage between the two of us.

Lauren was a human during our last relationship. Our last kiss before she died. She died. Lauren. And I let it happen. Me. The Succubus that didn't give the Lich the chance to kill her, allowed her to die. Allowed her to slip out of my reach when she was literally an arms length or phone call away.

I did call her a few times. I called her to ask her to help us with Dyson. I called her to ask her to help us find the Helskor shoes. But I knew the real reason why I was calling her. I wanted to know what she was doing. Who she was doing. Yes I was Dark. All I had to do was go to the compound. Evony in her arrogance would have thought I was coming to see her. But no Evony was not that dumb. She saw something in Lauren that I had stopped looking for, her brilliance.

Lauren had told me the Ash sent her to distract me. She told me she loved me in Taft's office. How did I not see she was playing Evony too? Evony wasn't your average Fae. She was too smart and hip. Lauren had to be precise in her treatment of me. She had to be distant or her plan never would have worked. I should have known Lauren was plotting something when she touched my shoulder on the same day we had made out like lovers that never slept together before.

I floored the car speeding up. I needed to feel a rush. To make my heart race so I could get out of the funk that I was in. I needed a clear head. If I had to dip in and out of traffic, that would make me focus. I had taken a long detour on my way to Kenzi. I needed it. To find a new road to take because nothing I do from now on would be the same. I don't even care if I ever see the clubhouse again. That's the old me. Trick is dead. Mom is out there doing her thing. It's time that I do mine.

Mom. Why did I not listen to her when she was trying to tell me about the Fae? About Trick? About Dyson? The night she thralled Dyson she said he didn't put up much of a fight. I knew what she meant, Dyson saw a woman and didn't resist her charms. Even if she didn't pulse him, he would have slept with her. I remember him and Hale fighting over him sleeping with Val. Why would mom or any woman be any different?

Was what I did to Lauren in her absence from my bed any different? Imagining her sleeping with Evony. Imagining her sleeping with Dyson. They seemed to be getting along better but she could have been playing him too as part of her plan to distance herself so far from us that we needed an invite just to say hello.

If I was really all about living the life I choose, then why wasn't I doing that? Why did I allow people and things to keep me from the woman I loved? Why didn't I just burn that piece of skin that told me Rainer was my dark sponsor? Kill Evony and nobody else would know. I don't think her Archivist even looked at it. The Una Mens were rightfully dead. There was nothing, nothing keeping me tied down to anything or anyone but me. Me. I was the one that left Lauren's saying I would give her space and that I wasn't going anywhere. I was the one that went home and went out on a case calling her afterwards to see if we were really over. How was that giving her space? How was that not going anywhere?

Was I looking for an out? If she said yes we were really over, would that be my out? My permission to sleep with Dyson over and over again, even when he was the one person we agreed that I should not sleep with? Technically it wasn't really sleeping with him. I wasn't enjoying it like I used to. I was just trying to get Lauren leaving me out of my head. Trying to pretend that seeing her, smelling her, knowing how close she still was out of my head. That's why I closed my eyes. Dyson was never a substitute for for the real thing. Nobody ever was.

Lauren was not the only one to blame in all of our problems. I was too. She was right. I didn't forgive her as easily as I did everyone else. Perhaps that was another out. Another excuse to try and pretend that I could move on when I never wanted to take a step away from her. Never wanted to step out of her personal space. Breathing her in. Her scent. Her warmth. Her kindness. Her brilliance. Her.

Lauren has always been my day one. If I didn't see it before, I see it now. The Ash, Taft, Evony. All powerful people that could have killed her instantly but she brilliantly found her way out of it. Evony gave no shits about humans. She only cared to feed off of them, other than that, they were expendable. Everyone but Lauren that is. And I left her there. Left her to stand in the filth of Evony's remarks. Like the one about having new toys to play with. My Succubus eyes flashed at the thought. Touching Lauren when she didn't want to be touched.

And she almost did it. She almost went there. How low she must have felt to think that she needed to sleep with Evony to try and get me out of my dark contract. To force her lips to touch someone that she didn't even like that much, if she liked her at all. Having to allow Evony to touch her, for me. She knows about me seeing her and Dyson sleeping together. I had no idea what Flora looked like and the only woman I wanted to imagine being naked was Lauren. I had imagined her in Evony's bed a lot more than just seeing that in a mirror.

Then Rainer. Lauren had worked months and months on her plot to take down Evony only to have me show up with a new lover. It wasn't about love, it was just less complicated than Dyson and his feelings. No strings? No feelings? He actually tried to pull that line on an aura reading Succubus? I know it looked like it worked. But he was just easier than having to thrall someone and waiting for it to work. We didn't even go all the way, I just fed from him and left. I had to leave. The guilt of even kissing him was suffocating me. My body was healed but my heart was broken, knowing that I had broken Lauren's. Only she didn't know it yet.

Kenzi. Kenzi was another obvious problem that I overlooked. Her aura when we were around Lauren or if I even mentioned Lauren blinded me more than the the holes in the clubhouse on a sunny day ever did. Kenzi was team Dyson if she never said it outright. Everything she wanted me to do involved him somehow. A case. An empty bed. Warehouse. Office room. A wall. A desk. I know sex is part of a Succubus' nature but she seemed to think about me and him in bed more than I ever did.

She hates Lauren something fierce. Of course she would never say it directly to my face but she does. If she could get rid of Lauren short of killing her she would. Like when she and Dyson had stashed Lauren somewhere and lost her. Stashed her away from me knowing we were in her apartment talking about her being gone and Kenzi clammed up.

Like the time Lauren had worked herself so much that she fell asleep on our couch. Kenzi hated it. She thought it meant Lauren was staying for good when she wanted her gone and she always has. What did Kenzi think was going to happen? That Lauren would be gone or die and I would fall in love with Dyson again and it would be the three of us forever? Dyson is gone. I barely dropped a tear when he died. The same as Rainer. They were gone and I only think of being in one person's arms. Lauren.

Lauren's POV

After Bo left I changed into some sweats and went for a much needed run. I needed to get some air. Some time to think. I didn't even want to be in the house anymore. All of that empty space was suffocating me.

I took off down a road behind my house. It was a long stretch and seemed almost private as quiet and empty as it was. I don't need the exercise, but I do need the time alone. To be alone with the thousands of thoughts in my head from my talk with Bo.

It wasn't a lie when I told her that I am not the same Lauren she knew. I'm not. I can feel it in spite of the changes in my body. I know she's out there somewhere driving around in a blue Mustang. Nice color by the way. But this needs to be about me. I have to think of me. I have spent so many years as a human Doctor, treating Fae and humans, that I rarely took time out for myself.

I have saved so many lives that is beyond time that I save my own. Think of me for a change. It wasn't a lie when I said I wasn't happy when I asked for the break. I wasn't. Nadia had died after five years of me trying to save her life and what did I have to show for it? I was in a relationship with Bo but spent so many days and nights alone with myself. What did I have to show for it? What's really awful is that Bo didn't think that anything was wrong. That we were both deliriously happy. I can play poker with the best of them, but even I can't hold that poker face, look into my own mirror and believe all was well.

I did bring my pager with me though. I will never stop being a Doctor. Lives still matter to me. If they didn't I never would have given my oath. It's not like a Fae blood oath when you owe someone something in return, it's given freely because lives matter. They mattered when my brother and I bombed pipelines. We just didn't know anyone would be at that site.

Yes I'm a murderer. But it's not like I set out to kill people at random. Some are assholes that deserve to die, but that was never me. There were times when the Ash wanted me to let Fae and humans die on the operating table. I refused and was immediately berated for it, right in front of everyone. Including Dyson who always seemed to enjoy it. I said I am not a killer and believe in saving lives but there is a part of me that is glad that he is dead.

He always taunted me. Mocked me for being a human. How it must have hurt his family jewels to know that Bo wanted me too and not for just one night. One session. Bo and I used to go all night long and I never tired. I understand she drained him to the point that he begged her to get off of him. Telling her that I was never gonna love her. Says the man who mates for life but had ex after ex out there, alive.

Maybe Trick made him give them up so he could wait for someone more worthy. Then Bo arrived and they nearly tripped over themselves trying to get her to fall for Dyson. There is a big difference between telling someone you love them and telling them they are yours. He wanted her to say it. He wanted her to stay faithful to him. A Succubus that was draining him, he wanted her to stay faithful to him. Then Bo's mother showed up and he really couldn't hang with her.

So really? Who was the weak one? Who was the one that came to me asking for my help since Aife and Bo were both too much for him? The only thing she drained was his pride thinking he had the gold penis that every woman wanted. He even hit on me once. Dumb dog, I had made my choice but my choice had chosen someone else.

If Rainer was bigger to her than love, than I was nothing. I was back to being what Dyson was, only useful when she couldn't have someone else. Rainer didn't like me much either. It's like when you see an ex come over and then seeing the arousal in your current lover. Like a pimp seeing a man that hadn't paid yet touching the goods.

I tried to warn her. She didn't listen to me. She all but threw me out of the window. Shattering us like glass I would have broken, had she done so. We are broken. A few apologies won't fix that. You think I'm being mean? No I'm being real. Why should I whore myself out to Bo when she all but slept with lover after lover in my face? Dyson. Rainer. Hell Tamsin wants her too, how she's missing her aura, only Bo can say.

Why should I play musical beds with her? Bo loves Bo. Bo loves wanting people she can't have right then and then moving on when that person sneezes any kind of treachery. Oh wait, that only happened with me. Kenzi kissed Dyson and she got upset over that. Why? She was only using him. She and Dyson knew it. He was just happy to get whatever he could from Bo. Mopey dick dog was getting Bo on a buffet until she chose Rainer as her destiny. It must have stung when she told him she didn't love him anymore. He said he wouldn't fight with her if Rainer turned out to be the bad guy. And she wanted him to be there. Regardless of what Rainer turned out to be.

When I left the clubhouse that night I really was done. I was done throwing myself on Bo's sword for her. I was done trying to protect her. If she knew it all, then let her sleep in the bed. I was going back to the compound to turn Evony human and then I was finally going to leave the Fae behind. I had nothing else to do or to prove. I hung in with them on my own steam after I left for Taft's. Maybe even before then. Five years of not curing Nadia and never dying at the hands of the thousands of Fae that had come through my lab.

I have jogged for about two miles already and I won't be running back to Bo. Running to someone means two things. Something joyous or tragic has happened. Going to Bo right now would be both because Bo never believed I wasn't the only one at fault for our problems. She never saw or noticed when she broke my heart. Like she was the perfect gf and I was just a rookie trying out for the professional leagues.

This really is a beautiful area to be living in. So many mountains and trees makes one feel totally free with nature. My pager beeped and I stopped to check it. Taking two deep breaths I read it and ran back to the house for my car. I am so amped I could probably run to the lab, but my lab coat is in my car. I bought a new one and had been waiting to break it in.

Thirty minutes later, I arrived at my clinic.

"I'm so sorry to bother you at home Dr. Lewis but we have an unruly patient". Lisa said the moment that she saw the Doctor.

"It's ok. What's their condition? What's the emergency? Lauren asked as she quickly freshened up, wearing sweat pants and a tank top under her labcoat.

"Well. It's not really an emergency. She just insists on seeing you and refuses to leave". Lisa said.

"Ok. Ok. Take me to her". Lauren said wiping her hands off on a clean towel.

The women walked down the hall. Lisa felt embarrassed even having to call Lauren but that was the Doctor's rule. She wanted to be notified on everything. Every problem. Most patients were treated and sent home. Others stayed when they had been advised to. But this one wasn't leaving.

"Well it's about damn time. Geez. I have been waiting for hours! Kenzi snapped.

"What? The patient is Kenzi? Lauren laughed. This had to be candid camera but she didn't allow cameras in the exam rooms to protect patients privacy. Evony insisted but Lauren protested against it and won. Especially if Evony wanted Lauren as the head Physician.

"I have been telling them to call you for hours. This is bullshit and I am ready to go". Kenzi said.

"What? I thought you said she wouldn't leave". Lauren said looking at Lisa.

"Dr. Lewis she is trying to leave without being treated first". Lisa said.

"How bad is it? Lauren asked.

"What the Fae? You know how bad it is, you did this to me! Kenzi snapped at Lauren.

"All I did was throw you off of my property. It's not my fault how or where you landed". Lauren laughed.

"It's not funny Lauren. Wait until Bo gets here, you will see! Kenzi snapped. She was tired and getting hungry too.

"Oooo. Don't scare me now! Lisa what are her conditions? Lauren asked.

"She has a deep laceration on her right arm. I told her we could treat it but she is refusing to pay for it". Lisa explained.

"How did it happen? Lauren asked.

"She said it happened at a bar. The Dal Riata according to my notes". Lisa said.

"Aife won't be paying either. What she do? Throw you on your ass? Lauren laughed.

Kenzi groaned loudly.

"Is it life threatening? Lauren asked.

"Not at all". Lisa said.

"Then let her leave". Lauren said.

"What? You aren't going to treat me Doctor Lewis? Kenzi asked.

"I am not the great Blood King. You will not get any freebies here". Lauren laughed.

"That's bullshit. I'm wounded and you need to treat it". Kenzi said.

"Do you have means to pay? Lauren asked.

"Well no...but you've always treated me before without paying". Kenzi said.

"That Lauren is gone. I would treat you if it was life threatening free of charge, but since it's not, you need to pay or get out of my clinic". Lauren explained.

"Lauren! It's me, Kenzi! You have to help me". Kenzi said.

"What I have to do is tell Lisa to call the guards and have you escorted out. Or would you like me to do it? Lauren smirked.

"Just wait Bo will fix you! Kenzi snapped as she limped off of the table on to the floor.

"Try not to get any blood on my floors". Lauren laughed while extending an arm to show Kenzi the way out.

"Bo will not be doing anything". Bo said from the door.

"Bo! It's about time you showed up. Now I can be treated". Kenzi said limping back to the table.

"That's a no from me". Lauren said.

"You know when I asked Bo to unclaim me, I was coming to you, to ask you to turn me Fae. I wouldn't be feeling this pain now". Kenzi groaned.

Lauren laughed out loud and snapped. "For all of the shit and hatred that you have spat at me about Bo and Bo about me over the years, there is no way I will ever or would ever turn you Fae. Now get out of my clinic. My nurse has paying patients to see".

Kenzi stood there looking at the three of them. Lauren turned and addressed Lisa.

"Lisa you are free to go, I am sure the Succubus here will be taking Kenzi out". Lauren said.

"Very well Dr. Lewis". Lisa nodded as she left the room.

"Bo tell her to treat this. She did this to me! Kenzi snapped.

"That's a lie. She was injured at the Dal. Her wound is not life threatening and she refuses to pay. I said it before and I am saying it for the last time, free treatments are over". Lauren countered.

"Lauren can you give us some time? I will help her get dressed and then out of here". Bo said softly.

"Yes but try not to get blood on my floors. We will need the room once you are done". Lauren said walking out.

"Ok". Bo said softly and watched as Lauren walked out.

"Bo?! Bo? What's the rush?! Kenzi asked as Bo grabbed Kenzi's pants.

"I told her I would get you dressed and out of here, and I will". Bo said.

"She's such an ass now. How could you want to have anything to do with her? Kenzi snapped.

"I love her Kenzi. I know you don't like it and don't approve but I really don't care anymore". Bo said.

"What? Now you don't want my opinion? You've always wanted my opinion and hello look what she did to me! Kenzi snapped.

"Bullshit Kenzi. Mom called me. You got into a bar fight at the Dal! Lauren had nothing to do with this! Never do that blaming shit on her that you did to yourself again! Bo snapped startling Kenzi.

"I still don't understand why you're rushing to get me dressed". Kenzi said.

"Because I want to talk to Lauren before she leaves". Bo said softly. Seeing Lauren just then was spiking her arousal. Especially the way her tank top was sticking to her skin.

"I can't believe you are not mad at her for throwing me into the air. If it hadn't been for Tamsin, I would have died". Kenzi snapped.

"I told you to stay away from Lauren! If you come here or go near her again, I will deal with you myself! Bo snapped with her eyes flashing blue.

"What? We are going to fight over Lauren now? Lauren!? Kenzi asked.

"Yes you and I are going to fight over Lauren and I am going to fight for Lauren. You have always treated her like shit, even when she didn't deserve it. You wanted to be the only human in my life and you would have had I not fallen in love with her. She's my life Kenzi. She has always been my life whether you like it or not. I don't care if you don't like her, I do. I love her. Nothing or nobody will change that. Oh! And Dyson wouldn't have either". Bo snapped.

That stung Kenzi. She thought Bo would feel some kind of remorse over Dyson. She loved the man. A lot more than she did Lauren. Kenzi always saw that.

"Dyson is dead Bo. You killed him". Kenzi said softly.

"I'm sorry about that but it doesn't change the fact that the two of you were always conspiring to get me away from Lauren and vice versa. You were playing with that plant and never thought to say hey Bo, I know where Lauren is. Dyson stashed her". Bo snapped.

"It wasn't like that". Kenzi said.

"Bullshit. You knew. You just wanted me with Dyson. You always have. Damn you might as well have his name tattooed on your ass since you were that down with him. Your kiss with him obviously meant more than even you wanted to admit". Bo said.

"Bo...". Kenzi said.

"No. I will not talk about Dyson with you anymore and I sure as hell won't talk about Lauren with you. You both knew we love each other and did your best to keep us apart. But no more. Once you are out of here, you damn well better find a human hospital or something. Never come here again! Bo snapped slamming Kenzi's last boot on to her foot.

"Where am I going to go? Kenzi asked.

"Since you don't like to pay for anything, you can stay at the clubhouse...alone". Bo said.

"You're not coming home? Kenzi asked. She was shocked Bo had just given up the crack shack.

"No. I am never going back there". Bo said.

"But Bo...". Kenzi said.

"You wanted to be unclaimed. Why do I need to be there or even around you anymore? Bo asked.

Kenzi sighed. Bo was right. She did ask to be unclaimed but after all that had happened, she thought Bo would claim her again.

"Can...can you claim me again? Kenzi asked.

"I can but I won't. You wanted to be unclaimed, so you are". Bo said.

Kenzi sighed. She was hurting literally and tired. Bo had never been this way with her before. It almost sounded like Bo was kicking her out of her life, again.

"Ok you look ready to me. I'm sure the front desk can call you a cab or Tamsin". Bo said helping Kenzi up and out of the examination room.

"Thanks for nothing! Kenzi snapped.

"Kenzi this is Lauren's lab and you will not disrespect her or it again! No calling her Dr. Freeze, none of that shit! Bo snapped startling the others.

The other patients, doctors and nurses watched them limp along to the front desk.

"She needs a cab or someone to call Tamsin". Bo said easing Kenzi into a wheelchair.

"Feeling better? Lauren laughed from the distance.

"She's fine. I slapped a few bandages on her leg, that should work until she gets home or to another lab. I will pay for the bandages before I leave". Bo said softly.

The others looked at the scene and some nearly laughed. They had been in and out of that clinic with no problems. Lauren had been courteous and professional. Sometimes she went above and beyond.

"Lauren can we talk? Bo asked softly.

"You don't look wounded Bo". Lauren replied.

"I know. But can we talk somewhere privately? Bo asked.

Lauren looked at Bo. She already knew what she wanted to talk about...them.

"Very well. This way". Lauren said turning around with Bo following closely behind her.

They walked quietly down a long hall. Bo had been there a few times but none of this looked familiar. When they reached the end of the hall Lauren punched some numbers into a keypad and a door opened. The next thing they saw was a small patio. Cushy chairs and a table. Bo was stunned. They were outside and the view was beautiful. But not as beautiful as the woman standing before her. Lauren had taken her lab coat off and her toned arms were showing.

He was coming for Kenzi". Lauren said.

"Who Rainer? Bo asked.

"No Hades. He wanted you and your bf to open the Cinvat. Then Kenzi would have walked into it and died. Better her than me I guess". Lauren said.

"What does that even mean Lauren? Bo asked.

"Because you never would come come for me". Lauren laughed. It was true. Bo had kicked them all out of her life.

"You don't know that for certain. You shouldn't even be thinking that". Bo said softly

"I know when it comes to me, you allow other people to go looking. As if you were giving them permission to tell me they've got you and that I should keep running". Lauren said.

"I would come looking for you Lauren! I came looking for you just now. I didn't even know that Kenzi was here". Bo insisted.

"Like you came looking for me when I didn't answer your call? You went to my house, back to your house, and then the Dal. Three places we both know very well. If Hale had not of been there, you never would have asked about me. You would have let Dyson be the right man under your dress, like he wanted to be". Lauren said.

Bo cringed. Damn it. Did Lauren have to have all of her memories? She had gone looking for her. "I would have come looking for you Lauren. I never thought to look for you at Taft's because I had never heard of the guy or his compound. And since you have that memory you should also remember me telling Dyson to drink his Whiskey". Bo said.

"You had time for drinks but not to come looking for me. We both know it was only dumb luck that you found me at Taft's, like you found me at Evony's". Lauren said.

"Lauren I would have come looking for you". Bo insisted again.

"No you wouldn't. Now what is it that you want to talk about? Lauren asked. She knew but wanted to see if Bo had the guts to ask.

"Lauren I love you...". Bo started.

"I know. You have told me that before". Lauren said.

"Damn it Lauren! I do! He's just gotten to you. Gotten in between us! Bo snapped.

"How is he any different from Kenzi, Dyson, Tamsin, and Rainer? Lauren asked.

Bo was stunned. Lauren had a point. None of them liked Lauren around Bo. Rainer was the worst of the bunch. If looks could kill, Lauren would have been dead weeks ago.

"Lauren I'm sorry. So sorry about all of them". Bo said slowly stepping towards the Doctor.

"Don't". Lauren said stepping further away from the Succubus.

"I just want to talk". Bo smiled softly.

"Well then get on with it. I do have other things to do". Lauren said.

"I was wondering. If..if you will go out on a date with me? Bo asked softly.

"Two months". Lauren said.

"Two months? Bo asked.

"I will give you two months to prove that you really want to go out on a date with me". Lauren said.

Two months? Bo said internally. "Two months it is then". Bo smiled. Two months was a long time considering how long she longed for Lauren. Missed her. But if this was the means for her to get a date out of the Doctor, she could curb her arousal and her Succubus for that long.

TBC

Evony visits Lauren

Bo officially moves out of the clubhouse.