Hi, so here we are with the start of Season 4 in which we have four chapters to go!
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I have done a twist on Andy's pregnancy as I still wanted Toby to be a Dad to the twins, I hope you enjoy.
Also some of you may know by now some of you may not I tend to do a double update around Christmas to pump out as many chapters as I can. So there will defo be one if not more chapters following this as soon as this one is published.
Perhaps Love
Chapter 24-The Space Between
As the President goes away to debate camp Toby has a run in with his ex wife, Sam might be in trouble with Ainsley and CJ finally learns why Bruno wants to talk to Jake.
"Andy"
"Toby"
Something was off with his ex wife, Toby knew this the same way he knew something was off with his deputy. When you were around these people for as long as he had been with them, then you knew when they were being screwed around. Andy was buttering him up for something and—
"You remember our embryo's"
Oh GOD.
"Yes"
Andy said nothing for a second and then.
"Toby I want to use one. To have a child"
It was a very good thing that he was alone right now because he honestly wasn't sure what to make of what she had said. He and her had made those embryo's and then they had split up and quite frankly he had not given them another thought, his own feelings for Andy were at times tied up into his own feelings about CJ and he didn't know if…well…how did this even work.
It took him a moment to say that out loud.
"I would raise the baby, I…I didn't plan to do this with anyone Toby, I didn't plan to raise a baby with anyone but…but I have ABSOLUTLY no issue if Jake wants to be in the baby's life. I don't know how but you know I love that boy—"
"I know"
He popped a peanut in his mouth just for something to do and wished that it was a painkiller so strong it was off epic proportions.
"I don't…you want to have a baby with my embryo but no involve me?"
"If you want to be involved then…then that is something I can compromise on" she said and he could see that she had rehearsed for this. "But I want a baby Toby, I want it…sometimes I think I want it more than to be a Congresswoman. I have maybe two…three more terms in me and then I have to decide what I want to do with my life. I love what I do but I am tired of going home to an empty house. I want a child."
He swallowed.
"Can I think about it?"
"Yes. Can I have your answer by the end of debate camp?"
"Sure"
He might be being blasé about it but Toby honestly didn't know what else he could do about it.
"Wow"
"Yeah"
"Wow"
"CJ—"
"You wanna do it?"
"If I was to do it then I would be being…I don't know…a Dad. Again…which I really didn't want to do. I didn't want to…I just…I thought with Jake I was done. I didn't want…I mean Jake has always been enough—"
"You don't want other children?"
He paused looking at her. "Do you?"
"Sometimes" CJ said. "I don't know if I would want to go back to the two o clock feedings but we don't sleep as it is, but I can't do anything until I am out of this job that's the truth and even if I did…time might be ticking away from me on that front"
There was a pause and then the thing that he had really wanted answers about before he responded to Andy hit him. It was purely selfish but here he was asking it anyway.
"CJ?"
"Yeah?"
"If you wanted more kids then…would you want them with me? Because if I give Andy my…our embryo then we are in this full stop. If we are in this full stop then that means that I have a biological child out there with someone that's not you. And I need to call Jake and let him know…but…but if I do this are you gonna be okay with it? Because if you wanted more children with me then that is something I might be interested in…something I always have been interested in"
It was the closest that he could say to what was going on in his head. It was nothing against Andy. He knew that she was going to be a brilliant mother. He also knew that she was going to be the best parent and the best congresswoman that she could be. But it still did not detract from the image he had of having a child with CJ.
Another one anyway.
"Toby if Andy takes your embryo and you want to be the Dad then you go and do that. You asked me if I had problems with it when you made them and I didn't. You want to be the Dad to that baby then you go and do it. I will stand by your side as your friend and the mother of your other child. Andy and I are two professional woman, we didn't go into this whole woman fighting each other when we were with you. She respected my boundaries around Jake and I respected her views when it came to him and I respect her poetically. We might not be the best of friends but we always got on well. I don't begrudge her or you any kind of happiness. Go be happy"
"I don't want to be with her CJ"
"I know. But the person you should be speaking too about this is our son and before you ask no I will not have that conversation with him, that is a pure you conversation and so therefore you go and have it with him. I need to go and speak to Bruno. I don't know why but the man is stalking me these days…and it can't just be for my killer legs"
Toby didn't say it but he thought that it might be exactly for her killer legs.
"Wow"
"Jake I did this with your mother are you—"
"Fine? Yeah"
"Really?"
"Dad you having another child with Andy might have bothered me once but since…well…it doesn't bother me anymore let me put it like that. Be the Dad, don't be the Dad that's entirely up to you. I have to say at least this way it's easier. I mean…at least you and Andy aren't getting back together"
"Would that have been a problem"
"NO, I like Andy you know that but…but you never seemed all that happy with her"
Toby pulled back the phone and stared at it before he put it back to his ear.
"Really?"
He could hear Jake shrug down the phone without actually seeing it.
"Yeah. I mean…look…I have to be honest from now on. After Harrison…I have to be honest with you and Mom and everything else. So yeah, I loved Andy, love her to death, hell her comments to anyone from Fox News are worthy of their own press release but I don't think it will come to anyone's surprise including hers that you and her were not destined to be on the Titanic together. Look…I am okay with whatever you decide. But tell her that if I have a brother or sister out there then I am damn well gonna be a part of their lives"
Toby didn't have the heart to tell him that it was not him that Andy was worried about. She had it seemed thought about what was going to happen and at the same time she had missed all the giant pitfalls that were open on the road that she wanted to walk down. That being said he loved Andy enough to give her this and so with his terms in set he told her that she could use their embryo to have her baby.
As Andy hugged him he sat there for a long time afterwards watching without watching as Sam tried to speak to Ainsley and she walked away, watching without watching as he followed her. He didn't know what was happening with his underling but he knew something was happening. He just didn't know what to do.
He sighed.
This was a good thing.
Right?
"Legs"
"Bruno I know you do a great deal of good things for the President and for me but if you call me that again my shoe is going so far up your—"
"Down pretty tiger, down. Can we talk about your boy now?"
"Oh God what?"
"I wanted to let you know that a reporter from a Christian paper got in touch with me, you know one of those papers that gives that faith a bad rap because they think that basic medical care should be outlawed"
"Yeah?"
"About your son"
She stopped short.
"Oh?"
"Wanted to know about the night that we were in New York, the night that your agent…well…the night that his friend…well…apparently he booked a room in a motel the 'Adult Hideaway Motel' for him and another person under his own name and the newspaper wanted to know if we were using Jake to promote 'Un-Christ like values' which I didn t even know was a thing or a word until I looked it up but the point being CJ…they know your little boy wanted to have sex and if they know that it's only going to be a matter of time before they figure out with who and…and already they are dropping hints they will write about his friend, they are the type who believe that that boy poor is an abomination"
"What did you tell them?"
"Several things that I shouldn't have that I wont repeat because I am professional and you are a lady but…well you get the image. Anyway I thought you should know so you and Toby could…I don't know…parent if that is the correct word. I thought maybe…I don't know do parents give the sex talk anymore?"
"You didn't get one Bruno?"
"Who me? Oh no you wouldn't get my Dad bothering with that shit, he was more of a throw you into the deep end of the swimming pool and sit back with a scotch to see if you drowned. Horrible man, don't miss him at all"
CJ blinked and then.
"What do you want me to do Bruno?"
"Just warn him that his might be a thing, I don't know if it will yet. Ritchie going to Church is a three page spread for these people and I don't know if the lethal combination of fear and arousal you inspire in me is something that translates to the press room but…I thought I would let you know"
So…her little boy was having sex.
There was a pause as Bruno took in her face and when he next spoke his voice was oddly gently.
"CJ…all boys have to grow up you know"
"I know" she said more than a little stung. "I just…did you…did you speak to your mother about this? Because Jake didn't speak to me and that's what hurt"
Bruno stared at her.
"A teenage boy speak to his mother about sex?"
She nodded.
"Okay yeah I heard it as soon as I said it"
There was a pause as CJ sighed again.
"He grew up fast" she said quietly. "This year especially. Do they know…I mean his friend…"
"No and if they did I will personally come down on them like a tone of bricks" Bruno said and his touch on her elbow was gentle. "Like I said CJ this is two professionals having a conversation, I don't have kids—thank the Lord!—but if I did then I would want to know I think. And…and for what it's worth you and that boy have the relationship that a lot of sons dream about having with their mother"
She nodded.
"Bruno that might be the nicest thing that you have ever said to me" she said recovering the rapier sharp wit that made this dance they did all the more delicious. If things were different she would be more than tempted to wait until they won this thing take Bruno back to her apartment crack open a bottle of champagne and show him just what her killer body could do but now was not the time. The thing about Camp David was there was no privacy anywhere, even an extra loud moan tended to have the Secret Service just casually knocking at the door to make sure that everything was alright.
Bruno winked at her and then sauntered off and she sighed feeling her head throb.
Her son was either having sex and was going to have sex or was planning to have sex and he hadn't told her.
Toby was going to be a Dad again.
And she was stuck here at Camp David trying to shape the President into a campaign candidate when there was clearly something eating at him that she didn't know about.
Well…this was going to be fun.
And with that thought in mind she squared her shoulders and took her seat at the table.
After all there was work to do. And this kind of work…well…as she had learnt time and time again…it didn't stop for any man or any woman or indeed anyone.
And so they were here. Just here. Always here.
It was just the space in between.
And there you go, we are slowly at the end.
Next Chapter-Jed Bartlett goes to the polls but before he pops open the vodka he wants a word with Harrison. CJ wants to talk to Jake. Andy is pregnant. Sam has some news...but don't worry he is not leaving. All in all the Party at the White House.
