Authors Note: Review for lots of Smut in the next chapter. Let me know who you want her to fuck.
Title: Memories and Unspoken Bonds.
The rain created a dome of cover around the town. High school spent in the rain infested environment, how did I survive?
Pulling out sweatshirt after unflattering sweatshirt. Nothing in the warm clothing would attract the man I was hoping to see today. The last time I had been with him I purposely didn't have the top of my bikini. If I showed up to La Push not looking ready to kill…
My stomach flipped at the memory of last time. How he held me on the beach. Not caring if anyone saw. Pounding me into the sand. My knees weakened at the memory.
The issue is that my rain jacket was bought in Florida. It had no thermal layer to protect me from the bone chilling downpour.
The clock down the hall chimed. I was becoming more and more impatient by the second. Picking up every option, just to find it lacking in every way.
Pulling on my old high school everyday, a mossy brown sweater and jeans. Fuck. Is this what I looked like? No wonder a vampire had tried to marry me. I was so hideous I looked like I would not be noticed. He could have taken me.
I stopped the thought. Shaking off the lingering feelings. No more, I reminded myself.
Zipping up the pink rain jacket, I walked into the downpour. I needed to complete one mission before I attempted to face him.
The bell above the door chimed. Like most rainy days, the store was void of customers. It was still early in the hiking season to get the early morning thru hikers. The hikers that did show up wouldn't arrive at Newton's until the afternoon. That is if they are in desperate need for supplies, and willing to risk an injury hiking on the rain slick forest floor.
My rain soaked jacket clung uncomfortably to my body. Peeling it off, I added it to the one other coat on the hanger. Not waiting to be greeted, I walked to the section I needed. Rain protection lined the aisle. Each one lined with warmth. Every option is cuter than the one I was currently stuck with.
Feeling the soft inner linings. Deciding against sheep fur, due to the difficulty of cleaning cum out of the absorbent fibers. I found one identical to Charlie's, just cut smaller. A drawstring around the middle of the jacket, to help it create a false waist. I wonder what Dad would think about me having a matching jacket with him?
"You are allowed to try things on," Mike teased.
Looking over to him leaning lazily against a hat display at the end of the aisle. Everything about him looks like a picture of ease. All except his pants. Mike might be trying to act cool. Yet I knew how much he wanted me.
"Oh? What are you referring to?" I winked at him.
He took that as the invitation it was. Slowly walking over to me. Pushing my back into the jackets. I leaned towards him, kissing him lightly. He gave me what I needed, pinning me back to the jackets. His tongue explored my mouth as my hands explored his body. I found myself in awe of his form. Mike was hard with muscles. The power of those muscles captured how he held me against his body.
"I was thinking about you," he murmured between willing kisses.
I bit slowly down on his bottom lip. Feeling every bump pop out of my mouth as he pulled. It was swollen when he finally retrieved it.
"When do you want to start back here?" Mike's eyes spoke of more things unsaid.
"When can I start?"
I pulled him back into a kiss. It would be so easy to love Mike. The sex was decent if the fire was anything to go off of. That and he could provide for me. Maybe this would make me happy. A small family, in a small town.
I could have sworn a growl sounded in the back of my mind. I ignored it. Kissing Mike again and again, trying to see this possible future.
"Today?" Mike asked mid kiss.
"Can't today. I made plans"
He grabbed my ass, picking me up and setting me down on the shelf of the hat display.
"Tomorrow then?"
I reached down unbuttoning his pants. Cursing the jeans I decided to wear. I half expected to be wearing one of the imprints pants home. My wolves would have ripped them. Mike was very human as he undressed me. Pulling my pants off. Not caring about the sweater.
Needing the distraction from my thoughts I pulled his cock deep into my core. That was all the invitation Mike needed. The display shook around us as he pumped into me.
"Fuck Bella. I wanted to do this with you so many times in high school."
My excitement mixed with his. Each thrust of his body pushed me closer to my first orgasm of the day. Fingers wrapping in his hair. Pulling his face to mine. Allowing me full access to see just how much he wanted to fuck me. His eyes showed everything. Unlike past lovers. Their eyes showed nothing that was not convenient for them to share. Supernatural secrets that a frail human would never gain full access too. Relationships full of control and threat of loss. Loss that I could not prevent, I am not strong enough to control.
"Then you come in '' Mike was breathing hard. Pulling me out of past trauma.
I pushed my hips up slightly. Changing the angle of his thrusts so that his cock hit my apex. I was so close. Needing this orgasm more. It would prove that I was worth it. That I was good enough.
"Dressed like my old wet dreams. Fuck I needed you"
That pushed me over the edge. I felt the cream spread all over his cock. Mike pulled out of me. Leaving my pussy trembling. His cock spraying all over my sweater.
The destruction of my least favourite sweater was a fair payment for sex on the hat display. Mike looked satisfied with his work.
"We have a laundry room here. I can wash that for you" he offered.
Slowly I pulled the sweater over my head. Revealing the lacy see through green bra I had on underneath.
"Fuck. Did you wear that in high school too?" Mike brushed a finger along the bra. My nipples stood at attention for him.
"No. Most the time in high school I wore nothing at all under"
Mike looked ready for round two. If his sex drive stayed like this into middle age, he would be a satisfying partner.
"Parents still haven't hooked up the cameras yet?" I asked
When I worked here they made a point of trying to understand the new security system. They never truly accomplished that. Only having the cameras up as a decoy.
"I fixed them when I took over"
"So we just… on camera?"
"If it makes anything better, I am the only one with access to the footage."
I rolled my eyes at him. Grabbing the female coat that looks like Charlie's. Covering my top with the comforting flannel.
"For my payment for starring in your personal porn. I will take this jacket"
"You could take way more than that" Mike sounded hopeful.
Looking into his eyes, I could see the response that he wanted. He would provide for me if I chose him. Would it be fair to him though? I am fucked up. Too fucked up for a mere human to understand. Not to mention I would never be able to fully explain why I woke up screaming.
Pushing the thought aside, I planted a kiss on his lips. Lingering longer then was safe. Not wanting to run the risk of him thinking this was more than what it is. Whatever fucked up shit this was.
"See you tomorrow" Mike breathed against my lips.
I bit my bottom lip, nodding. Not trusting myself to speak. Mind turning and running in ways I did not need Mike to know.
Making my leave, I abandoned the old jacket on the rack. It was always a smart idea to have an extra rain jacket at work. Never want to be caught in a storm with a white shirt and no coat.
I turned my truck to the road I knew all too well. It wasn't long until I noticed a wolf running alongside my truck. Slowing I pulled into a hidden road. The rain did not let up as I turned down the too familiar path.
I felt the thump of weight in the box of my truck. How much trouble did I want to get in today? I knew that if I continued driving down this road I would be punished for not stopping the truck.
It was a signal that we decided during my break up. Too often I needed to drive down to the Rez. Trying desperately to escape the haunting eyes of a Vampire at hunt. If a shapeshifter jumped into the box of my truck I was to pull over and unlock my truck.
I let myself go for another half mile. Seeing the turn I wanted. Once out of sight of the original path I pulled over stopping my truck.
Leaving the truck locked I leaned back in my seat. Eyes closed. I knew why the pack was so demanding and protective. Yet, it was frustrating sometimes, like now. All I wanted was to go to the rainy beach and forget. Memories have been chasing me all morning. I didn't need that to dampen my time with my friends. Even if they didn't always understand when I needed time alone.
The knock on my window was a question, not a demand. Opening my eyes to see Embry standing in the rain. Unlocking my door, Embry reached in unbuckling my seat belt before moving me to the passenger side.
"You okay?" He whispered.
"As okay as I can be I guess" I murmured back.
His strong arms picked me up as he slid under me. I leaned against him as we both watched as the world appeared to melt. The rain is blurring the view. Embry placed a kiss on my neck.
"I missed you"
"I missed you to Embry"
His hands moved, deepening the hug. The warmth radiated safety. I allowed myself to remember all the times these hands had helped me. After the first time Edward-
"Hey. You are safe. Forget about him" Embry cooed.
"How did you know I was thinking about him?"
Embry drew a long deep breath.
"I saw you driving in. You scared me. Bella, your face was the same as when we had been in high school. Dead and blank. I feared that we missed something. That he snuck through our defenses. He wasn't here today was he?"
"No"
"Good. But you do smell of another male. Humans, I can tell. Though none of us know what a leach's seed would smell on you."
I shuddered. "I knew what that smell would be. Sickly sweet."
"Bella. Who was it?" I could hear the concern in Embry's voice.
"Mike"
"Mike? Like the one who practically proposed to you in high school Mike?"
"Same same"
"Was he good?"
"Not bad for humans. Definitely had worse"
"Interesting"
Embry shifted me into the passenger's seat once my body stopped shaking. He drove us down the familiar path. Knowing without my request that I wasn't ready to see any of the other pack mates yet. Driving us to a familiar peek on a cliff overlooking the turning sea below.
Embry reached under the bench seat. Pulling out a battered copy of Wuthering Heights. Opening it to his marked spot, I could see the tension leave his shoulders as he settled into the book. I let myself zone into nothing but the waves hitting an outcropping of rocks. Every wave overpowering the rock cleared my mind. I was able to focus on the here and now. Unlike when I was with Mike. He brought up the memories of Edward. I had only seen Mike during the hardest parts of my life. I moved away because he had suggested that we could become something more. That he would marry me, do whatever I needed of him for me to be okay again. Mike drew me from the fog that Edward had placed over me. When I left I did not tell Mike no. Yet, fuck, I fucked him at the bonfire. I asked him for a job. I had recorded sex with him this morning. Maybe I am not good enough for human love. Maybe I am too fucked up.
"Embry?"
"Sup?"
"Have you ever wanted an imprint?"
"Where is this question coming from?"
"It's just that if it was a possibility for me. I think I would be terrified."
"Why?"
"Embry. You saw me driving here. Lost in memories and trauma. You drew me out of them just now. How could I expect anyone to love me when I am truly fucked up?"
Embry reached across to me. Pulled me close for a hug. He kissed the top of my hair. My body shook with unshed tears. I let Embry hold me. He had never tried to become anything more than this. Then the brotherly feelings I had for him. With him I could be my messed up self. With him I was good enough. We sat in my car until the glass fogged and we could no longer see the waves below. My tears had dried as Embry held me.
Wolf howls sounded in the distance.
"Do you need to go see what that is about?" I asked.
"We should yeah. It's Emily's birthday. So we are both expected to attend the bonfire- only if you are able to go. I can make up a good reason to not attend. I haven't used I am waiting for the zombie apocalypse to get out of anything in a while.
"Sam hadn't mentioned it"
"Sam?"
"You haven't phased together?"
"Oh. You and Sam. That makes more sense. I am proud of you."
"Proud of me?"
"Yeah. You finished another year of school. You forget that I was on the phone with you. I know how hard you worked."
I kissed his cheek. Well, then we should be on our way. I wiped at my face trying to hide any noticeable tear marks. Embry held my hand the entire way to Emilie's.
Authors Note: What do you think about Embry?