Note: I mentioned from last chapter about Emma's life that Regina had no knowledge of a blonde woman. This chapter contains rape and drug based Emma's experience with drugs. Flashback is coming back. Also, this is Emma's dream through her stay in Storybrooke.

First of all, I researched topics related drugs. If you don't want to read this chapter based on drug topic then you have to wait until next chapter.

Second, I want to thank you guys to follow me and this story. I hope this story gets good. : D Enjoy your chapter.

Third, I will post a new chapter based on Regina's Point of View about adopting Henry included the flashbacks and Sidney Glass with the file.

Chapter 5: Demons Caught Your Tongue

While the night is young, the cold air burst through inside Emma's room. She felt cold and grabbed a blanket to cuddle with. In her dreams, it haunted her every night. She couldn't stand by seeing her memories when she was 17 before meeting her first love, Neal. Tossing around on the bed and screaming through the night, no one outside heard her voice. Until she woke up and sweat on her body. Her panting came hard. Finally she ran to a bathroom and washed her face with cold water.

Looking up on the mirror and she keep staring at herself on the reflection. Her memories kept in loop when she went to sleep every night. But she got scared. It was difficult for her to forget her worst memories.

Emma was walking back to the bed and lying down for a while. She decided to call Dr. Maxine but looked at the clock – it was 3am. She sighed aloud and dialing Dr. Maxine's cell. She was waiting for response. But it came to a voicemail.

"Hello. This is Dr. Maxine; can I be of your assistance? If you feel unsure about calling me then please see me in person. But at this moment, I am unavailable at your request. I'm sorry. I will receive your message when I am available. 'Beep'."

"Hi. Emma here, I am in Storybrooke, Maine and I'm on a vacation for few days. Anyway, I am calling you because of my nightmares related my experiences when I was 18 through 24. So, please call me back if you got my message. Thank you. See you." She hung up and tossing her phone on the bedside table.

Meanwhile, she was thinking and went to grab her journal out from her duffel bag. The journal contained her memories and nightmares while she feels upset or can't sleep. It helped her to heal through her years. She is thankful that she paid for therapy sessions since she got out from rehab for drugs.

Through her experiences with the drugs since she became 18 after she was given birth to Henry. It was mildly aggressive at first but in control. Until few years later, it got worse and she was addicted. In her knowledge of the drugs, she was an undercover on the case for bail bonds firm but her co-workers had no clue about her drugs record. She was very good at hiding her expressions while she was on drugs.

- Flashback -

On her 18th birthday, Emma strolled around in Boston and saw some drug dealers on the street. She heard some brand of drugs were illegal in local. Her curiosity got her on risk. That's how she got on drugs for first time. She decided to try one of illegal drug – Cocaine. She walked toward the drug dealers across on the streets near a demolished factory. The drug dealers scattered everywhere to be hidden. But one of them stayed in public.

"Hello. What are you doing? Is that cocaine?" She looked down at his hands, holding a full bag of cocaine. It looked like a sugar. Looking back at him and waiting for his response.

The description of a drug dealer was a white man who deals with cocaine for users and traders. He wore a white t-shirt with words that says 'U Mad Bro' with loose blue jeans and white shoes. She remembered him several times while she was taking a walk through from her work to her apartment everyday.

"Yo. Yeah, it is cocaine. So I am here to chill around. What's about you, my fine lady?" He ogled at her and mentally wanted her for a fuck and get out scenario. Emma didn't know that he was on cocaine. "I just pass through and see around here. What kind of trades?" She was curious about trades and heard some rumors on cocaine – the best illegal drug in Boston. But it was hard to find locals to sell it. Cocaine was popular over in Boston.

"Lady, look, it is none of your business. Trades are my deals but not yours. Understand me?" He paused and looked at her face. He continued. "Want to try it? I can tell by your looks. You never tried it before."

Emma felt uncomfortable when he flirted with her because of her beauty. "I never tried it before. So how does it work?" Her curiosity got deepens by studying his looks. "Show me how it works."

A drug dealer chuckled. "You got balls of fire. All right, let me explain how it works by steps. It is very simple to do that. Are you sure? I don't want you to get trouble."

"Yeah, Don't you think? Show me." She smirked.

"Ok, my lady. You got it. Let's go back to my office and let's show." He walked toward the demolished building and went downstairs behind a cracked door. Emma followed him along. Until, they arrived to his office. He turned around to face her and continued. "You have to swear yourself that you don't tell anybody that we are here because it was illegal to be trespassing in here." She nodded and shook hands with him.

"Good. First, your name. I have to write down on every trades and deals." He was serious on his business. Emma gulped and figured out who she is without finding out she was on undercover for bail bonds firm. "Julie Bellatrix, what's your name?" She arched her eyebrow.

"Me? Jesse Santiago." He chuckled. "Now, Julie let's show you how it works with cocaine. But I warn you that you will feel different after using drug. I can't promise you. Understood?" She nodded.

Jesse gathered his knife and paper for keeping it clean on the desk. He turned around and walked to find his small bag of cocaine in back room. Then he came back and poured a small amount of it on paper. "You see a small amount. It can take you to absorb from your nose to this piece. After you're done with a small amount, you just breathe and wipe your nose to get white spot off. Then you will be fine in few minutes. Sounds good to you?" He waited for her response.

Emma was feeling nauseous to hear from his explanation. She knew how to do that before because she watched her foster parents with different drugs when she was living. But it's painful to watch them. She avoided thinking about it but continued to do that from the steps that he told her.

"Yes. It's clear to explain the steps." She sighed. She walked to the desk and breathed deeply. She sat down and stared. She absorbed a small amount of cocaine on her nose then stood up and wiped her nose. Feeling dizzy but on high for few minutes. She shook her head and turned around to face him. Hearing his words to call her for few minutes.

"Julie? Are you ok? You absorbed too fast. It caused you to be dizzy. But in few minutes, you will be fine. I'm sure." Jesse walked toward her and gently shook her shoulder.

"Yes. I am fine right now. So, how long does it take last?" Emma asked. He looked up at her and mentally worked on the plan to take her for a fuck and get out scenario. He laughed aloud. He shook his head and continued. "I don't know. But I can say by my experience, when you feel something calming then the effects will be off. I don't know about you. But for individuals, I couldn't speak for them than I do."

"Oh ok. Thank you. I think I better go and thanks for the demonstration." She smiled and walked out but heard his shaky voice. She turned around but didn't realize that Jesse was very closer in inches. She gulped and felt his hands on her arms. She tried to struggle but couldn't get out. He was stronger to grip her tightly.

"You can't get out of here. You have to stay." He laughed at her face. She was feeling alarming.

Jesse held her like a hostage and walked to an empty room behind a back room. She was worried that he was leading her to that room. She panicked. Her mind was whirling in the circles. She looked back to his face and saw his eyes. She gasped.

His blue eyes are on fire. His mischievously smile got bright. She heard the door slam and locked behind him. Her panicking got worse but she was feeling anxiety. Fantasizing the scene with him is getting worse. She felt like she is in a dream. Her drug effects were affecting her to hallucinate. Her breathing got rambling.

Jesse grabbed a long rope and walked to her. He tied the rope around her hands then hooked on the hanger on the ceiling. She looked up on the ceiling. She didn't realize that she was crying. Looking back at him, she wanted to vomit and to stop him from getting what he wants.

"Oh. Julie, you are crying. Don't worry. You will feel better afterward this one." He grinned. She shook her head and continued. "No, Jesse. I meant it. No."

He walked around in the circle then stood behind her. She was shaking. Her thoughts were in fire. 'Emma, you are doing a wrong thing. You're stupid to overlook on everything. You are in danger. Or you just didn't know him at all. You are a loser'

She felt his knife on her back but heard his blow on her neck. She closed her eyes. He teased her like a prostitute. He ripped her t-shirt into a torn shirt. He laughed. "You're beautiful." She struggled to get away from him but it didn't work. He unclasped her bra and it dropped on the ground.

Emma looked down on her body and whimpered. Jesse moved his hands on hips to the breasts. He chuckled and continued squeezing on her breasts. Then he unbuttoned her blue jeans and pulled it down on the ground. He looked up at her eyes.

"You are more beautiful I have seen. Are you fucking sexy?" He sniggered. She looked at him like she wanted to murder him. She breathed hard. "You sick bastard!"

He raised his eyebrows above the hairline. "You slut!" She gasped. He ripped her underwear. Her core was dripping. She gulped. He looked down then looked up. "You got wet." He giggled.

Emma whimpered and felt the cold air on her body. Her screams were raspy. Jesse unbuttoned his jeans and pulled his brief off. He walked and gripped her legs to spread. She writhed to close her legs but couldn't. Jesse leaned and handed his cock to her core. He inched his cock to enter her core. He thrust his cock hard.

Hearing her gasps and screams at same time. But the room was soundproof. No one heard the voices at all. She felt her cock inside her. It got deepened. Emma cried.

Jesse pumped in and out harder. He ripped her vagina by thrusting tightly. He felt her walls to tighten. They were breathing shallow. He continued to drive her crazy. Till, she screamed loudly.

Emma was throbbing and crying at same time. He slowed down and got his cock out. He touched her cheek and gripped her chin to look at him. His lips crashed on her pale lips. Then he broke a kiss. He unhooked and used a knife to cut the rope.

She fell on the ground and crawled away from him but she can't feel her legs. She sobbed. Her breathing tightened and she looked up at him. Hearing his words hit her hard.

"Julie, get your slut out of here and I don't want to see you. You bitch!" Jesse pulled his brief and jeans. He observed at her longer and cackled. He walked to the door and unlocked. He turned around to see her one more time then he left.

Emma felt disgusting when she saw her blood on her thighs. The air got shallow. She slowly stood by leaning on the wall. She limped toward her clothes and clothed her. She looked around and sobbed then walked out by the door.

- Flashback -

The knocking got interrupted. Emma was startled by the noise. She heard her name by a waitress, Ruby. She looked around to see the clock and it was 9 o'clock in morning. Then she looked back to the door and wondered what she does. She remembered writing on her journal.

"Emma? Are you there?" Ruby called her outside by the door and knocked three times.

"Y…Yes, I am here." Emma swallowed. Her breathing tightened. She was not sure about opening the door. She realized that she is half-naked. She closed the journal and tossing it on the end of bedpost. Emma ran to her duffel bag then took the blue jeans, Big & Rich t-shirt and lingerie. But she heard her from the door again. The door is still closed but they were conversing through the door.

"Ok, I wanted to make sure that you are here because I just heard screams from your room. But I wanted to know that you are okay." The silence was paused. Ruby was anxious to hear her guest's voice.

"Oh. I don't know. Um… But thank you for checking me up. Have a good day Ruby." Emma waited.

"Ok Emma. You are welcome. You better catch your breakfast because it is already 9 in the morning." Ruby said cheerfully.

"Thank you for informing me. I will be right there in 10 minutes. Is it ok?" Her stomach grumbled. They laughed. "Ok. See you then!" Ruby grinned and walked away from the door to the diner for her morning shift.

Emma was relieved that Ruby was gone. She looked around her inn room and looked at her hands that are holding clothes, leather boots and red leather jacket. She ran to the bathroom for getting ready. Then she marched to bedside table to receive her car keys, phone and wallet. Finally, she strode out from her inn room then strolled to the diner for breakfast.

Note: I've been working on this chapter 5 since few hours but it was hard for me to create a chapter related on drug topic. Whew. Unfortunately, there will be more chapters about her life.

Coming up is Regina's Point of View on Adopting Henry and Emma Swan's file from Sidney Glass.

You have to hold your pants. You have to wait for Regina and Emma to meet again soon. I meant sooner. :-D

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Thank you. J.