A/N: Hey guys! Back again, hope you like it!
Maybe it's because he lives alone for a year, or maybe it's because he's incapable of expressing his true emotions to others, or maybe it's just because he's stubbornly independent.
It's likely all three.
Regardless of the reason though, he just needs some space.
Some time for himself.
Because as much as he loves Jason, he really doesn't want to talk to him right now. Doesn't want to hear about whatever is going on or all about what's going on with Piper.
Normally, he would. He likes hearing about his best friend's life, likes being his confidant.
But not today.
Today he just wants to be by himself.
It's not even because he's the only single one in his friend group as some people probably think.
He just wants to be alone.
It's not always lonely being alone. He likes having the space for himself, especially since he doesn't demand it with his friends, giving instead of taking it.
So he needs to recharge. Give himself the space that no one ever seems to be able to provide. (Granted he doesn't really give them many opportunities, but he always finds himself disappointed when he does. He knows he needs to lower his expectations and open up more, but it feels too impossible. It's a problem for another time really.)
It's easier to just be by himself and take the time and space he gives to himself.
He hates lying but he just can't bring himself to answer the call when Jason's name flashes on the screen.
He has nothing to give right now.
The night is quiet, and he lets himself cuddle in bed, watching million dollar house tours on YouTube. Maybe he'll make himself a drink, tea or hot chocolate, or maybe workout, take a shower, read a book, any number of things.
But they'd be what he wants to do. By himself. With his own music playing as he sorts through his own thoughts.
He doesn't check his phone because Jason's missed call makes him feel bad.
But he needs this.
He probably won't ever tell anyone. Not with how closed off he is. (It's been getting worse ever since Jason got into a relationship because now he feels like he doesn't want to share anything about his own romantic prospects. Even though he knows Jason would be supportive, he just doesn't want to hear it).
There's probably a whole lot more to unravel there, but he'd rather do it in his own head with himself in the bath or something than talk it out with Jason.
It's probably not the best thing, but he's learned that no one can give him the space he gives himself. Plus after this, he'll feel better anyway, no need to bother anyone else.
So he ignores the call and settles in bed with a content sigh, ready to spend the night free of anyone else's burden other than his own.
Tomorrow he'll be more than ready to pick it all up again, but tonight, he just needs this.
He needs his space.
A/N: This is also me. I need some time and space away from people to just do my own thing. Pretty much everything Percy feels in this, I feel. And I wanted to share it with you guys because writing is my release.
The page gives me the space I feel like no one else does, it listens endlessly. Writing is quite literally my therapy, and this series especially where I am the most honest about things in my life than anywhere else. I want to thank you for reading this, this piece of me no one else really knows about but now you do.
And if any of you do this, I want you to know you're not alone and it's more than okay to take some time for yourself. You don't always have to give to others, you can give to yourself too.
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