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Chapter 11 – Can we Let Go?
Memories of last night washed over his mind, as he lay there in bed, soaking in the sun's graze. He felt as though he was walking on air. He looked down to see chichi curled up and fast asleep on his chest, his fingers drawing small circles on the back of her shoulders. Her hair spiralled over her shoulders and his chest, it had grown longer since the last time he saw her in this state. He never thought he would feel this comfort again, everything that stressed him, caused him tension and pain, it all washed away all because he had her. It was perfect. In his mind he sensed mixed emotions
…..
In Vegito's Mind
'Congratulations Kakarott, you got what you wanted' Vegeta huffed
'Thank You Vegeta, You let me have her back'
'You realise this won't end well, for either of us but especially our women!' He huffed as Goku sighed
'I know….but I can't begin to care. I got my wife back' he said
'Yeah well I hope your proud of yourself, cause now you made this body betray Bulma'
'It betrayed Chichi too! I let you Have your moments with Bulma on more than one occasion. I wanted chichi more than anything!'
'And now you've had her, but what makes you think there will be second time? Will we tell Bulma what we did here?' Vegeta asked as Goku lowered his head. He knew both he and Vegeta will be fighting about this, and this will take its Toll on Vegito Physically.
…..
Vegito rubbed his temple a little sore, he felt as though he was getting a headache of some sorts. As he groand, Chichi shifted a little and she slowly opened her eyes and sighed. She looked to her surroundings and noticed she was resting on a chest, not just any chest, Vegito's. She turned her head and looked to him and softly smiled, his fingers grazing her cheek softly.
'Hi' he smiled
'Hi' she replied 'I…Last…..was…..'
'There's no words' Vegito kissed lips sweetly, Chichi allowed herself to get lost in his embrace, she felt alive again. All thanks to him. They pulled away from the other as she rested her head on his chest, drawing circles on his pecs, his fingers intertwining in her hair, chichi felt happy, but she also was afraid. She sighed, catching his attention.
'What is it?' he asked
'You know what' she replied as he then frowned, Chichi sat up and looked at him, lying down with a an arm behind his head
'Do you regret this?' he asked as she looked him, her eyes happy but also sad
'No I don't. Because I love you' she answered 'That still doesn't make this right'
'Says who? You? You just said you don't regret this'
'I know, but…. What about Bulma? I've gone behind her back, and I can never take it back'
'Chichi, Bulma was with me too' he replied 'what we did is no different'
'How can you say that? You and Bulma are together, what we have done. Its deceitful, and unfair and…'
'Phenomenal!' Vegito sat up look her in the eyes 'I love Bulma yes. But I love you too, I don't know if its more but I Do Love you, What we did was done out of love' he whispered as she then smiled softly
'I know, and I do love I just… I love Goku More' she whispered as he scrunched his face
'I know that, I'm right here'
'But you're not are you?' she asked as her eyes watered. He understood what she meant 'you say you're here but your not completely, because Vegeta is here too, he'd always be here and I know he didn't want this, just like you didn't want Bulma'
'But…..'
'I know you want me, and I will always want you, because I love you so much. But I won't deny Bulma the same love. She needs you. And you need her'
'I need you too!'
'I know. But she needs you more. You and I both know that.'
'Don't ask me to leave you chi' he pleaded as she began to cry a little
'Look at me' she turned his face to look at her 'You and me, we have been through so much together, and I survived the last 7 years because you taught me what it means to be strong. And I love you for that, we don't have to forget each other Vegito….. But we have to let eachother go' she whispered, small tears running down her cheeks.
'I can't leave you, not again' he said as she sighed
'Vegito, you and me…. I know we have feelings, but you and I both know, this wouldn't go down well. We don't want to rob Bulma of happiness' she cried
'What about yours?' He stroked her face wiping away her tears
'I'll be fine, I have my children'
'But not me'
'Vegito, even though what we did was….amazing, it doesn't change the fact that it was deceitful. I can't do this again, we can't do this again. As soon as you leave this room, we are never doing this again'
'Chichi you can't expect me to forget you'
'No, but you do have to let me go. We have to accept this is who you are now. Not Goku or Vegeta. Your Vegito.'
'Chichi please can you honestly expect us to forget. Ask yourself, Can we let Go?' he asked as she kissed his lips sweetly and sighed.
'I love you but we can't do this again, you know this. Please say you know this' she pleaded as he sighed and rested his head on hers
'I do' he whispered her tears flowing down her cheeks, she throws on her robe and goes to open the door for him, but he quickly closes it.
'No!' he said
'What?'
'You said as soon as we leave the room, we'll forget this happened. Well….. I'm not ready to leave yet.' He said and pressed her against the wall and kissed her hard, Chichi knew he had a point and if she was honest, she wasn't ready yet either. She wanted to make the most of the time they had before they had to let the other go.
…..
Chichi was left alone again. Vegito had left her to return to Bulma, she knew they had to be together, but it was like she had lost her love all over again and it broke her, she swiped the stuff off her dresser and collapsed on the floor crying. It was all over, she was never gonna get him back.
'What did I do to deserve this!? Am I a bad person!? Seriously did I do something so terrible to deserve such a punishment? It Hurts! It hurts so bad! I just want him Back!' She cried her eyes out for another 30 minutes.
After she had a long hard cry, she took some deep breathes and wiped away her tears, for now and looked at herself in the mirror and huffed. She needed to be strong now. For the sake of her boys, she needed to let go of him. It was for the best, but it didn't stop it hurting like hell though. She listened to the music quietly playing on her radio and quietly began to sing along.
(Must have been love...
But it's over now.)
Lay a whisper
On my pillow
Leave the winter
On the ground
I wake up lonely
There's air of silence
In the bedroom
And all around
(All around)
Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away.
Chichi got up and walked across her room tidying the up the room as she pictured the fond memories of everything that had happened, she could feel warmth and happiness in her memories, but it was quickly followed by her heartbreak. Whether she thought about all those times she and Goku were there together or when she thought about her and Vegito and what they had done, either way it was amazing to think about, but it was also upsetting.
It must have been love
But it's over now
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow
It must have been love
But it's over now
From the moment we touched
'Til the time had run out.
She walked across her corridor and walked past all of her pictures, her with her father, her with friends, her with her children and of course the pictures with the man she loved she picked up a wedding photo of her and Goku, Goku held her in his arms as she laughed in his arms, feeling very much in love, she placed the photo face down, she couldn't look at it, it was too painful. How could she remember a day so special when all it brought up was sadness, because she knew she wasn't gonna feel that happy again. Her and Goku had been through a lot together, they had 2 kids together, they would bring her joy of course. But even they couldn't fill that certain hole in her heart.
Make-believing
We're together
That I'm sheltered
By your heart
But in and outside
I've turned to water
Like a teardrop
In your palm
And it's a hard
Winter's day
I dream away.
She went to her kitchen and leaned on her counter, not exactly sure what to do with herself, she wasn't sure if she wanted to scream into the sky what she had done to deserve such a cruel fate, or to just collapse to the floor and drown in her own tears. A part of Vegito loved her, and she loved a part of him, but they could never be together.
It must have been love
(Must have been love)
But it's over now
(But it's over now)
It was all that I wanted
Now I'm living without
It must have been love
(Must have been love)
But it's over now
It's where the water flows
It's where the wind blows.
As much as Chichi wanted him, because she could feel Goku's presence, she could never take Vegeta away from Bulma, she had done nothing wrong. So why should she suffer for her gain? It was bad enough she had now betrayed Bulma, she hoped to god she would never find out, Vegito and her agreed it was best to never say anything to anyone. And now they had to leave the other alone, it was gonna be hard, because she now knew how much she loved him. She tried to hide it for so long but not anymore, for now she wanted to break down and grieve for the fact she was never gonna get Her Goku back. Ever!
It must have been love
(Must have been love)
But it's over now
(But it's over now)
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow
It must have been love
(Must have been love)
But it's over now
(But it's over now)
From the moment we touched
'Til the time had run out.
Goku and her had been through so much, and she knew she would always love him and she knew she wouldn't want anyone if it wasn't him, despite her relations with Vegito, she felt so close to Goku. She could only imagine what Vegito was thinking, she hoped he wasn't hurting as much as she was. She wouldn't want him to be hurt, but she could understand his pain, she and him were connected, they always will be.
Yeah
It must have been love
(It must have been love)
But it's over now
(But it's over now)
It was all that I wanted
Now I'm living without
It must have been love
But it's over now
It's where the water flows
It's where the wind blows.
Oh
It must have been love
But it's over now
(But it's over now)
(But it's over now)
Now I'm all alone
(It must have been love)
It must have been love
(But it's over now)
But it's over now
Now I'm all alone...
'I….Can't do this….. I need him! I can't….!' Chichi crouched down on the kitchen floor and sobbed, and sobbed, and sobbed, and sobbed. She was broken, and she hated it. She hated it, because she was in love.
Kinda sad I know. I thought of that song for ages, I thought it was perfect for this. Its called 'It must have been love' By Roxette. So beautiful yet the lyrics are so sad. So anyway I hope you guys liked it I will be back with more soon, so for now I will bid you goodbye. For now! Xx
Penelope Out ;)