Two times now. Two time she had slipped out of my life because she thought it was 'the best thing to do.' Two times she had decided for us to end our relationship because I was Mortal, and didn't understand her world, and couldn't hope to even if I tried. She saw me as someone who was so fundamentally unlike her, that we may as well have been entirely different fucking species. What does she think she's gonna get from getting on the back of a motorbike with a guy straight out of Grease is gonna give her that I can't. He's a Caster. He can give her what you never could. But I love her, and I always will, surely that's enough. A relationship, a stable one that their bodies don't physiologically reject out of hand. There's ways around that, it's not like every time we kiss something is set on fire.

An understanding of what it's like to be an outcast, hated by everyone and understood by no one. Not even you. I may not understand what it's like to be her, but I understand her far better than anyone else in this town, maybe even more than her own family. Our minds are connected for God's sake. A future that is actually going somewhere. Now I'm just talking crazy. Lena will slowly become like Ridley, giving into the Dark side of herself as she loses the Light. Lena already claimed herself, she would never let that happen. Teaming up with Sarafine to achieve the goal of destroying the Mortal world. No, that could never become reality, she'd rather die than become like her despised mother. A leather and biker style wedding with Mystery Man. Okay, now I've crossed a line.

I'd let my imagination run wild. That would never happen right? If she needed any proof of how much I fucking loved her that last sentence about a wedding between the two scared me a thousand times more than the literal End of Days. And yet here I was, for the second time in a few months, contemplating how I was going to get the best thing to happen to me, back to me. Is it even worth it? Don't be stupid of course it is. There's nothing more worth it in the world. That little voice had been shut up, for now. It seemed like crazy talk, but it was valuable motivation to ensure I got her back before she dropped even deeper into the recesses of her own fears, doubts and emotions. I had to get to her, before it was too late.

I had to get her to remember the good times. The times when it felt like we were dancing on a fallen star, the times when it felt like me and her were the only two people in the world. The fact that every time she came up to me, it felt like coming back home from a long, tiring, boring and expensive trip. The times when we shared the universe in between our interlocked hands. The moments when I would lie on her chest listening to her heartbeat, looking up at her and falling in love every single time I looked into those glowing green beautiful eyes of hers. The times when it felt like I was a Caster myself due to the fact she could turn my whole world upside down with a single action. The sheer joy I felt when she said I love you for the first time. All the other firsts we shared together. When we were together there was no comparison, when we were apart there was nothing I wouldn't do to be with her. That's why I'm coming Lena. Whether you know it or not, I need to save us both.