Preordained to Fall: A SubKam One-shot collection
Notes: Here is the first short in a series of one-shots/AU shorts for SubKam. It's been some time since I finished Ambrosia. But I have been writing during this time to create a Subaru/Kamui wedding special/epilogue. I'm planning on having this up for Valentine's Day or a little before. Not sure if I'll add another chapter epilogue or make it a one-shot. Either way, it can essentially be read as a read-alone or another epilogue tying in with the main story.
This is a short teaser. But I wanted to add something new to the SubaruxKamui section. And omega verse because there's none I know of for X.
This first chapter is fluff/romance and starts with a T rating. The rating will likely go up but I will add the rating for each one-shot in case anyone feels more like a light BL or smut/passionate BLI will likely have a series of Omegaverse shorts that may or may not connect together. And with different dynamics.
Chapter Description: Omegaverse SubKam. Kamui finds himself at odds with a certain change in his body. After getting out of a heart-rending relationship, he never expected he could ever fall so hard again.
Subaru is his boyfriend now, incredibly kind, patient, and beautiful inside and out. Always going above and beyond to make him happy.
Their relationship had been going at a slow but steady pace, being together for a few months. But just presenting as an Omega, going into pre-Heat right before one of their dates? Kamui finds himself in a panic state. They only recently said "I love you", how could he possibly impose any further on their relationship? Kamui worries it'll be too much on the still blossoming relationship, that Subaru would only be helping him to be kind... not at all on his own heart's desires. But is that really the truth?
In short: Kamui presents as an omega unexpectedly. He finds his boyfriend is the sweetest person ever who takes care of his every need.
Chapter 1: Unexpected
Red Strings, Fate, Love, Heartache, Falling once more again…
The past few months have been a nonstop rollercoaster for Shirou Kamui.
His fingers clutch tightly upon the edges of an old darkened frame. Within the frame shows a treasured memory that now only brings aching heartache. A picture of Kamui and Fuuma, clad in their long black school uniforms. Taken during Kamui's first year of high school. Being so close, standing side by side, their shoulders brushing. Kamui's lips displayed a dreamy smile. His ex-boyfriend smiled so innocently, holding a hand upon Kamui's shoulder blade protectively.
Slowly, but assuredly Kamui places the frame face down into an old storage container. He seals the lid shut, leaving the past to rest.
It would not be fair for himself nor his new love if he held on like this. Kamui's gaze lingered over the frame, chest aching at the thought that pleasant memories were solely memories.
He was for the first time in a long time…able to smile. Still, he found himself wondering what happened.
'Why did you have to change…? What was the reason? I had lost my own Mother and we both suffered from Kotori's tragic and unexpected passing...'
But for a while, at least, that only made Fuuma more doting and protective of Kamui. The latter male, couldn't deny he liked that side of Fuuma.
Even possessive streaks ignited a spark inside him for those first years dating… But Something changed… or perhaps there always lay that hidden darkness bearing deep inside.
Until it finally came to an end… He didn't think he had the will to end things and think of falling again, before Subaru. His current love had been there, helping him realize the once passionate, intense, and rough form of intimacy he shared with Fuuma, had long since crossed the line. A line of pleasure and pain until love bites became gashes, harsh enough to break the skin, licking blood and nearly breaking a limb for the sake of sexual gratification.
'Just what changed in you? Is it somehow an extreme result after you have presented as an Alpha?'
His ex, Monou Fuuma, shared a lot of typical traits of the secondary gender. Tall, broad, confident, and incredibly powerful. He met every bit of what one would expect to see as an Alpha. Absolutely no one had been surprised when he presented early in middle school.
Whilst Kamui had yet to show signs of anything, before today...
Kamui rapidly shook his head, flushing, and back to focusing. 'No, no no. I can't keep making excuses. Subaru is far from that and he is still an alpha all the same.
That reveal came to both of their surprises. Subaru, when he presented himself at 16, and Kamui, found out shortly after they met. He and Subaru connected so naturally, they knew each other inside and out.
Subaru is tall, with broad shoulders, and thin but with lean muscle. He's spiritually gifted, and a leader… but never fits the negative stereotypes of Alphas.
Never one to be aggressive, arrogant, territorial… No, his Subaru is so kind, compassionate, soft-spoken, and exceedingly calm. Yet, even so, gentle and tender his heart didn't know how to calm in the older male's presence
So what changed with his former lover? If not even his presentation could excuse him….
Perhaps the truth would be the most painful reason. That Fuuma never changed, having this side of him buried deep for some time now, ready to rise to the surface.
But surprisingly… He had been alright. Transferring to CLAMP school was the best decision of his life. Not just for the fresh start and new environment, new housing… Those were helpful, but the best still had yet to come.
Kamui, out of intrigue, heard about a special guest lecturer having something to do with the spiritual field.
Attending a special event had been one of his best decisions in life. The event was crowded, led by a certain Onmyouji, who went up as a guest lecturer. Kamui couldn't tear his eyes away. They locked eyes more than a few times…
Something possessed Kamui to stay post lectures until after the room had cleared out.
And he was glad he did.
From there it was history, they'd be inseparable. The changes had only been for the better. They helped each other overcome past traumas and broken relationships.
In the past few months, they finally came to acknowledge their feelings.
Lately, there has been a specific change.
The biggest problem lies…right now. Kamui can barely look at himself in the mirror, flushed a crimson red from the neck up.
Everything felt like fire. His sweet, enchanting scent spewed through his dorm room.
Never in his life…not in the past 18 years has he ever presented any signs of anything?…
But just barely two months of dating Subaru, and this happens?
Kamui assumed he would be with the majority, a beta. And for that ability to blend in well enough without worries of having his heats or ruts…nor being affected so highly by others' scents, he felt fortunate. In a way that seemed like a blessing. He had never been so reactive before now…
'Subaru can't see me like this….' Kamui thinks, violet eyes shifting around panic. He glances down, breathing in deeply to accept his fate. With the tightness in his jeans and the pool of a slick liquid staining his backside, there was no denying what was coming.
Before Subaru, this had never happened…nothing even close. It should be fine, but despite their powerful connection and new love blossoming.. they had never actually done it.
He recalls his late mother's telling him stories of belief held that some would present or have the most reactive symptoms only when meeting their 'fated pair'...The idea was romantic and pleasant to Kamui's mind, but feeling it could bring pressure. He didn't want his boyfriend to feel he had to be with him because fate dictated it. He needed to know Subaru chose him, forever…
But the thought of being Subaru's love forever brought out an immeasurably amount of happiness. His heart flutters, and his stomach starts doing backflips.
This new revelation…meant they were even more compatible than he realized. There was a lot of good…. but the timing was not so much. Breathing a lengthy, breathy sigh, mind full of Subaru Kamui emits a scent. The sweet scent of lilac, violet and lavender fled through the air.
"I probably won't be able to go out like this either, not for long anyway…" Kamui groans, burying his flushed face deep into the pillow. "I'll need to call and cancel our date but…" he bit his lip a wave of sadness, rushing through him at the thought of being apart during this. His soft floral scent drowned through a painful rainstorm.
"But…I…" Kamui slowly brings the phone screen up, showing Subaru under his contacts. 'He doesn't even know I'm like this.'
Subaru would be here relatively soon (always at least 15 minutes early) to pick him up for their date. Was there even time now Still, it needed to be said taking a deep breath, Kamui is just about to tap 'call' before he hears a sudden burst of rings.
Riiiiiing riiing riiiing briiiing.
"W-what?" Kamui shrieks at the sudden blast of full volume, dropping the phone. He notices 'Subaru' as the name on the screen surrounded by several cutesy hearts. He flushes at the sight alone, heart-stirring. 'I have it way too bad…'
His hormones were only encouraging this feeling. Not wanting to leave his love waiting, he reluctantly picks up the phone.
"Ah….h-hi," Kamui hurriedly chokes out, breath hitching.
"Kamui?" Subaru sweetly murmurs his name, tone laced with definite concern.
"Mnnn…" Kamui softly mewls, quickly covering his mouth to spare any more high-pitched sounds from slipping out. Surely, they'd cause only further embarrassment.
"My sweet Kamui, what's wrong?" Subaru breathes, voice deepening with greater concern.
Kamui bit his lip to hold back a squeak. He practically felt himself purring, at the affectionate words.
"I…I'm fine…j-just needs to cancel…I'll be fine, ah.."
"It's okay, we don't need to go out but…Really, Kamui what's wrong?"
Of course, he wouldn't be convinced by that. Even Kamui couldn't believe himself.
"Just something came up...suddenly. I…I think it would be best to cancel…and you head back home…" Kamui brokenly speaks, biting on his lips, eyes closed, they feel like a betrayal to his own heart.
"Well, I'm already here but…" Subaru trails off, sounding a little dejected. Kamui feels his chest ache hard. It's not as though he really wanted Subaru to leave, quite the opposite…but… "If it's really not a good time then-" A soft collected breath was taken, countering the broken tone of Subaru's voice.
"Then I understand…if you are really okay." Subaru's voice softened even more tenderly, so compassionate and understanding.
'He's here already?' Kamui knows he should have told him more over the phone. Given any excuse… the selfish part of him wanted Subaru here beside him even under such circumstances.
"N-no…you don't have to go…It's just I wasn't…totally ready and.." Kamui starts, placing the phone between his ear and shoulder. 'Wouldn't talking in person be better? If he's already come out here..' He reflected, heading into the bathroom. The soft rustling of clothes can be heard through Subaru's end. "I-I don't know…you might not like seeing me now…l-like this."
"Are you sick?" Subaru calls with apprehension, eyes lowering, lips sinking. He looks towards the door, waiting anxiously to see, then offers, "I'll care for you."
Kamui's breath hitches, the inner omega, his hormones making him begin to purr from the words. "Not exactly but…I don't…know how to say it… something unexpected happened I don't want to put you off seeing me…"
"Kamui, I love you," Subaru laughs, airy, sweet, and heavenly. "There's nothing that could make you any less than absolutely beautiful. Let alone 'put off'."
Kamui feels himself squirm on the bed. Subaru's voice alone, made his entire body fluster, but saying such things so openly... This was only his preheat. He wasn't sure if he would make it out of this…on his own, not t this rate. "I'll…be there in…one minute…p-promise you won't freak out…"
Not that he could picture his beloved freaking out even in the most bizarre of circumstances.
"I won't," Subaru swears so earnestly. He shakes his head quickly. "Never." 'Do you still not realize how much you mean to me?' Subaru sighs, he hadn't been the best with words, especially as of late. 'There's nothing that could draw me away from you…'
"Okay…" Kamui mumbles worried, before ending the call. He rushes into the bathroom, changing his clothes again, thankful the call with Subaru seems to have calmed his body down, for the moment. The heat and flush are still very present, but manageable.
Finally, Kamui hurried out of his bedroom and to the door. He cautiously opens the door a crack just a few inches.
Subaru's lips curl, at the sight of two glistening violet eyes peering out. His emerald orbs light up, shining at the sight of taking in his beloved. The stress and worries of his week seem to melt away.
"Kamui, I don't know what you're worried about…I-"
Suddenly, Subaru stops, now losing his breath. He finds his eyes captivated by his beautiful beloved. Breathing in deeply, a sweet soothing floral scent takes over his senses. Upon stepping over the threshold his senses are completely assaulted by heavenly sweet pheromones, seeming to grow only stronger and sweeter the further he steps inside.
His pair of deep emerald eyes fixate on the adorable pink blush of his partner. Shyly, glossy, violet eyes slip to the side.
"Um…as you can probably tell…I'm …" Kamui's voice kept breaking up, hand still nervously clutching the side of the door. His hands began shaking.
Subaru moves in closer. So sweetly he clutches Kamui's shaking hand within his two. The door closes behind them. Encased in the room, the scent bursts out 1000-fold. Dark pupils blow up, nearly engulfing the emerald irises completely. His gaze deepens, holding a passionate gaze directed at Kamui.
'Nothing would draw me away from you… there are definitely things that could make me even further drawn to you…' Subaru breathes, it's an afterthought. He knows he is flushing, never being entranced by anyone's pheromones, before…let alone to this extent.
"Y-you…" Subaru begins shakily, he quickly clears his throat seeing the panicked look in soft violet eyes. He shifts to grasp both of Kamui's hands into his own. "You're in heat."
"N-not for a few days technically…" Kamui mumbles, avoiding his lover's gaze. He can't bear the sight of rejection in his boyfriend's eyes. This would be a lot for anyone to take in…now he dragged his caring boyfriend into the middle of a very awkward situation because he couldn't bring himself to explain this earlier.
"I'm sorry…" Kamui whispers, voice breaking. A warm hand gently squeezes his own, before brushing under his chin. He tilts Kamui's chin up to meet his eyes.
"Kamui, oh no 's nothing bad…" Subaru proceeds, eternally grateful Kamui could not read his mind right now. His visions of scooping the younger man into his arms and ravishing him were quickly forced back to calm himself, comforting Kamui remains the priority. He wants to say. 'It's quite the opposite but worries he will reveal too much too soon, unable to stop from there. Putting his desires ahead of Kamui's current needs never would be even a consideration.
"I…meant to tell you…I-I…" Kamui starts off, eyes quickly trembling and swelling up with tears. His vision goes foggy. Subaru can't stand another second seeing such pain in beautiful eyes and wraps his arms snuggly around the omega's back and waist. The younger male gasps before quickly melting into the tight embrace.
"I just didn't know…so please don't cry." His hand sweeps up to brush away a few tears slipping out from violet eyes. Unable to resist, he leans in to kiss the faded line of tears away right where his fingers had swept. "Alpha, beta, or omega? No matter what, You're perfect, you're you. I love you, Kamui."
Sugary sweet words make Kamui's chest feel lighter. This man had a dangerously strong effect on him, not that he realized how much he affected Subaru. He was lucky to be with someone holding such kindness.
"I love you too," Kamui murmurs softly, his chest feels entirely full. Pheromones not his own sweep in to comfort him, calming his shaking. The scent of a fresh spring forest full of lush blossoming trees, with a refreshing crystal-clear stream rushing within. Perfectly it blends and melts with Kamui's natural scent.
'It suits you…' Kamui instantly pictures the trails he walked in Kyoto during one of their dates... He leaned into the embrace, never finding himself so drawn by another's scent. He could vaguely sense Subaru's before but now…it was like nothing else.
It's although he gained a new sense, using it for the first time, breathing in the most perfect and comforting pheromones he could imagine.
"I didn't know either…until recently…" Kamui ducks his head down, embarrassed. How could he have known when he never felt this before? It all came in so intense and unexpected.
"Let me care for you," Subaru murmurs so gently, rephrasing the words he spoke on the phone. Kamui swears he feels his heart melt. His toes curl before he gasps, suspended above the floor. Subaru swiftly wraps an arm snuggly around his waist, lifting him with ease. Kamui quite literally gets swept off his feet, and placed gently back on the bed, to relax.
Subaru leans over his beloved, bending one knee on the mattress. Lips so delicately brush Kamui's softer ones. Peppering kisses string across blushing cheeks and down a sensitive collarbone. The younger male yelps, feeling lips instinctively drawn to the base of his neck, his scent gland.
Subaru almost caved into his instincts, the source of such a sweet scent flooding his senses. Despite wanting nothing more than to bite down, he has to give it everything he has to calm himself to pull back. A gentler kiss lands on Kamui's forehead.
Stepping back just a bit, emerald eyes take in the vision of Kamui. From head to toe, he was completely flushed. Kamui's scent grows even stronger than ever during those few kisses. Enticing him further...
Elegantly long legs closing tight together on instinct. Soft thighs brushing closely together. Violet-blue orbs pool with a glistening desire, as they try and fail to look away from Subaru for long.
Being the older one…he should have better control, to think through this rationally...
But when had he ever been rational when it came to love?
"I feel…with your scent as it is…it might not be best to stay in the dorms so close by. I'd like to take you back to my place if you'd let me." Subaru proposes a with a hint of possession, seeming to be the most sensible, thing. The thought of any other students approaching his Kamui leaves a bitter taste in his mouth. "Please, let me take you back home and take proper care of you."
Kamui swallows hard, closing his legs tight while feeling this. He thinks of mentioning CLAMP school having special dorms just for Omegas and heat. But that would involve disclosing this physical change to not only the director and dorm manager but his closest friends living next door.
"Subaru? When you say to…take me home…" Kamui begins, before igniting a fiery. He starts purring at the idea, and certain his flooding scent already gives away how much he loved the idea no matter what his love implied.
"I-I by that I mean…" Subaru realizes belated and flushes a soft hue of cherry. He clenches a hand closed, coughing into it, clearing his throat again. "I didn't mean there is pressure into doing anything…just caring for you… helping you to be comfortable. You can rest, I'll take care of cleaning, running baths for you.. or picking up whatever you need. I'll get you whatever you'll need and-"
"Subaru," His nervous rambling is cut off by angelic laughter, as he feels a soft hand clasp around his wrist. 'This flustered side of Subaru, only I get to see.' "I love you," Kamui professes with such fondness, he drags his boyfriend down to sit next to him on the bed.
Subaru hadn't been sure if it were a blessing or a curse that he presented as an Alpha. At first hating it, being another factor of incompatibility when he had been pining after his ex-lover. Seishirou's very charismatic, flirtatious, and dominant personality seemed opposite enough to Subaru's pure, and shy demeanor. But regardless of their differences, it seemed fate had another reason to keep them apart…among many others.
Or rather, more truthfully, Seishiru's darker personality coming to light had been the catalyst of their breakup.
Now, though being born an Alpha… it seemed to make sense…he could truly, if Kamui agreed, care for him in every sense of the word. They were made for each other even more than he had realized.
"Okay…" Kamui breaks his beloved from his thoughts.
"Okay?" Subaru swallows, heart, thumping at how closely they were sitting. Just how perfectly their scents complimented each other
"Going 'home' with you…I don't want you to work too hard. But it's only a week and it might be nice to have space from the dorms…" Kamui passed his lips together, head resting on his lover's shoulder. His eyes flutter close, breathing his boyfriend's enticing aroma. "And…" he adds cutely, biting his lip. "I like being close to you."
Subaru beamed, heart fluttering and chest warming at the words. 'It can be your home any time you like…' He thinks dreamily. "We can pick up anything you need for the week on the way over…if you're up to that."
Kamui nods meekly. Burying his nose further into his lover's neck. Completely intoxicating. His brain told him they'd only been together these few months, but his heart and hormonal body screamed why hadn't he mated with this incredible person yet?
"For a bit…then…I may need to go soon to rest…" Kamui explains, eyes finding interest in the carpeting beneath his feet. He should be able to calm his arousal for long enough.
"Right," Subaru agrees, squeezing Kamui's hand tightly on his own. His hold is unwavering, safe, and entirely protective. "We should go soon then..."
"Let me pack a few things and I'll be ready," Kamui notes, standing up and gathering a backpack filling it with clothes and a few other essentials.
They head out, Both knowing they'd have to resolve how Kamui would relieve himself of the other…more intimate needs during this time.
The stop at the grocery store is a quick one. Kamui barely manages to keep his overheated body calm long enough to pick up some essential foods, and vitamins that would be good for both himself and his boyfriend. And other more embarrassing supplies…whether Kamui would take care of things on his own or share his first heat with Subaru was up in the air. But well, Subaru did tell him he could get anything he needed...
By the time they reach their stop on the bullet train ride home, that lingering heat becomes near unbearable. Kamui's knees go entirely weak and Subaru ends up carrying him bridal style toward his apartment.
"Sorry about this…" Kamui mumbles, burying his face in the fabric of his boyfriend's shirt. His arm loops tightly around his neck, the other holding their bag of supplies for the week, and a bag of his clothes.
"It's no problem," Subaru ensures, dotingly. He hugs Kamui closer to his chest. A wild, rapid heartbeat floods Kamui's ears. "I like holding you close…"
"Subaru," Kamui groans, mumbling a series of incomprehensible words into his boyfriend's coat. A mix of "embarrassing" and "saying those things out loud" stirred in.
Subaru couldn't help but laugh, his mind far too enamored to see his boyfriend blushing. Upon arriving at the penthouse floor of the luxury apartments, they stop before a tall white door with a gold-plated sign on top. Subaru's name was engraved. Smoothly, Subaru manages to reach into his pocket, grasping the key and unlocking the door. All the while he keeps Kamui comfortably in his arms.
Stepping over the threshold, Kamui looks around the vast, expensive apartment. It was more so than he remembered. Granted last visit he'd been more caught up in clutching to and kissing Subaru senseless, to pay too much attention.
Kamui definitely would have the space and privacy he needed. If he wanted to spend it alone, then he could. But what he really wanted….
Whether out of habit, or a positive sign, Subaru didn't simply bring Kamui to rest on the sofa or the guest room at the end of the hall. He carried him right to his bedroom.
Kamui smiles, eyes glistening as he watches his lover. Suddenly, he is surrounded by everything Subaru, his pheromones flooding everywhere. So delicately, he was deposited on Subaru's bed.
Kamui frowns, feeling the loss of contact. Quickly, he finds himself distracted, indulging in the softness of the silky blankets under him. His hands clutch at the pillows, seemingly forgetting where he is right now. The pull is just too strong… His arms wrapped tightly around the pillow, breathing in the strong scent of Subaru.
Subaru watched so very fondly, his heart thumping, stomach doing flips. Emerald orbs glaze, taking in the sight. His boyfriend wrapped his legs around a long body pillow, nuzzling his face in the smaller pillows at the headboard.
His mouth goes dry, swallowing hard. Those beautiful long legs clamp down upon the long body pillow, so tightly. Doesn't Kamui realize what he's doing to him?
"Subaru?" Kamui calls softly, extending his arms up for his boyfriend. He stays sprawled out on Subaru's bed, wrapped up in his scent everywhere. Of course the original source of that scent, he'd been craving to feel most.
Lacking the strength to disentangle himself from the blankets and pillows, he stretches his arms out reaching further.
"Subaru, lay down with me?" Kamui requests, so gently, with such innocence, despite the enticing look in violet-blue eyes.
Swallowing down hard, the lump in his throat. His hands clenched tightly to his side, wanting very much to act on his heart's desires. To take the place of his pillows and blankets being surrounded by incredibly sleek and beautiful limbs. To pin Kamui into the bed and flood the smaller male with as much of his pheromones as he liked.
But…he couldn't…not if Kamui were only acting on his hormones. If this were too soon it could ruin everything with Kamui. He couldn't risk that.
"Subaru?" Kamui questioned a third time, blinking, his small hands going a little shaky. The hint of dejection in those beautiful eyes was too much to bear.
Subaru had to reassure him while keeping himself in check. He clasped the outstretched hands on his own, swiftly. Gently pinning the smaller male to the bed, he laced their fingers tightly. Their joined hands were pinned down to the sides of Kamui's head
Subaru leaned his head down, the moment Kamui tilted up. Finally, finally. Their lips joined in a lengthy, slow, and proper kiss. Sweetly, their lips embraced each other, melding and moving with such love, devotion, and grace.
A pleasant rush filled both their senses further. Kamui's sweet alluring scent surrounds him, encasing his alpha within. Those beautiful long legs shift to wrap around Subaru's waist. A spark ignites, as they gaze into half-lidded eyes before their lips connect once more.
Surprisingly, it's Kamui who makes the first move to deepen their kiss. He licks the seam of his boyfriend's lips, before being welcomed eagerly.
"We'll just stay kissing, it'll be fine.' Subaru reminds himself, constantly. Kamui tilts his head as their lips part, trying to reach that deeper, more satisfying angle.
Subaru feels an eager tongue licking, enticing his own, he groans into Kamui's mouth. Unable to resist, he meets him and entangles their tongues, adding more pressure so he's able to feel all around the inside of Kamui's mouth.
Feeling that perfect figure shiver under his own, makes him almost lose it entirely. His hands release his love in favor of cradling the back of Kamui's head. They break for air just for a second. Another hand brushes down the smaller male's sides, making him shiver.
Subaru happily and instinctively takes the initiative to control the kiss. He licks and nibbles on Kamui's plush bottom lip. His lover whimpers beautifully into the kiss.
Kamui is met with normally gentle lips, ravishing his own. His heart stutters, before racing wildly. He begins to purr. Their mouths meet hard. He moans being kissed so harshly and deeply. What else can he do but fall harder with these feelings? He kisses back with all the passion he can manage. His boyfriend seems intent on making him breathless.
Newly, freed hands only move to grasp the tighter Subaru once again. His left-hand brushes up the older male's face, caressing his cheeks before coming to rest behind his head. Slender fingers bury in silky locks of green-black. His right-hand clutches tight to the broad shoulder, keeping Subaru close.
"S-Subaru…" Kamui meals breathlessly. His eyes dilated maddeningly, shining with a glossy sheen, entirely blissed away.
For these moments it remains bliss, neither thinking of just where this would be leading them. So many desires lingered as words were left unsaid.
There's no way things can stay here…not when Kamui squeezes his legs tightly around his boyfriend's hips. Being kissed so very deeply, he subconsciously grinds against him.
The moans within the room seem to ring exceedingly loud. There's a growing hardness, pressing down into Kamui.
Seeing the state of his lower body. Subaru suddenly jolts to sit up, with the last brink of self-control.
Kamui lays back on his bed for the moment, looking dazed, blinking softly. A trifecta of emotions, surprise, hurt, and embarrassment flush through violet eyes in a manner of seconds. Feeling his own body reacting from the slick liquid beginning to pool from inside him, he burns up. Quickly, he sits up, legs pressed tightly together and up to his chest.
"Sorry..." Subaru bows his head, being the first to break the silence. He barely manages to keep his voice from cracking. "Y-you must be tired…I'll go run you a bath."
"B-but Subaru…?" Kamui sputters. He feels a hand cup his cheek. The touch is comforting, soothing, and a precious coolness to dispel the overwhelming heat. "What just happened here and for the week we need to t…"
"We…we'll talk about it," Subaru promises, taking his lover's hand, and bringing it up to his mouth. He presses his lips to the back of it sweetly. "I promise…I just think we should take the time to let our heads clear.
"Oh," Kamui breathes out, failing to hide the bit of disappointment. But it wouldn't be like Subaru do anything but be this respectful, and considerate. That is the Subaru he fell in love with after all. His boyfriend cared so deeply, wanting to make sure Kamui was happy above all. "Okay…it might be better to cool off a bit…"
He doubts even the coldest of showers could completely tame the heat raging inside from head to toe. But..he does feel fatigued, alongside a deep yearning. "I'm sorry…I…got carried away…I-I should have told you as soon as I found out, not had you come over without…knowing what you want…"
"What...I want?" Subaru blinks, mouth slipping ajar.
"Yeah…" Kamui rubs his eyes. His inner omega, his very heart, and soul ached to return to their intimacy. "I don't want you to feel you have to…do these things with me…"
"You think that I don't want to…" Subaru's eyes widened at the absurdity of such an idea. He nearly lost himself. Wanting to prove then and there how much he wanted Kamui. His hand cradled the younger man's head, settling for a lingering, open-mouthed kiss " I want you. If I…were to go too far I worry I wouldn't be able to hold myself back…"
While those words may have sounded like a warning, they felt like a challenge to Kamui's ears. To bring Subaru to such a state. He licks his lips subconsciously
"R-right now your hormones are on high alert…I'm not saying I'm doubting you I just…don't want you to have regrets. I want us to both be clear-headed, if and when we do…have our first time together."
Despite the heavy make-up session on their bed moments ago…Kamui hadn't burned up from his heat, a temporary allowance of calm, after finally having some intimacy again. Now, though his cheeks were fully scarlet red. Part of him wanted to hide his face away, the other more traitorous part of him wanted to fall further, to have Subaru say even more of the embarrassing things…stating exactly what they'd be doing…
Seeing, concerned emerald eyes so close, a hand on his forehead he snaps to reality. His face burns as though Subaru can read his thoughts.
"I… that does make sense." Kamui concedes, though his heart and body seem to scream 'yes' to everything. He struggles to keep it from being too obvious.
"Then…I'll start your bath…" Subaru ensures, leaving with a bit of sanity remaining to do so His lips brush all across Kamuis temples. Only when he entered the next room could he begin to calm down. This was the last thing he imagined would come about today…a normal date to the new cafe in town turned into all of this.
"Thank you," Kamui voices, watching, longing as he notices his love disappear from you.
Subaru's back rests against the bathroom door, he slowly slides down, feeling his strength leave him. How does one simply say, 'I've wanted you since the moment we met…and maddeningly since the moment I realized I had fallen for you' without it being too much…and not as a cliche but expressing full sincerity. Words he felt with every ounce of him.
The young male does agree to take a bath. They do need to talk things out when things are more clear…and before Kamui's heat officially comes to a start.
No matter how cold he starts the shower, he can't seem to bring his temperature low enough. The little time away, outside of his beloved's arms, make his temperature rise, aching with want. He presses his fingers to his lips, still encased with so much warmth.
Truly, the thought of cleaning himself, and washing away Subaru's scent on him didn't sit well. As a consolation, he grasps Subaru's body wash, covering himself until he's immersed in that soft cherry blossom scent.
Kamui gives in to soak in the bath, giving his head some time to clear. His head keeps spinning, unsure how to wrap his mind around all this happening so fast. Neither had been so affected by another's pheromones…and Kamui never felt the need to bond more than he did now.
But no matter how selfish or how intense his desires are, he couldn't bring himself to put pressure on Subaru. Whether they did anything or not…simply being together felt entirely right.
When he finishes his bath, he steps out to the hallway. His eyebrows lower and lips sink, not seeing Subaru anywhere nearby.
'Maybe he needs more time?' Kamui couldn't fault him for that. He decides to slip into the nearest bedroom. It's the master bedroom, Subaru's…he's only drawn further inside.
He slips into bed, wearing only underwear under the soft white robe. Anything else felt entirely too restricting. His mind was full of so much and his body.
"Kamui…" Subaru walks into the room. He finally returns from meditating. to the point where he's returned to his normal state of calm.
It already seemed to be slipping at the sight of Kamui curled up on his bed again. Those long legs were exposed from underneath the robe.
Subaru walks towards his bedside, quietly not wanting to wake his beloved.
"Subaru…?" Kamui stirs, bleary violet eyes peering out. He feels layers of blankets being pulled over his body. He can't stop the curl from rising on his lips.
"Ah…is there anything you need now?" Subaru asks, averting his gaze for a moment, as he fumbles.
Kamui resists every urge to simply say 'you', feeling tired from how much they've been dancing around the discussion they should have had first thing this morning…
But…there's one thing Kamui does find himself craving, upon contact. He feels that long white trench coat brush over his body, as Subaru, leans in to give him a good night kiss.
"Um…Your coat…"
"My coat?"
"Mhm," Kamui hums wistfully. His voice slips into a dreamlike state, holding no shame at his following words. "It has Subaru's scent on it all over."
"Oh, Of course…" Subaru proceeds to do so without question. He can find the possessed fire burning up at the realization Kamui would be covered in his scent…and his alone.
'The way he's talking…his heart must be very close.'
They needed to talk this out before things got out of hand.
Subaru steps back a bit in order to slip off his coat. He graciously hands the long white coat out for Kamui to grasp. The younger male does so without a second thought. Immediately, pulling it under the covers with him.
"Thank you…" Kamui breathes, clutching the soft fabric and hugging it to his chest. He keeps the coat bundled up, draping over his legs breathing in the strong scent.
Subaru loses his breath. Was Kamui nesting now? As in, Kamui wanted to have so much of Subaru's scent on him…and had already chosen (subconsciously at least) his mate?
There was so much happening in the span of hours…his and Kamui's worlds intertwined even further.
They would talk in the morning. Until then…Subaru indulges himself, brushing the stray bangs from Kamui's face. He admires the sleepy expression, kissing it softly.
For tonight, he wants nothing more than to care for Kamui. Protecting him, keeping him as safe and as comfortable as ever.
"Good night, Kamui." He means to voice, to give space, to think this over. However, a hand quickly grasps his wrist, leaving him frozen in place.
"Lay down with me? At least until I fall asleep," Kamui requests, quiet, yearning. How could Subaru do anything else? He slips under the comforter, cuddling up with his beloved. Kamui rolls over to face him, doe eyes glistening, his lips puckered expectantly.' You're going to the death of me aren't you?...' Subaru thinks, unable to tear himself away, embracing his love so tight. He gently places a 'good night' kiss on plush lips.
~End~
So I just had to write an Omegaverse one-shot but this time focusing on cute fluffy moments! Some making out and desires to slip here and there. Overall, they are dorks in love in this, both worried the other won't want or be ready to move further in the relationship…while in reality, they both want nothing more than to do just that.
This is more of a teaser because I just couldn't resist writing them in this universe. I love the idea of a protective and tender Subaru who dotes upon Kamui. And the two have their past breakups, they have significantly less trauma. Subaru is an onmyouji but neither is faced with the world's end looming over them. Even if they were I think they'd still end up in each other's arms for as long as they could be
More of this and other AUs are to come now and again as inspiration strikes. In the meantime, I'll be writing a long SubKam wedding epilogue and having it up in February around Valentine's Day stay tuned.