(A/N: I feel very weird about this one, not because I think it's bad but something about it does bother me and I'm not sure what it is, which annoys me)

Trigger.

The cheerful and helpful Employee that at some point I compared to myself, always trying his best, always looking for results and always the best at his job, I felt a kindred spirit of him.

I was wrong, oh so wrong, he simply worried about the smallest things and would fight tooth and nail to keep even one clerk alive, while he could be using that energy in something more productive.

With time, he would get more ridiculous on what he was doing, he still had great potential to help the company and even become the Team captain! He would feel accomplished.

I had... misjudged him again, he didn't agree with the way I did things, even if it IS the right one. The ordeals were suppressed, the abnormalities rarely ever breached and if they did, it would be dealt with. The Employees were at fault of all the deaths, it just meant they weren't up to the task, I'M right, I know I am.

But he came in and SOMEHOW convinced Lady Angela of all people to back up his crazy ideas, I wasn't worried really! The Manger would surely see the madness that Trigger was spewing out and...

No, again he overshadowed me again, and again and AGAIN.

Doing work that would get most killed, guiding others along so that they could keep up with him, stopping and helping clerks with their jobs, no matter which way I looked... he just kept going, leaving me in the dust in a manner of days.

That's when it hit me, he wanted to replace me! Why else would he do everything that I should do better? I crawled and bawled to be at this position, and he would just take it without trying.

It wasn't fair.

So I would remove him, he shouldn't be here anyway. His nonsensical actions would ruin MY team to what I had built it as, but I'm still the Lead of the Control Team, that name carries power among said power... is the ability to bring new abnormalities in.

So I'll give him something he shouldn't handle, too much for him to beat...

Just to fail miserably again, I get it now... while I was crawling to reach my objectives, he was running already accomplishing his.

My single eye stared blankly at my notepad, the main room was silent, and I didn't know what to do at that point. I had been called by Lady Angela to be told that all my hard work was thrown away and changed by Trigger's work, and then being tasked with TELLING him this.

Just like that, I was laid there on the ground, looking at someone's back, trying my hardest to reach out and get something that was taken from me.

Looking at his face was an issue, hearing him talk like he cared was painful, I could see what no one else could, the SNAKE that he is, but I could do nothing about it.

He would surely take all of that attention at some point and shove it down my-

"Would you like to take the credit?"

Every image I had painted of him fell down without any warning, figures he wouldn't even let me have a bad image of him, I had expected him to walk away after he had beaten me.

But everything I ever wanted... he would hand it to me, what I always tried to archive that he got in days simply given away, and I DIDN'T know why... isn't it great to be looked at and praised for your work?

To Trigger that didn't seem the case, now after all of that, I didn't know what made him act the way he does, but one thing was now certain.

He didn't look for either praise or attention in general, then what motivated him so much?

The man that always ran past everyone, including me, didn't have his eyes set on the finish line, so where was he looking at?

...

It bothered me, what is more important than what I want that he would brush past it and hand it to me so effortlessly? What did he see that I didn't? He could have easily left us all behind but for some reason, he always looked back behind.

What was so important of those that didn't live up to expectations?

I need to know, why do I need to know? What really bothers me?

I didn't know... I just don't know.

But what was so bothersome about him was never what he did to me or his reasoning behind his actions, but I always remembered a different 'him' so much colder, someone that would never look behind.

While at the same time I remembered a warm red gaze from someone else that he also wears, the nostalgia that Trigger made me feel was what bothered me the most.

But for now... should I take his offer? The praise I would... no, for some reason I can't bring myself to accept that, he can have this until I get these feelings of mine sorted.

I just have to figure him out, and then I'll have my position back.

Right now I should hurry and finish my report to Lady Angela, there is much to do and this has been keeping me away from my duties. I'm still leading the Control Team and should keep up to standards.

Still... What gives him the will to stand up straight?

I can't just stop asking myself that, for some reason...