"All right! That's done!"

Subaru exhales loudly while putting his hand on his hips, his other hand on the shovel after taking care of the snow in front of the mansion.

"Good job Garf!"

"Aye Cap'n. This is nothin' for my amazin' self"

True to his words, Garfield does not look any worse for wear even after shoving the bigger part of the snow compared to Subaru.

Subaru smiles as Garfiel starts to flex his muscles and look at the mansion. It has been a while since the event at the sanctuary, and the year is coming to a close. The winter has fallen down once more on Lugnica, and this winter seems to be rather more snowy than before. The abundant snow has almost covered the entire mansion each day, making them have to shove the snow almost every day for some days now.

He shivers even while wearing a thick jacket to fight out the cold. This winter has not been kind, as the temperature could've killed him. But on the other hand, he is thankful Puck isn't here. The memory of the previous winter's snow comes back as he looks around the snow that is stacking. The memory of Puck making things even colder during winter, of puck freezing him...

Oh no, he need to stop thinking about it.

"Natsuki-san, you okay?..."

"Holy Shit! Otto! Where did you come from?"

"I am not sure what did you just say but I've been calling for you about three times already...Are you okay?"

"Y...Yeah, I am okay! Just this cold is getting uncomfortable, kinda freeze my thought you see"

"Hmm..."

"Anyway, do you need something?"

"Oh thats right, here!"

"Wait that's..." He points towards a square object on Otto's hand that is currently offered to him, said object being so familiar to him. Yet it is also something he haven't seen for so long

"Your Metia right? I bought it back."

"What? Why?"

"I just think you'll like it. And beside Russel can't sell it again nor he knows how replicate this. It's just an antique for him"

Subaru's mouth pressed together in a flat line upon hearing that. His eye deadpanned and clearly not amused.

"I am telling you this thing is really useful...Although you can't use all of it's features right now"

"Features? what does that mean?"

"It means it can do many things, but anyway thanks Otto".

Subaru take back his phone and open it before turning it back on.

"Man...didn't expect it to still working..."

"Are you done I suppose?"

Otto yelp at Beatrice sudden appearance, while Subaru and Garfiel simply look at her. The little spirit pout at Subaru, her silent yet puffy cheek speaks more than any word she can get out.

"Okay Okay Beako! I know you miss me, and I am done."

Subaru didn't waste a single second in hugging her and nuzzling her neck which prompt the little spirit to flay her arms, though without actual force.

"AARGH! Release Betty and lets go back inside in fact!"

"Okay!" Yell the young man who pick her up while still tightly hugging her. It was then that Beatrice notice his phone on his hand.

"Oho?! Did my precious Beako notice my long lost treasure?"

"What is that I suppose?" Completely ignoring his tone.

"Well I tell you later in my room later, for now lets get back first...I am freezing to death."

"Subaru, you should go and get some rest."

The moment she saw Subaru, Emilia immediately shot out of her chair to shout that at him. Unknown to him, they want to prepare a surprise for him today. She just "care about his well-being" and "innocently" suggest him to rest. So they have time to prepare.

"Gah! Is my Emilia-tan shoving me aside?! Trying to keep me away from something? A secret from me? My heart pains!"

"W...What are you talking about?! geez!"

"Why the hesitation? Now this is actually suspicious..."

Subaru saying it out loud just make Emilia stutters even more. Beatrice sigh at her absolute pathetic attempt at secrecy and tries to convince Subaru.

"Stop being foolish I suppose. She is right you need some rest, and besides you promise to spend time with Betty!"

"Don't worry Beako, there is no way I'll forget to spend time with my precious spirit" Subaru state as he pick Beatrice up and hugs her tight. She too in responds snuggle to him with a smile.

"Okay Subaru, since you are going to play with Beatrice, I'll be doing something else. Good bye!"

The half-elf girl said with a frantic handwave as she run away and her voice less and less clear as the range between them increase. Subaru watch her with a deadpanned expression before a tug of his sleeve direct him back to his spirit who is now pouting.

He smiled and pick his spirit up before walking back to his room. Once there he throw himself to the bed and waste no time in covering himself with blanket. His eye wanders towards the smaller girl who is hugging in attempt to warm him up despite the obvious small size of her barely cover his body.

"Hehehehe"

"What I suppose…"

"Nothing~ Oh right you want to know about my phone?"

Subaru said before pushing her gently aside and take out his phone.

"That was the metia that you use to beat the white whale in fact?"

"Yeah, although it was actually just coincidence."

"Elaborate."

"It's main function is to communicate with others over long distance, like some metia here already does, just more convenient. In addition it also can ugh…Freeze a moment in time"

Subaru wasn't sure if he had explain this to Beatrice and the others at Emilia camp or not, or more specifically he remembers talking about this with Emillia before but he didn't remember if it was in this timeline or not.

Regardless, Beatrice shouldn't know that he suppose…Unless she is eavesdropping…

He clicks around the button and check the phone for it's options. Fortunately doesn't seems like there is any much difference between before and now. He really gotta ask Otto how much is this, he is actually curious.

"Freezes moment in time?"

"I'll just show you! HERE COMES SUPER BRIGHT LIGHT TIME FREEZING HAX!"

Striking a pose he click on the camera and take picture of Beatrice who's eyes widen upon the sudden light produced by the metia.

"Awww, look at my previous Beako, so cute even when surprised"

"Hmmph! Of course Betty is always cute! Surprised or not!"

Beatrice pout and cross her arm, Subaru smile even wider looking at her harmlessly glaring at him. He hug her and show her the photo he just took.

"Look, that's you"

"This is..." Beatrice slowly reach for the phone and take it from Subaru while marveling over her own image.

"It can also play song!"

"Song? This thing sings I suppose?"

"Yeah! Here, let me show you" He take the phone back from Beatrice and show her how he operate the phones, clicking on application and folders and folders before finally getting several file. Something that Beatrice didn't understand but due to her curious and studious nature, she make sure to absorp the information.

"Hmmm I guess I can give you some anime song"

Searching through files in his music library, Subaru eventually find an anime song he used to listen to a lot before.

"Ohohoho! I forgot I have this song. Listen to this Beako! This is one of my nostalgia song!"

"Okay I suppose, if Betty's Subaru likes it."

La li la ta, la li la ta da

"No need to repeat this part, even Betty understand I suppose humph!"

"Hey! I am doing this to get the feelings. To present my most precious and beloved Beako, the experience of listening to an Avex music live!"

"What even is Avex I suppose"

la li la ta, la li la ta da

la li la ta, la li la ta da

la li la ta, la li la ta da

My heart

"Stop. What is that? Betty don't understand it I suppose?"

"Huh? Oh yeah that part is in english, so I guess you wouldn't understand"

"Is that the one you said to be your world's international common language I suppose?"

"Yeah it is, although in my country we mostly use our own language, Japanese not English. Anyway to continue, resume!"

"Wait what does it mean?"

"Oh its My Heart, which means My heart"

"hmm, okay I suppose"

"Right then! to continue!"

I search for a song that will keep going and never ending in my memories

Man this song is so old, kinda makes me miss the day when it was so much simpler.

The pain that has been carved in time

Embracing the sadness of nostalgia, I am brought back to the old days

The old days huh? Reminds me of when I was a hikikomori living with my parents cAfraid of facing others and the world I take comfort in the safety they provide.

I know. Those days have already gone by.

Yeah those days have already gone by. Maybe I can't even experience it anymore.

"What is a nou, Ai no? I suppose... Subaruu?"

If I look up, it wont flow down...The scorching tears of loneliness

Tears? How many tears have I shed since coming to this place? Do I have the right to say or talk about tears?

Shit I didn't realize this song would hit so hard at home, I used to really like this song but now

The windows overflowed by the drop of the sad rain, Tonight I abandon myself to sleep

"Subaru?...Is something wrong?"

As if I am travelling to a far away country whom I know nobody.

I was kidnapped here by a witch without my consent. Stranded here without so much as a guide

And explanation.

I am all alone, and nobody understand what I said.

I know nobody here, everything are aliens to me, and everything about me are aliens to them.

I am all alone and nobody understand what I said.

I wish you would phone call me now, I wish to connect with you

Connect? Do I want to connect with someone?Emillia? Rem? Beatrice?

Lost in his own thought he didn't realizes he has stopped singing, neither did he realizes that the word "phone call" is unknown to his spirit.

Can I still connect with them? Is it even possible for me to connect with them?

No.

That's not true.

Echidna shows it to me, the one I truly want to connect with

MomDad.

My heart, frozen waiting for you.

Can I even meet them again?

La li la ta, la li la ta da

la li la ta, la li la ta da

la li la ta, la li la ta da

My heart.

The dreams that is supposed to always changing, I turn them into feelings

No that was reversed, I turn my fear, my anxiety, and my bitterness to the world to a dream.

Hoping that one day I can just wake up and everything would be fine. Everything will be on my favour.

I was really happy the first time I set foot here, thinking that maybe my dreams come true.

"Subaru! Subaru talk to Betty please!"

Beatrice tries to shake Subaru out of his situation in panic but it doesn't seem like he register it. She stares at the boy who keep singing the same song as the metia, and stare at it with tears freely running down his cheeks.

Somehow, to Beatrice, this feels awfully familiar.

Then I left it all behind to the past younger me

How naive, in the end I am not just burdening my parents but my past and future self too.

Where and whomst should I go to?

Can someone save me, is there any one who still cares? Any one who still wants to? No probably not. I musn't be so conceited, I shouldn't look on others for help. They have their own problem. I shouldn't burden them with mine too.

I can no longer reach you.

Mom, Dad, how are you two doing right now?

Kiss me

Like you both used to when I was a child. I need it more than before. I can ft sleep, I have nightmare and…My arms…My body…My heart,

I wish to meet you soon

I want to see you two again

I don't know nor care about the reason, for us to need to connect to each other.

The things that I can't say before I left. The things that I said in that illusion and I wish I can say in real life

Hence why when it was cold, let me get closer to you, let me feel your warmth nearby

Nobody to help me, I have to do everything alone even when it is for someone else. The constant chill of impending death, the coldness of loneliness around me cThe freezing ice that kills me.

Puck who frost me to death.

And if my prayer will be drowned by a strong wind, let me light a red candle to make it bright again.

I have to change myself to survive, to keep going. How much different am I since the last time they saw me? Since the first time I set foot here.

And when it is bright again, I will try to search for you again

Come to think of it, I didn't think if its possible for me to even go back home...Should I search a way home? But what about Emilia...

Can I still get another chance with them? Can they still recognize me as their son? Will they even accept me back? Mom, Dad, I….

My mind, even if there is only a small light left.

I barely know who am I now.

Its so lonely here, and the sound of the rain just wont stop coming

Nobody else knows who I am either.

"Subaru?…"

When the lyrics come up, the tears flows even more. As if a spell is activated inside her head, suddenly everything clicks.

The reason he cries…

The reason he is in a trance…

The reason it feels familiar to her…

The lyrics…

After all she too once…

That library which become her prison. The one she is so anxious to leave without him. Didn't she too, remember those days she can no longer go back to, those days before the Warlock invade, and become like Subaru right now?

Didn't she hug her tiny legs and cover her mind with her memories, away from the present too; once?

Subaru was alone with knowing no one and is unluckily get involved with Roswaal and the half-elf child's problem.

Did he miss the time where he was with his family and friends like she was?

I keep going in this frozen stopping world

They will leave me when they know I am

As if I am travelling to a faraway country whom I know nobody.

I have nobody.

I am all alone, and nobody understand what I said.

I am useless, I cant even survive on my own in this world. I need the help of others but they are not willing to help me. I have to go extra miles to help others so they fll help me.

Emilia left me behind to Crusch when I want to help her

Rem tortures me when I want to help them

Puck blames me for Emilia's death and he froze me alive.

Garfiel kidnap me and beats me when I want to help him

Even Beatrice left me to death by Elsa when I want to help her leave her cage

No matter what I said they won ft believe me, they won ft understand me.

And I am too scared to go home.

I wish you would phone call me now, I wish to connect with you

In the end I need the help of someone else to help yet another person. All of this just because I want to live. Live with Emilia.

My heart, Frozen waiting for you.

Mom dad help it hurts a lot. I am so tired

I am sorry for everything, I miss you, please come to me.

Ugh , oh yeah, Trembling waiting you.

AhMy heart trembles.

Thank you mom, dad

"Thank you Mom, Dad". It is a simple impulse that make him say it. A simple desire to speak his mind, further caress by the song, that make him say it. A simple thing yet means so much for both him and the smaller girl hugging him.

La li la ta, la li la ta da

La li la ta, la li la ta da

la li la ta, la li la ta da

My heart

La li la ta, la li la ta da

la li la ta, la li la ta da

la li la ta, la li la ta da

My heart.

What Subaru said confirms it, her assumption is correct. As the song sings lalala, she use a spell to make him fall asleep instantly.

There is no need for him to be alone anymore

After all?

He have Betty now.


The rest of Rosswal's mansion are left completely confused of what is happening. They intend to give surprise for Subaru to reward him for all his hard work today. But that all changes when Beatrice approach them and, for some reason insist that Subaru isn't well. When the maids check on him they saw him sleeping with what seemingly tears on his cheeks. Emilia almost panic when she learn of that and hound Beatrice for an answer to the predicament.

"None of your business in fact."

"B-But Beako! Subaru is my Knight I have th-"

"Tch, fine you trogolodyte! Betty's contractor is home-sick! How long do you suppose have he been staying here?! Do you not remember he isn't from around here in fact? Now stop bothering Betty and Subaru!"

Beatrice didn't wait for anything else the others may say and stormed off to return to her and Subaru's room. All the while bitter, the idea that this is all Emilia's fault has cemented in her head.

"Well, I guess we have to wait until tommorow now"

Said Otto who also immediately notice Emilia who is about to protest.

"Please be reasonable lady Emilia, it is a given Subaru will be homesick after being away from his original place for so long. The best we can do right now is give him time for himself, this is simply us being unlucky"

"B…But Brotto we work so hard for this, and the point is to make him happy yea? So we make him come here and he won't be sad anymore right?"

Garfield protest too which earns enthusiastic nod from both Emilia and Rem. His sister doesn't share the same idea though and move to intervened.

"No Garf. Right now Subaru-sama is in melancholic mood, bringing him here may ruin the excitement we intend. He won't be able to focus to the party, and it may results in the opposite reaction where his mood drops even lower. Because we are bothering him"

The three wants to keep arguing but their mind told them what Frederica said make sense. They have harder time arguing when both Frederica and Otto looks disappointed as well.

Ram click her tongue and look at the direction of Subaru and Beatrice's room.


A/N: First of all, I am not exactly experienced writer, I apologize for all the grammar mistakes that I am sure people will notice. I hope people are willing to overlook the grammar mistakes T_T. Second of all, I am not sure if this count as Crossover or not, after all there is no crossover character in this fic so I didn't put it on crossover. Third of all, in case anyone wonder if this is an actual song, then yeah it's Blassreiter anime's ending. Fourth of all, hope people can enjoy this...