Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer

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Where the Lines Overlap

Season 1 - Stuck on You

Boys (in love) will be (silly)(happy)boys

Boyfriends…

The word was in my head until I got home and kept me awake that night. I fell asleep with it in my mind and on my lips, on which I was sporting a silly grin and could still feel Edward's taste.

The next afternoon I picked him up and took him home with me after I got off work and we had dinner with my mother and beloved sister. It wasn't that bad although we had to completely avoid PDA since we had company. But to compensate for the lack of privacy a little, we spent the hours before he had to go home in my backyard. Thank God Jasper Senior was still away, Rose went out with Alice right after our meal, and my mother wasn't a nosy person. We were careful anyway, paying attention to sounds, lights, or any other indication that someone was approaching. We enjoyed each other the most we could. We mainly talked like we always did, and shared light touches and soft kisses, it was totally worth it.

On Wednesday I was at his house first thing in the morning with a well-acquainted silly grin stretching my lips. I braked the bicycle and hopped down before the wooden gate. I took the spare key that was always behind the loose brick, opened the gate, and got in.

The previous night Edward had told me his father would be at the hospital from early morning to evening that day. His mother had traveled the previous afternoon for a conference in Seattle and was expected to come back home only on Friday.

Edward was completely alone. And as soon as this fact dawned on me I felt anxious. I couldn't wait to be with him and enjoy some privacy.

It seemed Edward's room was farther than usual and I was slower than ever 'cause I couldn't get there fast enough. The thing was, I was tiptoeing, trying to be as silent as I could. I knew he was sleeping and didn't want him to wake up just yet. I wanted to do it myself, in a very special way…

Once I finally got there, I opened his bedroom door slowly and took off my shoes, glad to find him sound asleep.

So beautiful…

Amid crumpled sheets was the godlike boy I was in love with. He was lying prone on the mattress wearing only his flannel sleep pants, his right arm loose out of the bed as his left arm and plastered wrist rested on the pillow near his head. His lips were ajar and very inviting...

Getting closer to his bed I could hear his soft low snores. The sound was almost soothing, it made me want to lay next to him and sleep. But my former plan was much better, and I stuck to it. So I leaned down to him and kissed his plump lips ever so lightly and proceeded to spread kisses on his face, neck, shoulders, and broad back.

Edward sighed softly and moved his body, turning it slowly until he had his naked chest toward me. I continued to kiss his skin while getting on the mattress, placing my knees on each side of his hips, supporting my weight with my hands on both sides of his head, and hovering over him. I kept a slow pace, kissing up and down his face and shoulders, and everything in between, until I felt his right hand on my chin. I raised my head and our eyes met. A powerful thrill caused me a strong shiver as I assimilated the desire in his deep gaze.

We didn't say a thing.

I kissed him. Hungrily, anxiously, excitedly. He immediately pulled my body down with only one arm, making me lay flush on top of his.

I was embarrassed as soon as the moan escaped, but I couldn't have controlled it. The bulge I could feel in his sleep pants, which was pressuring the instant matching one I had inside my jeans, provoked intense and immediate lust in me… I was so instantly aroused that I was afraid of embarrassing myself.

Edward rolled us over the bed, effectively swapping our positions. The pressure on my groin increased and I let out a heavy sigh as he looked fiercely at me.

"I want you." It escaped from me in a whisper.

Edward just clashed his lips on mine and kissed me again.

He was practically swallowing my tongue, so deep he was sucking it into his lush mouth. His right hand was holding my neck firmly. My hands were entangled in his hair, pulling him closer.

He hummed in my mouth as I swirled my tongue with his and then trapped his lower lip between my teeth, the vibrations of the sound reverberating all over my body.

I was getting crazy quickly, even though we weren't really moving. I was a little hesitant actually, because I was afraid of doing something wrong and putting him off. But Edward was kissing me so enticingly that I was too close to lose control…

Our legs tangled at their own accord, and suddenly his weight was pressuring me further against the mattress. My body started to subtly tremble due to the effort I was making not to thrust up against him.

I was about to lose my mind…

Things were escalating pretty fast and my body was responding in a completely unexpected and damn fast way. I was sure I couldn't contain myself for much longer, not only from moving but also from giving in.

And that was the moment Edward moved his hips, thrusting down on me.

My reaction was instinctive. I broke the kiss with a heavy gasp as I splayed my hands on his chest and pushed him away.

And that was the worst response I could've had to the very first time we made out.

I should've known that Edward would misunderstand it.

He looked at me from above with this puzzled expression on his face. We were both panting heavily, and there was this awkward silence between us that was killing me but I was mortified by my stupid reaction, so I couldn't find my damn voice to start explaining.

His gaze suddenly seemed regretful, and all I wanted was to bash my head against the wall.

"I'm sorry." He whispered before pulling away from me.

He sat on the bed, grasping the border of the mattress, shoulders slumped, head bent, pensive facial expression.

As I finally moved and sat beside him, admonishing myself for my stupidity, he looked at me warily.

"I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable." He said softly, his gaze serious. "I kinda got carried away, I'm sorry."

He was hurt. I truly wanted to beat myself up.

"Look, E… it's not that I'm uncomfortable…" I started to clarify.

"You just don't feel like it…" He mumbled while averting his eyes from mine.

"I do." I spoke quickly, getting off the bed and crouching before him. "I feel like it. I felt very like it just now."

He huffed and frowned but still didn't look at me.

"Then why did you push me?" His voice was doubtful and not demanding. "I'm just asking, it's okay if you don't…"

"Stop it." I cut him off and held his face so he would look at me. "I wanted that." He looked away, clearly doubting me. "Look at me, E, please." He did as I asked. "I'm sorry I reacted the way I did, it was involuntary."

Softly and slowly he held my hands, took them off his face, and stood up. I immediately gave him room to pass and he did, running his right hand through his tousled hair and sighing heavily. I sat back on the bed and waited, feeling like shit.

"Look, I know it's too soon, I get it.…" He said while finally turning to me. "We're moving too fast and maybe it's too early for you to feel…"

"Desire?" I interrupted him, asking but not waiting for an answer.

I stood up and went to him, holding his arms so he would stand still.

"When I said I wanted you, I meant it. I want you. And this is not new, it's been happening since I found out about my feelings. Maybe in a lighter intensity, but still…" I shrugged and shook my head. "I want you. I really do."

He sighed and slowly brought his hand to my face. The movement made my hand slip from his arm and I let it hang alongside my body while he held my neck and brought me closer to him.

"I know, Jazz, but it obviously threw you off, and it's okay." He shrugged. "We just got together, this is not a problem, maybe you need some time to…"

I heaved a sigh and spoke before he could finish his sentence.

"I was about to lose it." I blurted out and he shut up, finally paying attention. "I pushed you 'cause I was about to lose it." I repeated slowly so he wouldn't have doubts about what I'd just said. "I was too excited, okay?" I ran my free hand through my hair in plain tension. "I don't really know how to act. I've never been with a boy, this is uncharted territory for me…" I exhaled forcefully. "Believe me, this has nothing to do with me not feeling like it. I was going crazy with you on top of me… The contact was… overwhelming, feeling your weight, your heat, your body against mine, I was nearly on my limit, trying hard not to move…"

"Why were you trying not to move?" I could see in his eyes he was puzzled.

"Because I didn't really know what you wanted me to do, I was afraid of killing the mood." I shrugged. "Couldn't you tell how I was feeling? I mean, we were pretty close… I thought you could… feel the way my body was responding to yours."

I'm pretty sure my face was scarlet at that point.

Edward blushed too and let out a huffed laugh.

"I could. But then, when I moved…"

"That's when I almost lost it, I was about to…" I mumbled. "That's why I pushed you."

He shook his head and chuckled lightly.

"I'm sorry, I'm being silly. I thought…" He sighed. "It's just… I got this feeling that you realized you were with me, a guy, and then…"

"What?" I frowned.

"I don't know, Jay… you've always liked so much to fool around with girls, that…" He exhaled heavily. "It's ridiculous, I know, but… I just fear that at some point…"

"You think I'm gonna, what, change my mind, reject you, and run to some random girl?" I asked in a skeptical tone and he shrugged. "Do you believe I'm able to change my feelings?"

Edward just stared at me, his stance seemingly cautious.

"Edward, first of all, I know you're a guy, it's kinda impossible to confuse you with a girl, don't you think?" I snorted and he shook his head while sneering. "I realized I wanted a boy the day I realized I felt attracted to you! And it scared and confused the hell outta me but... I would've never been able to control all this! If you fear I'm not gonna want to be with you 'cause I prefer to be with girls, forget it. This is crazy."

"It's not crazy." He averted his eyes from mine again.

This was getting out of hand, I had to be straightforward and very clear.

"Edward…" I held his face in my hands, forcing him to look into my eyes. "You've known me your whole life… have I ever been this deeply connected to anyone else besides you?" He bit his lower lip. "Even before all this, you know I've never been this close to anyone like we've always been to each other. I've never been this emotionally involved with someone before, and I'm not just talking about this thing that's going on between us right now." I took in a ragged breath. "I'm aware of what I really feel for very little time but… somehow it's always been true, and you know that. I love you." He exhaled and freed his lip. "What I feel for you I've never felt before, for anyone, girl or boy. So, pay attention to my words, I don't want anybody else. I want you. And I mean I really want you. Completely. Not only emotionally, I mean physically as well. To be truthful your gender doesn't even matter to me. I don't know shit about how it will work for us, and I'm kinda feeling like a virgin again, but I'm not worried about that 'cause I know we'll figure it out somehow. What I know, for sure, is that the fact that our intimacy is gonna be different from what I've ever experienced won't change my mind, least of all the way I feel about you." A subtle smile was playing on the corner of his lips, and suddenly I wanted to kiss him again, but I went on. "I won't look for girls just because I'm used to them, or because I know how to do it with them, or because it's easy. I don't want to fool around anymore. I want to be with you. For real. Because there are feelings involved. Real feelings." I sighed. "This is so much bigger than sex to me… becoming physical…" I shrugged. "It's just a part of it." I freed his face and took his right hand, placing it on my chest above my heart. "This is the real thing." I whispered.

He smiled coyly, took my hand and kissed the back of it, then placed it on his neck and ran his hand through my hair.

"You know, it seems you're getting a little more mature every day. You don't seem so naive now…"

I smiled back and stretched out my neck a little so I could kiss him.

"I've already told you once, but I'm gonna repeat it to reinforce the idea in this thick head of yours." I warned and he laughed softly. "I'm not naive."

We kissed softly.

I circled his waist, pulling him to me. We continued kissing slowly, a little deeper, while I started to walk backward to the bed, bringing him with me. As soon as I felt the bed on the back of my knees, I turned us and splayed my palms on his naked smooth chest and began forcing him to lay back on his mattress.

I wasn't hesitant anymore. If he needed me to show him that I wanted him, that was exactly what he would get.

I held his head aligned with mine and deepened the kiss, swirling my tongue with his slowly. Once he was lying down, I hovered over him for a moment, and then, as I trapped his tongue between my lips and started to suck it gently, I let my body weight pressure him under me.

Edward moaned quietly as our groins came in contact. I sucked his tongue into my mouth a bit more intensely, pushing my hips against his forcefully at the same time, so he would feel how hard I already was, just to make sure he would understand how much I desired him...

He groaned.

I ran my left hand through his hair until I reached the top of his head, where I clenched my fingers, trapping some strands between them, and broke the kiss. I looked at him from above, as intimidatingly as I could. He was looking at me with this want mixed with expectation glinting in his eyes, his lips parted, a little swollen, still humid from the kiss, allowing his rapid breath to be released. I turned his head to the side and touched his ear with my lips.

"Can you feel it now?" I asked in a whisper while thrusting down, just to make a point. "Can you feel how much I want you…?"

I felt him shiver.

He didn't respond verbally. Instead, he swiftly turned back his head and took my mouth on his with an almost fury. And that was why I lost it.

My body suddenly had a mind of its own so I couldn't control when it started to push down and pull up just to push down again… I was thrusting down rhythmically against Edward.

Suddenly his right hand was inside the back pocket of my jeans, his plastered hand resting on my butt on the other side, pulling me further down, bringing our bodies so close I was about to groan loud from the elation. And then he thrust up in sync with my down movement.

It was my turn to groan, and I felt a little lightheaded.

We were seriously making out and I loved it. But as before, things were escalating at a crazy pace, I was already on the brink again…

Edward slid his hands until they reached my thighs. He grabbed them and opened them in a swift move, making me straddle him, and then, out of the blue, he broke the kiss, sat up on the bed with me in his lap, and practically threw me at the mattress.

Fuck, he was strong!

It all happened so fast that I got a little dizzy. I didn't even have time to react when he came to me, attacking my mouth hungrily once more.

I knew that, if he kept that up, I would be gone in no more than a few minutes. I was rock hard, like I'd never been before in my whole life, and my body seemed like a bare wire, any place he touched making a potent wave of energy run throughout me.

I crossed my ankles behind his butt, bringing him even closer to me, and thrust up as he thrust down. We moaned together in each other's mouths and kept the rhythm.

I could feel the coil forming in my lower abdomen, I knew I was getting dangerously close, but I simply couldn't find the will to stop. We kept dry-humping, more and more forcefully by the minute. My heart was beating so fast I couldn't keep up with it, I was breathless, a little woozy, and so fucking elated that I had no control over myself.

Edward bit my lower lip and sucked it while his right hand sneaked under my shirt. When he held my waist and sank his fingers in my skin forcefully at the same time he thrust his hips deep down against mine, I arched my back, feeling my cock pulse intensely.

I broke the kiss.

"O-okay stop…" I panted. "Stop, stop."

He did it, but I couldn't tell if he was disappointed again 'cause I had my eyes shut. All I could identify was his ragged breath that matched mine.

Slowly, deliberately, I uncrossed my ankles, planted the soles of my feet on the mattress, and let my arms lay loose alongside my body while I tried to calm down.

I took several deep breaths before I could feel my body loosen up. I opened my eyes hesitantly, afraid of what I would see on Edward's face.

He had a smug smile on his lips, the bastard.

"How close?" he sounded cocky, something unprecedented when it came to him.

I huffed a dry skeptical laugh. Then sighed.

"Too close." I confessed while feeling my cheeks blush.

"I thought your self-control would be stronger." Of course he was mocking me. "I mean, with all the experience you're supposed to have and shit…" He shrugged.

I pushed him playfully and he sat between my open legs already laughing, and I followed suit. We laughed for a moment and I sat too, placing my hands on both sides of his neck.

"It used to be…" I sighed contentedly. "At least until the last time I made out with someone it was. But then again, all those girls…" I shook my head while smiling suggestively. "They weren't you…"

Edward arched his eyebrows, smiled his deadly crooked smile, then he wet his lips with the tip of his tongue, and slid his teeth along his lower lip. The fucker knew well how to play… He was clearly provoking me.

"And what do you mean by that?" His voice was graver, and his eyes were bluer. He was enjoying the game.

"Do I really have to explain?" I kissed his lips swiftly.

He laughed a little and returned the kiss. Then he kissed my cheek and rested his forehead on my shoulder.

"You'll drive me crazy…" He murmured. "You already do."

I brought my mouth closer to his ear.

"We'll get crazy together." I whispered.

We laughed again, joyfully. And then we were hugging.

"It's good to be able to take this kind of thing lightly." He kissed my neck and pulled away. He looked at me softly. "One of the many perks of having your best friend as your boyfriend."

"Uh-huh." I uttered ironically. "Lightly, huh? Mister you'll-want-a-girl-once-you-realize-I'm-a-boy." I mocked him.

He smiled shyly.

"It's a valid fear if you consider I'm in love with a former manwhore."

"Ouch!" I exclaimed playfully. "You offend me!"

He pushed me against the mattress and hovered over me.

"Am I lying? Or even exaggerating?" His tone was playful and light.

"No." I admitted evenly. "But things are totally different now."

"How so?"

"Oh, you don't know yet?" He shook his head trying to seem serious, but the smile was dancing in his eyes. "I'm with someone." I whispered. He let the smile stretch his lips slightly. "This gorgeous blond boy that has the most beautiful grayish blue eyes and is the best kiss I've ever had…" He arched his eyebrows in what seemed surprise. "And I'm so in love with him…"

He leaned to me and kissed me for a moment, supporting his weight away from my body, and then he joined our foreheads.

"And he is so in love with you too…" He murmured, then he laid down on me resting his head on my chest. "Is this okay?"

I wrapped my arms around him and sighed.

"Yeah."

We remained there for a while, just lying down, holding each other in silence, letting the new feelings, the new connection between us settle.

We still had a lot of things to discuss, to sort out, to consider, to decide… But we also had time.

At that moment all that mattered was being together for as long and as much as we could before we had to deal with everything that was waiting for us outside our bubble.

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Heading to work after having lunch with my boyfriend at his house, my cell phone rang. It was Bella. I knew what she wanted.

After Edward and I finally got together, I called her so she would hear from me. I didn't say much, I didn't want to tell her everything that had happened over the phone, so I just said that Edward was staying and that everything was all right. She tried to get something more out of me but I told her we would talk better in person. So she made me promise her that we would meet as soon as possible.

I guessed I'd just reached my time limit.

"I know, I know…" I said after answering the phone.

"Where are you?" She asked in a smiley voice.

"In my car, driving to work." I answered in the same tone. "Do you wanna meet at the coffee shop? I still have half an hour before I have to start my shift, although I guess it won't be enough." I laughed lightly. "I can call in late."

"So do it." She demanded playfully. "I'm actually almost there. I was gonna go after you at the library."

We laughed.

"See you in five, then."

"Okay."

Four minutes later I was pulling over at the library parking lot with my dear boss, Miss Anderson, on the phone. She told me I could have a couple of hours to "solve a problem" since I'd done a lot of extra hours the previous week. And that was the only moment I felt grateful for having been depressed over Edward's silent treatment. I would've never done those extra hours if I hadn't desperately needed a distraction from my pain.

Soon after thanking her and saying goodbye, I was crossing the street to the coffee shop.

Bella was waiting for me at one of the back tables. As soon as she saw me her placid facial expression changed. She squinted a little and looked at me as if she was suspicious.

"Hey, sweetie." I greeted her once I got close.

She stood up, and we pecked each other's lips and hugged. Then we sat in front of one another.

"So, Edward's staying…" Her tone was definitely wary.

I knew she would notice something had changed as soon as she laid eyes on me or Edward. She was very perceptive, after all.

I nodded calmly.

"I'm relieved." She sighed slowly. "So now you'll tell me how you managed to convince him?"

"I begged." I said simply and a silly smile stretched my lips spontaneously.

Bella nodded, also smiling, her shrewd gaze clearly assessing me.

"Did you tell him?" She squinted slightly once more. I nodded again. "And you're fine." She remarked cunningly. "So things went smoothly." It was a statement.

"Actually… it was pretty intense." I corrected, trying to refrain from the smile in my voice but failing miserably.

I couldn't hold back the grin that spread across my face and remained plastered there from ear to ear, giving me away. I bent my head momentarily.

"What's with the grin?" She asked in a merry tone. "Jay, look at me." Her voice gave away her amusement.

I did as she asked, smiling impossibly widely.

"Your eyes are glowing!" She seemed delighted.

I nodded.

"We're together." I said cheerfully.

"Finally!" She exhaled. "For a moment back there I feared you two would never work this out."

I promptly frowned.

"Wait, did you know about…?"

"Oh, please, if I was able to see through you when you were oblivious, how would I not notice Edward's crystal-clear adoration for you, huh?"

"Why didn't you tell me anything?"

"It was not my place. Besides, you wouldn't have believed me."

"Guess you're right."

"I'm so glad for you two!"

"I'm pretty glad myself." I affirmed with contented a sigh.

"I can see that. So tell me everything." Her request was clearly anxious and it made me laugh.

I took a deep breath. It would be too hypocritical of me to pretend I wasn't as eager to tell her everything as she was to hear all about it. So I told her the most important details.

We laughed, we shared impressions, and I felt fucking relieved I could finally open up and tell someone about the damn great moment I was living. It was so fucking exhilarating to talk about it!

"So, what now?" She asked softly.

"We discussed a lot of things today, and we've made some decisions."

"Like…" She gave me the cue to explain.

"First of all, nobody else, besides you and Emmet, and of course, E's parents, should know about us for now."

"You don't want the news to spread and reach your father…" She concluded acutely.

I nodded.

"He cannot know. Otherwise, either he'll beat me to death or send me away." I heaved a weighted breath. "Not to mention that he can become crazy and try to do something to Edward.

Her gaze was worried and compassionate.

"I see." She exhaled. "What else?"

"We'll take things slow." I sighed. "This is all too new to both of us and we have a load of things to figure out… and we'll try to be as discreet as we can until we move out. Then we'll see."

"I'm here for you." She assured. "For both of you. You can count on me for anything, and I mean anything. Including help to solve some doubts about... " She got this mischievous glint in her eyes and I suddenly knew what was coming. "...Sex between men." She whispered.

I burst out laughing. A little amused, but in reality, I was kinda embarrassed.

"And what do you know about sex between men, Bella?" I asked still laughing.

"Not much." She admitted. "But I assume you two have as much knowledge as I do, so no problem in wanting to help my friends, right?"

"Right." I agreed joyfully. "Wait until I tell Edward about your offer. I can already see his mortified face."

We laughed some more, finally drank some coffee, promised to talk on the phone later, and said goodbye.

I went to work with my new best friend, mister Silly Grin, plastered on my face.