JUNJOU ROMANTICA
VI
CONSENT AND HEAT
"Last days of heat period and what do they mean for your beloved Pet" read the link Usami was looking on his phone, there had been many other articles he had read but all of them mentioned the same basic information, and non answered his question. Usami tapped on the link and hoped that at least one of his questions would be answered, this time he was even searching for heats on Ragdolls, Misaki's breed, specifically.
"Ragdolls are a slow growing breed, they usually start having heat periods around 25 or 26 years of age, but their firsts heat periods are commonly used to search for a "bonding pair", since they are monogamous. The breed tends to begin a regular heat cycle at 27 or 28, there has even been some pets who had their first pregnancy at 30." And that, was exactly what Usami was looking for, because no matter how excited he had been, to spend Misaki's heat together, there had been no signs of it during all heat season. Usami felt defeated but accepted quickly the reality, he loved how innocent and soft his beloved cat was, and it was part of his way of acting too. Unfortunately it was also that behavior that got him in trouble so constantly, reason why he was waiting, parked at the back entrance of the university, for Misaki to come out from classes.
And as he thought, the short kitten was walking out with a "friend", an Akita pet as Akihiko noticed, he seemed fairly smart and agile, things that added to the crowding he usually did to his Misaki, making Akihiko feel uneasy and jealous.
"Ever since I was attacked by that other pet Usami-san has started restricting me even more than before!". Usami was able to hear his beloved's whining when he got out of the vehicle, "and he hardly lets me do anything now" Misaki's words pulled on his doubts but he moved either way to their path. Misaki as foreseen jumped back at seen his foster owner "What are you doing here?"
"Why does your brain work in such a predictable simple way?" Usami responded, walking even closer to them
"I'm walking home with senpai today, so you can go back ahead of me" Misaki's voice wavered, a tinge of anxiety suddenly appeared on Usami's stomach.
"hello there, Usami-sensei" the akita spoke, Usami didn't care for the pet so he barely listened, focusing fully on Misaki "save that for when you're fully recovered"
"I'm totally fine already!" the young cat growled, a rarity on his usual behavior, which made Usami stress even more.
"You're probably aware of the festival we're going to have" continue to say the akita, "Misaki is going to be helping us in the circle I am in, so I'm afraid he'll be my captive for that one day, but…. You don't mind, do you?"
Alarm bells rang inside of Usami's mind, he wasn't 100% sure of why he felt anxious, but something was wrong with the akita pet, he couldn't be trusted, "Like hell he will". Without much thinking Akihiko took Misaki by the arm and pulled the kitten towards him and later into the car, opening the door for him to be pushed inside. Misaki complained and fumed but never struggled, allowing the writer to close the door, walk around the car and get inside his own side of it.
"Hmph!" Misaki grumbled and huffed, arms crossed and head turned towards the window, Akihiko sighed and kept driving, the quick road to their apartment.
"what the hell?!" exclaimed Misaki, finally talking when they entered their home, "are you determined to destroy the fun and excitement of college life for me?"
"You cannot hang around that kid anymore" Akihiko answered, following the cat and closing the door behind them.
"look, I'm pretty sure I said this before, but I don't think you should be jumping to conclusions about people you don't even know" Misaki tried to calm down, his pet instincts making it difficult to fight a human command even thou he wasn't his owner.
"which one of us is the ignorant one?" Akihiko's answer only fueled the cat's anger
"Obviously you!" Misaki exclaimed, raising his arms and shaking them, "Senpai is really a nice guy, he teaches me a lot of things" moving he tried to leave the room but Usami pushed him against the wall, crowding, arms at each side of him. "you honestly can't see he is after you?"
"Huh? After me? Senpai? Are you an idiot?, of course he is not" what a ludicrous thought!
"you're the idiot"
"shut up already, let me go" Misaki tried to push the arm away but Akihiko wouldn't relent
"you always let yourself get swept away so easily!"
"I do not!" Misaki indignantly responded, "besides, I'm not in elementary school anymore, so don't pull all these restrictions on me just because I got a freaking sprain!"
"Restrictions? That's just my love!" How could Misaki not see? Not noticed that all he did was to protect him? Akihiko could not withstand the thought of his beloved Misaki getting hurt, or loosing him, but was it too much? Would there be a limit to how much Misaki could accept?
"What part of it is love?!" Misaki tried to move the arm again without success
"Just stop hanging around him"
"mind your own business" Misaki felt like saying, but Usagi-san was his foster owner, he couldn't say that, well, if he thought about it, he had already tested the limits of the author today, but still…
Suddenly Misaki noticed Usagi-san's face growing closer, he recognized the kiss before it happened and without thinking he stopped it, pushing the writer away from him "quit it already!" Closing his eyes he pushed even farther, "don't assume senpai is like you, and it's a good time so let me just tell you this, I can hang out with whoever I want, doing whatever I want, and I have no obligation to inform you about it, and you have no right to open your mouth about it either!" the words cascaded one after the other, not stopping till they were all gone and Misaki regretted them immediately. Misaki waited, silence was deafening, why was Usagi-san not saying anything? Wouldn't he normally argue back?. Usagi-san's arm fell and Misaki looked at the writer's eyes, there was so much pain in them it almost bowled him, "So yeah… think I'll go, uh, do some shopping for dinner"
"I.. love you… that's why…. That's why" Akihiko's voice was so low it was only because Misaki had a cat's hearing that he was able to decern his words.
"oh right! How about we have kimchi stew for dinner, eh?" Misaki felt his heart pumping so hard it seemed it was crushing against his ribcage, he knew he was a coward, he knew it was not fair, but he did it anyways, "you know?, if you fry up the kimchi with some oil, before putting it in the pot, it's super delicious" he moved away and backed to the door, he avoided the writer's eyes, afraid of what he would see in them, "okay then, ill be back" and he left.
- 0 -
The festival was almost everything Misaki had hoped, there was richly flavored food, games, music and so many people, so much he couldn't believe it. Of course he wasn't able to play much or go around all the time because he had to help out with the club, although he thought promoting a haunted house with a teddy bear costume was terribly misleading, he couldn't argue with Sumi-senpai's argument, it was probably the only way to entice people into it.
In the end the day went by fast, and he was so happy he almost, ALMOST forgot about Usagi-san. They had not really spoken to each other after the incident, even thou the older man kept taking him to Uni and picking him like always, there was no real conversation, just an empty space between them. "was I too harsh?" He had tried to relax and enjoy the festival but every so often something would make him think of Usami, would he like this? This is so funny I should tell Usagi-san! I could prepare this for Usagi-san… why did everything revolve around him? Worse of all, for some reason he couldn't understand every time the author's voice or face appeared on his mind a rush of warmth would spread from his belly to his throat, making his heart pump painfully for a few seconds. Was he ill? Was he coming down with something? Hopefully it wasn't something dangerous...
"Misaki"
"MISAKI"
"Eh?" Misaki turned to look at his senpai, the tall dog looking at him patiently, how long had he been spacing out?, "did you say something senpai?"
"Yes, how was your first festival?"
"Oh! It was great! I have had so much fun!" Misaki beamed, but feeling the vibration of his cellphone he looked at the screen and felt like huffing and puffing
"Is it Usami?" asked Sumi and Misaki grumbled in answer, "I told him I'd be home late today because of the festival, but look at this! 18 missed calls!" showing the cellphone screen to his senpai he felt even more annoyed, but Sumi-senpai only chuckled, "it's nice to be worried about"
"it is not"
"you're not very honest" Misaki looked at his senpai, brows knitting together, what did that mean?
"so, what are you gonna do? Wanna crash at my place tonight?"
"Isitokay?" Misaki answered so fast his words fussed together, he had never slept over at another pet's house, he was suddenly very excited.
"Sure, my owners are not even home today"
- 0 -
"Misaki, I found a toothbrush" Sumi entered the room, toothbrush in hand, opening his mouth to repeat his statement when he noticed the kitten sleeping soundly on his room's floor, he studied the feline for a few minutes, the chocolate mane, the slender frame, his small nose, plush lips and interestingly long legs for such a short pet. Suddenly Misaki's cellphone vibrated on the table, without hesitation he picked it up and answered it "hello"
"who is this?" Usami Akihiko's voice seemed to boomed from the other side of the call "Sumi, Misaki is sleeping quite peacefully right now, so he can't come to the phone"
"where are you ?" Sumi felt like smiling, "My house, he really worked hard helping us, looks like he tired himself out, you should have come, Sensei. Misaki was quite cute"
"I'm coming to get him right now, tell me your address" again Sumi felt like smiling and this time he didn't stop himself, "oh, are you?"
It didn't take long for the great Usami Akihiko to find his apartment, Sumi opened the door and the writer entered, eyes searching, "Where's Misaki?"
"I'll make some tea, or would you prefer alcohol?" Sumi schooled his face, trying to control his emotions, he walked to the table and took a cup and a tea box.
"No need for either, I'll be leaving soon" the writer's eyes never stopped looking
Misaki squeezed his eyes and sighed, murmurs pulling him out of his sleep "you hate me I can tell" a voice sounded near but not enough, a voice that called to him "hate? Can't you tell I love you?" Ah! He recognized that voice as well… Sumi, Sumi-senpai was talking with someone! Opening his eyes he noticed he was in a dark room, covered with a blanket and laying on the floor, "is this why you got close to Misaki?" was that Usagi-san's voice? There was a line of light where the door had not fully closed, "Yes, that's right" he walked towards the light and looked through the slit, "this joke has gone far enough, get off me!" Misaki recognized the figure, "joke? Usagi-san! Why is he here?"
"I understand that you love Misaki, so for now, why don't you let me sleep with you first?" Sumi placed his palm over Usami's chest, pushing "You can fall in love with me afterwards" Misaki went one step backwards "Eh?… what? What did he just say?"
"This kind of thing is your forte, right? After all this is how you FORCED Misaki, isn't it?" Misaki felt acid on his stomach, why was Usami not saying anything? "Eh, so I was right, well, given how Misaki reacts to you, its rather obvious, so think of this as being the same"
Unable to hear anymore Misaki opened the doors with both hands "no! that's wrong!" but instead of them standing as he had seen them before, they were down on the floor, Sumi's hands pulling Akihiko's dress shirt upwards, "what the hell are you doing?!" Misaki felt boiling range, confusion and anxiety rising in tidal waves, why was Usami not doing anything? Why was his friend… why…
"Hey Misaki, why don't you give him to me? You're always complaining about him and acting like you can't stand him. And honestly, I'm pretty sure I know him better than you do" Misaki's breath hiked, better? It was true he didn't know Akihiko all that well but… "uh.. um.. but..."
"No reason to go through the trouble of sticking around someone you don't even like, is there?" Sumi smiled his gentle smile and Misaki's ears bent to the sides, he couldn't help the restless swings of his tail, "No, I never…" Misaki looked at Sumi and then to Usami, "Hey! Stupid Usagi! Say something already! Besides, I have never once said anything about not liking him!"
"I'll take him off your hands for you, you can go home to your brother or wherever"
"Usagi-san is… Usagi-san is…" Sumi turned towards Usami, Misaki knew it, he was about to kiss him, but he couldn't, no, he couldn't, because "NO! don't! I will never give Usagi-san to anyone! Usagi-san belongs to me!" in a flurry of movement Misaki pulled the author from the floor towards him, his hand holding on to Akihiko's arm as strongly as he could, it took several seconds to realize what he had done, Sumi's surprised expression only highlighting the strangeness of his reaction, "Ah, senpai, what I meant is, er…"
"There it is" finally Usami's voice came, moving his arm away, Usami took hold of Misaki's hand pulled it up and forward, showing it to Sumi, "the one I love is Misaki, not you"
"senpai…" Misaki felt overwhelmed, the adrenaline had run off, and while Usami's words had calmed down his anxiety a bit, Sumi's expression only helped to break his heart more.
"we're leaving" Usami walked out and Misaki could only follow, taking his piling emotions with him. And even thou he tried nothing seemed to makes sense and he could not get an straight answer from his brain or heart during their car ride. When they finally reached their apartment, closing the door behind them he felt his anger first and foremost.
"what was that all about?! If you have got time to be squawking about me, watch your freaking self a little! What the hell are you doing!?" he knew his words were mean, he knew he was just letting his anxiety and anger force his words out, "you're in way more danger than I am… hey, are you listening?!" Misaki felt his cheeks and ears burn, a heavy feeling on the pit of his stomach. In the darkness he felt Usami's arm surrounding him, "what the hell, let go of me? I'm seriously pissed!"
"I love you"
"No, you always use that trick to escape the conversation" Misaki tried in vain to move away.
"I love you"
"enough!, you're not using that word anymore!…"
"I love you" Usami's voice trembled, his arms tightening, holding him closer against his chest, "I don't care if you don't want me, if you hate it, I'm never letting you go"
"Usagi-san?" suddenly the anger vanished, instead a deep cold fear started to grow in his belly
"If you ran from me, I'd probably come chasing after you and lock you away" Usami's voice trembled yet again, Misaki wanted to turn and see him, felt a desperation to heal whatever was affecting him
"hey now, that's not funny"
"I know, I'm sorry this shouldn't, if I hurt you I, this shouldn't…" shouldn't? What shouldn't? Dread was clogging his heart and Misaki twisted himself around, "Usagi-san? What's wrong? You're acting a little weird" Misaki finally pulled himself apart slightly and looked Usami in the eyes, and it all crashed inside him, he felt cold sweat running through his back.
"Misaki, kiss me" it seemed like a plead, as if he was begging
"eh? huh? What are you saying?" the request seems to be out of nowhere, Misaki's cheeks turn red immediately and he naturally backed away "Impossible, I politely decline! Way to high level for me
and we should turn the lights on, we're stumbling around in the dark here…" Misaki straightened up and tried to move away, but Usami grabbed his hand and pulled him in another embrace, pushing Misaki's back against the wall, moving his arm to place them at each side of him.
"what's up with you, why are…" Misaki's ears flattened against his scalp, his tail twisting itself around his leg, trying to comfort himself.
"Misaki, please, kiss me or… you…"
"stop… what's gotten into you? You're totally weird today!" Misaki tried not to but couldn't avoid looking at Usami's eyes, haunted and piercing, they aggravated the feelings inside him, as if there was misery written on those violet eyes. The author closed his arms again around Misaki and this time he let his weight pull them down towards the floor, as if letting go of his own strength, and it made Misaki's heart accelerate, panic spreading quickly like wild fire, as if… as if he let go of Usami he will never see him again. He remembered then Sumi, maybe another pet could win Usami's heart, would there come a day where Usami no longer loved him? No longer chased him back?
"Kiss me" maybe, Usami was not just asking him for a kiss, "that's the way your forced him.." that had been said and Usami never denied it, but how could he?, if every time, Misaki backed away from Usami's shows of affection, when he run away from kissing him or never responded to his love… had he even said he loved him, at least once?. Misaki felt like crying, but had no right to do so, if things were as complicated as they were it was not only Usami's fault, but also his.
Suddenly Usami moved away from him, probably trying to stand up but to Misaki it was clear he was pulling away from his life, "he's leaving me!" in desperation and fear Misaki moved forward and took Akihiko's face in his hands, and without letting any doubt stop him he pushed himself up and kissed the writer on his lips, softly, briefly, barely there. Usami looked at Misaki with shock, his mouth opened, wether it was from the shock or to say something Misaki didn't find out, the kiss woke something within him, his body moved on it's own volition to Usami again, but that time the kiss became deep and long, he wanted to press his whole body against Usami. When they finally parted ways he moaned deeply, a thought running through his mind.
"He's mine, he's mine, I need to make him mine"
"Usagi-san, I don't feel…" Misaki's face felt hot, his body trembled, he needed Usami's touch, he craved it, and when Usami caressed his cheek, rubbing his palm over it, it made him moan again. "Usagi-san" he mewl, going for another kiss, suddenly starved, but this time Usami was the one who stopped the kiss, placing his hand over Misaki's forehead, "Misaki, I think you're ill, you don't seem feverish but..."
"No, I'm okay I just… I just need" Misaki shook the hand away and launched himself to kiss him, bitting the lower lip and sucking the sensitive tongue, Usami groaned but separated himself again, shaking his head to clear his thoughts "Misaki you're not behaving like normal, stop and breath" but Misaki still felt like crying, could he be too late? Had he lost his love because of his cowardice?
"Misaki!" Usami called him, shaking him softly, making Misaki react. Shocked, there's a moment of fresh air and he could think, he now understood what was going on.
"Usagi-san… I think I'm going into heat"
"That's not possible, you're not old enough…" Usami looked at Misaki, noting the dilated eyes, the feverish tint of his skin, "I think I have pills, I need to get them" but Misaki stopped him from moving, slowly he took Usami's hand in his paw, unable to cover them since his own paws were so small, "Usagi-san, ask me to kiss you"
"what?"
"Can you… please… ask me to kiss you" Misaki dared not to look into Usami's eyes
"this is not the time..."
"The need is growing back up, soon I won't be able to control myself much but, I want you to have me, I want …" Misaki felt a wave of desire and had to breath through it, Usami's delicious essence made his body tingle, "I can't say things, they're too hard for me, and I hope you don't loose your love for me because of how slow and cowardly I am but, if we could, if you please… just… I don't want… I don't know what to say anymore" tears fell freely from Misaki's eyes.
"Misaki, kiss me"
Misaki threw his arms surrounding the writer's neck, pressing his mouth on Usami's lips, kissing him long and deep. The kiss changed quickly, the need growing back again, but Usami didn't stop anymore, instead, while they kissed he moved his hands inside Misaki's shirt, his body's heat overflowing.
"I need to make him mine" Misaki rubbed his body against the writer's, in response Usami pulled off and away the t shirt and took off his own coat and dress shirt. "I need to own him" There was no cuddling or butterfly kisses, there was no sweet caresses or preparation, Misaki without thinking any longer helped Usami discard their pants and positioned himself on top of Usami's manhood, the craving burning, to become one, to belong to one another. The ring of muscles tightened, the movement was hard, the pain was welcomed, making Misaki cry out in pleasure.
When his body was fully taken he embraced Usami, and following his instinct he kissed the skin between shoulder and neck and bite down on it, tearing up flesh, marking the writer as his own. Usami didn't understand, Misaki never acted like that, he had half a mind to worry, that something might be wrong, but Misaki kissed the wound and murmured "Usagi-san, you're mine, I will never ever give you away" a sweet smell of violets and roses seemed to waft from the kitten and it made Usami drunk, "you're mine, Misaki" Usami responded and Misaki's answering moan made him smile "and I'm yours"
Their love making didn't last, drunk with Misaki's pheromones, moans and receptive body Usami came quickly inside the cat. It satisfied the need but the writer knew it would only last for a while, so he lifted his lover, spent and loose like the ragdoll he was, towards his, their, bedroom. He left Misaki sprawled on top of the covers and run to the kitchen, thankfully there was food ready, that he heated up and brought back to the cat, Misaki ate little bits from Usami's hand, sucking on the digits and moaning. When the food was gone he stretched himself on the bed, exposing his belly and fully erect penis, Usami licked his lips and took no time to respond to his beloved's call. Over and over again they repeated the cycle, letting their bodies meet in ecstasy, rest and fall again for what the author believed was 3 days, he probably wouldn't have lasted more than that, so he was grateful when at the third day the thick pheromones were gone and his kitten finally rested for whole 8 hours.
When Misaki woke up the events of the previous days didn't come up to him immediately, he cuddled against a hard chest, nuzzling happily, purring. Slowly his mind wondered about who the chest belonged to, by the sensation of the skin, the smell of it and a strange pulling of his heart he knew it belonged to Usami. Why was he in Usagi-san's room? Oh yes, they fought… Sumi, Sumi had tried to kiss him, a bitter taste came up to his mouth and he huffed, inhaling deeply to expel such emotions, replacing them with the musk and tasty essence of Usami. Then he remembered, his heat, the bite, he had bitten Usami!, he had marked the writer, his foster owner, a HUMAN! Panic started to swell on him, it was wrong, he shouldn't have done that!.
"Misaki" Usami's voice, groggy with sleep brought Misaki out of his tormented thoughts, he looked up and gasped, rationally he knew the man was handsome, they lived together, he was used to waking up beside him, so why oh why was the sight of Usami, smiling so tenderly at him, with mussed hair and sleepy eyes so breath taking? Again there was a pulling in his heart, and he knew, the rope that was being pulled was tied around his heart in one end, and around Usami's heart in the other. "Usagi-san I love you"
And that was the right answer, Misaki thought, when Usami's face brighten, his smile growing wide and charming. The writer pulled him in to his arms, crushing him and kissing him so sweetly it almost made Misaki cry. "I love you too" They stayed like that, for quite a long time, till Usami's wondering hands lowered south and Misaki started pulling away.
"Usagi-san what are you doing so early in the morning?"
"I want my dose of Misaki"
"you already had enough let me go!" Misaki squirmed and fought knowing full well he couldn't really fight it, but he would damn well try to act as if he could.
"I love you my Misaki"
Author's note: This took far more than what I wanted, between work, school and personal projects I had barely enough time to work on this... BUT I'm happy I made it. My hope is to be done with this fanfic by next year, since finishing this year is too much to ask. Of course, likes, comments and all are always welcomed, so please do : D Finally, I believe this will be my last update of the year, I wish I had advanced more but alas, the year has gone by and we're reaching it's end. I'm happy either way, of how much I have done, and I hope you are also happy with the previous chapters, this one, and excited for the ones to come. Happy holidays my lovely readers. May the next year bring you happiness, growth and many more stories to enjoy. Read you in the next one.
