Unlove You

A/N I've never actually done one of these before, and I've done my fair share of looking down on them. But I really think this song works with them and my talent at making fan edits is pathetic really. SO I am writing it instead. The song is Unlove You by Troy Cartwright which I obviously don't own. Probably would've made more sense to do this from Elliot's POV but I think I already did that in Possibilities and Predictions.

'Cause the one thing I can't do is unlove you...

The words carried with the wind. Kat closed her eyes as she felt the morning air brush the tip of her nose. Winter was slowly coming to an end but her feelings remained unchanged. She stared through the glass pane and watched her breath forming mist over its surface. Saw not only her own face staring back, but Elliot's behind her. A sadness spilled into her, a deep ache that she couldn't subside, not now.

If I could un-kiss you lips, and never know how good it tastes.
If I could un-feel your fingertips, then maybe then I'd feel okay.

Kat's fingers drifted to her lips, she could still remember what it felt like. She cursed herself that she'd let him in. They were good enough as friends weren't they? Or had she broken something that couldn't be fixed? She, she, she. Kat reminded herself that this wasn't her fault. Something Elliot had told her.

I been up for days, staring at a drink. Tryna un-remember every little thing.
Tryna hit delete on me and you, but I don't know how to...

It was early evening, so she left the window and walked downstairs. The dinner was on the table, her mom had made cornbread and soup, as she had through the dead of winter. Snow was still dripping from the roof in great clumps. Ice had fallen onto Fynn as he ran through the house, soaking and muddy. "He's been in that pond again." Del said, but Kat wasn't thinking about the pond.

If I could undo knowing you, that's a risk I'd be willing to take.
But I can't un-bruise black and blue, this heart just can't catch no break.

She thought about it, running out of the house and into the murky depths just to shake her younger self by the shoulders and warn her about Elliot Augustine. Tell that small girl to leave town and never come back. She'd tell Jacob not to go near the pond too. Not that he'd listen. But it was no use. She didn't want Elliot gone from her life, he meant so much of it.

Been a couple weeks, staring at the wall, tryna figure out how to un-fall.
To forget it all. To be better off. But I don't know how to...

She ate her food, staring at the woodgrain of the table, she'd have it memorised if she didn't look up soon. "Everything okay mom?" Alice asked, picking at her salad and shoving endless rocket leaves into her mouth.
"Yeah, I just have to-" Kat started to say, wiping her mouth with a napkin. She got up, leaving the rest of her food uneaten and the door open on her way out.

If I could unlove you, I would've done it by now.
If I could un-want you, I wouldn't be out front of your house.
Calling you up, 3:00 am, hoping you're up and let me in.
'Cause the one thing I can't do is unlove you...

His door was locked but she tried to handle anyway. His bike was by the front wall and he didn't have a car. Kat looked around for any other signs that he was in but there was nothing. She peered in through his screen-door but he wasn't home. She had to face it. What was she even doing? Begging him was just going to push him away more. A tear streaked down the side of her face, it was cold and unwanted so she pushed it away. The words were still in her head, floating around in circles. How could you unlove someone who meant so much?