So with us basically hitting the halfway point on the chapter reuploads? I felt like now would be a good time to go into extra stuff about this story's creation and also a certain someone that has kind of been at the forefront of this the whole thing. So like I said at the beginning, my idea for this haremfic was based on the work of Lil' Soniq, specifically his works Sonic's Ultimate Harem and Shadow's Big Harem 1 and 2. He's also the guy I have to thank as being my main inspiration for getting into fanfiction. Now I know what some of you might be thinking right now, especially if you are returners but trust me when I say I'm not trying to regurgitate old info or dredge up old drama for the sake of clicks. I feel like covering this because I feel it is such a big part of my history and understanding it in a way helps one to further understand my thought processes going into not just this story but a good deal of my fanfic output.

See it was around I believe 2011 or so and life... just kind of sucked for me. Without getting into the nitty-gritty of things. I basically was in a state where if I wasn't pissed off? I was depressed. I had just moved out to a whole new area and due to living circumstances coupled with tons of other life issues, I was feeling beaten down. During this time, my only real escapes were my hobbies and favorite media and during this time, I was reconnecting with one of my earliest loves, My Life as a Teenage Robot and inadvertently on my DSi, I wound up getting into fanfiction, starting off with works based on that series. Now full disclosure, I'd heard of fanfics before and fanfilms though with fanfics? The impression I always had was that the works were illegal because as I've reiterated time and time again for people? I can be quite the dingus when it comes to tech. Though once I started looking fanfics up? It was another source of relief for me during tiring times as I discovered many different types of fanfics and because I was such a horny ball of confusion and anger? I tended to gravitate towards lemons AKA what we called smutfic though if you forgive the TMI? I never actually got into the "relief" part of it until much later. I was much more of a pictures and video guy back then.

Moving on, I eventually would start getting into works based on Sonic the Hedgehog. I started with T1Weasel's stuff which to this day still holds up to me as damn good smut but then eventually, I'd discover a little story called Sonic's Big House Party which was this mega-crossover thing with a very simple premise. Basically Sonic and friends are bored so they decide that since nothing really happens on Fridays to just throw a house party with a whole bunch of characters from various different franchises being invited and involved in a night of debauchery. In terms of writing quality? It was bad, its formatting was also not great and frankly, if this was any other time I would've not given it any mind but at the time? It was perfect, it was the exact kind of turn your brain off type media I needed. Not only that but it oozed passion. Like I really got the impression this guy genuinely loved what he was doing and that he didn't care what people said, if he had an idea? He'd just go ahead and write it and for me when it comes to something like fanfiction? I'm a sucker for when people have passion for what they're doing. So I stuck to reading his stuff which led me to Shadow's Big Harem which was a haremfic about Shadow the Hedgehog having a big harem which I enjoyed quite a bit seeing as how Shadow was my favorite Sonic character and of course, this meant I eventually grew to love Sonic's Ultimate Harem.

And eventually? It led to me finally deciding to try out this fanfiction thing myself. I had for a good while a draft written up for the start of a TF fic that would be my own take on the franchise and along with that a whole notebook of drawings of characters with the idea being that I would eventually pitch an idea to Hasbro like the egotistical dumbass I was. Self-deprecation aside, one of my biggest hang-ups with fanfiction and why I didn't engage in it for so long despite being a fan was and still persists to this day my issues with self-esteem. My confidence in myself fluctuates a lot. I've gone through many periods where I ultimately became disillusioned and uncertain about my work and I'd keep doubting myself, letting my brain tell me that I would never be good enough to make any fanfiction that people will care about and that any story that did get likes would be less because of my own writing ability and more people doing it out of pity.

I also admittedly was afraid the potential of being flamed or harassed and considering my other issues? I did worry about the mental toll it'd take on me. So to see this one guy whose writing skills were not the greatest, who has received flames and threats just being out here doing stories revolving around some of the most batshit ideas just because he wanted to do them? Between that and the work of another creator by the name of MetroXLR99? This lit a fire under me to just get out there and just engage in this hobby. So I created this humble account with a pen-name that was so woefully generic on purpose and started creating fanfiction with as I've said before, Saiyan Prince being my second story. Now in terms of my interactions with Soniq? They were kind of rocky because you see, now that I had this account, I also in a rather naive manner thought that it meant I could post reviews now not knowing you could do that without one.

But with that in mind, I may be a fan but I'm also someone who for the most part likes to give criticism to help out and does recognize when a story has flaws and Ultimate Harem definitely had its fair share that I laid out in a review that I thought was pretty fair overall. I covered the lack of variety in the set-up and how that it led to a ton of repetition, how the writing didn't always reflect the characters and instead felt like erotic parodies of them and how the grammar and spelling could use a ton of polish and I thought this would get a response seeing as how Soniq was pretty good about replying to reviews and since mine I felt was more analytical and would stand out in the sea of hatred and bile that it would catch his eye which writing this out makes me sound like an absolute dumbass weirdo which to be fair I kind of was at the time.

I waited for a period of time that was slightly too short and saw in the newest chapter that there was no response and so I decided to post this review on the most recent chapter with me thinking that maybe he's looking more for reviews on his most recent chapters rather than earlier ones and this review to be fair was posted on the very first and by a certain point kind of got buried by other comments so I posted the same review, waited for awhile and at a certain point during the waiting period I got impatient and later that impatience turned to anger, especially when as the chapters went on the same issues were still present and so I made what was quite possibly one of my biggest blunders ever. I went into the review section and posted a hateful screed that frankly represents what I was back then, an impatient, bratty asshole who honestly should've just been blocked right then and there and who I would've gladly punched in the face if I could go back in time to do it. It just had none of what my old review had and instead was attacks and insults for the sake of it and so when I checked my PMs and saw Soniq had shot me a justifiably angry response? At first, I felt like exploding on him but then I took a step back since at the time I was much calmer and looked over my post and it hit me just how stupid I was being, how this did not reflect the kind of critic I wanted to be and that frankly? I deserved the lashing I got. I realized that instead of criticizing my inspiration and trying to help them improve? I just became yet another mindless troll who was engaging in hyperbolic hate for the sake of it so with that in mind? I wrote from the heart and apologized profusely for what I said, expressing how I really was a fan and that what I engaged in was wrong and just a stupid bout of impatience mixed with unnecessary anger. I even mentioned I wrote Saiyan Prince because I was inspired by him and I made a now-deleted story that was a mock-up of what a Toonami promo for his fanfic series, Fairy of Darkness would look like as an even further showcase. When I sent it? Honestly I was expecting him to ignore it but much to my absolute shock? He responded to me.

Not only that, he accepted my apology, forgave me and even noted he actually read Saiyan Prince and said he was flattered that I was inspired by him and that he liked the story which left me feeling nothing but relief. After that? We talked a bit over time but it came more in tiny bursts since after all, our first meeting was pretty bad and thus I didn't feel right in pushing anything. We didn't really become friends until April 13, 2015 where I saw that Ultimate Harem was labelled as being discontinued which led to me hitting him up and asking what was going on to which he said that he was getting tired of people popping up to flame his work and so he wanted to kind of just end things and that really got to me. Now look I know what some of you are thinking and I get it, it's just a smutfic, it's not exactly rare on this site, especially when it comes to SEGA's star mascot and so so the idea of anyone dedicating this much time to it is going to be seen as ludicrous. The thing is, one of the most admirable traits I felt that Soniq had was his tenacity and passion. Sure the idea of keeping one haremfic updated over the course of a few years is weird but at the same time, think about it, how many fanfics have you seen by people where very clearly the intent is to start a story and see it through to the end only for it to then be eternally in limbo because the author lost interest? I mean, it's difficult to find an author who even has the passion to make two chapters of a work so to see someone who had the passion and drive to keep one series of one-shots going for a hundred or so chapters only to be stopped because the negativity was becoming too much? That bothered me because if you ask me? I don't care what happens, an author should be able to end the story on their own terms. I understood that there could be any number of reasons for why an author would want to cancel a story but trolls being assholes should never be one of them. I feel that not only does a disservice to the reader, it's a disservice to yourself and letting these guys win. Now to be clear, you're not a coward or anything like that if you really have had the passion for writing sucked out of you by asshats. But if I have a chance to say something? I'm going to do it and so I hit him up with a long message that was from the heart, off the cuff where I basically said for every troll, there were tons more legit fans who loved his work, some of whom had been around since his early days and I even showed some of those positive posts.

Now to be honest? I didn't think this would work out but much to my shock, a few moments later I received a reply from a completely rejuvenated Soniq who not only thanked me but it wasn't that long before I saw that at the end of chapter 171 of SUH that he explained to his fans the situation and he not only said it was thanks to my words that he was inspired but he also called me a dear friend which okay for my ego was lovely but really it hit me just more in the heart and feelings because it was the first time I felt like I had a tangible positive impact on someone with my suggestions not being shot down or making things worse and from that point on? Our talks sort of shifted. We still didn't talk muc but when we did, we certainly felt like we were on less shaky grounds. We'd hit a weird snag every now and again mostly thanks to misunderstandings and occasionally some people engaging in some crappy behavior but we worked through them and eventually, our friendship grew to where I was starting to make ideas for new chapters of SUH, starting with Chi-Chi I believe and then moving onto other characters. I'd then do things like make story covers because by this point, I had a DeviantArt account, I had BrawlBox for Brawl modding and I had the program Paint dot net so I thought 'Hey, I see some of these covers he has on his stories look a little thrown together, a little outdated so why don't I spice them up with some new covers?' and I did. They were my special gift to him and eventually I'd give him even a brand new icon and he was just so thankful for them. He did not ask for me to do them, I just did them as a gift on my own time and he was so appreciative.

I am also in the review section defending this guy from the trolls and death threats and all that nonsense because over time through PMs? I felt he wasn't some creep who had an unhealthy obsession with Sonic the Hedgehog but that rather he was a very normal, chilled out guy who unfortunately had a very rough life and suffered from depression with him even admitting at one point that he once attempted suicide and that at other times? He has thought of it and at that time? All I saw was just pure bile being sent to him. Not criticism but rather just pure hatred just because he did this story in the first place with Sonic the Hedgehog who online is considered a joke with one of the reasons being his fanbase which has gotten quite the infamous reputation over the years. Hell I even saw some people compare him to and say he's just as bad as Chris Chan and it was ALL because he wrote this fanfiction. What also got to me was how I saw that people in the review section weren't doing anything to help combat this and I was not having any of that so what this kind of started was in hindsight one long and pointless war against trolls which showed just the sheer stupid lengths some people would go to just to get one story to stop. I had people impersonate me and others in the review section, I have been called every insult imaginable, there was even this one dude who claimed that me and Soniq somehow made a concerted effort to troll them off the website and sufficed to say it was crazy. All of this happened over fanfiction, just this one stupid piece of media that was never canon in the first place nor did it affect anyone and yet people were out there acting like reading the story actually caused physical pain to others. It was just plain insane and it just kept motivating me to push forward and it just led to my friendship with Soniq growing which in turn led to us inspiring each other.

Of course despite me being a friend? I did take note of how the stories still had their issues so for example, there was this one chapter that I saw had Sonic being quite a big dick to another character, I felt it was out of character so I decided to criticize that. The guy's response was to tell me that he was sorry but that he wasn't going to change it since it was already written down which was weird but I thought back to how I criticized one element of what was then an upcoming story, Fairy of Darkness IV which he said would be rated M and include lemons so I expressed my concern that this would lead to the lemons possibly being a repeat of what I saw in Ultimate Harem and he was very hurt by that and so me being the guy who wanted to preserve a friendship decided to just apologize. The next time criticism like this occurred was somewhat close to Halloween and I couldn't help but notice that the guy's responses to trolls were getting pretty unnecessarily angry and that the anger was starting to bleed into responses to fans and so I thought to maybe talk with the guy about this. Little did I know? Those words hurt him, he abandoned the internet for about a month I believe and then he came back and it took a LOT of talking to build him back up.

And this in particular I felt became kind of a pattern. It felt like every year would always bring us at least one big problem that would lead to Soniq being so hurt he'd abandon the internet for awhile only to come back with me having to send him so much positivity to get him to keep going and then there were times where he'd just disappear for awhile which usually I'd find out would be due to him either living his life or personal issues like one time where he ended up losing his cousin to I believe a car accident which as someone who has lost family members before had a tendency to mess me up.

Also it was clear the guy didn't have many outlets to just unload with his anger and that it was getting bottled up so there were times where he'd just be so pissed and I'd just tell him to vent, he'd decline it and after a bit of pushing, he'd do it and once it was done? He usually felt a lot better, he'd thank me and we went about our days. Now by that point, we had grown a particularly strong bond. We had been through tons of tragedies and crazy shit that we were able to deal with thanks to our bond as friends. Hell eventually Soniq started to make ideas of his own for me which made me so incredibly happy and grateful and to this day? It's a friendship that aside from what I have with MetroXLR and All hail Lord Megatron AKA Gero223 that I still think back on at least in terms of the good times with positivity.

Now unfortunately, things started to change by a certain point. It was a normal day when I saw in the review section of Ultimate Harem on a chapter that someone had been posting ideas asking for Sonic to have sex with a realistic dog. Now I'm no stranger to weird requests on that story and by this point, I will admit I had gotten very light on my criticisms and was more projecting my own disgust so I decided to reply to the guy's post and try to get him to leave and what that started was kind of a shitshow once Soniq got involved and he called the guy out. Before I knew it, I was locked in a debate with a gentleman by the name of LogicalFam who over time as I talked with him? I started to recognize that he was not just another troll but rather, a very honest dude who got me to recognize the hypocrisy on display when it came to me and Soniq and the two of us came to a very polite agreement. Unfortunately, Soniq didn't and he basically screamed at LogicalFam to which I responded by defending him. After a little while, the guy would get an account for the purpose of entering a PM discussion with Soniq and after welcoming him? We started to talk and we ended up becoming good friends with me wishing him luck on his chat with Soniq and passing along my reasons for why we became friends.

And it's after this point where things were standard for awhile until I saw this guy by the name of EAC-Invictus, a particularly disgusting account that was spewing vile racist rhetoric that both LogicalFam and I had called out though the latter was becoming disenchanted with Soniq since he was letting these reviews through but his own guest reviews were not. Hell, LogicalFam was being called out while EAC wasn't so I decided to start defending him more. Nothing really happened except me and Fam talked more and everything was pretty normal for awhile… until the beginning of March where by this point, one event in particular had exploded and been making some waves on the internet. A quick heads-up is needed, this isn't pretty whatsoever.

Back in January, we were greeted by the US release of Dragon Ball Super: Broly, the 20th Dragon Ball movie and the first Dragon Ball Super movie. It was one amazing way to start off the new year and I really, REALLY wanted to spend most of 2019 talking about how great that movie was and how much it invigorated me in my love of the franchise. Unfortunately that couldn't happen because one situation had to rear its ugly head.

A few days after Broly's release, a slew of allegations came out regarding the actions of one Victor Joseph Mignogna, detailing that the man has been engaging in inappropriate actions with fans and co-workers for years which includes actions as small as hugs without consent and odd remarks to way more creepy shit like groping and hair pulling and by the time March had rolled around? I had already taken the time to really dig into this situation and research it to the point where I could not in good conscience support the man (For the record, still won't. Since then, way worse shit has come out, he has lost his lawsuit and I am in no interest to hear or read defense for this man. If you want to learn more? Research yourself and don't just go to YouTubers who'll tell you what you want to hear.). So with that in mind? Things became VERY awkward when Soniq at the end of chapter 354 decided to have a huge section dedicated to addressing the Vic situation with him stating how he was standing with the guy complete with comparing the hassle he went through with his cousin to get his money back from a scammer to this very serious and VERY different scenario. He then went on to finally call out EAC... while also attacking LogicalFam. In response, I posted a review on the chapter that was critical of his actions and after criticizing LogicalFam for being a bit harsh, it was as I was engaging in a talk with him which included him revealing to me that the PM discussion was not going well at all that I decided to try and talk with Soniq who only gave me these one or two word responses and I saw EAC as well as a bunch of guest reviews I did as Asphere disappeared.

As odd as that was? I did think he understood so I decided not to press him on that and instead focused on the Vic stuff which led to me sending him a message on why I couldn't stand with the guy which included me detailing how I've had friends come out to me about their abuse (Not at the hands of Vic but still, they came out to me with their abuse.) and how I decided after looking through his responses on Discord, comparing them to the responses that came later and my own research which included talking with some of those he has allegedly hurt and corroborating info with others? I saw way too much for me to just ignore. He simply responded that it's clear I have my opinions and that he got how I just wanted to defend my friends so initially, I thought this was pretty respectful though something about it did not feel right. I then sent this to LogicalFam and expressed that while it was respectful, this was anger-inducing because it was just blatant ignorance and he then responded by noting how it was false respect. That it's saying I could have my opinion, while completely disregarding the reasons why and it noted that's not how friends behave...

And... it clicked for me. I've seen Soniq do this a LOT with me before and as I talked with LogicalFam, it was becoming clear to me how almost every time I'd bring up a serious issue, Soniq would be hurt by it, he'd then leave the internet and supposedly he has improved and then it wouldn't be too long before I saw him fall back on old habits. I also remembered though I didn't express it and LogicalFam already did it for me in another response, how at other times when faced with criticism, he'd throw out the excuse of "I'm just doing my best." or he'd say he knows he's flawed but then he won't do anything. Our talk would continue and the both of us really started to realize just how much I've been played over the course of these five years however unintentionally by a man who while definitely not a bad guy was clearly not interested in criticism and was not at all willing to listen and for me in particular, I began to realize just how much my time had been wasted, like all those years of friendship just meant nothing to him. Now Fam did send me some good advice and positivity which made me feel better but still, it was really taking a toll on me. Now unbeknownst to me, apparently LogicalFam was debating with Soniq with him asking me if it was okay if I told him we talked to which I agreed to but I also asked if maybe he could send me Soniq's recent response and that then he could send a response from me back to him because at this point? I really wasn't sure I wanted to talk with him directly but I at least wanted to let him know I was seeing his messages and give him a chance to be the person I thought he was.

And the response he sent back was him quadrupling down on everything, even willingly saying stuff like "So what I'm a hypocrite?" and chastizing LogicalFam like it was his fault... and by this point? I was PISSED. For some context, I made a few friends during the situation, some of these friends were victims and as someone who had been watching the progression closely and going as far as I could with my research? It aggravated me. Not only that but I saw how Soniq told LogicalFam to never judge him and at that point? I had it and so I exploded. I let my anger be known and really broke down to him just how ridiculous this was and ended it by calling off the friendship. Extreme? Yes, it was in hindsight but I was hurt. Afterwards, I thought it'd be over. Fam and I talked, by this point I had blocked Soniq, it really looked like it was the end of an era and it came just like that. Now sure, one could say I was a little quick when it came to this conclusion but I don't think people would be able to blame me considering what I've been through and how by this point my view of Soniq had been shaken up quite a bit. This genuinely caused quite a bit of pain to me emotionally because to an outsider looking in? They'll see nothing but the reviews and they'll just see this guy who seems to be EXTREMELY invested in a harem story, maybe even too invested but the thing is, it was more than that. Soniq and I were very close friends who had been through a whole lot together, he was my inspiration and like it or not? His stories helped me through some dark periods of my life. It's weird these of all things were some of the stuff that helped but for me during my rough periods? I just needed a good bout of stupid fun and these stories provided that in spades and I really felt it was an honor to be his friend when I so easily could've been ignored or blocked for my stupid post but he gave me a second chance and I was determined to not waste it.

Those five years were some of the most fun I've had just online. My talks with Soniq in some ways helped me to get through some tough years, especially 2017 which was the year Chester Bennington, my main reason for getting into music and one of my idols, passed away to suicide and it was his talk with him that helped me work through it so trust me when I say this wasn't an easy decision to make and it's why when LogicalFam showed me the next day Soniq's apology to him that while I aired on the side of caution a GREAT deal? I still wanted to remain his friend so I unblocked him and the two of us had a chat where after asking for and receiving an apology, I started laying out all the ways he needed to improve which included stuff such as calling out his fans which I started to see was a big source of his problems and why he's so stuck in his ways and at first things seemed to be going better but I had a new rule in place for myself that LogicalFam agreed with, we'd reward him if he does good and really get on his case for his issues since now he was asking for criticism. We were also prepared for if he fell into his old ways again which happened a lot over the years and although I wish I could say this is where it all ended well and Soniq finally improved?

It didn't. Over time as LogicalFam was talking with me about his recent discussions, he was showing off how Soniq really wasn't that receptive to criticism and how eventually, he not only blocked LogicalFam but he rushed his stories to completion and basically abandoned the internet as in he has no YouTube and despite it being listed? He has no Discord. He also unfriended me on all platforms and that was it. He broke his promise and thus? I was done with me resorting to posting critiques on his work since I decided to reevaluate it and found it REALLY wasn't all that good.

So that brings us to here. It will soon be five years since my friendship with Soniq ended and while I am incredibly pissed I didn't see all the signs any sooner since I've looked back through everything and seen how I only received a ton of false respect from him and the many points where he very clearly wasn't going to change or improve?

Nowadays... it hurts to think about. Soniq was my best friend, my inspiration for engaging in this beautiful hobby in the first place. Without him? Some of the people I've met I never would've and some of my best work never would've happened and to a degree? If it wasn't for me finding fanfiction I honestly don't think I'd even be here. Hell, the chapter that follows the Momoyo one is centered around Cana Alberona, a character from Fairy Tail which I did as a tribute to him when he was going through a rough patch and honestly? It's hard for me to think about this without choking up at least a little bit which I know sounds silly but it's the truth especially as I keep thinking about what it would've been like if our friendship continued. If he rose up from his issues and we were still exchanging ideas and having fun which leads me to wonder if I was the piece of shit for letting my emotions take over. I mean, I once got a PM from a guy who told me pretty much that it was my fault that no one has heard from him and I snapped in response to that because those are thoughts I struggle with myself. I mean... the dude was just a fanfiction author. I really hope he's okay and that he's just living a good quiet life. I'd hate to think this whole situation was what finally did it for him.

And it's for this reason why Saiyan Prince was so hard to continue and why for awhile? I had it removed. I once said it's because it clearly still had his stink on it and now? I don't see it as that. I think what actually happened was it became a combination of embarrassment for this being my most popular story and also I just couldn't bear to look at it considering all that had happened since it just served for awhile as a painful reminder like say when you get a tattoo as a tribute to a relationship that later ends in complete disaster. Hell to this day, the Cana chapter and basically the last stretch of this story is rough for me to get through because of this whole event so if things take a little longer? This is why.

And for anyone here that's reading this for some reason that is a fan of Soniq's work? I really am sorry for you guys and I hope you're doing well and that wherever Soniq is? He's doing okay too. That being said, thank you all for reading and remember, stay gold and chaotiq.