For a few days, I feel like someone is observing me. And I'm sure Nagito knows more than what he claims. I don't think I was ever scared before. I always thought it was a useless feeling and all I needed was to be cautious and clever. I'd like to take a break and stop worrying about the whole situation. I miss when I used to discuss various topics with Nagito. It was like time would stop for an instant.
Earlier today, we met outside of the entrance and a girl with nurse outfits stopped and asked Nagito a strange question. I think they are in the same class.
She said:
"Nagito, you are lucky aren't you? But are you as lucky as me? I was so lucky to meet my beloved. You haven't met them yet. Have you ever felt the way I feel? Are you as lucky as me? I hope you are!"
She walked away chuckling before Nagito could react.
I didn't understand anything whereas Nagito seemed to know what she meant. He said that it was a hint. He didn't tell me more but he promised that when he had proof, he would tell me right away because for now he couldn't explain. I wish he stayed with me then, but he left without looking back. We are too preoccupied at the moment. We don't have time for anything else.
I'm looking at the stars through my window right now. I wonder how many of them died already. I wouldn't say they ceased existing completely since we are still able to see them from our point of view. They are still alive for us. For some reason, I can't stop looking at this scenery like it was the last time before everything vanishes. I used to look at the stars thinking that I was ridiculously small and that my life might have no importance at all compared to the universe. Still, I knew what I was meant to do. And who knows, when my time is up I might win against vanity and shine even after my death.
I will make it up to you. You will avail. Your hope shines through me.