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At least I have my family

I only saw Nanao once or twice a week and I still don't think I need to see her but as mentioned before my parents said I needed it. I don't know, maybe they were right. It was a weekend so I spent my time with my brother. Yup the twin I used to barely acknowledge I acknowledged him now. We went to the same school and he honestly didn't interfere in my affairs as long as no one touched me he was fine. We were in the living room and watching stupid cartoons. Shiro was albino and violent; he had a reputation at school. He was called the death ghost or something because of his eyes. His eyes were this golden black that always made people a bit uneasy when looking him in the eyes. Believe it or not he had quite a few friends. Mostly just people from his wrestling team and some of the other athletes.

He was weird he would always try to use some of his wrestling moves on me even though I'm a girl and half his body weight. It was around two in the evening when Shiro got bored and picked me up and threw me over his shoulder stating he was bored. I couldn't do anything about that geez I couldn't go out. I was a social outcast if someone from school saw me I would be made fun of. Shiro carried me to my room and told me to change. I of course fought but all he had to do was promise cake and I was up and ready in 3.2 seconds. My fat ass loved sweets okay and Shiro was buying so there was no reason for me not to go. Social outcast be damned cake was cake. We headed to Shiro's car. He had a nice silver Corolla 2018 I think. I got in the front wearing my signature tight blue jeans and nice cut green shirt that showed off my midriff and a jean jacket. It was a bit chilly outside. Shiro, on the other hand, just wore a pair of jeans and a shirt. He was so basic.

Shiro drove to the coffee shop, the place I hoped he wouldn't choose since my ex-best friends went there religiously. But the coffee shop was the best place for sweets. Shiro got out of the car and waited for me. I didn't get out. He rolled his eyes and picked me up and threw me over his arms like a sack of potatoes, an empty sack of potatoes. He didn't care who was watching or what they thought. I of course fought him and told him to put me down which he ignored and locked his car. He walked in the shop and went to an occupied booth and put me down. I rolled my eyes and sat next to Shiro.

"Woah the Kurosaki twins are out together."

I inwardly groaned, "Woah Gin Ichimaru seen without his big titty girlfriend."

Gin Ichimaru has been Shiro's best friend for a long time ever since second grade. They were both albino and weird looking Gin's eyes barely ever opened and he was always grinning. Let me just say Gin's eyes were fucking beautiful on the very rare occasion he opened them. They were a beautiful icy blue that reminded me of a ice glacier in the middle of the Antarctic. He was on the wrestling team with Shiro and they both were blood thirsty fuckers.

"Oh please Rangiku's titties are average." Gin stated.

Shiro and I both laughed and said bullshit at the same time.

"So why is Ichigo here Shi?"

Shiro looked at me and then back at Gin, "She needs to get out, she's always cooped up at home so that's why I suggested we hang here. Since it's still earlyish she shouldn't get any unwanted attention here."

Gin put a hand to his heart, "Aww you love her."

Shiro snorted and then gave me his card to get some cake. I smiled and went to the bakery leaving Gin and Shiro to talk for a bit. As I was looking for the perfect cake I felt a shove and fell into the display counter that was holding all the delicious sweets. I turned angrily and saw Kugo. He was looking at me with an evil glint. I rubbed my tummy and glared.

"What's your problem!?"

Kugo laughed, "Sorry didn't see you there."

I growled a bit, "You asshole you obviously saw me."

"Babe, why are you talking to the counter?"

My heart stopped, I didn't dare look, I was ashamed I didn't know what to do. I hear Kugo laughing, I couldn't look, I just couldn't, I could feel my heart racing, I could feel my palms starting to sweat. My breathing was becoming shallow. I think I was having a panic attack. I knew they were looking at me. I already knew Shinji was looking at me with disgust. I wanted to die. I know Rukia and Orihime were with her glaring at me judging me from afar.

"Oh Shin, look it's not the counter Kugo is talking to, it's a whore." Rukia stated.

Shinji laughed, "You mean a bug on the wall. It should be squished honestly."

I felt like a deer caught in headlights. I couldn't move, my face was burning, I think my head was hurting and I knew I was about to cry. I slowly stood up and mustered as much courage as I could and stared at my ex- best friends. They were sneering at me as if I truly was a bug that needed to be stepped on. I went to say something but Shinji just shoved me and got in my face. That's when someone pushed her away Rukia and Orihime gasped and saw Shiro along with Gin glaring murderously at them.

"I dare you to fucking touch her again I don't care if you're a girl, boy, animal or otherwise I will fucking end you if you touch my sister." Shiro yelled.

Shinji's eyes went from Shiro to Kugo. Kugo got in Shiro's face and that caused Shiro and Gin to both crack their knuckles. I shook my head and took a deep breath and finally found my was a bit shaky but hey at least I mustered something up.

"Shi Gin, it's not worth it, let's just go."

Gin and Shiro continued to stare the others down but I just grabbed both their hands and led them to the door. Before we could actually leave I heard Rukia state that I'm probably fucking my brother and Gin. Disgusting eww my brother and Gin gross. As we walked to the car, Gin and Shiro looked at me. I already knew they were mad that I stopped them from kicking Kugo's ass. No one spoke for a good minute, it was just silent. Then Gin recommended going to the gym to work out. I was not for it, I mean that was not my cup of tea. Shiro nodded and then looked at me with these big wide eyes. I rolled my eyes and nodded which caused Shiro to light up. I got back in the car with Shiro and we followed behind Gin to the gym. I always kept different clothes in Shiro's car and luckily I had my leggings in there. I didn't change shirts but I did change pants in the car.

Shiro and I have seen each other naked before we're twins and not in a weird way just like any other siblings would. As we went into the gym there were a bunch of guys not many females though. Shiro changed into some black shorts and a white tank top same as Gin. I put my hair in a ponytail and went to lift some weights. Believe it or not I actually could fight. My mother put Shiro in MMA fighting and Karate. I just took Karate so yeah I could hold our own. Shinji said it wasn't lady-like so I told her I quit. Which I did I did eventually quit which I regret every day I was a black belt after all. I grabbed the fifty pound dumbbells and started lifting. It was nice to be in the gym again. Honestly it was relaxing to me. As I was lifting weights I noticed that there were eyes on me. I shrugged it off and continued lifting my weights after about five sets of tens I then went to an open space and started doing push ups. As I was doing them I felt someone come up behind me and I immediately stood up and turned around. It was just Rangiku Gin's girlfriend. She was an auburn blonde haired girl with big boobies and she was a cheerleader. Her and I weren't friends per say we were just people who knew mutual people. Thus we were cordial around each other for the most part.

"Hey Ichigo, where's Gin?"

I pointed to the little wrestling ring in the middle of the gym and saw her roll her eyes. She went up to the ring where Gin and Shiro were wrestling. They stopped immediately. I looked and saw Gin look at the ground then at Shiro. They fist bumped and then Gin left the gym. Shiro sighed and then looked at me and waved me in the ring. I looked and shook my head. I was not getting in the ring with him. Shiro pouted and then got on his knees. I rolled my eyes and looked around to make sure no one was around. I didn't notice it before but the gym was practically empty aside from the people who worked there.

I cracked my neck and stretched and took my shirt off revealing my workout bra. It was comfy so I wore it a lot. Shiro gave a wide grin which would scare anyone. I got in the ring and started bouncing on the front of my feet. Shiro cracked his knuckles and without any hesitation he charged towards me. I put all my weight into my stance and struck him with a powerful punch to the jaw. Shiro stumbled a bit but his smile never left his face as he tackled me to the ground. He was sadistic fuck. He had me pinned but I was taught how to get out of these positions. I hurriedly wrapped my legs around him and for the hell of it headbutted him. He groaned and let up on his weight which gave me enough time to push him off me so I was on top. I went for his arm and started twisting it. He howled in pain but I didn't let up. I needed this. Shiro started tapping out but I honestly wasn't paying attention. At that moment he was no longer my brother, oh no he was Kugo he was Shinji, Rukia, even Orihime he was all of them. I wasn't paying attention but somehow Shiro was able to punch me pretty hard in the gut. I groaned in pain and fell over in the ring. I watched as Shiro stood up and messaged his arm.

"What the fuck Ichi were you trying to break my arm?"

I shook my head, "I told you I didn't want to wrestle and fight."

Shiro rolled his eyes and helped me up. As I got up I went to get my shirt back on and walked with Shiro to the car. When we got home Mom was fixing dinner. Shiro cheered and went to take a shower. I went to my room and charged my phone. I fixed my bed up and straightened up my room a bit. After Shiro took his shower I went and took mine. After my shower I went downstairs to eat with my family. Mom made a simple spaghetti and meatballs. It was Italian night after all.

"So did you two have fun today?" My mom Masaki was such a stickler for checking in on us making sure nothing was wrong. Shiro nodded his head as well as me hoping she was satisfied but she never was. "How's therapy Ichi?"

I chewed very slowly to prolong my answer. When I was done chewing I took a sip of my soda and swished it around a bit before swallowing. My mom started to glare so I cleared my throat and hesitantly answered.

"It's going umm good I'm learning a lot about myself."

My father Isshin cleared his throat, "Are you having suicidal thoughts at all?"

My mom glared at my dad, "Isshin, don't ask her questions like that."

My Dad shrugged and continued eating. Mom sighed and turned to Shiro who was stuffing his face.

"Shiro sweetie, how are your grades?"

"Umm they are pretty good mom Ichi is helping me with math."

Mom smiled and continued eating. Dad asked a few tedious questions but all in all dinner was nice. Honestly I live for days like this because it's peaceful. After dinner we said our goodnights. I hugged my dad and kissed mom's cheek and went to my room. I looked at my ceiling for a bit before getting my journal to write what happened at the Coffee shop for Nanao to read and analyze.

November 4th, 20xx

Fucking hell I saw my ex-best friends I almost had a panic attack but I was able to find my voice. Shiro was there so thank God and Gin. I felt protected when they were with me. Even though it's his fault I was even in that fucking predicament. Shinji called me a bug lol. I am a bug. I feel like one I feel worthless hell I am worthless. Kugo give me bad vibes he is sick he is enjoying this torture. I can't believe they look at me as if I'm the villain. Am I the villain? Would it be better for me to just disappear?

After writing I decided to read a bit before going to bed. It was a rom-com book and it was really good. I laid in my bed once I got to a specific chapter and sighed. I really didn't want to go to school tomorrow.

Comment and review tell me if you liked it. Chapter 3 will be up in a bit, just have to do some last minute editing.