Why me?

Monday's ugh I hated Monday's because then I have to go back to being a hoe and a slut and it's pretty annoying. Shiro drove us to school everyday. He said he wouldn't allow me to walk even though we lived pretty close to the school. I was wearing black fishnet tights and black shorts over top of them along with a black tank top and a blue flannel unbuttoned covering me up. And to complete my ensemble black and white vans. My makeup was always on point, my mascara was perfect and my blue lipstick was sexy. My hair was in a high ponytail. Shiro always wore jeans and a graphic tee to school. I never paid any attention to the t-shirts. When we got to the school he automatically asked if I needed to be walked to class to which I stated I'm a big girl. Shiro ruffled my hair knowing it would irritate me then left me alone.

I took a deep breath and started walking to my first class which was algebra. As I walked to class I could hear the people calling me names and making sex jokes about me. Through it all I kept my head high. I got to class fairly quickly and went to the back of the class and took a seat. I kept my head down and ignored everyone and focused on the math equations the teacher was giving us. After algebra it was English and after that it was chemistry. Chemistry was my favorite cause I got to see my friend Chad. He and I met in eighth grade. We were science partners ironically and we've been cool ever since then. Chad was a bulky tall guy and was quiet as hell. He was Hispanic and when we were kids he'd always let me try authentic tacos or homemade quesadillas. People were actually scared of him but he was honestly a sweetheart. I sat my bag next to my lab table. It was two per table and lucky me Chad and I were partners so we had the table all to ourselves. While in class Chad commented on my lipstick saying it was nice. I smiled and thanked him.

Chad wore regular school boy clothes, usually it was a pair of slacks and a bulky oversized colorful shirt. When Chemistry ended it was time for lunch. Chad said his goodbyes and left. He never had lunch inside no matter how cold it was outside. When I got to the cafeteria I went to the salad bar and started making my very basic salad which consisted of lettuce, tomato, egg, onion, and salt and pepper. I didn't trust the meat at the school so I stuck with plain jane salads. I sat in my usual corner today and eventually Shiro would find me when he was ready. When I started eating I took my phone out to look at the school blog to see if anything interesting was on there. As I was looking, someone decided to sit across from me. I thought it was Shiro so I didn't pay it any mind and continued to look at my phone. Well that was until they cleared their throat. I looked up from my phone and saw the school gossiper Haida Kyoko looking at me. We stared at each other for a bit before she spoke.

"Soooo Rukia broke up with Renji." My eyes widened no way Rukia was so in love with Renji he was her knight and shining armor. I kept my mouth shut knowing she was only there to tell me because she wanted to remind me of what an outcast I was. She continued, "Apparently Rukia has feelings for someone else and his name is Ashido."

With that she got up and left. I looked around and saw Rukia at our old table. She was laying her head on Shinji's shoulder while Orihime was rubbing her back. I rolled my eyes and started searching for Renji. He was in the opposite corner of me alone. He looked so sad. I took a deep breath and stood up with my food. It's like all eyes were on me. I made my way to Renji's table and sat down across from him. He looked at me with a surprised look but gave me a small welcoming smile. Shiro joined us not too long after that along with Gin. Renji gave a very uncomfortable and confused look as Shiro glared at him. I just laughed.

"Don't worry Renji, he won't bite nor will Gin."

Gin chuckled, "Well you don't know that Ichi I might be in that mood."

Shiro laughed and looked at me, "Why are you sitting over here with that midgets ex?"

"I feel bad Renji was over here all by himself. I know what it's like to be lonely so I came to comfort him." I stated.

Renji puffed up his chest a bit, "Don't worry about me, Ichigo I'm a big boy."

We all laughed at that statement and ate a bit and talked about our classes. We had a couple minutes before lunch ended and so we started cleaning up. Of course lunch could never be that peaceful because Shinji and her gang came walking over to us. Shiro growled and Gin scowled.

"Wow Renji is moving on to the school whore already, do you have no shame?" Rukia asked.

I looked at the ground trying to not make eye contact. I wasn't scared or anything but I just get anxious when I'm in my ex friends presence.

"Honestly Renji I thought you had a little more self respect for yourself do you really want an STD?" Shinji yelled for the whole cafeteria to hear.

Shiro stood up along with Gin ready to tear them a new one but Renji beat them to the punch.

"Man you really are a bitch all of you are geez. And do you miss my dick that much that you came over here wondering who I'm sleeping with? News flash you left me for Ashido so go and fuck your two inch boyfriend with your loose ass pussy. And Shinji, do you really think you have a right to talk? Last time I heard you had a threesome with Kugo and some other girl. So who is the real whore here?"

I had no words as Rukia and Shinji fumed away, Orihime following close behind. Shiro and Gin were laughing hard and patting Renji on the back. Renji grinned and put his arm around me for comfort. I smiled a bit. Renji was very sweet. School went by fairly quickly. I walked to Shiro's car which was in the far back of the parking lot. He said it's because we leave faster when parked in the back. As I walked I stretched and adjusted my backpack and checked my phone. All I had was a text from Shiro telling me to hurry up. I sighed and hurriedly walked to the car. I was almost there when I felt something wet hit the back of my neck. I turned and saw Rukia and Shinji hurdling water balloons at me while Orihime recorded. I covered my face as they threw the water balloons and laughed.

"How does it feel, you stupid bitch?" That was Rukia.

"Yeah you cow you suck enough dick lately?" That was Shinji.

All of a sudden as I was holding my hands up to block the water balloons which now that I actually smell it the water balloons were filled with pee. Fucking gross. I was pushed to the ground and kicked a couple times before finally I felt Rukia spit on me. They laughed and walked away. Was I crying no I couldn't be it was the funky ass urine right. I stayed on the ground in the middle of the parking lot wondering when I was going to get up. It felt like hours until I was picked up. I didn't look. I assumed it was Shiro carrying me but this person was a lot more bulky so I assumed Chad but Chad didn't like to drive. I didn't dare look though I was ashamed I was disgusting.

"Oh fuck Ichi." That was Shiro's voice. I felt myself being transferred to Shiro's arms and heard him screaming at the other person, "Who the fuck did this I'll kill them I swear I will."

I sniffled and got out of Shiro's arms and shook my head and looked at the guy who carried me. I had never seen him before but my goodness he was hot. He had baby blue hair and icy blue piercing eyes; he had a toned body and olive skin. He also had cool markings on his eyes and pearly white...woah his canines were sharp looking. I'm sure I looked gross dripping wet with urine thrown on me in the cold air. I felt so disgusting and gross. But I thanked the guy all the same despite looking like a drenched hoe.

"Thank you I'm Ichigo and this is my brother Shiro."

The guy snorted, "I know Shiro, he's friends with my friends which I guess kind of makes us friends?"

Shiro snarled, "Fuck this pleasant bullshit who did this Ichigo tell me! Grimmjow did you see anyone?"

The guy I now know as Grimmjow shook his head. I just sighed.

"Shi it's fine, come on I just want to go home and shower."

Shiro frowned and walked me to the car. He waved Grimmjow goodbye and speeded off home. When we got home I ran straight for the bathroom and took a shower and cleaned myself at least five times. Ugh I felt like I could still smell the urine on me. After the shower I looked in the mirror and saw my side was a bit bruised. Nothing was broken. I've had broken ribs before. I looked in the mirror happy my face wasn't damaged. I looked in the mirror for a few more minutes and swiftly punched the mirror, cracking it ever so slightly. I went to my room isolating myself and quickly texted my mom and told her to schedule another appointment with Nanao.

I wrote in my journal until I couldn't see anymore from my tears.

November 5th 20xx

So today stupid fucking day right. I am so annoyed. First I went to comfort Renji after finding out Rukia cheated on him. Honestly no offense to him but Renji was such a bumbling idiot back when he dated Rukia when we were friends. I don't think he deserved to be cheated on though no way he was a bumbling idiot in a fun sweet way that any girl would be lucky to have him. Well after having lunch with Renji school went by pretty quickly right. Then I had to meet Shi at his car like normal as always but then I was ambushed by my three ex friends. The cowardly cunts. Threw water balloons filled with pee at me, knocked me on the floor and started kicking me and calling me names. I was so humiliated. Oh but to put the icing on the cake they had spit on me. I'm not going to tell my parents or worry them. I'm just tired of all this. Am I that bad of a human being or something that I deserve this? Why isn't this happening to Rukia or Shinji hell or even Orihime why isn't karma hitting them. I just want it to all end.

I was just putting up my journal when Shiro burst into my room with murderous intent and sat on the bed. He kept asking me who did it and when I refused to answer he started punching my wall and putting dents in it. As he was yelling his phone rang and he answered it. I could tell it was Gin. Shiro growled and put Gin on speaker.

'Check the school blog those assholes posted Ichigo online.'

I was already on it and quickly pulled up the blog. Shiro snatched my phone and looked and saw a video of Rukia and Shinji throwing water balloons at me. Their faces obviously blurred out and voices edited but anyone who went to that school knew it was them. Shiro was seething as he saw them kicking me and spitting on me. I quickly turned it off. It made me feel so gross inside to see myself being treated like that. Shiro turned back to his phone and took Gin off of the speaker.

"You down for fucking some bitches up?"

I could hear Gin say hell yeah but I intervened.

"Please leave it, it's not that serious. I can handle myself, trust me okay I can handle this."

Shiro took a deep breath and nodded towards me then left my room. I covered my face knowing I was about to cry again when my phone vibrated. I looked and saw it was a text from Renji. I had given him my number right after school. I didn't think he'd ever text me.

'Hey I saw what they did to you, are you okay?'

I sniffled and wiped my face as I texted back.

'Yeah man I'm fine thanks for checking in.'

Not a second later he texted back.

'I'll go to the principal about this, you don't deserve this.'

I laughed as I read his text, 'No it's fine I can handle it I promise thanks though.'

Renji was quick to reply again.

'No problem.'

I didn't text back, instead I just did my homework and watched some tv. My parents checked up on me to make sure I was okay. I didn't dare tell them about the altercation. I didn't want them to worry. I hid myself under the covers only showing part of my face and nodded to them telling them I was going to bed early. They kissed me goodnight and left. When I felt myself dozing off I turned my tv off and looked at my ceiling in the dark. How was I even a whore if I was still a virgin. How was I a slut if all I ever did was kiss a guy not even french kissed just plain kissed. I hate my life. I want it to end.

A/N This is the last chapter to be posted until next weekend. Next chapters to be out will be 4-6. It takes me a while with editing and trying to make sure there are no plot holes necessarily. I hope these first three chapters were good and much better than my old version but I will never know unless I get reviews and comments on how I am doing. I just hope everyone that reads this enjoys it.