EPOV
How was I managing to blurt out all these things like this?
Like... Why the hell was I managing to keep losing my calm?
What was fucking wrong with me!
Now how the fuck was I going to explain this to her?
But well, I had to try!
Just look at her! She seemed to be in shock!
"Look... I mean, I have got a ring, but I got it because I liked it," I said.
It's such a nice, rare, fucking piece of beauty!
It's just... perfection!
"That doesn't really mean that I want to get married," I said and she looked at me as if I was an alien or something!
"Let me complete first," I said, "That doesn' mean that I want to get married today or tomorrow..."
"So why would you buy a ring if you don't plan to get married?" she asked.
Well, my answer would only make her mad!
"As I said, I loved the ring," I kept it short.
She stared at me and shook her head.
Alright, I knew I had fucked this up!
Give me a chance to explain this in a better way!
I had a feeling if I said anything, it'd just make everything worse!
We sucked at having any kind of serious coversation anyway!
"How much does the ring cost?" she asked.
Now it was my turn to look at her and shake my head with disbelief.
Of course, she would decide to focus on that!
If there was one thing I knew she really, really didn't like about me, it was my habit of spending money on her, or on useless artistic stuff, and well, her guess wasn't too incorrect here!
"It's not really that expensive," I said.
Yeah, I mean, it's a million dollar ring, but come on! It's beauty, and I've got a lot of fucking useless money anyway!
"Just... let it go," she said, "I don't even want to know the price!"
Awesome!
Good for me!
I guess it gave me some more time to come up with 'logical' reasons to justify why that ring was so worth it when she'd ask me about it later!
I found it hilarious that I was certain she was going to stay and ask me about it some day!
From where was I getting all these positive vibes?
I mean, the way my family had been treating her, and the way I had handled everything, there was a pretty good chance she might decide to leave me!
Naah!
I was never going to let that happen!
"Sorry... I'm just really baffled right now..." she said, "What do you... What do you mean by you want to marry me someday and you've already got a ring? Why didn't you tell me about this?"
"Because I know you want to take this slowly, and I don't really mind it, to be honest," I said, "Yes, it gets on my nerves a few times, but I'm really happy with what we have. I don't want to rush into anything!"
"I... I want the same thing... I think..." she said, "I don't know! I think I'm way behind you, and this is... this is just really scaring me right now! I'm scared that I'm... I might fuck this up!"
Fuck.
She was afraid she might fuck this up, but I was pretty sure I had fucked this up!
God, please help me!
Please!
A/N: I may or may not be able to post more chapters until next year! ;)
