CHAPTER - 12

I will post if i lived.

When Jacob came to pick me, everyone had already left. Edward told me to call him if I feel uncomfortable with Jacob. Edward also talked to Jacob while I am changing my dress, all I knew is that Edward wants Eleazar to go with us and Jacob disagreed. Even though I know Jacob, it's still scary to leave all alone with him, but I have my reasons to come with Jacob. First I really want to know what he wants to talk about, I know he want me free but there has to be something he wants from me. If he tells me what it is, then I can make a deal with him to give Edward's business back, which is my second reason.

Sitting in car wasn't as difficult as saying good bye to Edward. It's clear in his eyes that he doesn't want me to go but I know he would never say it. It's my choice, my decision. I wish I can tell him why I am doing this but I know he won't let me do it if I tell him.

Jacob's drives very fast but after seeing my tensed posture he slowed down a little. As we left house behind us I started feeling empty, my throat is chocking. I know I will be back but still leaving Edward behind like that feels like I am betraying him.

"So Congratulations. You did really well in exams." Jacob distracted me from my mood and I tried to go with it, if I want to get favor from him, I can't ruin it with my mood.

"Thanks, they all helped me, supported me, otherwise I won't be able to do it."

"That's not true; you were best before, even when you don't know them." I know his emphasis on word is for Edward.

"I am not that girl anymore Jacob. I don't even want to go to school, its Edward's decision."

He looks worried and I wished I hadn't said last part.

"Why don't you want to go to school?" His voice is tensed like its bothering him much more then Edward's decision in it.

"Why would I? I don't want to be free or independent."

He didn't like my answer, his face showed that.

"Well then I agree with him for once."

Suddenly I start feeling suffocating again. Is it really that hard to understand me? Why both of them want me free?

"Why do you want me free?" My voice came out hard and irritating.

Jacob looked at me for a long time but finally turned to look at road and answered me

"It's the basic human right, Bella"

Now I feel stupid. Ok so maybe he is right but I am still irritated.

"But what would you get from it?" my high pitched voice showed my irritation. But that doesn't have any effect on him.

He just looked away, its looks like he blushing. All of a sudden I feel venerable to be alone with him. I looked down to my phone. May be I should call Edward. How long will it take him to come and rescue me?

May be Jacob has sensed my uneasiness. He interrupted my thoughts.

"It's nothing, I just think that if you see what world can offer, you might change the way you look at him."

"It's never going to change Jacob. He cares for me, protects me, I owe him my life."

"I care for you too and FYI the car behind us has four guards in it for your protection only."

Automatically I turned and yes there is a car following us I can see three huge guys in it. Fourth must be behind drives seat. I am unable to understand why I need this much protection.

"Edward told you to do this?"

Again he didn't like my question.

"Yes, but I would have done the same thing if I have known it before. He wanted to send his gard. Whats his name…?"

"Eleazar"

"Yeah him but I said I have my guards, we can keep you safe."

I wanted to ask him why I need all this safety. But I changed my mind. Ignorance is bliss. If I don't know I don't worry. So I asked him something else.

"You don't like Eleazar?"

He laughed at my question

"I don't even know him Bella. It's just he would report everything back to his boss and I wanted to have private talk with you."

I am not happy with his decision. I would have felt safer if it's Eleazar instead of his huge guys.

"Ok…So what do you want to talk?"

He took a long time to respond again.

"First tell me why you not wanted to talk to me?"

This is a hard question. If I tell him, he means nothing to me now; I don't feel anything for him. It won't get me the favor I want from him. I took too long to respond and Jacob got wrong impression.

"Does Edward tell you not to?"

"Nooo…No. Edward has nothing to do with it. In fact he convinced me to talk to you… …I..I was scared Jacob."

"You were scared of me? Why?"

I am again in thoughts. I don't know how to put my feelings into word but I know I was never scared of Jacob.

"Tell me the truth Bella. Have I ever hurt you?"

"No Jacob. I wasn't scared of you. I…I was more scared of facing my past. I don't want to worry about what you think of me now. So I don't want to have any connection with any one from my past. It will complicate things and…"

"And..?" Jacob asked when I didn't continue.

"And Sue told me you are causing Edward problems in his business."

"Bella we used to be best friends. I know you have gone through a lot, but it doesn't change the way I look at you, and I know you have changed. But I am still me Bella, I still consider you my best friend. And whatever I am doing to Edward has nothing to do with you and me"

"I am connected to Edward; if you hurt him, you hurt me, Jacob." I thought this would hurt him but he was prepared for this.

"That brings us to second part of our talk. Don't be angry. But please tell me how can I make you umm…disconnect with him?"

"That's never going to happen, Jacob." I replied in hostile voice

"Why?"

"Because I love him."

OMG. Where is that come from? I was as shocked as Jacob. But his face is burning in anger.

"You don't love him" he replied through greeted teeth. And I got more frustrated and irritated with his reply.

"And who are you to decide that?" My voice is getting higher and higher. Again I thought my reply would hurt him but it didn't have much effect. It's like he already have made his mind about me.

"It's not love you feel, its Stockholm syndrome." He replied with same hostility I showed him.

"How can I have Stockholm syndrome, he didn't kidnapped me Jacob" Now I am yelling and so angry that I can feel water works coming.

"But he is keeping you. Can't you see that? Every time you need his permission, every time you look for his agreement, it's like you don't have your own mind and on the top of that you feel like you owe him for all things he did to you." He yelled at me like I am an idiot not seeing something very obvious.

Now I am chocking on my tears, I can't form word let alone fight with him. He is total idiot. I don't want to talk to him anymore.

"I want to go home." I don't know what else to do.

And just like that his all anger drained from his face. He is back to old Jacob I've known.

"Bella..please… I am sorry ok …hey… Bella…. are you crying?"

"No I am not" I don't know why does it matter but I don't want to show weakness in front of him. But he saw right through me.

"I am sorry truly I didn't want to make you cry…let's just not talk about him ok?"

"I want to go home Jacob"

"Please Bella after so much trying I got to meet you. Don't go please. And we are not even there yet"

"Where is there, where are we going?"

He turned away from me and I am getting more worried now.

"Where are you taking me?"

"Calm down Bella. I am not kidnapping you or anything. We are just going to meet someone you loved very much."

"Who?"

"Please calm down, I want to surprise you. Trust me you will be very happy."

"I'd you rather tell me now."

"Ok. Ok. But don't freak out.."

"I am freaking now Jacob. Tell me who?"

"Renee. Your Mother.."

I was stunned. Is he insane?

"My mother is dead Jacob"

"No. she is not Bella, Charlie made us think that but I found her. Charlie told her you died a long time ago. When I told her you are alive and missing. She did everything to find you. We all did, Bella. And we want you back."

I can't believe this. My mom…Is she really alive all this time? Or is this a trick? Even if she is alive, I know I can't face her now. After all this happened to me, she will hate me I know that. There are so many emotions I am feeling at the same time and really don't know how to deal with them. I started hyperventilating.

"Bella…Calm down….Bella…"

I know I should say something but all I can alter is that I can't. I know I need to explain him. I need Edward. Oh god. What am I suppose to do. I need Edward to tell me what to do.

"Bella…."

I just folded my legs and put my head between my knees. But it didn't do any good I am still shaking and hyperventilating.

Then I heard his voice. Someone is holding phone to my ear.

"Hello… Bella…"

"H..Helloo.." I respond automatically.

"Bella…Love relax…are you listening to my voice.." he asked softly and I nodded my head like he could see me.

"Tell me what you need to make apple pie…I want to have it tomorrow. What things you need?"

It took some time for my brain to work but it did.

"Umm…S..Sugar"

"oh..I forgot about sugar. All I did write is apple. What else dear…?" He replied softly

"f..flour and eggs and butter"

"Good girl. Now tell me why you panicked?"

Oh..he was just distracting me.

"I.." Now I am not sure about telling him. I don't know what he would think, what he will do, once he knows there is someone who can take care of me. He won't throw me out? Would he?

"Bella. Tell me." This time his voice is hard with an edge. Like he knows I am hiding something.

"J..Jacob…said….my mom…"

"FUCK" There is loud noise in background. I am sure something has broken. He took few deep breaths

"Bella…do you want to see her?" He asked in tight voice

"You knew?" How does he know about my mom? How long he knew she is alive?

"I can explain everything Bella. Please tell me you want to meet her or you want to come home."

"I want to come home." As soon as words left my mouth phone gone from my ear.

"She is not coming home" Jacob said.

I looked up for the first time and saw Eleazar standing just outside my door. I opened the door and asked

"What are you doing here?"

Before he can reply Jacob answered my question.

"He was following us whole time."

"Edward just wanted to be sure you stay safe Bella." Eleazar said to me then turn to Jacob "We have no other intentions."

"If your intentions are so genuine why don't you leave us for a minute so I can talk to Bella?"

"Edward told me to stay with her till he reaches here."

Jacob finally turned to me "Bella please tell him to go, please I want to talk to you. I truly don't know you would react this way. I just wanted to make you happy. If you don't want to see your mom, you don't have to. But please let me talk to you."

Jacob literally begged me. I don't know what else is there to talk. But I know Edward will be here soon so I don't need to worry about anything.

"Eleazar I want to talk to him, is it ok?" Eleazar just nodded his head and went behind our car.

Jacob didn't waste a second "Bella you don't have to go now. We just came out. I won't tell you to meet your mom. But we can go to a dinner or movie or anything you like. Just don't go."

"I am not feeling well Jacob, maybe some other time."

"When will you meet me again?" I don't have answer to that "See I know you won't"

We both turned at the sound of car coming.

"Shit…Ok I make you a deal Bella. You wanted me to stop giving him trouble in his business right?"

That got my attention. That's exactly why I came to meet him.

"Yes. Please don't"

"Then promise me, you will meet me every weekend."

Edward parked the car right in front of us.

"Bella…Promise me"

I know this is what I wanted but can I really do this. Can I meet him every weekend? At least I know Jacob won't hurt me. But he made it pretty clear he doesn't want me to live with Edward. He wants us apart. What if he tricked me?

"Bella please…"

I saw Edward coming toward our car.

"I promise" I said only because I know Edward is suffering so much in his business. He is worried all the time. I made him lose a deal. That's the only choice I have.

Edward opened my door and took me in his arms. He kissed my hair and pulled back to look at me properly.

"Are you ok?" I just nodded.

Now I am feeling the pressure of the deal I made. I didn't even ask Edward's permission. What will I tell Edward?

"Go sit in the car. I'll talk to Jacob and come."

What does he want to talk to Jacob? I must be staring wide eyes because Edward voice turned softer.

"Bella love, you don't have to worry about anything. I'll be there in a minute and we were just going to talk. Ok?"

Edward didn't wait for my answer. He asked Eleazar to take me to car.

"It must make you happy seeing that you can make her dance on your fingertips." I heard Jacob voice filled with anger.

"What did you tell her?" Edward replied and before I can hear anything else. Eleazar put my seat belt and closed the car door. But even from the windshield I can see that this talk is not at all friendly.