I finally got the girl

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Chapter 10.

Rachel woke with pain radiating through her lower back. A moan instantly brought relief from her husband who rolled tight knuckles over and over again against the knotting tensioned muscles. When she could uncurl her toes and straighten in relief from the pain, Hands dedicated to her comfort continued massaging her neck and shoulders and tucked Rachel's blonde head into a welcoming shoulder.

"Better?" asked a voice deep and soft.

"Mmmm…" Rachel replied, already returning to slumber. "Thanks…"

"Anytime, love" the low voice whispered in her ear before soft lips pursed against her cheek

Rachel sat there for a long moment and watched him sleep, he needed it. He needed it, he'd stayed up with her all night and never asked for anything in return.

Rachel got up slowly and walked to the other side of her bedroom and saw the torn journal on the dresser.

She glanced back at her sleeping husband before sitting down and opening it.

Luckily she only destroyed the first two pages of the journal and she didn't realize how relieved and grateful she was until she saw it.

A few tears rolled down her cheeks and she did not attempt to wipe them away.

Every entry broke her heart just that little bit more as she continued to turn the pages, the pages of her baby's existence.

Rachel lifted a pen for the dresser and shakily put pen to paper, crying silent tears of grief as she did so.

My darlings,

I never saw your twinkling eyes

Or touched your precious feet.

I never shared a tiny yawn

Or rocked you fast asleep.

I never kissed your tiny hands

Or saw your little smile.

I never held you in my arms,

But I held you for a while.

Although I never saw your face

Or heard your precious laughter,

You're still my babies whom I love

And will forever after.

So quickly you came into our lives,

So quickly torn away.

Never got the chance to meet you.

There's so much I want to say.

Where there once was joy and happiness,

Now there's sadness, guilt, and pain.

All these thoughts running through my head,

It's enough to drive me insane.

Though you lived only eight short weeks,

You were loved so very much.

I wish that I could hold you.

I long to feel your touch.

On that fateful night,

My world was ripped from under my feet.

I pray that in another life

We get the chance to meet.

I'm sitting here mystified and numbed with pain

To lose someone so close, yet so far away.

Some say you can't lose something you never had.

If that's true, then how can I feel this sad?

I felt closer to you, my child

More than anyone else around me

Because I felt you so deep within me.

So small, no eye could see

Yet so full of life was felt already.

Disbelief and uncertainty consume my brain

As the tears fall like rain.

My heart is pounding hard and feels like thunder.

The sorrow and anguish down under just can't be explained.

Was I being punished for a sin I committed?

Was I to learn something from this and just didn't get it?

Please God, answer me... what did I do to deserve this?

Does he know how much I love him?

'Cause, it's your job now to tell him!

I already miss him... I'd do anything to kiss him...

To hold him and embrace his mere presence of him.

I can only hope for one of these days

He comes back to me, this time to stay.

To find it deep within his heart

To give me the chance for a brand new start!

Rachel sobbed as the peb fell from her hand, she suddenly felt a strong pair of arms around her chest.

"I..I...I'm s..sorry..." She sobbed into her husband's chest.

"I've got you, baby," Adam told her as he gently rocked back and forth.

Rachel shook as she sobbed her heart out.

A single tear rolled down Adam's cheek.

He gently lifted her and put her back in bed putting the covers over her and lying next to her as she cried herself to sleep.

Once he knew he was sure she was asleep, he made his way over to the journal and stared hard at it like it could give him the answers.

Picking up the pen.

Champ

You are a Precious Child

Created out of love,

a blessing from above.

I've adored you from the start,

and your little footprints touched my heart.

A single teardrop represents the millions I have cried.

My life has never been the same since you died.

I wish you could have stayed longer with me,

I'd watch you grow into all you could be.

Although we are apart,

You are always in my heart.

I dream of a joyful time when

we will be reunited once again.

Thoughts of you make me smile.

You will always be My Forever babies

You didn't stay for long, but in those precious few weeks, you changed me forever.

Goodbye babies

He put the pen down and went back to bed.

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A/N I am so sorry it's taken me so long to update this, I hope you enjoy this and pleasr review!