Chapter 7
I wanted to tell Bucky that I was in love with him so badly at the park. I just didn't have the guts to say it. Why was I scared to say it? I felt like kicking myself the entire ride back to the cabin to get our things. At least I got to see Bucky pick up a heavy ass motorcycle as if it were a kitten and put it on the bed of his truck. Everyone that spent the night at Pepper's cabins was already at the Avenger's new compound, even everyone from Wakanda. I was happy that Morgan and Pepper's parents were there. Morgan ran up to me and hugged me. It took everything of me to not to break down and cry as I held her.
"I missed you, Sarah."
"I missed you too."
"I still remember the last dance routine that you taught me."
"Oh, really that's great. I would love to see it."
"Ok."
Pepper had a big smile on her face as she watched Morgan look for her song. She started dancing right away once it was on. Morgan looked so cute dancing. I was so glad to see her looking happy knowing that she was going through the most pain that she's ever been in. I was a wreck when my parents died, and I was a few years older. I joined in with her holding her hands. I couldn't help but to smile. We had so much fun dancing. Bucky even danced with her for a while. He is really good with kids. I know that he's spent a few days with her before I came up here. They were playing together like she'd known him all of her life. I took my phone out and took a few pictures then video. It wasn't hard for me to imagine him playing with the kids in Wakanda. Then I started daydreaming about Bucky playing with kids that looked like us. Wow… I'm still trying to get over the fact that he asked me to be his girlfriend. I'm even more astounded that he told someone that he never planned on letting me go. I know that I'm being very optimistic about daydreaming of kids that look like us. I'm allowed to dream right. I fell deeply in love with this man in a span within 24 hrs. I just wish that I had the guts to tell him. The way that he looks at me he may tell me that he loves me before we even get to Wakanda.
It was nice talking with Pepper and her family. I'm glad that she will have her parents with her this week. I haven't seen her break down and cry yet since I got to New York. Of course, she had tears in her eyes during the funeral. I'm pretty she's broken down and cried earlier this week and probably in private. My heart aches for her. She's such a sweet person. I love her and all of the Stark's like family. After I went to the bathroom, I started looking at some of the books in the bookcase in the living room. Most were engineering and physics books. Tony was a literal genius. All of this stuff was simple to him. Banner is extremely smart as well. Shuri is even more advanced than Tony from what Steve has told me. Morgan walked over to me and tugged on my shirt. She wanted me to bend down so that she could tell me something. I smiled and bent down to her level since I figured she wanted to whisper something to me. Music was on so I'm sure she would be able to tell me something without others hearing it.
"Is Bucky your boyfriend?" she whispered.
"Yes… he is," I whispered back to her.
"Good... I like him," she said smiling.
"I like him too."
I gently giggled and looked up at Pepper who was sitting on one of the sofas with her mother. She smiled back at me like she knew that she was going to ask me that. Bucky was on the other side of the room near the bar talking to Pepper's father. Morgan lifted one of her eyebrows up and down quickly with a sly smirk on her face. Her grandparents dog Max walked by and she called out to him. Then she started skipping and he jumped up and down then started to playfully chase her around the house.
"Hey, be careful," Mrs. Pots called out.
"I will Nana."
I made a deep sigh. Watching her run around with a smile on her face made me feel good. I know it's going to take her… everybody a few years to emotionally deal with Tony's death. I'm glad that I'll be around more so I can spend time with Morgan and Pepper. Spend time with my brother… who's going to want to chew my head off soon. I'm dreading this conversation, but I have to tell him tonight. That picture that the guy took of us will get around quickly and he identified us as a happy couple. Most pictures that fans take of the team spread like wild fire. It's crazy to think that it was rumored that I was dating Rhodes just because we were out together eating dinner. He's almost old enough to be my father. Plus, we only see each other as good friends. He's more like an uncle figure to me. Bucky helped save the universe and is no longer brain washed by Hydra. Social media may just flip out. I guess I'm prepared for that. I'm more prepared for that than telling Sam that Bucky and I are now together. Oh well… he has to realize that we are good for each other and that I'm not afraid to be in a relationship with him because he has PTSD. It just so happens that Bucky is 100x's stronger than the average person. Sam's a VA counselor so he should be more understanding. Or maybe he's seen all of the issues with the people he councils so that's why he's terrified of the idea of us. Damn… I just want him to feel ok about this. I know it's asking a lot. This whole week feels like a crazy dream. I prayed for my brother to somehow come back and be able to annoy me and be the overprotective pain in the butt that he was… and thank God I got my wish. Wow… crazy right. Hopefully Sam will become more optimistic about this. I mean… I'm in love with him. So, I'm willing to deal with dark times if they occur. I want to be there for him.
I glanced over a few more book titles then sighed. My stomach growled and it reminded me that I was a bit hungry during the ride back. I just forgot about food once we were here and started playing with Morgan. I really wished that I ate a bigger breakfast. I walked over to Bucky and Pepper's father at the kitchen island. Bucky put his arm around my waist and kissed the top of my head. Morgan dashed into the kitchen giggling while Max chased her with his tail wagging back and forth really fast. Our eyes followed them until she ran out and down the hallway. Bucky mentioned that he wanted to get some food from somewhere before we went to the Avenger's compound. He asked Pepper for any suggestions, and she told us about one of her favorite restaurants that she orders from frequently. My stomach growled quietly again while she was explaining her favorite dishes from there. It was making me hungrier. She said that it was close to the compound and that she would cover our bill. It was nice of her to offer to pay for our dinner. The food should be ready by the time that we get there. I hope it's not a commotion because of Bucky's new fame. I'll go inside to get the food, so he doesn't have to deal with a crowd of people. He's not even used to that yet since he's been back to America.
Bucky and I took a few pictures and hugged everyone before we left. The sun was going down when we walked to his truck. He had already put all of our luggage in it a few hours ago. I took a picture of the top of the trees because the sun set looked so pretty. I asked Bucky to stand still so that I could take a picture of him with the trees and sunset in the background. The picture came out really nice. I'm going to have this one printed and framed. Then he asked for my camera and took a picture of us by extending his arm out. His was way longer than mine anyway. Bucky turned and kissed me and took a picture of us kissing. It sent a chill throughout my entire body and my knees felt a bit weak. I couldn't wait to get back to his house so he could kiss me everywhere. I'm going to use that picture for my background on my phone.
Bucky and I walked to his truck, and he opened my door for me. He lifted me to get inside, and it took me off guard at first. I could have used the footstep to get in, but he just lifted me to the seat as If I only weighed one pound. Wow… this really feels like a dream that I'm dating him now. I'm dating Sergeant Barnes, Steve's best friend. It may feel like a nightmare once Sam finds out. Bucky got in the truck and turned it on. I glanced over the dashboard and was impressed due to how modern it looked. I wondered what extra modifications it had since Shuri had something to do with it.
"It's so nice in here. I feel like I'm in a jet," I mused.
"Thanks. Shuri is proud of it."
"Again, not an old man's truck."
Bucky chuckled and drove off.
"I've never driven anything this big before. Was it an adjustment for you?"
"No… not really."
"It looks fun to drive."
"Hey, do you wanna drive it to the restaurant?"
"Ahh… I would love to but I'm too sleepy for that."
"Oh ok. Are you sure that you're up for watching a movie if you are that tired?"
"Yeah," I said a bit high pitched giving away that I was too tired.
He gave a slight mirk as if he didn't believe that I wouldn't fall asleep during the movie.
"You know you can take a nap on my sofa after we eat then watch movies," he suggested.
"Well, that sounds good too."
Bucky took my hand to hold it and slightly squeezed it. Then he brought it up to his lips and kissed the back of it. He was so romantic with just the simple gestures that he did. I kept on thinking of him asking me if he could taste me later. I would absolutely die if he ate me out. I noticed how wet I was just thinking about it. Just the thought of him doing that to me was driving my senses crazy. I had to calm down and think of something else. I looked at the dashboard to distract myself. I was thinking about trading my Jeep Cherokee in soon but nothing new could ever compare to this. T'Challa is very generous. He gave Bucky a truck and a bike. If I had money like that, I would make sure that all of my friends and family were comfortable too.
"My sofa is really comfortable."
"Huh?" I said being brought back from my thoughts.
"For you to rest on… my sofa. I was saying that it's comfortable."
"Oh… Yeah thanks. I really feel like I need to sleep."
If I didn't feel so tired, I would ask Bucky if I could drive to the restaurant. But then again it might be hard for me to adjust to the size of his truck. It's much higher and bigger than my SUV. Bucky squeezed my hand and I gently smiled at him. I loved his gestures. I want to remember this day forever. I'm definitely saving the flower that he gave me. And he's so good with kids. Morgan was having so much fun dancing and playing with him. I'm so glad that I have it on video.
"You know Morgan really had fun with you today. You're…. really good with kids."
"Thanks. Yeah, she's a fun kid. Steve and I had a ball playing with her before you got here."
"I remember you saying that you played with the kids in Wakanda a lot."
"Yes… and I miss them. They are probably all big as hell now since it's been five years. Well most. I was told that a few blipped."
"Yeah… It's crazy to even wrap your head around it. Some blipped older siblings coming back looking younger than their younger siblings. I saw a story on the news where one two-year-old twin blipped… now the twins look 5 years apart."
"Wow."
I extended my hand in Bucky's direction. He placed his hand into mine and I brought it up to his face and kissed the back of it. He gently smiled at me. My stomach started cramping and I was hoping that it wouldn't growl loudly. I was so ready to eat a big dinner and just go to sleep for a few hours in Bucky's arms. The few hours that I slept in Bucky's arms near the lake was one of the best feelings that I've experienced. I still want to pinch myself because all of this feels like a realistic ass dream to me. Bucky and I talked about our favorite foods which was making me even hungrier. My stomach growled yet it was too low for him to hear since the radio was on. I was making a mental note of everything that he loved so that I would cook it for him. Since I'm moving up here, I'll have more time to spend with him.
It will be a nice change. I would be closer to my brother and the rest of the Avengers and less stressed out from my crazy job. I just have to rent my house out so I'll have an income. Even though Sam said that he would help me I still wouldn't mind working for Pepper or Happy.
It didn't take that long for us to get to the restaurant. I was anticipating a full stomach, a few orgasms, and a deep sleep. Hopefully that wasn't too much. Bucky pulled up into a parking space close to the entrance. He placed the truck in park and leaned over towards me and kissed my cheek.
"I'll be right back ok."
"Oh, I can pick it up. You might cause a crowd. You are recognizable. Plus… well… you're not used to all of the attention yet."
"That's ok... I don't mind."
"Are you sure.?"
"Yes… I have to get used to it one day."
"Oh Ok."
Bucky went to open his door. I wanted to kiss him so I stopped him. "Wait… you forgot something."
He turned to me with a slightly confused look on his face. I motioned my index finger for him to come closer to me. Bucky automatically smiled and leaned over in my direction.
"What did I forget," he asked.
"This," I said as I ran my fingers through his hair and deeply kissed him.
"Mmm... be careful. You have no idea of how you affect me."
I pulled away from him to look at his face. His nose flared and he took my hand and placed it on his dick. It was rock hard. Wow. My bad.
"Ooh Sorry."
"See now I have to wait a while to go in."
I giggled.
"I'm so sorry. I didn't even think of that."
"Women are so lucky. They can be horny as hell, and no one will know. Men… we have no way to hide it really."
"Well, I'll know next time," I said with a grin.
"You just like being bad."
"Maybe."
Bucky made a deep sigh and closed the door since it was getting cold. He stayed in the truck with me for a few minutes to wait for his dick to get soft again. Now I'm going to be hungrier because I had to kiss him like that. He leaned his head back on his chair and closed his eyes.
"Is there some special technique you have to… fix that?"
"Yes... concentration. Shhh," he said laughing.
"Ok ok. I'll be quiet."
I didn't say anything to him as he sat there with his eyes closed. I was wondering what he was thinking of to make his dick go down. After a minute he took another deep breath and opened his eyes.
"Now keep those lips off me for now," he said jokingly.
"Ok ok I'll behave."
"Thank you. You can be bad all you want once we're at my place."
"I plan to."
"Wow… ok I can see how that was my fault. I need another minute now."
"Oh my God Bucky," I said laughing. "You know I can go get the food."
"No no that's ok," he said laughing.
Oh my God I'm going to starve if this man's dick doesn't go down. This whole moment was so funny to me. I started to laugh along with him. Tears started to form in my eyes. I will definitely write about this in my diary.
"Whooo ok I'm fine now," he said as he ran his fingers through his hair.
"Are you sure?"
"Um hum."
"Ok."
I decided not to even look at his dick to check just in case that would make him horny again. I didn't want to take any more chances. I'm hungry.
"I'll be back," he said.
"Ok. You know it may not be as fast as you think if they recognize you. Sam has people coming up to him all the time. Before we came here, he had to drop off his rental car… everyone in there was talking to him and hugging him thanking him for helping save the world."
"Wow… yeah, I can see how that can happen. I'm cool though."
I squeezed his hand and smiled at him. "I'll be back," he said like the Terminator. I chuckled and playfully rolled my eyes at him. I was kinda surprised that he even saw that movie.
It took Bucky awhile to come back. I didn't want to pay attention to the time that much because I knew that most likely people were talking to him and thanking him just as they do my brother. I didn't mind that I kept on feeling my stomach growl. I knew how eventful this was for the customers there. The man I loved helped save the universe. I can have a few more minutes of patience for that. It's going to be easy for me to adjust to people wanting to be near him since I've experienced that with my extended Avenger's family.
I finally saw Bucky leave the restaurant. Wow… he looked so good to me walking back to the truck. Damn after he eats his food he needs to eat me. A chill went through my body as I imagined the erotic thought. He reached the truck and opened up his back door to put the food in. It only took a few seconds to smell it and it smelled so good. He opened his door and got inside.
"So how was it?"
"Eventful. People noticed me right away. Everyone was so nice. I was trying my best not to get emotional. I took a few pictures with people. I got a lot of handshakes and hugs. I'm surprised that I was able to get out in the time that I did."
"Well… my hero is loved by many." Including myself.
Bucky gently smiled at me. My attention was taken away from his face because I noticed flashes in my peripheral vision. We both looked out the windshield and noticed people outside of the door of the restaurant. All of them had their phones out pointing them in our direction. I know how excited people get when they meet and see the Avengers. I just hope that none of this overwhelms Bucky. He's dealing with a lot, and I want him to have some peace since he just got back. I know that this is never going to die down completely. It's not like he just saved a cat out of a tree. "Wow," I said quietly. Bucky waved hi and they all waved back at him. He gently chucked and put his truck in reverse to back out of the parking space. "People love you Bucky." I love you too. I just don't have the guts to tell you that now. "As I told you before… you are a hero." He gently smiled and drove to the exit of the parking lot. There were a few cars going by so he couldn't drive yet. I placed my hand on his thigh and said I love you in my head. He turned to look at me and deeply kissed me. "Oh my God… you don't know how much you affect me," I breathed. Bucky bit my bottom lip and ran his fingers through my hair and kissed my neck. A horn beeped and startled me. There was a car behind us waiting to exit and it was clear for Bucky to go. "Oops," I said then giggled. Bucky drove off on to the street.
"You just can't keep your hands off of me can ya?" Bucky said playfully.
"What?" I said laughing.
Bucky put his hand on my upper thigh and slid it up. My pussy clinched and I quietly gasped.
"I'm just checking on my order for my dessert later."
"Oh… it's ready," I said with my voice trembling. Oh my God I can't wait until he eats me out.
"I'm sure it is."
I lost my train of thought looking into his eyes. That seems to happen a lot. I was just so happy that I was going to spend the rest of the day with him. Bucky stopped at a red light and squeezed my thigh.
"What are you thinking about?" he asked.
"You."
"What about me?"
How was I going to answer that… What was I going to say? That I'm deeply in love with you and only known you in person for a little over 24 hours.
"Well… everything about you. How you make me feel."
"Oh… and how do I make you feel?"
Bucky turned down the radio. I gently smiled though I was very nervous in explaining my feelings for him.
"Well… you just make me happy."
"You make me happy too."
The car behind us beeped their horn because the light changed to green. I giggled thinking of how many times this was going to happen on our way back to his house. Bucky drove off with a smirk on his face.
"Dude, you need to pay attention to traffic more," I said playfully.
"Well, that's kind of hard to do when all I want to do is pay attention to you."
"Well, you're going to have to. I'm not a Super Soldier… I will get hurt if we crash. You won't."
"Ok ok. I'll get us home in one piece."
A shiver went down my spine from hearing him say get us home… as if it was ours and just not his. My stomach started to growl again. This time he heard it because the music was lower.
"Aww Baby… you're hungry. You can eat in my truck."
"Oh, that's ok. I can wait until we get to your place."
"Well, it won't be long. Hang in their kid."
"Kid?" I said then laughed.
"Yeah kid," he said laughing. I'm a senior citizen remember."
"Well, that is true."
I inhaled because the food smelled so good. It wasn't helping how my stomach felt because it was making me feel hungrier.
"Wow that sure smells good," I said.
"Yes, it does. Hey, why didn't you eat more during breakfast?"
"Oh... I wasn't sure if I would get sick on your bike. I was nervous so I decided not to eat much."
"Oh… So did the bike ride scare you?"
"At first it did. Then I just got used to the feeling."
"I noticed that you were squeezing me tighter every time I made a turn."
"Well, I didn't want to fall off," I laughed.
"You were not going to fall of my bike Sarah."
"I'm sure it happened to someone… somewhere?" I laughed.
Bucky just smirked and shook his head back and forth. Of course, he doesn't have fear of falling off a bike. That would feel like nothing to him.
"I am probably one of the best ridders alive… with the exception of Steve."
"Oh really?" I teased.
"Yes really," he smiled.
"Ok."
"Well, I'm glad that you got used to ridding my…. bike."
Oh the pause. Why is he teasing me now.
"Oh… I got used to it alright."
Bucky chuckled.
Once we drove on to the Avenger's property everything started coming together on what people were explaining to me. There was a security gate similar to the one at the destroyed compound. When Sam became an Avenger, he told me that deliveries were handled differently due to security. Even groceries were handled by a private company ran by Happy Hogan. Once we passed the gate Bucky told me that a few engineers from Wakanda were going to make a force field covering the entire property this week. I didn't have that many questions because Steve told me years ago how there was a force field dome protecting Wakanda.
"It's going to be similar to Star Trek," Bucky added.
"Oh, you've seen Star Trek?"
He chuckled.
"Yeah, and all of the Star Wars movies too."
"Oh… ok."
"Hey, you know I've seen a lot of movies in Wakanda. T'Challa and Shuri love action and science fiction movies. So, I've seen all the really popular ones like Transformers, Terminator, Back to the Future, The Matrix-."
"Oh my God. The Matrix is one of my favorite movies."
"Yes, they were good. The first two were the best."
"I agree. You know I named one of my old cars Trinity."
"Really you did," he laughed.
"Yeah. It was black like her trench coat… so it was a fitting name," I said smiling.
"That's so cute."
"What other movies did they show you?"
"Umm… All the Superman movies. A lot of James Bond movies. All the John Wick movies. I saw a few dramas like The Notebook and Benjamin Button. Shuri thought that was a good movie for me to see due to him aging backwards. Oh, the Titanic was great."
"Oh yeah… wasn't that around your era?"
Bucky laughed.
"Close. The real ship sunk in 1912. I was born four years later."
"Wow… you are really robbing the cradle here Barnes."
"Ahhh … the old jokes start again," he laughed.
"That's one of my favorite movies too. I'm so mad that Jack died. Plus, that door looked like it was big enough for the both of them."
"Shuri says the same thing too," he said laughing.
Bucky drove past the main building that was still under construction. It looked similar to the first one.
I'm pretty sure that the Stark's were only thinking of growing and not starting all over when they bought this land. I noticed equipment where Tony and Nat's statue was going to be. Sam told me about it a few days before we drove up here. There's also going to be statues and murals of them all over the world.
"Wow it's nice here," I mused looking out the window.
"Yes, it is. Did anyone tell you about the statues?" he said as he pointed in that direction.
"Yes. Sam told me about them."
"Ok."
I'll probably be a sobbing mess the first time I see it.
"I know they are going to look amazing," I said.
"Yeah… they will."
I silently sighed and Bucky cleared his throat.
"Hey… the houses are down there after this turn."
"This property is so big. I heard that the banquette area is larger than the last one."
Yeah.
I don't know why I started getting nervous thinking about being alone in a house with him. I mean I know why. We will be somewhere private where he can do annnnyyything he wants to do to me. Plus, he said that he wanted to eat me out. So maybe its nervousness and excitement all in one. It's odd that he was nervous about last night and zoomed out of the room fearing he would lose self-control and now wants to do all of these things to me. Did he gain that much self-control in a few hours? He was able to grind against my body at the park without hurting me… so maybe he has.
Bucky drove by a few houses then drove his truck up into a driveway. The houses seemed similar and only a few differences between them with color and design. All of them had front porches.
"This is me for now."
"I like it."
"Did Steve or Sam tell you about the tunnels that go from the houses to the main building?"
"No."
Bucky turned off his truck.
"Oh. Well, they have shuttles if we need them to get to the building if an emergency happens."
"Oh, that's cool. I guess that would be needed since no one lives in the main building anymore."
"Yeah. This place is going to be even more advanced once Shuri gets finished with it."
Bucky got out of the truck, and I reached behind the seat and got the bag of food. He walked over to my side and opened my door and reached for my hand to help me step down. This truck was definitely designed for taller people.
"Thank you."
"You're welcome."
Bucky reached behind the seat and grabbed our luggage. I took a glance around the street to check out the houses. I didn't know if my brother's house was two doors up the street or two doors down.
"Which one is Sam's house?"
"Oh, five houses down there on this side," Bucky said as he motioned with his head since his hands were full. He has a bigger yard because he claims he's the grill king. I giggled. "Plus, it's the only house that has a pool right now… but there's a pool at the recreation complex."
"Yeah, Sam told me about that and the banquet hall."
"It's really nice."
I glanced up and down the block wondering where Steve lived.
"Where's Steve?"
"Oh, he's across the street over there and Scott is next to him. Next door to me is Banner then Rhodes. All the way down there after the turn on the other side is where The Guardians are staying. They have a launch pad for their ship near them. T'Challa, Shuri, and Okoye are staying in a house closer to The Guardians. There are still a few empty houses. There's a house for Clint if he wants to visit and the one next to Scott is empty. You can pick that one since Pepper said it's ok for you to stay here."
"Oh," I said pleasantly. "I like that it's close to you."
"I do too."
I wondered for a second if I should drop my bags off at Sam's. Then I thought of the possibility of taking a shower with Bucky. I would want my clothes and things to do my hair with.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Oh nothing. I was just thinking if I should take my things over to Sam's now."
"Oh ok."
"But I want some of my things for later, so I'll just bring my stuff later when I leave here."
"Whatever works for you," he said as he started to walk to the front door.
I gently smirked and followed behind him. Bucky sat the bags down on the porch to unlock the door. Once he got it opened, he motioned with his arm for me to walk in. "After you my Dear." I walked inside and quietly gasped. It was so nice. I instantly imagined what it would look like with colors on the wall or at least an accent wall.
"Wow… it's really nice."
"Thanks. It's a big transition for me. As you know I liked staying in my hut more than the castle."
"Well, It's beautiful. You know you could decorate it with things from Wakanda to make it feel more like home."
"Yeah, that would be nice."
"I looove to decorate by the way."
"Oh… well you can just show me all the ideas that you have. I'll be your blank canvas."
Bucky looked down at my hand and took the bag of food from me.
"I'll put this up."
"Ok."
I watched Bucky walk into the kitchen. Wow I didn't realize how much I would enjoy just watching him in his new home. He walked back into the living room and took off his jacket. He hung it in the closet then turned me around gently and helped me take off mine. After he hung my jacket up his eyes lit up.
"Hey, do you want to take a quick shower with me? I'm sure that blanket left some of me on your stomach."
"Oh… Ahhh," I said a bit baffled. I was slightly taken off guard.
"It's just a shower... with a 106-year-old man that has a hard time of keeping his hands off you."
I laughed nervously. I even dreamed about this. Why should I get nervous now. Bucky gave a curious slight grin.
"Umm… if you don't feel comfortable… its ok. I understand," he said in a loving tone.
"Oh no. I'm comfortable with a shower." I definitely want to see you naked.
"Ok."
"And… Ahh… I've never seen you fully naked."
"You saw most of me."
I bit my fist playfully. "Yes… those calves and feet though." Bucky laughed.
"Oh my God you're funny. Yes, you finally get to check out my legs and feet."
"Cool."
I felt my stomach growl again. I knew this shower wasn't going to be as quick as he thought. The both of us totally naked and wet. No this wasn't going to be a quick shower at all.
"Umm… I'm kinda starving," I admitted.
"Oh, we can eat first then. I'm a bit hungry too. I eat a lot," he said then chuckled.
"Well, you definitely will have a large choice of food to eat tomorrow. I'll probably start cooking around 8 a.m. to help Sam. I may have to go to bed earlier tonight, so I won't fall on my face. I've been up for longer than 24 hours."
"Ok. I won't keep you up late. Damn I'm sorry you didn't get any sleep. I would have tried my best to help you."
"I know."
"You should have gotten me."
"Well… I have you now."
Bucky smiled and leaned down and kissed my forehead. I followed behind him and placed my pocketbook on one of his dining room chairs. My eyes widened a bit when I saw his kitchen. It was really beautiful and modern. Stainless steel appliances, six burners in his stove, and marble counter tops with a large marble island. He even had a smart fridge. It reminded me of my dream kitchen. I automatically pictured myself in here cooking for him. Bucky washed his hands. I washed mine after him and he handed me a paper towel.
"Thanks."
"You're welcome. I do have popcorn for the movies," he said with a smile.
"Ok cool."
Bucky turned on some music and started to put our food on plates to warm up. It was a really old song. I heard it before but didn't know who it was. I took a stool and sat at the marble island and watched him go in the fridge and he took out some juice.
"This is nice. It sounds familiar… who is this?" I asked.
"Oh, it's Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong."
"Oh… Ok my great grandparents loved them."
"Ahh… I can play something current if you want." he said quickly.
"Oh no that's fine."
I didn't want him to feel self-conscious about the music he loves. I liked listening to music with my great grandparents.
"White grape juice, ok?" he asked.
"Sure, I love that." It's actually one of my favorites."
"Oh ok. Good to know."
Bucky took a seat next to me when our food was ready. He shared some of his food so that I could taste it and I did the same for him. While talking to him I kept on daydreaming about cooking for him in this kitchen. Now that I plan on staying with Sam, I'll get many opportunities to do that for him. I'm so glad that this doesn't have to be a long-distance relationship. It's so crazy how fast my heart got emotionally attached to him.
I wanted to save some of my food for later if I got hungry. Plus, I didn't want to feel too full just in case we got into some strenuous activities. I only ate about half of my food while Bucky ate everything. I guess he was right about having a big appetite. He asked me if I was done, and I said yes. Then he put my food in Tupperware and put it in the refrigerator. Bucky rubbed his stomach looking satisfied.
"That was good," he said. "I'll have to order from them again."
"It was. You know I can't wait until you try some of my food tomorrow at the cookout."
"So, I have a little chef in my presence?"
"Yes… Yes, you do," I laughed.
"Well, I can't wait. I'm sure everything is going to be amazing. Steve told me that you could really cook."
"Oh he did?"
"As much as he talked about you… yes," he chuckled. Thanks for looking out for me Rogers. "Steve loved it when he came to your house for parties and dinner. Even said that you would do well if you ever decided to have a restaurant."
"Well, I do love cooking. It's one of my passions besides dancing and singing."
"Well… you should follow your passions. You're very talented."
"Thankyou. I kinda tried with my dance studio… but you know what happened with that."
"I'm sure you'll have another one one day," he said with a big smile.
"Maybe one day."
I stood up from the stool and Bucky swept me in his arms and spun me around once. I squealed out of excitement for being spun then laughed. He started to sway my body and we danced to the music. It was Nat King Cole Unforgettable. I knew this song by heart. I would sing along with my grandfather. Plus, my mother and I used to sing it. Bucky shocked me when he started to sing the lyrics. Wow he sounded so nice. I guess that he was just too shy or uncomfortable to sing last night. I joined in and he stopped to listen to me. His eyes gazed at me as he smiled. He looked so adorable. He later joined in and sang along with me. I rested my head on his chest when only music was playing. The swaying was so relaxing and was making me sleepier than I was. I knew that I definitely would have to take a long nap if I wanted to stay awake during the movie later. Bucky still swayed with me when the next song came on. I think that I heard it before ages ago at my grandparents' house. Bucky started to sing the first words. My heart jumped and I looked up at him. "I love you… for sentimental reasons. I hope you do believe me. I'll give you my heart. I love you… and you alone were meant for me. Please give your loving heart to me and say we'll never part." The way he looked down at me when he sang made my eyes misty. My mind spun on the words of the song wondering if he was just singing them to me or he wanted to sing them to me because that's how he felt. Bucky was looking at me so passionately it made me think that he wanted me to hang on every word of the song.
I blinked and felt a tear fall. One side of his mouth curled up in a smile. He stopped singing. I noticed that we were both breathing harder as the music faded out for me in the background. I started to feel a bit dizzy. I wanted to tell him that I loved him. Bucky leaned down and grabbed the back of my head and hungrily kissed me. I jumped up and he supported my weight in a split second allowing me to wrap my legs around his waist. He turned and pressed me up against the wall and started licking and kissing me all over my neck "Bucky," I moaned as I gripped his long hair. "Ooh… Oh my God." Bucky slowly unbuttoned my jeans and slid the zipper down. I gasped as his fingers started to dance inside me. "Mmm… I can't wait to eat my dessert," he breathed in my ear. Oh shit. I felt like I almost jumped out of my skin. He noticed that my body jerked just from hearing that and he gently smirked. Bucky started to deeply kiss me again. I moaned in his mouth. I wanted to tell him that I fell in love with him earlier this morning in the woods. That my senses went crazy and couldn't hear anything but us and that I felt dizzy and felt like I had an outer body experience when he kissed me and made me come for the first time. Bucky gently bit my lip and held the sides of my head and gazed into my eyes. "I love you," he breathed. I inhaled in broken breaths stunned by his sweet confession. I felt tears well up in my eyes. He does feel the same way as I do. "I love you too." He passionately kissed me and started walking out of the dining room still supporting my weight. He walked towards the steps and effortlessly carried me upstairs still kissing me.
"You're mine," I moaned.
"Yes… I am," he breathed.
Bucky carried me to his bathroom, and I slid down out of his arms. It was beautiful and looked like a picture in a magazine. I pulled my shirt over my head, and he started to kiss me again tugging at my jeans to slide them past my hips. Once they dropped to my ankles, I stepped out of them. I looked over to his Jacuzzi and my eyes widened a bit. Wow that must be sexy to have sex in. "I see you gazing at my tub. Do you wanna take a bath?" I didn't know how to answer that quickly because I kept on picturing him kissing me up against the shower wall. Then pictured him kissing me while I sat on his lap in the tub. Decisions decisions.
"Ahhh… Shower."
"Shower it is."
Bucky took off his clothes and turned the water on. I gazed at his full naked body in amazement. Even his calves and feet were beautiful. I don't think that I was exaggerating because I was in love with him… his body looked perfect; not one corn or bunion on his feet. His dick was also rock hard and that made me a bit nervous seeing how big it was again. Bucky grabbed two luffas and gently took my hand and led me inside. I didn't even care if my hair got wet. I would just deal with my hair later. We kissed in the shower for a few moments just letting the water run over our bodies. He ran his hands through my wet hair letting his tongue sensually attack my mouth. I moaned due to sensations. I swear his kisses are the best that I've ever had in life. Bucky then took the two luffas and put some body wash on them. He handed me one and I started running it over his arms and chest. "Turn around," I softly said. Bucky turned and I started caressing his back. I watched the soap trickle down his back on to his ass. Damn his ass looked so sexy that I wanted to bite it. Bucky turned to face me and gently smirked. He put his hands on my hip and guided me to turn around. Bucky started to slowly move the luffa all over my body. He started with my shoulders then moved down to my breast and then my stomach. His mouth stayed on my neck the entire time kissing and sucking on my skin. "Damn you're so sexy," he breathed in my ear. He caressed the luffa over the front of my pussy and I gasped. Bucky turned me around to face him and he put the luffa on a hook on the shower wall. His lids were low and heavy and he looked so fucking sexy. I grabbed the body wash and put some in my hand then reached out for his dick. I started to softly caress it. His eyes closed and he groaned at my touch. He moved closer to me and started to kiss me while deeply massaging his fingers into my back. "Bucky," I moaned. I gripped his dick a bit tighter and started to move my hand up and down his shaft. "Fuck that feels good," he moaned. His knees buckled for a split second, and he easily got his balance back. "Ahhh… Ohh… Shit… Sarah," he moaned. I stood on my toes and started sucking on his neck then gently bit it. I started to rub my thumb over his head after every time I fully stoked it. "Oh God," Bucky groaned. He leaned down and hungrily kissed me. I picked up my speed and his breathing hitched.
"Yes Baby," I moaned. "I want you to fuckn' come on me."
"Oh God."
I started twisting my hand while jerking him off. My eyes stayed glued to his beautiful face. I loved the facial expressions that he was making.
"Fuck! I'm gonna… Oh Shit. Baby I'm gonna come!"
"Come for me," I moaned. Come all over me."
Bucky started to come and squirted all over my stomach and pussy. He kept his hands balled up in a fist at his side. I looked back down at my body because it looked so fucking good. Damn he really comes a lot compared to my ex's. His come felt so hot against my skin as I watched him drench me. "Oh my God… fuck!" he groaned. Bucky continued to moan and groan as his come covered me. Damn I wanted to know what it felt like for him to come that hard inside me. I wanted to taste him again, so I took a finger and ran it across my stomach then sucked my finger. His eyes widened for a second and he gave me a sexy smile. "Damn," he breathed. Then he wrapped his arms around me. Bucky bit my neck then kissed me with his come still in my mouth. Having him kiss me with his come in my mouth turned me on so much that I felt a gush of wetness. "I love how your come taste," I moaned. Bucky hungrily looked me up and down. "I want my dessert now… I need to taste you," he breathed. The next thing that I knew he had lifted me up and placed my legs over his shoulders with one arm in the center of my chest keeping me pinned to the shower wall. He immediately started licking and sucking. "Oh my God," I moaned out loudly. "Shit!" Bucky was making me dizzy, yet I didn't have a fear of slipping or falling because I knew that he had me securely in his extremely strong arms. Then he started moving his tongue extremely fast... faster than any normal man would be able to do. I screamed at the top of my lungs as I gripped his wet hair. He made me come so hard and he kept on going not giving me time to recover. He made the sexiest muffled groans in between my legs. I felt a strong gush as I climaxed. I've never experienced anything like this before. My entire body started to tremble. I started moaning out his name while I hyperventilated. "Oh Bucky… Bucky! Oh my God!"
I've had oral sex in my life before, yet nothing compared to this. I might as well have never had oral sex before because what he was doing to me felt like it was something else. I couldn't help but scream like crazy. The acoustics from the bathroom made my screams even more intense. I came again and he continued eating me out without giving me a break. My entire body couldn't stop trembling. I was having a full body orgasm. The pleasure was damn near unbearable. I felt like I was going to faint if he didn't stop. "Bucky… please… stop," I panted. He quickly let me slide down to the shower floor keeping me from falling completely because my legs had no strength to stand. I tried my best to catch my breath, but I started to hyperventilate even more. "Breathe Sarah. Calm down. Look at me breathe." I tried my best to slow down my breathing. I was just getting dizzier and felt extremely weak. "Baby, look at me." Bucky started to breathe slowly and I tried my best to copy him. I took a few slower deep breaths. It wasn't really helping.
"Oh my… God," I said out of breath.
"I can run you to our hospital," he said a bit nervously.
I shook my head no quickly. "I'll be… fine," I panted. I giggled a bit in between my breaths as I imagined him running me to the main building because I couldn't breathe due to an orgasm.
"Bucky… I just need to… catch my breath."
"Ok."
"Damn I just… Wow you… made me come… so fuckn' hard."
Bucky smirked and said Sorry. I chuckled under my breath. He looked so adorable with his hair soaking wet.
"Bucky… you have nothing to be sorry for. I enjoyed it… too much. I felt… like I was going to faint."
"Wow. Well…"
I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes. He wrapped his arms around me and I focused on my breathing. Bucky gently rubbed my back which made me feel relaxed quicker.
"What did you do to me?" I asked then softly chuckled.
"I swallowed a lot of your come… that's what I did."
I weakly laughed. I felt so tired. If he makes me come that hard again, I'm going to need an oxygen tank. My body felt so relaxed. All I wanted to do was to lay down and go to sleep in his arms. Bucky softly kissed me on my lips and I tasted myself.
"You taste so fucking good," he breathed.
"Oh wow. You taste so good too."
Bucky gently smiled and moved my hair out of my face.
"So… I take it that it felt really good?" he said in a sexy tone that made my pussy clinch.
"Umm… Painfully good."
He grinned at me with a satisfied accomplished expression. Then he bit his lip and moved his mouth to my ear.
"I can't wait to fuck you," he breathed.
Oh my God.
"I wish it was now," I said with my voice trembling.
"Me too… trust me."
Bucky deeply kissed me making me feel dizzier. I imagined him inside me and how wonderful it would feel.
"I dream about you inside me," I whispered.
"You do," he breathed.
I smiled and nodded my head yes. He ran his fingers through my hair then gently gripped it.
"I'm going to make your dreams come true," he said in a sexy tone.
"You already did. I love you."
"I love you too. I can't wait to be inside you."
"Ooh," I said with my voice trembling. Dammit I wanted him to fuck me so badly.
"You look like I drugged you. I need to get you to bed so you can rest. Well to my sofa."
I softly chuckled. "I feel like you did drug me. My legs feel so weak. My whole body." Bucky turned off the water and picked me up cradling me like a baby. I just love how he carries me around. I feel light as a feather to him. He sat me down on the small bench in front of a vanity mirror. I still felt a bit dizzy, so I held on to the seat. He took his blue robe off the bathroom door and draped it over my shoulders. Then he kneeled down in front of me and ran his fingers through my hair.
"Are you ok?" he asked softly.
"Yes. Still a bit dizzy from when you made me come. I… I never felt like that in my entire life."
Bucky gently smiled at me.
"Well, I'm glad that I could give you that experience. You came so much. I thought that I was going to drown for a second," he said then smirked at me.
"Well, I know CPR… I would have saved you," I said laughing.
He laughed along with me.
"That shit was so sexy… and the way your entire body was trembling."
"Yeah… I know. I… I never had a full body orgasm before." I jerked having an aftershock from just thinking about it.
"You ok?"
"Yes," I softly giggled.
"What was that?" he asked with an amused look on his face.
"An aftershock."
"Oooh."
It didn't look like I had to explain to him what that was. Or maybe he was saying oh to look like he knew what I was referring to? Bucky deeply kissed me and I moaned in his mouth. I couldn't believe that he was mine… and that he made my body feel that amazing. I remembered how he said that he also loved hearing me call him James when we were at the lake. I'm so used to calling him Bucky. "James, I love you," I breathed. He shivered for a second then pulled his lips away from mine.
"Damn… I love hearing you say my first name. I love you too. You have no idea of how that made me want the fuck the shit out of you right now."
"Oh wow," I breathed. "James James James James," I said quickly.
Bucky laughed and shook his head. He brought his hand up to my face and caressed it. "Hopefully soon Baby," he breathed. I gently smiled. My eyelids felt so heavy. I haven't slept in a day then I have this beautiful man trying, no… making me come harder than I've even done in my life.
"Baby you look so sleepy," he said as he moved a lock of my wet hair behind my ear. "Let me get you to bed. I'll be right back ok."
"Ok."
Bucky kissed me one more time then stood up. He looked on the floor and saw my phone halfway out of my jean pocket. He bent down and picked it up.
"I'll bring this downstairs for you."
"Ok thanks."
Bucky grabbed two towels and walked out of the bathroom. Of course I watched him leave looking at his muscular ass. Shit he's so fucking sexy it's ridiculous. I don't even care how he's so good at oral sex. He needs to make a demonstration video or something to help other men out. I turned to face the mirror to look at my hair. It's going to look like Scary Spice all big and spirally when it dries. Especially if I don't put anything on it. I'm too tired to do even that and I'm definitely not blow drying it straight. Oh well Big hair I don't care it is.
Bucky came back up shortly still naked with my bags and a bottle of water and one of his T-Shirts. His hair was just damp, and his body was completely dry. Maybe he has a towel in his room?
"I figured that you would be thirsty. All that moaning," he chuckled.
"Thanks," I said playfully sarcastic.
He chuckled and opened the bottle and sat it on the vanity table along with his T-Shirt.
"Thanks."
"No problem. You can wear my T-Shirt if you want to."
"Oh, ok thanks."
I dug in my bag and took my deodorant and put it on. Then I put my arms through his robe. It felt so warm and cozy. It even smelled like his cologne. I thought about my hair and sighed out of frustration.
"You, ok?" he asked.
"Yeah… I'm just too tired to do my hair."
"Well, I can help if you want."
I slightly huffed a laugh.
"What…" he said with a wide smile. "I am a fabulous hairdresser," he said in an exaggerated feminine voice.
I laughed.
"Thank you but I'm ok. I just have to put this in it and brush it."
"Ok."
I grabbed my bottle of hair cream and squirted some on my hand. I internally devilishly laughed as I thought of what it looked like. I ran my fingers through my hair as he watched me. I knew this had to be new for him since I was the first black girl that he ever dated… unless he dated someone in Wakanda. Who wouldn't be attracted to him.
"I like how your hair gets wavy when it's wet. Steve showed me a few pics when you had your hair big and curly. Do you wear it like that often?"
"Sometimes. I usually just blow dry my hair and wear it straight."
"Oh ok. It's pretty both ways."
"Thank you." Holy crap. My ovaries just burst.
"You're welcome. Hey, have you ever had your hair in braids... like Shuri?"
"Umm Yeah… a few times."
"Cool. You know the kids in Wakanda used to braid my hair."
"Really," I said smiling.
"Yeah… I let them play in my hair all of the time. They got a kick out of it because my hair texture was different. I know Shuri has some pictures of my hair like that." Bucky chuckled. "I'll text her to send them to us."
"Ok cool. You know at times I think it's crazy that I have the phone numbers of a King and a Princess."
"Well both of them are the most down to earth people you could ever meet. They are like family to me."
"I see that... the way that you were at the cabin. And they are hilarious."
"Yeah, they are. I can't wait for you to get to know them better."
"Me too."
"You know it will be easier for you to get dressed in here. I don't have any furniture in my bedroom. Not even a chair. I'll probably order some tonight. I definitely want you in a bed if you decide to spend the night soon. I can have one here by tomorrow."
"Wow that would be nice."
"Yes… it would. I would love to have you in my arms while I sleep."
Oh wow.
"I would love that too."
Oh my God he is so gorgeous. I'm pretty sure that we will be sleeping in the same bed when we get to Wakanda. He sounds like he wants that to happen before we get there which is totally fine with me. Being near him helps calm my mind. I would love to be able to sleep next to him tomorrow night. We really don't have to wait for a bed. I'll sleep on the floor with him or his sofa. Bucky looked so sexy with his naked body. It made me want to stay as easily accessible as possible. I looked down at his muscular legs and smirked.
"Hey Bucky."
"Yes?"
I bit my fist. "Those calves though." He started to laugh.
"I'm glad that you like my calves."
"And your feet too."
"Why thank you," he said still laughing. "You've finally seen me completely naked."
I grinned at him as he shook his head and left the bathroom. Bucky came back a few moments later wearing a pair of navy-blue boxers. Wow he really does love the color blue.
I grabbed my lotion out of my bag and took my arms out of his robe. Bucky leaned against the wall and folded his arms. I started to rub the lotion all over my arms and legs. I was too tired to do my entire body. I really just want to lay down and relax. It would be nice if Bucky could finish putting it on me. I'm not sure if I should ask. I don't think the lotion would do anything to his metal hand. He takes baths and showers with it. He had a sexy smirk on his face. He was probably proud of making me come so much. Damn that was amazing. I smiled back at him. I guess I was his erotic show and he just wanted to watch every move that I did.
"Hey… can do me a favor and lotion my back?" I asked.
"Sure… I'll make myself more useful than just staring at you."
I chuckled. "I can't help myself… you're so beautiful and sexy." I instantly started to blush and felt butterflies in my stomach.
"Thank you. You're not so bad yourself," I said smiling. "Actually..."
"What?" he asked softly.
"Well… you're beautiful to me too." I gazed at his body. Even the scars on his shoulder near his metal arm didn't turn me off. "You're the sexiest man that I've ever been with."
"I am?"
"How could you not be," I said smiling.
"You're right… how could I not be."
We both laughed. Bucky walked over towards me and picked up my lotion. I let his robe fall off me and started feeling tingly before he even touched me. He got behind me and warmed up the lotion in his hands. He placed his hands on my shoulders and started massaging them. "I'm not too hard?" he asked. I chuckled under my breath because my mind stays in the gutter. "No… that feels really good. But Bucky if you make me anymore relaxed, I'll be in a coma." He gently chuckled. "Ok I'll give you a massage latter." He bent down and put lotion the rest of my back then wrapped his arms around me from behind and started rubbing lotion my stomach in a sensual way. I closed my eyes and softly moaned. "Your touch feels so good," I breathed. Bucky kissed the back of my ear then licked it. I shivered. Then he kissed the side of my neck. He moved his hand down lower and caressed the skin on my pussy. "Ooh," I moaned. I knew that I wanted to give him a full sensual body massage later. I've seen enough videos on how to do it. I wanted to please him so much. He let his fingers go farther down and slid in between my lips. I gasped.
"Ooh Bucky," I moaned out.
"I would eat that pussy everyday if you let me," he breathed in my ear.
Holy Shit. I turned my head to face him. Damn he looked so sexy, and he was all mine. "I need you in my mouth," I panted. Bucky grabbed me by my hair and deeply kissed me.
"Stand up," I breathed.
"No Baby… not yet. I don't... I don't want to hurt you by accident. We… We will try that some other time."
"Ooh... James, let me lick you. One little lick," I said with a grin.
"Oh my God Sarah… you want me to just combust is that it," he said chuckling.
"Maybe."
"Not now Baby."
"Ok."
"Hey… don't sound so sad," he laughed. "I'm preventing you from having a broken neck."
"Well ok if you put it that way," I said playfully rolling my eyes.
Bucky shook his head then kissed the top of mine.
"I love you," he breathed.
"I love you too. I can't believe I get to say those words to you… out loud."
"I swear my heart explodes every time I hear you say it."
"I love you."
Bucky made an explosion sound with his mouth while motioning his fist opening up near his chest. I giggled. I love his sense of humor. I quickly pecked him on his cheek and smiled. "Here… put my shirt on." he said as he stood up. He handed me his T-Shirt from the vanity table and I pulled it on.
"Damn you look good in my shirt. Please don't put any panties on."
"Oh… Umm… ok," I stammered thinking of the sexy reason why. Shit.
I was a bit giddy that I wasn't going to be wearing panties. I could be naked in seconds. And I clearly planned on being naked again with him later. Bucky looked me up and down and his nose flared. I wondered what he was thinking about. I could probably imagine it had to do with sex. He bit his bottom lip and my pussy clinched. He looked so frickn' sexy.
"It was sexy watching you make yourself not naked anymore."
"Oh, you like watching me not get naked?"
"Yes… and getting naked. Both... turn me on."
"Wow so I just can't get dressed in front of you or nothing will get done."
"Pretty much."
I giggled. Bucky lifted me in his arms, and I wrapped my legs around his waist.
"Let's get you to sleep," he breathed in my ear.
"Oh, I need a towel for my hair, so I won't mess up your sofa."
"I already put one on it."
"Oh."
"I think strategically darling."
"I see that."
Bucky washed his hands then kissed my neck then my lips and carried me down the stairs. Once we were near his sofa, he gently laid me down. I needed at least two or three hours of rest because I never went to sleep last night. I knew that it wasn't going to be hard to fall asleep because I couldn't even keep my eyes open for long.
"Oh, my charger," I said as I remembered that my battery was getting low."
"Where is it?"
"It's in my pocketbook. I left it on the dining room chair."
"I'll get it for you."
Bucky walked into the living room and came back with my pocketbook. He handed it to me and I took out my charger. "Here let me," he said. I handed it to him, and he plugged it in and connected my phone to it. Then he put on some modern relaxing music and got behind me. Wow he knows about Sam Smith. I was impressed. Latch is one of my favorite songs of his. Bucky placed a large throw blanket over us and kissed my neck. Then he wrapped his arms around my body.
"I love this song," I mused.
"I do too. It reminds me of how I feel about you."
"Wow," I softly said in amazement.
"I'm latching on to you," he quietly sang in my ear then squeezed me tighter to his body.
Wow I love this man so much.
"Mr. Barnes."
"Yes Sarah?" he breathed.
"I really love you."
"I really love you too my sweet Sarah. Now rest and get some sleep ok."
"Ok," I said weakly.
Bucky snuggled his body onto mine. I knew that I would be knocked out at any moment. I needed sleep. The seasonings in the food tomorrow counted on it. I started to pay attention to the song in the background. Tears filled my eyes because Bucky said that the lyrics were the way that he felt about me. I started to pay attention to the sound of him breathing behind me. I never knew that hearing someone just breath could make me feel so comforted. I'm so in love with him that I want to wake up next to him every morning. Am I crazy for even thinking like this? My cousin Amber and her husband knew that they wanted to get married after only two days of knowing each other.
My eyes started to tear out of joy and sadness. This past week was so crazy. I've lost and gained so many people. I didn't bother wiping the tears away and just let them soak into the towel under my face. At least I don't have to have the added stress of dealing with my job. I'm so thankful for Sam that he's going to buy me a house and let me live with him until everything is settled. If I had to go back and keep my job, I would be so miserable. Plus, I would miss Bucky like crazy. We would have probably only seen each other a few times per week. My heart is now in Upstate New York so of course I want to be near something so vital to me. Bucky's love is important to me. It's crazy that he loved me from a far and I thought of him so much because of Steve. I grew to love Bucky through his stories. And Sam boasted about him so much after his going away party. It still feels like a dream that we are together. Hopefully Sam will soon understand how much I love him and that I'm fully committed on helping him with his PTSD in any way that I can. I know that he's scared for me. He probably would be even more against it if he knew what Michael did to me. I still have to tell him about it one day. I don't want to... but I know it's something that I have to do. I have to tell Bucky too. It's just so much to deal with right now.
I silently cried for around three songs. Each one that played was extremely emotional about love. Ed Sheeran's song 'Kiss Me' was now on. Bucky softly groaned in his sleep and held me a bit tighter. Just knowing that he was probably dreaming of me and wanted me closer to his body made me feel even more emotional. "I love you," I whispered quietly not wanting to wake him. He may have heard me in his sleep any way because he quietly groaned again and pressed his dick closer to my butt. After a few more songs I couldn't identify what was playing anymore because my mind was drifting. I was completely relaxed in Bucky's arms and with love in my heart I drifted off to sleep.
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