Sweet - as - honey: I'm sorry you found it sad, but I'm happy you really liked it. I wanted Cal to think about Ethan other than himself for a change. Thank you for the review.

CBloom2: Thank you for the review. I'm also hoping that neither boy has the gene, I guess we'll have to wait until Saturday's episode to see if Cal tells Ethan that their results are in, but I don't think he will.

tracy's dream: I'm glad you thought that the chapter was really powerful. Thank you for the review.

This chapter was prompted by LindaAndrewsfan with the prompt: Jessica and Linda have a girlie night in, in Jessica's house.

In, this chapter, mentioned is one of my former favourite magazines, "Mizz " I was gutted when the writers decided to discontinue that magazine. Also, in the flashback of Jessica's there's a bit of dialogue that Tess says but it's from series 24 ep 24.


The Secret Life Of Casualty

Chapter 135.

Jessica looked around the living room; it had a nice glow from the candles she had lit, she'd laid out snacks on the coffee table and she'd took the pink blanket off the end of Amelia's bed and took it downstairs and lay it on the floor. She placed Amelia's issues of "Mizz" magazine in her bedroom, on the girl's desk.

The doorbell rang and Jessica walked out in to the hallway to answer it.

"Hiya " Linda smiled, in her thick Liverpool accent.

"Hi" Jessica replied quietly.

"I brought you a bottle of wine, " Linda said, handing it over as she walked in to the house, shutting the door behind her.

"OK" Jessica replied, as she walked in to the kitchen and picked up two glasses from the draining board, she poured Linda a big glass and herself a small glass, as she wasn't a big drinker. She handed one glass to Linda and took a sip of her own drink, before walking in to the living room.


Jessica picked up the selection of DVD's that belonged to her 12 - year - old daughter, Amelia, and sat back down on the couch, allowing Linda to choose what they watched.

"White chicks?" Linda suggested, looking through the pile.

"OK" Jessica took the DVD and put it in the player. She picked up the TV remote and pressed play.

"I miss Denise" Linda suddenly said, taking Jessica by surprise as she knew that Linda didn't speak about her family as her sister was an ex - drug user and while on a drug binge, she had barely seen or provided for her kids and she left Linda to provide for her niece and nephew.

"I know" Jessica replied, because she felt the same, she missed Harry, days after the funeral, she found herself still getting up and making her son a bottle and going in to his nursery, and realising he wasn't there. It had been Adam, who had found her, clutching their sons teddy bear with tears slipping down her cheeks.

Flashback.

The bereaved mum took the duvet off her and stood up, putting her slippers on and reaching for her dressing gown, tying it around her waist as she walked out of the bedroom where her husband was snoring softly. She stood on the landing as she stared at the letters that spelt "HARRY" in block letters. She walked down the stairs and in to the kitchen as she filled the kettle.

"Jess? What are you doing?" Adam questioned, as the tap was still running and the kettle was overflowing

She looked at him, and her tear stained - face was enough for him to realise: She was blaming him for their baby dying.

"Shh" Adam kissed the top of her head as he suggested they go to bed. She nodded. He knew she blamed him and he blamed himself too, but what was he meant to do when his wife, who was lying there, like a doll, needed help and their son was nowhere to been seen.

Jessica allowed herself to be pulled out of the kitchen and back up to their bedroom, where she fell in to a dream where: She reached Harry, but she always dropped him, in to the ice water as she woke up. That dream was followed by tears.

Early, the next morning, Adam was expecting to find Jessica on her side of the bed, but she wasn't, he knew where she would be. He pulled on a tee shirt and a pair of joggers, before he walked across the landing and walked in to their sons bedroom, Jessica was soaking the teddy with her tears.

"Are you ready for today?" Adam asked.

"OK" Jessica replied, wiping away her tears. It was her first day back since they'd buried Harry and now she was nervous about it. What if they treated her differently? What if they looked at her with pity, just because she had been unfortunate to lose a baby. She went back in to her room and picked up her deodorant and sprayed it, before putting on her scrub top and pants. She got her trainers out of the wardrobe and put them on, before tying up the laces. She got her bag and reached inside the wardrobe for her coat and put it on, before joining Adam at the bottom of the stairs.

"It's good to have you back by the way " Tess said, squeezing her hand.

"It's good to be back " Jessica replied as she made her way in to the staff room to put away her bag and coat. She walked out, after tying her hair back.

"This is Jacob William's, 9 months old, breathing difficulties- " Said Jeff.

Jessica stared as a paediatric nurse, she knew her role was to deal with children and babies, but she couldn't deal with this, it was too similar.

"Jess!" Adam yelled.

Adam ran after his wife, she was leaning against the wall and he noticed the tears on her cheeks.

"Look at me" Adam ordered her, softly. Jessica looked up at him.

"Babies that are Harry's age, are always going to be- "

"I know" She interrupted him.

"Coffee?" Adam asked, looking at his watch.

"Sure" She agreed weakly as he put his arm around her, as the two strolled back in to the ED.

Jessica sat down while Adam ordered them both a warm drink.

End of flashback.

Linda took another sip of her drink as they decided to put on another DVD, this time it was Jessica's choice and she decided to watch "Confessions Of a Shopaholic "


I'm not very happy with this update and I usually love writing for Jessica. Thanks for reading. Any spelling and grammar mistakes are my fault, I don't own Jessica, as if I did, the BBC wouldn't have split Adam and her up.