I started this chapter at 5 in the morning, fell back asleep, and then forgot all about it.

sweet - as - honey: Thank you for the review, I loved writing Cal's letter, I'm glad you found it lovely. Cal really is lovely. I've always wondered what would happen if show writers re -cast Matilda as a older character and she tracked down Cal?

sweet - as - honey: Thank you for the review, last Tuesday's Holby episode had me in bits. I hope it is explored as well. I'm not looking forward to Thursday's episode as it is Digby's funeral. :(

Sweet - as - honey: Thank you for the review. My heart broke for both Ethan and Hannah as I wrote the chapter. I love Ethan's relationship with Hannah too, I'm glad you think she is mature.


The Secret Life Of Casualty.

Chapter 200.

Cal's POV

I couldn't believe it. Matilda, the girl I hadn't seen until she was a baby was standing on my doorstep.

"C- Come in, " I stuttered, secretly cursing Ethan was the one with the stutter, not me.

"Thanks " She said as she stepped in.

"Cal?" Asked Ethan as he walked in to the hallway.

I turned around from shutting the door. "Ethan, you remember Matilda, don't you?"

Ethan stared. "H-Hello Matilda. "

She smiled, shyly.

We moved in to the living room. Matilda spotted a teddy.

"Whose this?" She asked, thinking I had another son or daughter.

"It's ...yours " I replied.

"What?" She asked.

"Your mum and I broke up and hadn't seen each other for a while, then she suddenly turned up at the ED where I work, with you in the car, she told me you were mine. I didn't know whether to believe her as she hadn't been truthful to me while we were together "

"Do you wish I was?" She asked.

"I did, " I replied.

"So, why did you give me up?"

Here was the question I've been dreading. I take a sip of the drink I made earlier.

"Do you want one?" I ask.

She nods. "Water please, "

I stand and head to the kitchen, picking up a glass and filling it with water. I take it back in and hand it to her, a answer prepared in my mind.

"I gave you up to social services as it was the right thing to do." She looks at me, a tear slipping down her cheek, I wipe it away as she gives me a weak smile .