and so it begins... the hunt
da da da da dadadadadada
wait that's rude it implies I want to hurt her or something
take 2!
and so it begins the stalk
da da da da da dadadadadda
not that stalking's also rude but it can't be that rude if a million other people do it

siramay: aint that right Conroy?

Conroy: I mean I just got into the series so I'm not so sure

siramay: exactly
throws Conroy across the school
for this is a mission I must do... (Pause for dramatic effect) alone

...man I'm b- no tired... ugh completely ruined the word she did just like my old friend Blackhat except he wasn't my friend HE WAS MY ENEMY AND NOTHING BROUGHT ME MORE SATISFACTION THEN SEEING HIM FALL AT MY HAND, he was the worst thinking just because he was all powerful he could treat people however he want and flaunts the multiverse like he owned the place he completely ruined formal wear for me ugh I hate him just as much as I hate Junko... actually who do I hate more... hmmm both sick twisted monsters who hurt people ones an old eldritch being while the others a teenage girl so... but then again she dosent imprude on my territory, not that she knows it and she also hurts the people she cares about! but black hat hurts the people I CARE ABOUT AND HE INSULTS THEM BY SAYING THEY ARNT WORTH IT AT LEAST WITH JUNKO I CAN HAVE THE BACK HANDED COFMRTH THAT HER PAIN IS A COMPLAMENT!... yeah black hat sucks more that guys just cruel
not that I would ever take suffering as a complement, except mike he's a masochist
these convos are so interesting I can't help but get into a one-sided conversation with myself right me?
yes but we need to focus on the task at hand stop getting distracted
I can't help myself! they say things that just can't help but make me think
like right now?
dah! yes back to work! ...poor buddy... they definitely have something but what I wonder
not like we can find out are brains to reprised to seek said info and even so rants might get mad due to the stigma of mental illness
witch is torus poo me! there are plenty of good people here who also have illness that aren't doing bad things humans are just stupid that they take one bad egg and make it the poster boy for all eggs, so I'll just sit here and think on what they have and when I find out I'll keep the answer for myself!
after all it's not like anyone here will properly use that information to help her
only us!
yeah...
the next scene
as I continue to watch I just can't help but find Mr. mat stupid
what does he think he'll accomplish by staying here and trying to press the bumps on the carpet? its dumb like someone fighting a zombie only for his arm to get infected you cut it off only to continue fighting the zombie! you need to get out of there and seek more treatment but nooo he dose the bear minimum and thinks getting rid of the outside problem helps BAH
but we shouldn't be too hard on him he is blinded after all
ah yes blinded and by the worst thing of all BLINDED BY LOVE! TRUELY A TRAGEDY!
also whose idea was it to have the guy who's dating the suspect interrogate said suspect?
well I don't know about Japan law but most places have laws against that
truly blinded, or maybe just insane...
the next scene
ugh I can't introduce myself when there people are around it could ruin the whole plan!
the little plan I do have...
but never the less I need to talk to her... alone
oouu steamy
disgusting!

!jfew3fnheiuq ALONE NOWS THE TIME

OH MY HEART
BUT IS IT THE TIME!
OH IF ALL COULD SEE THE GRAND ULTIMATE KING BEING SUCH A NERVOUS RECK
It blow their mind!
being so nervous to talk to a teenage girl
and it's not even for love sigh maybe one day I'll find the one
BUT FOR NOW I GOTTA DO THIS
ok play it cool, you're a stranger to them but if we play are cards right this could work
yes yes yes yes all her note books are stolen I can work this out I can do this I'm SIRAMAY after all... what do I say
show time

siramay: HELLO!
I screamed out to her as she was walking but came to a stop at my loud booming voice... very loud I really should control my volume, but I'm so existed and scared
course I couldn't stop now I need to keep it going so I run up and eagerly shake her hand oh the look on her face is classic
man buddy it's so good to see yah again oh man it's been so long I thought I'd never see you again how's life it treating you well?

ryoko: uuuhhhh

siramay: ahhahaha ah yes look at all that confusion on her face its beautiful! oh but I gotta play my cards right she still smart with mind read-y powers, but I have an advantage not only is she forgetful, but I'm magic the one thing she can never predict so I'll have an advantage but I'm also a playwright, so an act is an ease its less about tricking her but more tricking myself
whaaaa you don't remember me buddy? OOOHHH THE TRAGEDY actually it's not surprising I may be a bit forgetful myself but you blow me out of the park!
then again mine is just cause I'm stupid you have brain issues
but then again dosent everyone have brain issues when it comes to the grand scheme of life...
awe come on buddy just check out your old booky woos you'll find my info
I'd say the new ones but it's been so long since I've seen you I just didn't got the time and I know you're a long writer so I doubt anything's on me there

ryoko: UUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHH

Siramay: no! don't tell me DID YOU LOSE THEM, ARE THEY STOLEN? DID THEY BURN IN THE GRAND FIRE OF THE UNIVERESE
oh this is truly a tragedy IM YOUR BESSSSTTTT FREEEEIIINNNNNNNNDDDD
then siramay speaks in an exaggerated sadness jumps on to her holding on sadly as she struggles to keep balance
at least I like to believe in your friend who knows what your opinions are of me in that book of yours but while I was second to mr mat I hope you have some heart memory of me we did so much together after all

ryoko: heart memory?

siramay: yeah heart memory, for while the mind will forget the heart will always remember the feelings we shared

ryoko: that's... kinda cheesy

siramay: oh but it's true and even then the cheese is beautiful! in fact I'll make your heart remember
ooh! like that one time we were walking in the forest near your old home, the sun was setting making the sky a beautiful orange, not that we could see the sunset with all the trees in the way. but then you pointed at a tree ran up and was like "let's get a better view" so we did! we climbed and climbed and climbed till we reached the top above all the sea of trees I'd say we were over 40 feet above the ground as we saw the sun setting I gotta say it was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen... but then as I look in your direction I don't see you, where'd you go? but then I look down, your falling falling falling them THUMP you said the branch broke not that I recall seeing a broken branch but what do I know I'm not good with the little details but you were hurt! your arm was broken to but I carried yah all the way back to make sure you where ok just saying "there there buddy, it's gonna be ok, I got your back, you're gonna be ok" ...
man I didn't even witness that memory myself and I still feel emotionally attached

as she began thinking on all of this though the man was very odd all that he was saying felt true to her that part of her wanted to trust him
so she did

ryoko: who are you again anyway?

siramay: oh nonononon I can't just say it! it will lose all the worth of the friendship we built! if I'm gonna tell you my name I want it to be earned on the grounds of true friendship! of all the memories of thick and thin! and I don't trust that book either for all I know you could lose it to!
but I have an alternative!

I say as I pull out a paper and pencil and write down all the basics
then I hand it to her

siramay: there that's all yah need to know about me till you get your memory's again all my basic info there's even a picture of me!

there is in fact not a picture of him but a picture of a dragon

ryoko: that's... a picture of a dragon

siramay: like I said me!
but like I say on the paper until you earn my name you can call me "the muse" why?
I don't know...
but it's fun! OH BUT LOOK AT THE TIME keep that paper safe in your pocket, and when depravity fills your mind again destroy it
actually I'll do that myself BUT OH YOU HAVE NO TIME GO FIND YOUR BOOKY WOOKYS!

also... I'm sorry for what will happen

but anyway! I'll see yah around buddy bbyyyyyyyyeeeeeee

and so the muse walked off as all that ryoko had to remember that conversation was the paper in her hand with a drawing of a dragon and a few choice words
the muse! over 6'11 with shoulder length black hair brown eyes and a circle beard a distinctive black tail coat and a fluctuating voice but don't worry buddy I'm your friend! and if you ever need anything I got your back just say the word put this in your pocket and don't show anyone, also mr mat will deny my existence are rivalry's like that, good luck with your mission! weirdo

and put into her suits pocket it was... what was she doing again OH YES


siramay: MISSION ACOMPLISHED
SHHHIIGGHH why must life be so difficult... whelp time to see what life throws at her
back to the watching and waiting...
next scene
what the heck does a "weak sense of presence" even mean? sounds fake

oh its real...
well of Couse that boy has a weak one he's not a anime protagonist
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
... no wonder the creator said they hate you
... MAN
I don't know what j says mukuro's a great actor I could barely tell in fact I felt almost disgusted be her performance! that's how realistic it was
YOUR DOING A GREAT JOB SWEETIE!
then I give a wolf whistle
only fair for a wolf, not that she can hear me but still
... mukuro would look good in a sweater
I should give her one!
yeah a nice dark grey sweater
ah dark greys my favorite color
I couldn't though I would overstimulate her with affection she might-

well its true but still!
ah just like the dream I had about her
honestly we should all drink respect mukuro juice she is a precious baby who deserves all the love and head pats
hehe for they will do as they do do and there's no doing anything abooo ow oOOot it

as they talk I pull out some of my favorite spicy chips to snack on and wash it down with some lemonade
grooming her how evil...
would grooming be the right term?
I mean it's mostly for bad men boing mean things to small people but it can also mean to prepare someone for something so I think it fits
but needless to say all this stress isn't good for her mind
not that there's anything to be done about it
but still sad!
huh? oh! I forgot she forgets silly me!
wait no I'm misunderstanding the situation gosh darn it I need to focus more!
next scene
yeah shes a weirdo
but then again I'm a weirdo to
but there's no rule saying a weirdo can't judge another weirdo!
as far as I know...
oh boy there playing this squid like a darn fiddle!
squiddle!
wait no I see him as an octopus
but octopusle dosent sound as funny...
aw
nar all this smart brain battle stuff is confusing for my head, this is why I like magic then I don't have to worry on the stressful stuff and can think on far more important things
like did Matsuda give ryoko ECT? it make sense if he were to assume from the info he gathered but I think he relies on ECT far too much some therapy and medication to add in wouldn't hurt
but it's not like anyone can be honest with the therapist and I don't think he trust her with medication anymore
so annoying
ugh know it all's
I hate know it all's just having to face one makes me wanna explode
HAHAHAHAHA if anyone has precognition it's me... aw and its saddening to
not knowing the stuff no no if anything I like the sense of power it gives me
I hate surprises if I can know anything beforehand I will so it's quite nice I think I couldn't understand why some people could hate such knowledge
basic human structure I guess since humans always desire to desire and to even get surprisal from said desire, really stupid if you ask me
but in a way I guess I could see it after all there's something satisfactory about watching a movie you like that just happened to be on tv then just looking it up on demand or something
or the difference from a millionaire buying a house and another man putting hard work into building a house
that's why even with all my power I gotta work hard to make sure it all works out! cause even though I have the skill to just blink everyone's problems away it would be such a drastic change the foundation of the universe couldn't cope and the grand creator could punish me for such heavy tampering that everyone else would suffer
besides the long games fun to... even if this part of the story has the same ending, and that's why I'm sad, cause they have to suffer and I can't do anything about it
well at least it will all work out in the end
where were we?
next scene
another reason to hold back my magic that much more
magic dosent exist in this universe!
so the skills I can use need to have valid reasons for being used and can't be shown willy nilly
the foundation can crumble that much more
in short this universe I worked so hard to precure for this occasion would explode
what a waste of time that be to destroy a world unintentionally when so many where destroyed intentionally
but I digress
I should really shut up I feel like readers are annoyed by my babbling since not much is happening story wise
you aren't annoyed are you?
well not my fault I need to find the right moments to talk to her!
and most people lack of reading dr zero and just knowing the main twist dosent help either
an amazing twist though! a twist that lead to a thought that lead to a study that lead to a song that lead to a dream that lead me here!
I should thank her later
next scene
is it fair to hate someone for doing something even when it's very likely you'd do the same thing?
well no but here we are! me filled with the brim of hate
yet a underlying empathy that can't be snuffed out
UGH WHY MUST MY FEELINGS BE SO AMBIVALENT
I'll need to find a way to balance it out
put all my love into truly helping her soul
but all my hate into giving her her just deserts!
mmm deserts
I'm thinking banana split
some nice vanilla ice cream with bananas and chocolate sauce and whipy cream!
yummy, though the problem is making sure she feels the correct emotions when the justice comes
but that can also be solved with the waiting game
after all it will get old and she'll lose enjoyment, it's only a matter of time
next scene


gp: WAIT before we continue I just need to point something out

soulbound: what?

gp: THAT!

ok so rj is tied up and reveals what she saw last night but Matsuda is gaslighting her into ignoring it and rj being hopelessly in love says ok on one condition


ryoko: In that case… always be by my side, Matsuda. If you do… I can give away my memories…

Matsuda stayed quiet for a while under the bed. I waited, motionless. I waited until he gave me an answer. Then, he
finally did.

Matsuda: Right now… that's impossible.

But it was the exact opposite of what I hoped for. I was dumbfounded and could only return an absent-minded question of my own.

ryoko: If not now… then when would it be possible?‖

Matsuda: …I don't know.

ryoko: Y…You… don't know?

Matsuda: Anyway, it's impossible right now. I can't be with you. There are other things I must do.

Things he must do. I guess, that must be…

ryoko: …I see. The most important thing to you is your research… Which means, no matter how much I choose you, you will not choose me back.

All I could do now was grudgingly whisper those words of resentment.

Matsuda: No, that's not it. I –

It seemed Matsuda was about to say something, but he held his tongue at the last minute. He sank into silence and said nothing more. It doesn't matter how much I wait, he is never going to say the words I yearn for.

ryoko: In that case… at least cure me…

My head felt hot, and my view of the ceiling got blurry. My face was probably covered in tears. Snot was probably gushing out of my nose. But I couldn't stop the stream of emotions flowing out of me anymore.

And if you can't cure me, at least make me forget about you too!

My screams were now mixed with sobbing, as I let everything out at once.

It hurts too much that you're the only thing I can remember! I'd rather not remember anything at all!

The rope dug deeper into my body as I raged and loudly scraped my skin. Nevertheless, I couldn't even feel the pain and continued to scream.

I've had it! Make me forget! Make me forget about you, Matsuda!

There was a rustling noise from under the bed. Then, Matsuda rose up and stood by it. He was quiet and looked down at me sobbing violently. Then, he quietly took a tissue out of his pocket and started wiping my face. (Gp: do the right thing you idiot) I gazed at him. Almond eyes carved in the middle of a pale, unhealthy-looking face. Thin, black hair hanging down near the corners of the eyes. Long, feminine eyelashes. A pointed chin. Thin, small lips. Long, white fingers. That was Matsuda. But his face… his face looked lonely. He looked at me with lonely eyes, and gently wiped the tears and the snot off my face. For some reason, I felt fear washing over my body. Fear stronger than any regret at the words I just said. Matsuda Then, just as I was about to open my mouth again, Matsuda's hand stopped moving. He quietly turned aside and started walking toward his desk. Soon, he disappeared from my field of vision.

ryoko: M…Matsuda…

I finally managed to speak again, but

Matsuda (who wouldn't know how to do the right thing even if it was crying in front of his face): …I have an appointment I have to go to.

I could hear his voice from somewhere outside my field of vision.

I've been entrusted with the treatment of a certain student… I can't postpone it.

ryoko: …You're going?

Matsuda: I'll be back soon. We will continue this discussion then.

Soon, I could hear his footsteps walking away, and then the lonely sound of the door closing.


gp: WHY YOU PATHETIC LITTLE GVNREJKNAGJERgneujghuigahewurhteua
YOU KNOW SHE WON'T REMEMBER THIS DISCUSSION WHEN YOU GET BACK

like I don't know the full definition but I'm pretty sure this is abuse

soulbound: ignoring the obvious fact that she is tied up and he tried to gaslight her memories away yes this is abuse

gp: she was tied up in front of you crying, begging for you to make her forget you because you never gave her the care she needed but instead of step up like a man or at least do one right thing in your life YOU JUST LEFT HER
WHEN SHE NEEDED YOU MOST YOU LEFT
JUST LIKE YOUR FATHER

Soulbound: not to mention if he really wanted her not to know what happened he should have just gotten rid of the book
for pete snake shes tied up so she can't do anything if he destroys the evidence
but nope gaslighting and emotional abuse

gp: I should have killed him when I had the chance...
OU that reminds me of that one time in our past
Cause Junko is crazy and despairy
She went on a date with Matsuda
to my dismay


Gabriel bangs head on window

Junko: Gabe you're gonna break the window

Gabriel: THE WINDOW CAN BE FIXED!
but my mental state... will not


But I care about her, so I let her go out with him, but I made my offer clear he breaks her heart I break his face And Junko ever the curious masochist after her lovely date went to me crying saying how he broke her heart So I being the loving and protective surrogate father I am grabbed a shotgun and was on the hunt for Matsuda meat


Junko: where'd you get a shot gun?

Gabriel: running
I'm from the southern states where wouldn't I!?


Needless to say after a full night of hunting I was about to blow up Matsuda's brains point blank when Junko came and "saved the day" (to Matsuda it just seemed like I went crazy-er and just made him hate me more) though after all that was settled, and I took rj home she told me what actually happened and how she was faking to see how id react

soulbound: and how did that make you feel?

gp: well I wasn't mad cause Matsuda already hates me, so nothing changed and he's still alive Junko's still happy and I did enjoy chasing after Matsuda with a shot gun so over all I was happy, so we laughed it off

ah good times...

anyway back with the story


walker: man last night was insane I saw everything I didn't you?

siramay: of course where do you think I was

walker: anywhere but here my friend anywhere but here

siramay: so any new info on are despair woman?

walker: a bit but not enough to make a whole scene about
but what I can make a scene about are those murders now that be something

siramay: don't! this universe is already on high stress it dosent need more

walker: but I have to tell people I know too much

siramay: don't tell anyone! got it?

walker: riiigghht

[WALKER WOLF]
Second ronpa murder! Murder! comity member killed on the steps o' hopes peak academy!

[HOTO]
Look at this, another murder,
Just like the other murder!
That's poor comity member - dead!

[RIDLEY]
this week the ultimate copped it!
The bloke what done it hopped it!

[TIGA]
That feller must be off er 'ead!

[HOTO]
That's two in the last four days-
This killer has fancy ways!
To kill outside of hope's
Requires a lotta balls!

she hates the upper class!
they must be on 'is ass!
Who could he be?

[SIRAMAY]
Don't look at me!

[VARIOUS GOSSIP LADIES]
What a shame! - Dear comity member!
Hear there's a lot of gossip!
Although it didn't come from me!

Of course not! No! - Of course not!
What about that poor old ultimates?
That dreadful dirt they dish up!
Do you think it's true?
It well could be!
Imagine!
Fancy!
Really!

I say that it goes to show
Some people we think we know
Aren't all they might appear!
How right you are my dear!

[ALL]
It's such a shocking thing!
But awfully interesting!
Who could it be?
Well, now - Let's see!

Murder, Murder -
Doin' folks in
Murder, Murder
Is the worst sin!
Murder, Murder
Has me screaming'
"Bloody Murder
In the night!

"Murder, Murder
Makes me blood thin!
Murder, Murder
Makes me 'ead spin!
Murder, Murder
Starts me drinking'.
Bloody Murder
In the night!

[VARIOUS GOSSIP LADIES]
Hopes peak has a killer on the loose!
Or a gang!
Either way - let 'em hang!

[ULTIMATE]
Gotta get 'is head inside a noose!
Right away!
The police are no use!

Maybe er nerve will fail em!
They've gotta try to nail em!
They've gotta trail an' jail them now!
Murder!
No matter who we're blaming',
Till they put wot's-'is-name in,
There's gonna be one flaming' row!

[ALL]
Murder, Murder,
It's a curse, man!
Murder, Murder,
It's perverse, man!
Murder, Murder,
Nothing's worse than
Bloody Murder
In the night!

siramay: really?

walker: don't pretend you didn't want it you just said no to get the moral high ground

siramay: but still
oh the irony it adds to the current situation
NAR BUT IT DESTRACTS ME FROM INFO I NEED
well back to Matsuda idiot hours
honestly if that books such a problem then maybe you should burn it seems like an easier solution
ha-ha I don't want to set the world on fire... I just want to start a flame in your heart
and that's why you're an idiot mr mat
... yeah if I'm measuring my time right I have to do it this scene for everything to smooth saily
I just need to find the right moment, again

NOW QUICK
I grab her when she was on her way back and hold on tightly
man I need to claim down
hahahahaha! see this is the girl I was talking about here my little buddy!
oh r! sorry I didn't tell yah here are my ultimate friends
maybe they can be your friends too

mike: we're your ultimate friends!

tiga: he means friends who are also ultimate's

mike: aw

siramay: aw no mike your also my ultimate friend to but as I was saying say hi to my buddy r guys shes under alota stress
I feel like you and mike would get along great

mike: HI!

tiga: hello

hoto: yo

walker: ...

walker just stared for a bit which was fair

siramay: aw but I'm sorry buddy you must be so confused but it's me! THE MUSE your friend! I wanted to talk to you sooner, but you were so busy busy busy talking talking talking to people I just didn't wanna be rude
oh yeah just pull the page in your pocket you'll remember

ryoko: OH

siramay: yeah you get it now! so how's life I was worried for you with all that stress going on

ryoko: stress?

siramay: you know the end of the world, all the murder, the sins of your past slowly crawling back inside you as they plan to consume you in a never-ending darkness for all the suffering you caused
and the basics of life of course!

she had a look of suprisle from what I said but I didn't worry because she wouldn't remember

tiga: s-

death stare

tiga: muse, she dosent remember any of that I don't think it would cause her as much pain as you think

siramay: but it does! she may not remember but her body does! its putting so much stress and pressure on her brain, that's not healthy!
if she continues to get all that stress on her she'll pop!

tiga: pop?

siramay: like a cheap mesh ball!
when you focus all that stress in one corner as it grows and grows then POP and everyone suffers for it
and I care about you buddy
I say holding her and petting her head... ew
so listen when I advise you saying here won't do you any good for your health's sake go somewhere else

ryoko: were

siramay: anywhere but here
everything's going downhill after all you get it right walker

walker: oh yeah...

then hoto started playing a guitar

WALKER WOLF:
danganronpa

MIKE:
Uh huh

WALKER WOLF:
Center of this universe

SIRAMAY:
Sing it, wolf

WALKER WOLF:
times are spity, but I know for a fact they're gonna get worse

HOTO:
I hear that

WALKER WOLF:
It's a comfort to know
When you're singing the end of the world blues
That anywhere else you could possibly go
After your own world would be
A pleasure cruise

SIRAMAY:
Now you're talking!

like for example Florida!

ryoko: Florida

siramay: its where I come from I know it sounds odd but it's quite chill there oh I know you'd love it
you could maybe even open a theater! no better way to let out your stress then on the stage I say
for example...

Well I'm thwarted by a metaphysic puzzle
And I'm sick of hearing story's, that I know

And I'm shouting in my sleep, I need a muzzle
All this misery pays no salary, so
Let's open up a theater in Florida
Oh, sunny Florida would be nice
Let's open up a theater in Florida
And leave this to the roaches and bears

OH-OH
ooooohhh

ALL:
OoooooHhh-

WALKER WOLF:
You teach?

SIRAMAY:
I teach- the proper ways of villainy
But my students would rather do depravity

WALKER WOLF:
Youtubeia

ALL:
Youtubeia!

SIRAMAY:
You're a sensitive aesthete
make some delicious concession treats
You could make the men you sparkle with rhyme
You could drum a gentle drum
I could seat guests as they come
Chatting not about tragedy, but the sublime

Let's open up a theater in Florida
Our labors would reap financial gains

ALL:
Gains, gains, gains

SIRAMAY:
We'll open up a theater in Florida
And save from devastation our brains

ALL:
Save our brains

as siramay pulls ryoko in and dances with her

ALL:
We'll pack up all our junk and fly so far away
Devote ourselves to projects that sell
We'll open up a theater in Florida
Forget this cold Danganronpa heII
OH- OH-
Oooooooh
OOOOoooHHhhhh

SIRAMAY:
Do you know the way to Florida?
You know, alligators... amusement parks...
Yeah...

but then again, you won't do that right?
I'm sorry buddy there's just no way around it
so let's make a deal!

ryoko: a deal?

siramay: yeah all this stress isn't fair to be dealt with alone so let me help you out yes?
I have so much free time it be an ease!

ryoko: really?

siramay: yeah I'm your buddy after all and your mine so it's only fair I help you out
after all if it has nothing to do with yah it shall be an ok

and then I saw her thinking as I looked at her slowly urging her to say yes with my eyes

ryoko: ..ok then

siramay: GREAT ITS A DEAL!

and so he eagerly shook her hand up and down though while it looked like he was giving his all his face shown he was holding back which was fair if he used any more strength he'd be slamming her repeatedly on the ground

siramay: hahah don't worry buddy I'm no demon you didn't sell your soul I'm a dragon so I'm just borrowing it HAHAHAHAH I kid I kid
but I should get to that helping yes? I must go then some very important stuff is gonna happen BYOOO

as the muse left and with it the memory sometimes ryoko questioned if it ever happened in the first place