gp: ...sigh yeah junkos back... and so disappears her genuine happiness
soulbound: and thus she crosses the point of no return she truly is hopeless now no one in their world can save her
gp: hey! don't go that far yet,
ok so Matsuda with his last dumb breath realizes he was played like a fiddler on the roof but doing so he reveals his last bits of ideocracy
Matsuda: I guess…I don't have anything to with this…t-that really was the case after all…
Because of the overflowing blood, I felt an unnatural warmth developing in the back of my throat. But that soon faded away.
H-How long have you felt that way…has it been since…we were children?
Junko: Upupupupu.
That girl's face then warped into a cruel smile.
gp: yet she avoided the question
soulbound: and what does that have to do with anything
gp: I'm just saying if the answer was yes she would have said so, no point in lying about it since it give her despair after all
but then again...
Junko: What if I told you…that the reason your mom got that way was because of me? What kind of face would you show me?
Matsuda: …Wha-?
Pain as if a sharp needle passed through his heart was displayed.
gp: notice the wording it's a hypothetical question not a statement, not saying she did it just saying how would he react if she said she did
Matsuda: You're, you're not serious…are you?
As he spoke with that shivering voice, bits of blood splattered onto that girl's face from his mouth. It stood out more than even her cruel, inhumane smile.
gp: of course not you idiot you've lived with Junko for most of your life how can you not realize this she just wants to make you despair cause she cares (a bad way of showing love but still)
if you don't even know that about her I have to wonder how much you really cared about her
Matsuda: A-answer me…
While Matsuda grew more and more grave, Enoshima on the other hand seemed to fall into ecstasy. Without giving any response, that girl just continued to watch as she cupped her chin in her hands. Matsuda's soul was falling into the depths of despair. His own meaning of life was thoroughly and decisively violated and was then rejected. He had completely given in to despair.
P-Please…respond…
His clinging words barely formed into words at all.
C'mon…what's your answer…Junko Enoshima…
That was the end. Without ever hearing his answer, Yasuke Matsuda died. Completely submerged in despair, he died.
gp: ... idiot
well he had that coming
LIKE UGH WHAT A IDIOT I don't even feel bad for him he caused himself on this and he dosent even have the brains to remember Junko loves despair so seeing him in despair would be what she wants so she was obviously lying to make him feel awful EVEN I KNEW THAT WHEN SHE KILLED ME
and I know I'm an idiot ugh
soulbound: so you're saying she was lying about causing his moms death?
Gp: look soul she was literally FIVE when that woman died I don't care how much you hate her or how smart you think she is there's no way a FIVE-year-old can give a woman a memory eating illness and she wasn't even evil yet so she had no motive, shes a liar soul she if she can get away with a lie that will make you feel awful she will I would know
Soulbound: that's fair
Once she confirmed everything had ended, Junko Enoshima slowly got up.
But, she ceased her actions and decided to look down for a while longer.
She stared at the Yasuke Matsuda who had experienced his last breath not too long ago.
Junko: There's no way this would have nothing to do with me…
There was a hint of sadness laid somewhere in that murmuring voice.
After all…you were the most important person to me of all…
Those were her true feelings.
gp: told yah
Yasuke Matsuda was an especially important existence for Junko Enoshima. Ever since they were children, he
always stood up for her, always continued to unconditionally love her, and above all, just being by his side made her
heart feel warm.
But, she killed off that existence with her own hands. She stepped on it, forced it past the gates of despair, and
brutally murdered it.
Junko: This…this is…
But that's what Enoshima had desired.
She loved him so much, that irreplaceable existence, more important than anyone else, almost obsessed with
him to the point of insanity, always wanting to be within his embrace, even living in a world with only him would be
fine. And by losing that incredible existence, just how much despair would I fall in?
She nurtured her love for Matsuda all this time just to get a taste of that feeling. Seeing her loved one be
smothered by despair during his last moments, she pretty much lived to experience that spectacle.
Finally getting to taste that despair,
…INCREDIBLE!‖
gp: ah rjs back to her bad old mentally unstable bipolar depressed self, she really needs a doctor
soulbound: she killed her last doctor
gp: THAT DOCTOR SUCKED
soulbound: also true
gp: and now shes having another mental breakdown
It was more than anything she could have hoped for.
Junko: Too depressing! Too good! My chest is gonna tear open! This is true self-loathing! I want to die! This is! This is the despair that comes from losing a loved one!
While Enoshima's being was assaulted by that despair, she kicked Yasuke Matsuda's corpse with all her strength.
Junko: Amazing, amazing! Amazingamazingamazingamazingamazing!
While absorbed in screaming, she kicked the corpse of the one she so dearly longed for with no mercy whatsoever.
Flowing out of her eyes were a continuous stream of tears. While those tears of delight, lament, and confusion overwhelmingly flowed, kicked her beloved's corpse until it was a lump of meat barely holding any resemblance to its original form.
Junko: Upu…upupupu…upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu. Upupupu.
gp: poor Junko...
soulbound: really!?
gp: yeah! Matsuda sucked! he was a big fat jerk who was more worried about how he felt to actually see how rj feels and when ryoko was crying begging for help he ALMOST CHOKED HER OUT AND KILLED HER! which cause ryoko to relapse and kill him in defense I feel no pity for him I said it to rj when I first met him and I'll say it to his bloody course he was no good for her but,... she really did care for him so... can't help but be a little sad He had it coming but still
look how sad she is, even in her despair delusions there's still a mountain of pain in there, a pain that will never die, she has to live with it forever, cause when someone does something bad to someone the victim will have to live with whats happened to them but they will always have friends, family, loved ones even strangers who will comfort and pity them but the person who did it will never have that (soulbound: witch is fair) but still for as long as they live they will know of the pain they caused they won't at least be sooth by lack of responsibility cause it is there fault they did this they know they did wrong and everyone else does to so know one will care or have pity for them if anything they will have hate and distain to add to their pain when they suffer from what they done they suffer alone... not reaching out cause they know they don't deserve it and not being reached out to cause others know what they did, just alone with the thoughts in her head telling her to die
and you know she will listen to them... shame
well... there is one person who knows whats shes going though...
mukuro
well uh after all that Junko was reverting her room and appearance to herself mukuro decided to lighten up the mood by dressing up as Junko again
... I mean it's the thought that counts M but... that's not how I'd go about it, maybe some cookies, nice words and junkos favorite musical, but not that
needless to say this did not end well for mukuro
Junko: Do you think I'm stupid?
But Enoshima freezingly shot back.
Junko: Are you trying to raise the tension or something? What are you going to do if someone sees you dressed like that? Are you going to take responsibility for that? Heck, are you even capable of doing that?
mukuro: I-I'm…sorry…
As if completely withered, her shoulders crumpled.
Junko: Also, you barely even look like me! Are you even trying? In fact, do I even look that stupid? Do I? (Depravity in the back of her head: yes you do!)
mukuro: Um, but I followed Junko's written instructions completely…
Junko: I see, you can't do anything unless told, you really are stupid.
mukuro: I-I'm…really sorry!
As she hurried to get changed, her eyes were completely blurred with tears.
Junko: Man, and you still have that ridiculously skinny body! If you have time to perform in the military, you should try getting a body that men would actually like!
mukuro: I-I'm sorry…please don't be mad anymore…
While watching her sister's shoulders shake like a puppy being scolded
gp: NO MUKRO BABY GIRL NOOOOO
come on rj why must you be so mean to your sister she was just trying to make you feel better
soulbound: confused on the hypocrisy
gp: but it is a learning point mukuro sees how Junko is to her loved ones now and she knows how other people are she realizes her abuse is wrong witch gives her doubts to open her mind to how she is in dr1
soulbound: why did she even put up with Junko when she did
gp: well it's a long story
but how do I put this... let's say you're mukuro you are a young pup and you leave your relatively stable sister behind to join the military cause abuse from family
she never met me before in my life and dosent know I may or may not have helped Junko become evil
she comes back all beefy and strong, and her sister is now called Junko and is loonyer then a gaggle of goose
her natural reaction is to blame herself for not being there... and with that guilt comes a easily manipulatable useful pawn for junkos plan so some grooming and... things I will not describe latter we get the mukuro we see now
but it's not like shes still gone shes still relatively stable but she dosent know what else to do so she does the one thing she can, her best
I'll let her explain
[MUKURO]
All our pyramids and palaces
Our obelisks and statues
Before my eyes they crumble into sand
Beneath the weight of your tiny silent body
Our fortresses are fallen
And we stand on a barren, windswept land
Heartless
I know people call me heartless
Heartless
Oh, if only it were true
most people who don't know anything about mukuro probably think shes just some heartless killing machine who might love her sister Alabama style
but that couldn't be further from the truth as deep down she hurts but she dosent know what she can do about it, so she just puts up with it sometimes wishing she really was heartless
I wouldn't feel this unbearable ache
The stab when I felt my heart breaking
Shattered into shards, by the loss of you
Heartless
How I wish I could be heartless
But I can't be, someone else is grieving too
but for the same reason she wishes she was heartless she also knows why she can't be heartless, Junko Ever since she came back Junko had been different but she never knew why but she couldn't help but blame herself for what happened to Junko so she tries to put up with the abuse to make her happy but she can't help but feel guilt at all the things that happened wishing she could do something to truly help Junko but she has no idea how But she also knows that deep down despite the act Junko puts on mukuro knows Junko is suffering the most from what she does but mukuro has no idea what to do about it so she uses all her willpower to be there for her sister cause that's all she can do for her
Like mine, her pain will last forever
Like rain that never ceases to pour
So I can't be heartless
For her, I can't be heartless
For her I never have needed heart more
I never have needed heart more…
gp: aaw... mukuro
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
please for your own sake get out while you still can
soulbound: but she won't...
gp: yeah...
then we fade to outside where we see our muse siramay who looks on in sadness as he begins to walk off
[SIRAMAY]
You won't never
[SIRAMAY + HUSK]
Leave, Mukuro
'Cause if you walk out that door
Her men will be gunnin' for you
No, you won't
Leave, Mukuro
Or she'll give you what for
Ya got heart where you shoulda had brains...
And so loyal Mukuro remains
but as he was waking he stopped with a jolt hearing what only he could hear
pain, her genuine horrifying pain
Someone's
Howling (AAAAAAAAAAAH)
Screams like sighing
With battered breath (O-o-oh!)
Grating
Growling (AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH)
Never dying (AH)
In a fate worse than death!
as siramay looked on in sadness powerless to help mukuro...
