Temptation


Lupin's pov:

I was so tired by the time we reached the astronomy floor that I didn't focus on what our teacher was saying. "What do we need to do again?" I asked Sirius who was grouped with me like every time during these lessons. He explained it to me and I let him go first.

Managing a weak smile I looked in the air not focusing on anything in particular. When it was my turn I wasn't careful. Once my eyes hit the moon in full sight, the wolf started taking over. It was so present in my mind overwhelming me. I pushed away from the telescope.

I focused my eyes and hoped with every ounce of my will, that my eyes didn't turn amber. With a glance from Sirius I forced myself back at the telescope, this time I altered the position to make it look at the area around the moon. My brain was still foggy but it worked. I just hoped nobody noticed.

The rest of the lesson flew since we compare the results next lesson but Lilly ended up noticing something special so we should all look through her telescope. It was directly focused on the moon but I couldn't close my eyes this time. I managed to look at it for a few seconds then I backed away a little too quick.

The wolf was overwhelming, it fulfilled me with its presence and all I could hear was his thoughts. Sirius noticed my discomfort in an instant. He stepped close to me laying a hand on my shoulder. That snapped me out of my trance like state.

I started shaking violently, to my luck the lesson was over and we went back down. Sirius was sticking with me. "Is everything ok?" He asked. I nodded. Way too quickly as I realized, my head started spinning. I must have stumbled since Sirius held me close and supported me walking.

His touch was so incredibly nice. So warm and lovely that parting from him was the worst. At first I was oblivious to the fact I was clenching his arm making it impossible to seperate. When we made it to the common room he softly tapped my arm that way I released the hold.

We got ready for bed and once I've reached my pillow I closed the curtains. Sirius really wanted to talk to me, I could see that but I didn't want to. All I wanted to do was sleep, I needed it so badly but how would I be able to sleep now when my mind was all wolf like.

Now that I thought about it I started quietly hissing. At first I thought it was too quiet to worry but then I started growling, losing all control. My hand flew to my mouth trying to block the sounds from escaping still my tummy vibrated with this deep voice for a few seconds more before I could get myself back under control. It hung in the air and I was absolutely terrified that the others heard.

"Anyone heard that?" Asked James. My pulse must have been dangerously high. "Think it was outside…" stated Peter. "Let's go check on it!" Suggested James and the door flew open then closed again. I breathed out harsh because I was relieved forgetting that Sirius was still there.

"You ok Rem?" He asked concerned. I gulped. "Y-YES! Of course." It didn't even convince myself… "Can I come talk to you?" He asked very softly and I knew he stood in front of the curtains. I nodded wich he obviously couldn't see so I pulled the curtains apart. I made him some room and he sat down at the bed with me.

"Ok, I can't ignore you having trouble, and I can't unsee what you did back at the green house today…" He started. I shifted uncomfortably wondering if he wanted to tell a teacher or make me go tell someone. "I am not there to lecture you but I do would prefer it if you could stop or talk to me. You know I am there for you. For anything… If you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to listen to you. Someone to share a secret or any type of burden. I am right here and I wouldn't turn away."

Tears formed in my eye. Why does he have to be the first to tell me something like that? It could have been way more easier if he would have just said don't bother me with your problems of something. Now I really want to tell him but I am not sure if that would be a good idea. Hell, it could be the worst idea, still he was so caring. All I really wanted right now was to hug him.

"Can I do anything for you right now? And I mean anything." He asked. "Maybe a hug?" I suggested before I realized what I just asked for. I wanted to disappear in an instant but how?

He hugged me tightly and I forgot everything. His embrace was so warm and sweet and I hoped I'd never forget that feeling. I started to shiver a little because it was just too much. His embrace, my wolfish side, the feelings and thoughts about him. A tear escaped my eye but I didn't care Sirius was hugging me.

"I should probably go to my bed now… Or I am gonna sleep in your arms tonight…" He said after a while. I tightened the hold even more, if he'd pull away now I couldn't stop myself from crying. " You could just stay with me overnight." I whispered.

It was barely audible and after those words left my throat I hoped he didn't hear them but to my surprise he nodded. "Anything to make you feel better." He whispered back and laid down next to me. I couldn't process what just happened. Will he really sleep in my bed? Am I dreaming?

I pulled the blanket over us both and that's when we made eye contact. All my senses was telling me to kiss him. To tell him that I love him but I didn't. We just lay there. The two of us locked eye contact for more that 6 seconds.

Then the door flew open. It was Peter and James. They were quiet, thinking we were asleep and didn't make any more noises. The two of us lay as still as we could, just our sides touched. "Good night…" whispered Sirius. "Sleep well…" I whispered back. Then I slept well and still for the first night in days, feeling good and relaxed.