Chapter 1 "A cursed world"
Part 1 Shinji
In a world where it once was filled with life a lonely figure walks.He is walking through the existence of what used to be city of wanders and technological advancements, but now it is only a place of ruins and decay.He didn't know how long and how much he was walking nor did he cared anymore, the only thing he needed was sign to prove that he was still alive and all of this was real. He wanted to scream,cry, rage and yell so hard that he lungs die out of exhaustion, but he knew eventuality that nobody will hear him and those actions will only bring him close to madness. He even started forgetting his own name and the lives who brought down with him. The only thing he could hear was the wind blowing in his face and the sound of waves going back and forth every day. So he just continue to walk.
Eventually, his legs started to giving up and was only a matter of time until he collapsed from exhaustion, but despite that he didn't care. Before passing for good he took a moment to realize where his feet had taken him. He was back at the beach. The place which he came from while ago (he had even forgot how much time had passed since he originally woke up in that place) was in front of him and the only thing that great him was a giant terrifying smile of giant behemoth that was once his stepsister. He felt like the smile was mocking him, the billions and millions of souls were mocking him, God was mocking him and he knew he deserved that punishment for what he had done to everyone and everything. So he decided to give up and wait until the ground and sea take his body and soul and rip it apart. But, he waited for long time, longer than what he wanted. Suddenly, a familiar figure appeared floating above the red sea. He knew that figure,he even remembered her name it was Rei. He wasn't sure if she was illusion or just his mind playing tricks on him but just as his turn around he spotted another figure, this time it was laying close to him, he didn't even realized until now. He went closer to the person in front of him to see clearly, but when he found out who it was that person he froze quickly. She had orange hear, she was wearing a red plug suit which it had become like a second skin for her and both her left eye and right hand was covered in bandages. Her eye and and body felt soulless what was once a girl filled with life and energy it now was hallow of her former glory. Now it all made sense to him,he remembered his name,he remembered the faces of people he once knew,he remembered the battles he had fought, the pain they caused him and the people he had lost because of them. He was the third child, the pilot of the Eva unit 01, the beast and the man who sold the world, Shinji Ikari. Right front of him was Asuka Langley Soryu the second child and pilot of Eva unit 02. A stream of emotions such as sadness, happiness,anger, shame, relief and grief run through his body and moments of pain and joy came to his mind upon seeing this person once again. Once again he wanted to cry,to scream,to hug her,to rage her ,to apologize her he wanted to do so many things that he felt everything he that he will try won't be enough to fix even the smallest problem these two have. But one part of him didn't believe she was real or alive so he didn't know what to do. So he reacted with the only thing which a person can react back . The sense of survivability. He put his hands on her neck and start to lightly squish the little life of her. Part of wanted to stop, another part wanted to continue to squish as it believe she deserved and another part still believed that it everything was fake image produced by the instrumentality or that it was all big nightmare and he will wake up any moment. But she didn't react for a time until she did the only thing he never had thought. For once, instead of rage the only thing which she showed to him was affection, calmness and understanding. With just raising her right arm to his cheeks the only he could do is realise that this isn't a dream but in fact this was reality and he did try to kill the only person that came out of the beach after him. So after letting his hands of her neck , the only he could do now is letting the tears he was holding back all this time take his spirit once again. "Disgusting" was the only that came out of her mouth and he felt every inch of that word. He was disgusting ,he was a coward,a murderer he was all the wrong things and then some. But as he was crying he didn't notice that after a while he found himself in another place.
He was shocked,he wasn't at the beach anymore he was elsewhere in another time,in another place. It took him a while to realize that he was actually in familiar place. He was back at the payphone when he tried to call for his father months ago and realized that once again the blue haired figure saw him arriving to the city.
A/N: So this was the first chapter of my first ever function and would like to hear everybody thoughts and opinions on this chapter regarding the passing and the writing. For those who don't know the style of writing I chose for this chapter and overall story is heavily inspired by the style of Warhammer 40k novels, which is used to describe the grim darkness of the 41 millennium. I really like this style of writing and believe it fits pretty well with the dark aspects of Evangelion.
So I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter.
