My eyes jerked open

My eyes jerked open. My body felt stiff and unbending. I could feel the sleep that clung to my eyelids and in the corners of my eyes. I was having a bad dream, Edward was in it. I looked around the dark room. It was still dark and foggy outside.

I thought about going to Edward's room, but then thought against it. There real person I really wanted to see was Jacob.

I missed him so much already. I felt like I could hop out of bed, down my window, and go searching for him. But I knew that was not possible. Not with Edward in the house. He would know I was up to something the second my feet touched the floor to get out of bed. And in an instant, he would be at my door.

I eyed the window again. Maybe, he wasn't watching that close. Maybe he wanted to give me some lee way. That would be a good thing, but I didn't want to betray him and use it to my advantage. Even if it was Jacob.

I eyed the window once more. I guess it wouldn't hurt to try. My brain kept going back and forth. The joy of seeing Jacob again, betraying Edward's trust, stay in bed, miss Jacob. But then I wondered something else.

If Edward got too upset with me, would he cancel our trip to see Alice and his family? Would he really torture me like that? Edward held the ace. And the worst part was that he knew it. One big wrong move on my part, and he would cancel the trip. I could tell Edward wasn't really excited about going to see his family, so if I gave him any reason to cancel it, he surly would.

No! I would not give him that! But then what if I'm being too paranoid? What if Edward really has changed? He would have to prove himself more than he already has, for me to really believe him. I closed my eyes, trying to shut off my brain for one moment. But all it kept saying was Jacob, Jacob.

When I reopened my eyes, my mind was made up. I pulled back the covers, and let my feet slip to the floor as quietly as I could. I stood up and shut my eyes again, waiting for Edward to knock on my door and tell me to go back to bed. But there was nothing. Nothing but silence.

I let out a breath that I had been holding in and slowly crept towards the window. This was bad, I knew it. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach, fluttering with excitement and fear at the same time.

I pulled up the window. To my relief it slid open easily. I looked down, but all I saw was darkness. I turned back around to my bed, telling myself it was not too late to crawl back in bed and hope Edward didn't question me about this later. He must be listening somewhere. He never let me out of his sight. And if he did, he was listening for me at all times.

I held onto the window frame as I flipped my led over the side. There was a small balcony below my window. I slithered over the edge and let myself drop to the small balcony. My heart was pounding, and my breathing was spinning out of control. Any moment I would hear Edward's voice of disapproval. But still nothing came.

I slipped down the side of the balcony and let myself drop to the ground. I looked back up to my open window, now it was too late to turn back. The only way of getting back in to the house, would be the front door. Edward would open it, and give me the look. The look of disappointment and disapproval.

But for now, I was out. I broke off into a sprint for the woods, not looking back. For fear that I might see Edward standing outside, with his glaring gold eyes.

Edward's point of view

I went to my room, after Bella was sound asleep. She looked so peaceful when she slept. I envied her for that. She could sleep. She could escape. But did she want to escape? Did she want to leave me? Was she scared?

I sat on my bed and lay back on the pillows. I sat there for a couple hours thinking of Bella of course. The way her face lit up with joy. The way her smiles came up to her eyes. Her little dimples.

I didn't want her to hate me. I didn't want to treat her in a cruel way. But sometimes there seemed no other way. The only way to make her understand was through discipline. I turned my head to the side. I couldn't even believe my own words coming from my mouth. Discipline? Bella? The two words didn't go well together.

I hated it! I hated what I had become. The way I treated her. If only there was something I could say to make it right. But there wasn't.

I tossed and turned, thinking about Bella, and when she would wake again. Then I could see her smile, I could see her chocolate brown eyes, and her soft silky skin that I longed to touch.

I huffed in frustration. I could take it no longer. I swiftly crept from my room and stopped at Bella's door. I opened it slowly. I don't know why, nothing could wake her up. She slept so deep, that even if I flung the door open, she would still remain asleep.

I tiptoed to her. My body hovered above her sleeping form. She was tangled around some blankets, her little hands curled around some. Her mouth was open a little, where I could her slow steady breath going in and out. Her hair was tangled up, from moving so much.

I laughed to myself at what a funny picture she made while sleeping. I looked around the room for a spot to sit. There was nothing else I could do. I could go back into my room, and mope until she woke again. But that seemed too pitiful. So I planted myself in the corner of the room to watch the sleeping beauty. Every now and again she could toss around. Sometimes she would smile at something, but other times she would scrunch her face her in fear, or anger, sometimes confusion.

What was she dreaming? What it about me? Was the fear that I saw on her face because of me? Or maybe anger? If only I could read her mind. But of course that was the one thing I couldn't do with her.

Suddenly her eyes shot open. Her body lay completely still, for a moment. Then she sat up. She was thinking. Her face scrunched up, as she bit the bottom of her lip. She kept looking at the window eying it with escape. I continued to sit there studying to see what she would do.

Her feet slipped out the bed and as they touched the floor, her eyes squeezed shut as if she'd made a lot of noise. She looked around, her heart rate quickening. But she still looked thoughtful, like she was still debating whether or not to stay in bed or make for the window.

She stopped again. She was waiting for me. She was waiting to see when I would come in and discipline her for her foolishness. But as time passed she finally made it over the window. She opened it slowly and looked around once more, before swinging her leg over the edge.

Her heart was beating rapidly, her breath was uncontrolled. She was scared. Scared of being caught. Finally she was over, and onto the balcony. I heard her feet drop to the ground from the balcony as she paused again, looking back up at the window. What was she thinking? Did she regret leaving? Or was she just saying good riddance?

Whatever she was up to, I would find out. As soon as she turned her back, I hopped down from the window to follow her. She was headed for the woods in a fast sprint. She did not look back. She probably would have fainted with fear of seeing me rush after. Is that why she did not look back? Because she already knew that I would follow her?

The woods! Of all places! She had to choose the most dangerous place to be at night! Knowing Bella, her brain always worked backwards. I slowed down to a fast walking pace, still following her. She was running at her full speed, tipping so many times I'd lost count. Where? Where was she going? I smiled, I was interested.

Bella

I stopped in the middle of the forest. It took me until now to realize I had no idea where I was going. I just knew I had to get away, so I ran blindly into the forest. Stupid! I looked around, everything was dark. I put my hand on a nearby tree and heaved in as much air as my lungs would allow.

"Jacob." I whispered to myself. I put my hand to my face. This was hopeless! How could I have been so stupid?! I didn't even know where to go. This was a disaster! How could I go back to Edward now? Surly he would notice my absence by now, if he hadn't before.

Edward

Jacob!! She was looking for Jacob?!! That bastard! That dog! He was the one Bella was looking for? He was the one she had escaped for? The one she had risked herself getting caught by me? That Animal!

Bella had no idea where she was going. She was lost. She put her hand to her head and slumped down by a tree. I felt bad for her. All she wanted was a little freedom. To have friends again. And I was the one that kept her caged away for my own selfishness. My unwilling spirit to share her with anyone else.

But at the least, she had to know not to ever do this again.

Bella

I sat on the cold ground, letting my breath even out. "Bella?" I closed my eyes. It was him. It was just like my dream. Edward pulling me back to my dungeon to live forever. No!

"Bella."

"I knew you would follow me." I said with a steel edge to my voice.

"For your own good."

"How would you know? So I have one good day with you, it's not like it going to last." He was quiet.

"Bella, I know you want to see Jacob, but you can't do it this way. This is dangerous. You already know this. How many times have I told you the woods aren't safe?" He talked down to me as if he were my parent.

"Fine." I said, not caring anymore. He would always do what he wanted.

"Bella, please, I'm not trying to be degrading to you, but I don't know what to say anymore. Obviously dragging you back didn't work, the punishments didn't work, I don't what to say or do anymore."

"Obviously!" I agreed.

"You can't go into the woods anymore at night. Is that understood?"

"Fine." I turned away from him. This night had been perfect not so long ago. I couldn't help feeling guilty though. I was the one who ran off, in the middle of the night. Whether Edward had been a tyrant before or not, he still would have never approved of me going into the dark woods at night. He was right, I knew it was wrong. That why I so careful to escape.

"Bella, I don't want to watch you every moment, wondering when you'll run off again."

"I will always run. As long as you keep me here."

"You want to leave?" For the first time I looked in the direction of Edward. I could not see his face, because of the darkness, though I knew what his face would look like. Agonized with fear and dread. Would he let me go, if my answer was yes?

For a moment I tried to imagine being without Edward for a week. It was fun, but not fulfilling. I would miss him. He had always been there. Whether he was in the shadows, or following me from behind, he was always there. He was apart of me.

"I want to go home." I said. He was quiet for a long time. I wondered if he'd left already, thinking that my answer was yes.

"I was thinking,"

"About?"

"When we go to visit Alice, I was thinking maybe you could live them from then on. "

"Where would you go?"

"I don't know. But you would be happy." This made me mad.

"Why can't I be happy here?!! Why can't we have a normal love life?! Why can't you just love me and be fair?"

"Bella, have you ever considered that I wasn't the right one? That there is still someone else out there for you? Looking for you as I had?"

"No. And I'm not going to."

"No what?"

"No there is no one else." He was quiet again. When he spoke again his voice was serious.

"Bella, I can't have you running off in the middle of the night."

"Are you going to leave me with Alice?"

"Running off it dangerous." Avoiding the question

"Are you?!" He huffed.

"Perhaps. Whatever is best for you."

"It's not. Being away from you it not what's best."

"You run off! Isn't that wanting to be away from me? I'm granting your wish."

"No! It's wanting you with freedom! That's my wish." He didn't answer again. "You won't leave me will you?" I asked.

"No more running off at night." At night he said, did that mean during the day was ok? "If something happened to you," he left the sentence unfinished in pain.

"Can we go home now?" He laughed.

"As long as you guarantee me you won't run off again. If you still feel like running, you can run towards the house. Get it out of your system."

"No, I just want my bed."

"Ok."

"Wait! If I'm making a promise then you have to make a promise."

"Oh boy. What could my Bella possibly want?"

"No more spying on me every second."

"What do you mean?"

"Like following me around, give me some freedom." I could hear the smile in his voice.

"That sounds fair. Deal."

"Deal."

"Tomorrow we go see Alice."