Hello JacksonsGirl1, I'm so sorry you are confused. I know what it's like to read a story and feel completely lost. Well the time when Bella promised to do anything for Edward took place in the Book Twilight. I just redid the scene. Instead of Bella getting into a care Accident, I made them Charlie the one hurt and on the verge of dying. Just like in Twilight, Edward was already obsessed with Bella, and wanted her. He had known her for the same amount of time as in Twilight when Bella had her own accident. Sorry for the confusion, Sorry for the cliff hanger, my own personal joy not yours. Ask more questions if needed.

Hello Kolored: Sorry for the cliff hanger, thank you for throwing something soft at me, like rabid kittens, they are mean, but at least their soft, others would not have been so kind.

Hello QueenSusanLovesKingCaspian18: Your question will be answered in the story.

Hello Manatee7: Yes I think you will sooner or later find out what Carlisle and Edward discussed. I wasn't going to put that in the story, but that's a good idea. I think I might do that.

Hello vampiregurl: No Bella and Edward were not an official couple before the accident. But Edward was already obsessed with Bella, and so when he saw the opportunity to make her his he took it. Edward was in a medical major, so saving Charlie was not a problem for him. He saw that Charlie was fixable so he bargained that with Bella. If Edward had not helped in that instant, Charlie would have died.

Hello Kiren-D: Bella fainted from the overwhelming feeling of seeing Alice again, so I guess you could say it was her own excitement not Jasper.

Feel free to ask question!!!!!!!

Alice rubbed my shoulders in a comforting way. "It's ok Bella."

"Please tell me."

She looked at me, gave me a pity look, and replied, "I will tell you, only if you promise not to act on it. Promise to me." I looked into her eyes. Well, this would be the first time of me actually lying to someone, but I didn't want it to be Alice.

"I promise." I said confidently. I worked hard to keep calm, and not get sweaty palms.

"Alright. He went to go visit a few old family members, more like relatives."

"And where do his relatives live?" I should think that should have been her answer in the first place. I couldn't help being a little anxious and a little rude. It was not like me, especially to Alice.

She smiled a little, "He's in Denali. Or more like the wilderness of Denali." Alaska? That was a good flight. And I would be able to get there quickly. As far as I concerned the quicker the better. The flight would be about two hours at the most. I smiled inwardly.

"I hope you're not thinking of following Edward after you just promised me not to." Her stern voice grabbed me out of my thoughts as I looked at her forceful eyes. I couldn't tell if she was mad, sad, or irritated with me. So I just shook my head no hoping she would believe me and drop it.

"You better not be." She smiled a little and tapped my leg. "You should eat something. Breakfast is down stairs." I couldn't help the frustration in my face, I was not hungry and I didn't feel like walking downstairs to put on a happy face for everyone. She looked back at me and gave me another firm look. "You promised Edward that you would at least try to get along with out him for a while. I know you don't want to, but you at least need to go down stairs and eat a little."

I returned her stern look, "If you already know that I don't want to then why pressure me? I don't feel ready to go down stairs and smile at everyone like everything is ok, because it's not."

"Because I also have a promise to Edward. I promised to look after and take care of you to the very best of my abilities. Long story short, I'm your babysitter. And he will hold me responsible for any and everything you do. That includes your health."

I give up! "Fine."

Alice threw her arms around me and hugged me close. "We're going to have so much fun together!! I just know it. I'm going to take you everywhere!! Edward told me some of the places you like to travel to. And we have so much time together now, we can go everywhere."

Her voice seemed to go on forever in the background of my mind. I wasn't really paying attention as I should; my thoughts were mainly focused on how to get to Edward. Alice grabbed my arm and we both raced downstairs. She was smiling as we entered the kitchen where the family was.

I was nervous to enter into the room where I could see all the shadows standing chatting peacefully; but when I entered the room fell silent as all eyes landed on me. This was a little much for me. I raised my head a little and glanced at each one.

Looking at all their faces was like looking at a pity show. They seemed to hold a form of sadness for me. It was unnerving. Even Rosalie, who I had always known to have a certain irritation towards me. Yes, even she had look of misfortune for me.

I dropped my head for a moment to escape their gazes. I wished the silence would go away.

"Did you sleep well Bella?" I looked up hastily to see who had saved me from my inner torment. Jasper was standing in front of me smiling, his eyes peering straight into mine.

"I think so." I didn't think it was possible, but his smile grew with my answer. I could feel my body starring to relax from his composed demeanor. I was glad he had broken the silence and the uneasiness that had filled the room when I entered.

Jasper had the ability to always control a situation when it was needed. In this case I guessed he could sense the uneasiness that filled the room and so he stepped in to my rescue. I would have to thank him later.

Carlisle stepped forward, "well it's an honor to have you here in our home," he squeezed Esme close to him. "Of course you know that you are always welcome here." It felt nice to hear him say that, but I was still fighting within myself to be happy or at least smile, for the sake of them. I could not seem to pull myself way from Edward, even mentally.

I heard Esme laugh as she wiggled out of Carlisle's arms and came and put her arms around me holding me close. "He will be back soon," she whispered in my ear. Just thinking about Edward made me want to cry, but I knew that I had to be strong while he was away. But his face kept popping up in my mind, his missing face. And everything I seemed to do only reminded me of him. I didn't want to cry in front of my family.

I felt Esme rub my back lightly as a mother would to her distraught child. I knew they were all trying to comfort me and I didn't want them to think that it was all in vain. So I swallowed my tears and hugged her back.

After a moment she pulled back, still keeping her arms around me, and looked me over. "Are you hungry?" she asked.

I thought a little about this. Could sit and eat a meal? My stomach did feel kind of empty. After all the drama that happed this morning it must have left me hungry. But I didn't want to think about my stomach. I didn't want to think about anything that didn't have Edward in it.

I bit my lip as I looked at the neatly decorated table. It had many sorts of food carefully arranged on it. The smells traveled from the table to my nose and surrounded me enticing aromas. They came in waves over me making me hungrier with each wave.

I wondered why I had not smelled them before when I first came into the kitchen. Now that I smelled them, they seemed so potent; full of flavor and spices.

I looked back at Esme; her eyes were full of hope and anticipation that my answer would be yes. I didn't want to hurt her or make her sad. I couldn't eat for myself, but I could eat for her. I nodded my head and smiled a small cracked smile; it took everything I had just to that.

I was led over to the table Esme on one side of me, Alice on the other and Rosalie one step in front of me, leading the way. I took my seat slowly and looked at all the many different items in front of me. They did not look appetizing to my body as I thought they would, just simple items that I had to consume to stay alive.

What was my body? To me it was just a place where I stored all my pain, anger and sorrow.

'Come on Bella, you have to do this,' was all I could say to myself.

Alice chimed into my thoughts, "what would you like to eat?" I looked over the foods before me and stopped on a plate of toast. It was light but it was on the only thing that I felt that I could stick in my stomach.

"Toast." She immediately picked up two pieces and set them on my plate. I was surprised she didn't disagree with my decision to have something so light. Out of all the countless things I could have chosen, I chose a small piece of bread.

Perhaps she hopped it would just be my appetizer. But she never held any disagreement over my choice. This made me feel better. I was glad to have such an understanding family, even if they most likely didn't completely understand how torn up inside I was. But they were all trying their very best, and the important part was that I could feel their emotions for me.

Esme was nothing short of a kind and caring mother to me. Alice was a loving sister always there to give me advice and lift me up when needed. Rosalie was a supporting block for me; with her looks of benevolence and her facial expressions which said, 'cheer up.'

Carlisle was a father figure, which I was glad to have. I no longer had a father in my life that I could go to and talk with. When Charlie and I lived together, we always talked; even if it was just about the weather. But that had been taken from me, by Edward. This irritated me a little, but I had not the heart to be angry with him. My only feelings for him were that he would soon return to me; before I would have to make my planes to return to him.

Jasper was so caring and sparing with his gift to be able to control emotions. I knew he must have sensed my nervous and timid appearance. He was so gracious to break the ice of cold silence and smile at me when everyone else held a look of sympathy.

Emmett was the strong brother I adored. His face welcomed me to talk about anything with him.

I finished my toast fairly quickly, and I was actually amazed at how hungry I seemed to be. My body still felt very empty. I took a sip of orange juice and reached for a piece of bacon. I shoved it into my mouth and chewed it slowly; it crunched in my mouth and tasted fresh and delicious.

"You better eat all this food! I mean every last crumb!" I my head shot up towards the voice. Emmett held a playful grin on his face as he leaned against the wall in the doorway.

"Emmett," Esme said in a warning voice.

"Hey I worked too hard for her only to chow down on a piece of bread. If I knew that was all she was going to eat, I would have just put a whole bunch of bread all over the table." Wow. I didn't know Emmett cooked. I thought Alice did most of the cooking. For some unknown reason I couldn't picture Emmett in a dainty apron cooking and baking. He seemed too manly for that side of him.

But I guess every man has his girly side.

"I'm sorry Emmett. I didn't know you cooked all this."

"No, it just magically appeared and we didn't know what to do with it so we gave it to you." Esme got up and pinched Emmett on the ear. "Owe! Ok, ok, I'm done." He smiled at me. "Of course Bella you know I'm just kidding."

I took another piece of bacon and chomped on it. Everything that I had eaten so far was great; even though it wasn't much.

"It tastes great, thanks Emmett." Emmett smiled to himself, full of his own pride. I heard Rosalie giggle to Emmett in playful way. That was the first time I had ever seen Rosalie show her soft and romantic side.

"Oh, don't pay his any heed to arrogance," Esme chimed in, "Jasper did most of the work."

"Hey, I was in here too," Emmett said in a defensive tone.

"Yes sweetie, for five whole minutes, you were in the kitchen."

Emmett grumbled, "I was still in here."

I felt myself smiling a small smile at the display before me. I had really forgotten what it was like to be around other people besides Edward. Living with Edward had been a twilight zone. I was sucked from my real life into a place where time stopped and everyday was just another step in an infinite time zone.

But here, I felt like I had been thrown back into life, where time move at an incredible rate. And it was racing by so fast I hardly had time to breath. There were people around me, I was not trapped in a dark room, and I was not afraid of how I was to act for fear of punishment.

I never wanted a life where I would be trapped and forced to live a certain way. But there was one thing that I always wanted. Edward. I still wanted him. I still loved him. Why couldn't I have him and a nice life? The way love was supposed to be. Why did living with him mean that I was a prisoner? Why could I not have been a loving equal to him?

But now he was gone completely. There was no Edward now. I wanted him to be here with me. I wanted us to live together. I wounded, if he was thinking of me. Did he still love me? Was this my escape or his?

Edward View:

This was torture!! What was I supposed to do here?! Nothing! And time seemed to be frozen. It just seemed that every hour was a millennium.

When I was with Bella, time seem to move so fast. Before I knew it, the day was over with her; and I hated to say goodnight.

'I wonder what she's doing. Was she thinking about me?' I grabbed the small black ball that was said to be able to provide anyone with the correct answer to their question. A fortune telling ball. I shook it up for my answer. "Not likely." I threw it across the room in my irritation.

I wasn't mad at the answer, I was mad because I knew deep down that it was possible the answer was true.

Why would she be thinking of me when she could be doing so much more to occupy her time? She was free. She could do anything. She had her passport, she had a car; a very nice car. She had a huge room to enjoy herself in, and a home she could probably get lost in. And to top it off, she was with my loving family. She couldn't go wrong with them.

Esme loved the idea of having another girl in the house that she could spend time with. Alice loved the idea of having someone to dress everyday. Rosalie too loved the idea of Alice having someone else to dress and bother.

'I hope she is happy.' Unlike me, who is living in complete misery. I missed holding her, I missed touching her. I missed her big brown eyes and the way they lit up when she got a surprise from me. But most of all, I missed being able to say her name.

But the family and I all agreed it would be best for her if we separated. I know she was torn to see me go, but that was only because I was all she knew. She didn't know what life could be without me. So it was expected that she would be unwilling.

And I had no problem leaving her with everything that belonged to me, things I knew she could follow me with, because I also knew that once she got a hold of the real life, being free, she would not want to follow me.

I could see that the thought of following me crossed her mind many times. Even when she was making her promise to me. But just in case, I made Alice promise never to tell Bella where I went. That way if she ever did get it set her mind to follow me, which I doubt would ever happen, she would not be able to follow through with it. I was glad I covered all bases to completely cut myself out of her life forever.

Of course I still loved her immensely. More then she could even comprehend. And the thought of seeing her with another man made me cringe and squirm inside; but I would rather see her happy with another, then to live in agony with me.

I told her I would be back, and the only reason she might have believed me was because of my many years of practice with deceitful lies to others. I could feel the burning fire tearing up my insides. It felt like my whole body was going to burst into pieces. Her eyes filled with hope when I told her I would be back.

Yet, it was the family's as well as my decision, to let Bella remake her life. And when she is married, perhaps children, a loving husband, she will have forgotten about me. All the painful memories will have been forgotten along with me.

But my feelings for her will never change. She will always be in the front of my mind. Even in her last days of old age, I will always love her, and she will still be as beautiful as the very first day I laid eyes on her. And no doubt, when she is gone, I will not be far behind her.

Back to Bella:

The weeks seemed to pass by so quickly. It was hard to believe that Edward had been gone for two mouths now.

After I realized that Edward was going to be gone longer than I expected, I actually thought I go on with my life, and forget about him. But he was always there. Always in the front of my mind.

There were a couple suitors who came looking for me, most of whom I met at restaurants or shopping trips. Alice would always encourage me to give them a try. So me being the spineless person I was, gave them a try.

She was always delighted to dress me up for my date, and Esme was always happy to give me pointers on what to do and not do on the first date. Emmett and Rosalie showed me some defensive moves to protect myself by demonstration. I think Rosalie took joy in the fact that she could beat up on Emmett for a good cause; and be able to hit him in places were he felt the most pain. She was also always up for repeats.

Carlisle would take the time to explain to me what all guys were after and make sure that I had a list of phone numbers to call in case of an emergency. And finally Jasper helped with the emotions of nervousness that I felt as I walked out the door.

When I went on other dates with men I could see stares in their eyes. They all truly found me attractive and wanted to progress with the relationships. But I could not find it in my heart to let them in. There was simply no room for anyone else in my life. They were not an "Edward." Neither could they replace an "Edward."

Sure the other men were attractive and had a good standing in society, everything that a normal, smart girl would want and snatch at first sight. But like I said, there was no room for anyone else in my heart.

Usually I came back from the dates and told the family that it just didn't work out. They seemed to understand and let me off the hook. And from there I would say goodnight to everyone and slump up to my room.

The truth was, was that I missed Edward. I was "Edward sick." I missed his smiles.

…………..Next day.

Another shopping trip with Alice. But today was hat and shoe shopping, along with some man hunting. Boringggggggg. I was real careful not let Alice see that side of me. She would mostly likely be crushed.

After we found a couple hats and at least six pairs of shoes for me, we stopped at the food court. My feet were killing me and I felt ready to crash on the table. Alice smiled as she agreed to get the food if I would go pick out a table.

I snatch that deal quickly and ran to the first empty table available. My feet slowly eased out of their cramps and my legs happy finally to have a rest. I leaned my head back and closed my eyes for a moment.

I heard a big thump as something hit the table. I jerked up my eyes flashing open.

"Sorry," Alice smiled apologetically. It was her purse. What did she keep in that thing? Bricks? She was shuffling through her purse for something and then finally pulled out her phone. She held it for a moment as if waiting for something.

It rang in her small hands and she smiled at me. She picked it up on the first ring and answered it.

"Hello?"

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"We're shopping."

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"She's happy."

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"We're about to eat, well she is."

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"I know."

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"I'll tell you when I get home"

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"Bye."

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"Love you too."

She hung up and smiled at me as she laid the phone on the table. Who was that?

"Who was that?"

"Family, just wanting to know how your doing." A number was called out and Alice picked up the food receipt she had been carrying and skipped off to get the food. I looked at the phone she had left sitting on the table in front of me. I had never known the family to call when they all already knew I was with Alice.

I was tempted to see who called her, which one it was. Some part of me wanted to think it was Edward and inside I even felt it might have been Edward. I knew better then to undermine Alice, but some part of me still wanted to just take a quick peek. She had her back turned to me still sliding her credit card and sighing off on the food.

I took a deep breath and grabbed the phone. My hand was shaking in my rush to finish before she retuned to catch me. I pushed the green dialing button to view her contacts and resent calls, it was blank. Dam, she erased them! I didn't even notice her erase them, she must have done it quickly so as not to let me see.

Why would she need to erase them if she had nothing to hide? Surly if I were to pick up the phone and see that Jasper or Esme had called her she would not have felt the need to erase the calls. My suspicion was aroused. But if it was Edward that called her and I was to see it she knew that it would open up the door way to discuss him again. Or I would have gotten his number, because the number I had for him no longer worked.

I tried many times.

That's why she had to delete his call. I quickly put the phone back on the table where it was, she was already coming back and looking straight at me. I thought she had seen me and I was ready for a lecture when she set the food before me and took her seat.

I waited, but her face still held a smile for me as she showed her white teeth. "Eat up!! It's fresh and hot." She grabbed her phone and stuck it back in her purse. I guess she didn't see me. That was luck.

When she saw I wasn't eating she looked at me with the same look she had when she was walking back to the table. It was a look of slight irritation but she quickly covered it with calming smile. I immediately began to gobble up the food set before me. She would surly be angry at me if she knew that I looked into her personal contacts after she gave me her answer as to who was calling her.

When I looked up again, she wasn't looking at me. She was staring off at something in the distance, but she her face a look of distaste. I felt something drop in my stomach, guilt. Perhaps she did see me, but chose not to say anything since she had already covered her tracks.

I couldn't eat that much with the guilt hanging over me. Normally Alice talked while I ate, but this time she was completely silent. So I decided to say something. Maybe I could break the ice.

"Um, Alice?" She turned with a calm look of interest? "Who was it that called you?"

"I thought I told," she smiled even wider her voice composed and soothing; showing no signs of my deceit towards her.

"I know, the family, but which one?" Her smiled died just a little at the corners, but overall she still held the smile.

"I think you should already know, since you looked at my past calls." Her voice was still calm and collected as if we were talking about the weather not my deceitfulness that was completely uncalled for. I could feel a rush of embarrassment flood over my face. She knew. She saw me. I dropped my head in shame.

"I'm sorry Alice. I just thought it might be.." I was looking down at my feet feeling more embarrassed by the second. "I thought..-"

Alice reached across the table and put her cold hand on mine. "It's ok. I understand." I let out a deep breath that I had been holding in. "But I think you should know Bella, that everything I do is not to hurt you more or to remind you of lost memories of a certain person, it's to help you."

She lifted my chin up, "even if that means deleting his number, when I know you're bold enough to go through my phone." So it was him. I felt a felt a flicker hope. He had called for me. He was thinking of me, and there was hope. But Alice had told him I was happy. I was far from happy!! I wanted Edward. I wanted to talk to him, to tell him everything was not fine with out him.

Now more than ever, I was determined to find him. It was obvious no one could fill his place, the spot was still empty. And the only one that could fill it was him. I was convinced that he was the only one for me.

This was not the life I wanted. I did not want to spend my life looking for someone to love when I already loved someone that loved me back.

Edward, I'm coming.

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