Hello Jace's Clary, yes they are trying to break them up. But they don't really think it will work, they are still trying to.
Hello DraculaLover99, i have no idea what happened to those chapters, but the story goes in order, so chapters are missing. It might be the author notes that i took out.
Hello rel95, Bella still wants Edward back because now that she is without him, she is realizing that she loves him more than she thought. So now she wants him back with her.
Hello mamato, i beleive i have answered this, but no. Edward will not be with anyone else but Bella.
Hello KristenStewartFan, yes i changed some of the chapters a little bit.
Hello JacksonsGirl1, You are quit clever. I won't tell you, but Alice may or may not be up to somthing. HINT HINT!!
Hello latuacantante4him, Edward had to leave because he had abused Bella so much, the his own family didn't agree with his actions and said it would be best for Bella if he left her alone and let her move on with her life. It was mostly Carslie's decision.
Hello La tua Cantante101, you are bound to see evil Edward again.
Alice and I left the restaurant in silence. She had just caught me looking through her phone; an embarrassing scene for me. As I said before, I never intended to make her mistrust me; I just wanted to hear Edward's voice. Just hearing his voice would lift my sprits so much, it would mean so much to me.
Why couldn't Alice see that?
Alice knew me pretty well; sometimes she would surprise me with her knowledge about me. She knew things about me that I didn't even know she knew. In knowing me so well, I wondered if she knew how I really felt about Edward. His absence was slowly killing me inside, like an inescapable poison.
Could she not see that? Or did she truly believe that taking Edward away from me was a good thing? Surly she could see the pain I was in.
Like the silence in leaving the restaurant, the drive was also silent. Alice didn't necessarily look upset, but she did look in thought about my past actions. Perhaps it would be better if I just came right and told her the truth about my feelings. I rarely ever kept anything from Alice. That is, anything she didn't already know.
Edward meant everything to me, and now that he was gone I felt lost and abandoned. I should have said something so Alice about my feelings, but I never opened my mouth once. I didn't know how to explain my feelings to anyone; they ran so deep within me.
Plus the subject of Edward was very sensitive to me; hardly anyone brought his name up around me. And when ever I would walk into a room they would quickly change the subject, even though I already know they were talking about Edward.
I felt the tires go over the soft bumps of the driveway entrance, which was huge. Alice turned off the engine and turned to me with a soft smile on her face. "I hope you had a good time today."
"I did, thanks Alice."
"It as fun right?"
"Yeah of course!! I love going shopping with you, you know that." Her smile grew even more. It was a pleasure to make Alice smile; she was so giddy and happy all the time. Unlike me, I was too busy sulking over my loss. Even if I didn't really have a good time shopping, I would never tell her that.
"Alice, I was wondering about something." She stopped suddenly as she was opening her door and looked in my direction.
"About what?"
"Well," I was going to tell her my feelings about Edward and how I felt without him here with me. But then my mind had suddenly struck an idea, an idea of escape. My paused sentence earned a confused expression from Alice.
"Well what?"
"I was wondering if the next trip could be to a bookstore. I've finished all of the books in my room and I would like some more to read. I feel that they do a good job of filling up my time when I start thinking about you know who."
"Sure. We'll do that tomorrow."
"Well, actually umm, that was what I was wondering about. I would like to take this trip on my own, if you don't mind me doing so.
"Alone? Why?" She stared deep into my eyes, like she already knew what my plan was. Her eyes fill with intensity and force. I didn't want to lie to her, so I thought about it for a moment before I finally came up with a believable answer.
"Well, picking out books is like picking out underwear for me, I prefer to do it alone. And Edward did leave his car and credit card for me, so I'll just take his car and buy a couple books. It would really mean a lot to me Alice." Her look of intensity slowly transformed into a look of a small smile.
"I suppose, if it means that much to you." With her approval, I let a breath that I never noticed I was holding in all this time.
"Thank you Alice, it really does." I reached over and hugged her tightly, hoping she wouldn't kill me the next time I saw her because of my trickery with her. But I did remember to keep an open mind, and decided that running away was not fully decided yet. Hopefully by doing this, she would not see my future of tricking her and stop me before my plane was complete.
I heard a knock on the glass car window, it startled me for a moment but only until I realized it was Emmett. He smiled at me; he always seemed to have a big bear smile to me. In fact he pretty much was a big bear all over.
I smiled back happy to be home to the only family I had left. Emmett opened the car door for me and helped me out.
"So, did you have a good time shopping?" he asked, his tone very sarcastic.
"Yes we did," Alice answered back in an even more sarcastic tone, "why don't you make yourself useful and grab the bags dear brother." He gave her a teasing smile.
"I was talking to Bella." Alice simply ignored his answer and shoved at least five full bags of clothes and accessories into his arms.
"I had a good time, thanks." I smiled as I walked inside beside Alice who was carrying the rest of the bags.
I was greeted by a cold but touching hug from Esme. Carlisle was said to be in his office working on some papers for his new patients. Jasper said hi to me on his way to meet Alice. He quickly took the bags from her arms and kissed her lightly on the lips.
I felt a strike of jealously inside me. Not of Jasper, of course not, but the fact that Alice had someone to run home to. Her other half was still with her, where as mine was gone.
Alice giggled in a silly way, and I felt that if it was possible, Alice would have been blushing. Jasper pulled her close into a warm embrace and smothered her with kisses until she pushed him and than gave him a wicked playful grin. Jasper smiled back and left to take the bags up stairs.
It was hard to control the temper that had arisen inside me. Anger and jealously had taken a hold of me.
Alice seemed to sense something in my demeanor. "Is something wrong? Are you feeling ok?"
I gritted my teeth and then bit my tongue to keep from saying what was really on my mind. "No, I'm just tired is all. No big deal." She smiled back still a little giddy from being with Jasper.
"Well you did have a long day; perhaps you should turn in a little early tonight."
"Yeah, I think I'll take your advice." I started heading up the stairs after saying goodnight to Esme and Alice. Jasper bide me good dreams as he strolled past me down the stairs, most likely going back to Alice. I thanked him in a dry tone, but he didn't seem to think much of it.
I stepped into my room and closed the door. There I was, all alone. No Edward. No one there to embrace and kiss me. I dragged my feet to my bed and slumped down laying completely flat on my back. I closed my eyes.
A soft silly laugh tickled my ear. My eyes shot open. I heard someone rumbling around in my dressing closet. I quickly sat up and leaned over to peak around into the closet. Rosalie and Emmett came tumbling out in a flood of laughs and giggles. Emmett's arms were wrapped securely around Rosalie's waist as he kissed her forehead and mumbled something in her ear which made her laugh even more.
I got up in irritation and went for the door to leave. At my movement Emmett and Rosalie stopped immediately and quickly apologize for their rudeness.
"We were just finishing putting your clothes away in the closet," Emmett replied. Rosalie nodded in agreement, her lips light trying to hold back a laugh that was begging to get out.
Yeah right. That wasn't all you two were doing in there! I heard you two in there!!
"We'll leave right now, sorry Bella."
"Oh, no, it's ok. I was just going to get a glass of water." My blood was boiling with anger, and as much as I tried to hide it, I think Rosalie may have picked up on it a little. Emmett caught a little bit as well, but seemed to think it was do to the fact of me being so tired and exhausted.
Emmett smiled and volunteered to get the glass of water for me, since I was so tired and he was a little embarrassed at me seeing their display earlier. Rosalie bide me goodnight and complemented me on some of the outfits she had put away. I thanked her, even though I knew she was trying to cover up the scene she and Emmett had made.
I just wasn't fair!!! I wanted Edward there to be there with me. I wanted him to hold me, and whisper things in my ear. I wanted to giggle like Alice and try to cover up our obvious love to others like Rosalie.
Emmett was back in a moment's time and handed me a cold glass of water. "See you tomorrow Bella. Sleep well."
"Thank you. I hope you sleep well too." He smiled a mischievous grin as he glanced at Rosalie who was already walking down the hallway to his room. He nodded his head and quickly rushed down the hallway almost skipping with joy, and shut the door to his room behind himself.
I evil eyed his door for a moment before slamming my own. I threw myself back on my bed. It just wasn't fair!!! I took a deep breath and reminded myself that I still had the hope of going to the bookstore, secretly escaping to find Edward.
Which reminded me, I still needed to pack. I opened my closet doors and looked at the massive amount of clothing and choices I had to choose from. There were so many outfits that even if I wore a completely different outfit each day for a year I still would be in full stock of outfits to wear.
I turned my attention to the purse section. I slumped down on my knees and started picking through them. I wanted to find the biggest purse I could, so I could fit into it as much as possible. Perhaps when I was gone I could just buy the rest of my necessities.
I grabbed an all black bag. It was in the form of a backpack. This would work. I opened it and looked inside, checking the space and pockets. I went my bedroom door and locked it. The last thing I needed was Alice barging in on me when I was packing. That was one conversation I didn't mind avoiding.
I went into my bathroom and grabbed some toiletries from in the cabinets and shoved them in one of the pockets of the bag. Those would come in handy very soon. I threw an extra brush for my hair in the bag.
I knew I couldn't take too much out of the bathroom; Alice would catch on too fast. I went through some of the hair sprays that were neatly arranged beneath the cabinet, and quickly just shoved a few in the bag.
I left the bathroom, leaving the most room for a change of clothes and undergarments. I once again returned to my dressing closet and started going through the most simple outfits it could find.
Knock Knock. I jolted around in surprise of a knock at my door. I was suddenly glad that I had locked my door.
"Yes?" I thought Alice was done with me. All I wanted was a little privacy.
"It's me, Esme." Oh!!! "Can I come in?" I quickly grabbed the first pair of pajamas I found, closed the closet, and dashed over to my bed shoving the back pack under it.
"Cooommmmiing!!" I ran to the door and snatched it open. She looked at me strange; I rarely ever locked my door.
"I was changing my clothes." She looked me up and down as I was still in my shopping clothes holding my pajamas. "Well I was going to."
She smiled and sauntered into the room taking a seat on the edge of my bed. She looked at me as if she knew all my secretes, and at any moment she would expect an explanation from me. But she never did.
"Bella, are you alright. I couldn't help but notice how you have changed a little since being here."
"No, no, I'm. I love it here. I love all of you. You all have been more than kind to me."
"Yes, I know you love it here, but I can't help but think that you seem a little down. I noticed when you home that you went straight to bed. In fact you seemed angry at something. Did you and Alice have a nice trip to mall? Did something happen?"
Seeing the pain on Esme's face made me want to tell her everything. She was like my second mother, and I wanted to climb into her soft arms and tell her all the feelings that I had been dealing with. But I also knew that if I did do this there was no hope of ever seeing Edward again. So, I told myself, I have to be strong. For Edward.
"No, nothing happened. I had a great time. Do you want to see what we got?" I rushed over to my closet in fake enthusiasm, only pretending to cover up my own devious acts and guilty conscience.
"Alice told me all about them, I'm sure they are lovely. I just wanted to make sure you were ok. You seemed down about something. And you know I think of you as one of my children. I just thought I'd come in and check on you." I shut the half open closet door and went back to her. How I wished I could relive her of her pain and soreness to know what I was thinking.
"I'm fine. I'm just still trying to get over the whole 'Edward' thing. You know, it's a really big change for me."
She looked in thought about something before she answered me. "Well, you know Bella, we would never expect you to be rid of the memories of Edward. These things take time, but in their own good time they will leave you. And you know what? You're going to find someone that will love you for you. You'll get married, have children. And before you know it, Edward will be a thing of the past. You'll get over the pain, just be yourself and you're bound to have all the men in town begging you for a date."
She winked at me with a smile on her lips as she stood up and hugged me. "Goodnight Bella, and have sweet dreams tonight." I hugged her back, and she kissed me goodnight.
As she left I felt like telling her, I didn't want those memories of Edward to ever leave me. I didn't want children if it wasn't with Edward. I had no interest in marriage to another if it wasn't Edward.
The thought of lying down with someone other than Edward made me sick inside. No one could ever take the place of Edward. With Edward I felt safe. He fit me perfectly in every way. He was my match, and tomorrow I was going to go find him.