Go 'head and bark after dark, fallen star, I'm your one-call away
Motel halls, neon walls, when night falls I-I-I am your escape
The music blaring in my ears could do nothing to calm the torrential downpour in my heart and hurricane in my mind as I lay in bed.
If anything, it only reminded me of what I couldn't have…
I brought my phone up and above me to see the time, just to see how many hours of sleep I would actually end up getting.
When you lay alone, I ache
Something I wanted to feel
1:32
With a sigh, I muttered.
"Figures. The one time I actually need to be asleep on time."
Maybe Satori is still awake, but I doubt it. Guy's always in bed, on time. But…
If you've been waiting for falling in love
Babe, you don't have to wait on me
I felt my heart pump with excitement in my chest.
It's worth a shot, right?
'Cause I've been aimin' for heaven above
But an angel ain't what I need
I tapped my message app on my phone, and saw the one name I was looking for, already at the top, like always.
To: BFF 1:33
you still awake?
I watched the message, and, in a flash, I saw the reply.
Not anyone
From: BFF 1:33
Of course I am, can't sleep! Too excited to start up school again tomorrow! Speaking of, why are you still awake!? We have class tomorrow! I know it's winter break and all, but you should be asleep! You need sleep to function properly, and caffeine can't fix that!
I chuckled at the protectiveness and replied.
You're the one
To: BFF 1:34
just cant sleep like usual. and since you can't either, wanna come over ;)?
I immediately regretted sending that, realizing just how much that sounded like a booty call. Minutes went by, and I started feeling anxious.
Great, good job screwing that one up, M. Now he's not gonna talk to you cause you acted weird. Fucking moron.
More than fun
From: BFF 1:42
Look outside your window ;)
You're the Sanctuary
I moved the curtains on my window just enough to peek out and see a mop bunch of coral pink hair, and just below that…
A pair of the most beautiful, dreamy sky-blue eyes that not even my imagination could conjure.
Wait...my room is on the second floor...how is he…
He tapped on my window, looking directly at me. I pull my earbuds out as I notice he's mouthing something.
I could faintly hear, through the window.
"Well? You gonna let me in or not?"
I shook myself out of my stupor and got out of my bed. I parted the curtains and lifted open the window and backed up. I saw Satori climb through, a dark red hoodie with a little pink bow and white heart on the front, paired with jeans. His usual attire, save for the missing blue earring on the left ear.
I took a second to look at myself. Jammies, since it was 1 in the morning. With little cat faces on them.
My brown hair was frizzy, messy, and overall, just unkempt.
God, I'm a mess. But I don't think Satori cares. Besides…
I took a moment to internally observe.
The storms are gone.
"So just what did you want me over for?" Satori says, now fully in my room. I look out and remember that I have a really small balcony you can almost touch if you stand on your tiptoes that he probably climbed onto.
Lots of strange architectural designs, old houses have…
"Dunno, just wanted you over. Unless, you really don't wanna be over right now?" I put on my best pouty face as I say this.
Satori gasps, and dramatically puts his hand in the middle of his chest.
"Oh Michelle, you meanie! Saying I wouldn't enjoy every moment with my best friend!" He says. Unknown to him, that stings.
Yeah, best friend. Only that, and nothing more…
"Pssh. Drama king. Now, close that window. It's getting cold in here." I say. There was a draft beginning to form, and while Satori could take the cold, what with his hoodie and jeans, my jammies weren't meant for the cold. I heard the sliding noise of my window being closed, accompanied by the shutoff of cold air.
"Thank you, much better." I said
"Alright, so what did you ne-Woah!" Satori was cut off by me grabbing his hand and pulling him towards my bed. I fell onto the bed first, with him following next to me.
"Oh, so this is what you wanted me for. Is that all I am to you? A snuggle bug?" He joked as I cuddled up next to him, arms around his abdomen.
"Be quiet, you know I don't sleep well, and when I do, it's always when you're there." I said, rubbing my face into his chest. I felt him internally chuckle, the vibration from his chest rocking my head a little. It felt nice.
I felt a familiar tinge of pain in my chest that slowly expanded and grew. Because I knew that even though he was fine with this happening, it would never really go further.
Heh. Lovestruck and depressed. How fucking typical of my dumb ass.
I felt his arms loop around me as he pulled me in his body. I pulled my head down as I felt small tears begin to leave my eyes. Inside, my body wanted to shake, but I resisted it. Years of resisting the urge to move while crying has started to become really useful to me.
"Goodnight, Michelle." Satori said as he put his chin over the top of my head. I wanted to reciprocate the gesture, but knew if I did, I would start sobbing. So, I just squeezed him tighter, instead.