AN:This is a story that I wrote the basis for down when I was 16. And I finally found the drive to finish it for my younger self. However it has turned into more of a complete re-write/rework.

I want to give special thanks to happygirl-0408 and benedettababy. who both gave me the last bit of courage i needed to start posting, and for always cheering me on. You guys are awesome! Hope it won't disappoint!


Walking along the busy streets of Israel Ziva took in all the sights that formed her life. At least until she went on the mission to safe Ari which had not turned out as she would have thought. Where she had lost her brother, a brother looking back having been lost long before, she had also gained family.

Right now she had lost that family. When director Vance broke them up that was the end. Being with them had made her forget she was not really a part of them, of NCIS. Merely a liaison officer, Jenny having created the position for her. Now she was gone as well, along with her mother, sister and brother. When they got the news it felt like ice entered her veins. Saying goodbye to them all before leaving her workplace for the last three years. When later that evening there was a knock at her door she had not expected it. Seeing Tony when opening the door had also been a surprise.

"Promise me you'll come back. Promise me we'll get a chance." Tony had whispered in her ear later that night, holding her close.

"I promise" she whispered back. Looking up into his eyes. Then closing the distance between them and coming together for one last kiss before they both had to go into the unknown.

Shaking herself out of the memory she looked around the street. Spotting the little cafe she was meant to meet Liat. Her oldest and only friend left in Israel. Ziva was happy that Liat had actually been in the country and not out on a mission, she needed someone to talk to. Barley back in Israel and the feeling of not quite belonging had fallen over her. Like a snake trying to get back into their old skin. She also wanted to discuss her staying in Liat's guest room for as long as she would be here. No longer having an apartment in Israel and not being comfortable the least in her father' home. For she was sure Eli had wanted her back in Israel for long before Jenny had died.

It seemed Liat had spotted her as well. Giving her a little wave. Then it happened. Ziva heard the shouting before she really saw anything. Then people running, machine guns going off, chaos. Maybe Ziva had been with NCIS to long, maybe it had made her soft. Her first focus was not on the cars doing the drive by but on the innocent people around her. In particular a young girl, not taking note on what was happening round her, too used to the violence. Adrenaline took over as Ziva rushed to the girl, pushing her out of the way from the bullets and the cars. It was however too late for herself as she had to cross the street to get the girl to safety. The first car hit her at full speed. The only thing she remembered was Liat's voice screaming her name after that darkness took over.


Please review if you enjoyed. Half of it is written. Until it's finished I'll be posting at least once a week. If there are things or idea's you'd like to share they are always welcome. I can't promise anything.