Touch my Sanity

by danigore10196

Scenarios that keep me up at night.

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The Dark Tournament. A vile martial arts competition organized by greedy human crime lords that draws the attention of some of the most wretched demons of Spirit World.

It all started when the younger Toguro sibling threatened Yusuke Urameshi that he will kill him and all his loved ones if he doesn't participate. And then, we all started training, including myself. When everyone reunited again to make our way to the tournament, Kuwabara was pretty much surprised that I was coming as well, telling me the phrase "Girls can't fight."

"Oh really? Who came up with that one?"

"B-but, it's everywhere! You're gonna get yourself hurt!"

I don't think I've ever punched someone so hard in my life, I'm pretty sure he could've reached the location without a boat. Normally, if someone would tell me something like this, my self-esteem would drop below the surface of the earth. But, with the help of Genkai, Yusuke and Kurama and everyone else, I was able to keep my confidence. Even Hiei, who is a dear friend of mine, managed to tell me to stop believing in people who tell me craps, which is something very unusual coming from him, but I appreciate it.

And now, we've come this far. We've fought so many teams so far and we still managed to win. And between every single team vs team matches, there is a few days break for the fighters to rest. Lately, everyone else has been stressed, since the last team that we're gonna fight is Team Toguro, the last one and the strongest of all. But I try to keep up with everyone as much as I can and don't stress too much.

After another chit-chat with the group and the girls, almost everyone went in their rooms. I said goodbye to my best-friend, Yukina, who happens to be Hiei's younger sister, but she doesn't know that yet. I'm pretty sure we've met before, somewhere in the past, but we've become friends since we saved her from those disgusting humans who used her for her powers; her tears become precious crystals who are worth a lot of money. Kuwabara, obviously, being the simp he is, he saved her with the 'power of love', and now he's all over her and flirts with her, but Yukina doesn't really get him and just laughs it off.

Now, what I always have wondered: Kuwabara and Yukina are the only ones who don't know that Hiei is her sibling. Hiei hates Kuwabara. Kuwabara loves his sister. I think you get what I mean from now on. So, instead, I do his work for him and kick Kuwabara's ass everytime he flirts with Yukina. At one point, he told me he appreciates what I do to Kuwabara, till he gets comfortable enough to tell her that he's her brother, who probably won't happen anytime soon, but I don't really get it why.

I made my way into my own room. My room is pretty much how I've always wanted it. Even though after the tournament ends we're gonna leave this apartament, I've made sure to decorate it as much as I can. I have the perfect bed, since I love sleeping, the perfect desk, where I keep my make-up and drawings and everything, my wardrobe which I had to use all my force to keep it closed, but it's still really messy. I have a lot of clothes and they are still not enough. I need more. Pretty much dark clothing, lace, fishnets, studded belts, spikes, anything that fits my style. My style that also fits my music taste. Pretty much rock, metal, but I also listen to electropop and anything cunty. I know right? A bipolar music taste for a bipolar person, like me.

I move around my room, unable to find to do something, cuz I'm bored. And then it hits me: What if I do my make-up right now, while I listen to some music? I know it's night and I'm not going anywhere, but who knows? Maybe some longhaired guy will come to me tonight and I don't look pretty.

Perfect! I go to my CD Player and look through my CD's. I have a lot, stolen or bought, I'm poor anyways. Some of them are even burned, because I can't find them anywhere. I find the one who fits perfectly with the atmosphere: Millionaires.

I insert the CD and I wait for the player to read it. The first song that started playing was 'Take a shot!'. Love it.

I go to my desk, sit on my chair and begin to do my work. I hummed the lyrics, as I tried to put on first the eyeliner. Just as I was starting to trace the perfect line, a knock was heard on my door.

"Yeeeaaah?"

I didn't look behind me to look for who it was, but I could tell that it was Hiei. His energy helped me identify him.

"Oh! Hiiii Hieiii!"

I could tell that I startled him with my sudden wave of energy. I thought he got used to that already, c'mon. He gave me a small wave, while looking at me.

"How have you beeeen? You doin' good?"

"Pretty much fine. I've trained a bit for the next match." I gave him a 'hum' in agreement. Strenght for him is a number one thing. He can't afford to lose.

Me and Hiei are pretty close. I'm also pretty sure I've met him before as well, in my long lost forgotten childhood, because I can't even remember what I ate yesterday. The thing is that he's the type who never shows what he truly feels and it's hard to tell what he is thinking. He's very quiet and reserved, but speaks his thoughts out loud about what he thinks. Especially Kuwabara, as I've said before, he hates him for some reason and mocks him for his behaviour. At first, everyone will have a hard time with him. He's arrogant and selfish, but the more you interact with him, the more he's gonna learn to respect you. I used to think that he respects people because of how strong they are, but it's not just that. If you manage to talk to him like a normal person and understand him, he's gonna consider making the effort to remember your name.

He would come into my room through my window, till he learned what a door is and we would talk about different things, what we like, dislike, opinions and we've come to the point where he would even open up a bit about his life. It doesn't happen too often, but I'm grateful that I'm one of the people that he trusts so much he can actually be himself around them. That explains how he is so good at comforting, he has been through so much, at least from what I know so far. I'm pacient though, I'm waiting for him to get comfortable enough.

I smile at the thought, as I continue from where I started, eyeliner. 'Painted whore' now started playing, my favorite song. I've listened to it so much, that I've managed to memorise the lyrics.

"What are you doing?" I hear from behind me. I turn to look at him. He's sitting on the edge of my bed. He used to sit by my window sill. I mean, I'm not surprised, he sleeps in trees, rarely in a bed like a normal person.

"Doing...my eyeliner? You've never seen me doing my make-up before?"

"No. Never."

Really?! I do my makeup like almost everyday and he never seen me once doing it?! I must've switched realities.

"Wow, that's weird. I do it like everyday, it's hard to believe you've never seen me before like this." I turn around once again to look in my mirror. "I'm doing my eyeliner."

"Why? Doesn't it hurt to put that thing in your eye and everything?"

I turn to look at him again, this time with my 'tf u just said' face.

"Uhh..nooo?... Damn, you really don't know a thing about girls, do you?

"Hn. Like it was ever interesting to me anyway. Do I need to remind you that a woman threw me off to my deat-"

"That doesn't mean that all women are the same, Hiei. Plus, wasn't she forced?"

He was about to protest, but held his mouth shut and didn't say a word. When this happens, it means that you're right.

While switching to my eyeshadow, another question made it's way into my mind.

"Why are you even doing your make-up right now? It's nig-"
"I'm doing it for me and myself only. And...if some loser metalhead with longhair magically spawns and I'm not pretty... But that doesn't matter."

I could tell he was confused as fuck. Kurama, who is much older than him by thousand years, knows about the latest tehnology and human stuff. I once gave him my flip phone and told him to answer it if someone calls, because I was busy searching for one of my bracelets in the whole room. I heard my ringtone and told him to answer it. That's when I didn't hear anything else instead and turned around. He was holding the phone upwards and he smashed the screen because 'it didn't work.'. That's when he confirmed me that he's the type 'punch it and it will work.'.

As I finished putting eyeshadow as well, I turned around at him. That's when I got the perfect idea.

"Can I do your eyeliner?"

His eyes widened and looked at me as if I just said that he has a small dick.

To my surprise though, he asked me why.

"I always wondered how you'd look with it. You know, you have those black clothes and belts and boots, you give me the alt type. Why not some eyeliner as well?"

"Why."

"Because you'd look good with it! Please, please, please! I promise, you will look so good!"

I legit kneeled in front of him and prayed. This was my chance and I will never miss the opportunity to do it.

"Fine... But if I look like I just got punched in the face, I swear I'll burn all your-"

"YAAAAYY!" I didn't care. His threaths weren't for real. He was just trying to seem edgy. I gave him a quick hug, before picking up all my stuff and sitting next to him on the bed. I realised he was new to all of this, so I had to take it easy with him.

"Alright, first, I gotta get rid of your hair."
"Huh!? What do you mean?! Get away, it took me years so grow it like this-!"
"Chill out, dude. I mean your bangs, I'm not balding you, I love your hair. I need to see your face completely!"

He furrowed his eyebrows a bit. He might be a bit insecure about his appearence, especially if someone was this close to him, but it was me, so it was good.

I searched through my drawers and eventually found my Hello Kitty bandana. I sit back on the bed.

"I have to take off your bandana that covers your Jagan. Are you okay with that?" He nods, and I take it off. His third eye opens slightly, but not too much.

I put the Hello Kitty bandana and lift up his bangs. Aww, he looks so cute, wish I could snap a pic right now, but I'm sure there will be more opportunities like this one in the future. Hopefully, he isn't reading my thoughs right now.

"Allrighttt! I need you to look at me and open your eyes as much as you can. I'm going to use the eyeliner first."

He nods, before opening his eyes fully. It was hard at first, he twitched and he kept closing them because of reflexes, but I managed to contour his bottom eyelids with a black eyeliner.

As I did that, I also payed attention to his features. I never really got to be this close to him before. Just now I realise the faint red on his face right now, he must've got really shy. Also, his eyes are really pretty. They are very unique to me, I've never seen anyone with that dark shade of red, not to mention I've never seen anyone with red eyes before, besides Yukina, but she's also a Youkai, like him.

I get back to my spot to look at my result. Nice. The eyeliner really contours his eyes perfectly and he looks so gooooood with it, just like I imagined it. I don't think he has found out yet, but I've been trying to draw him like this, and he looks x1000 better than I ever imagined. Well, not like he wasn't already pretty, it just really fits him more like this.

"YOU LOOK SOOOOOO GOOOOOD, O.M.G.!" I yell, I probably woke up everyone by now.

Hiei looks down in embarrassment. Oh yeah, he hasn't seen himself though.

Wait.

I turn to look at my black eyeshadow on the bed.

This is it.

I pick up the palette and my small brush.

"What are you doing?..."

"Trust the process."

I apply black eyeshadow on his eyes a bit, contouring the shape as well. I was so proud of my work, really now. I've always dreamed to do someone's makeup, but Keiko, Botan and the other girls had a completely different style from mine.

But.. now. I've finally found my partener. He's never going to escape me.

I put away everything and look at him once again. If I could, I would start levitating through the walls from happiness. I get up from the bed and start to jump around like an idiot.

The fire demon gets up as well, but turns to my desk to look in my mirror. He stands there for a few minutes, analysing his new look.

"Do you like it?! You look so pretty and cool and...and..AAAAH..!" I aproach him and take off the Hello Kitty bandana to see himself in his normal look.

He picks up the mirror and looks for a few good minutes. I was starting to worry if he likes it or not. But, to my relief, he nods his head, smilling.

"I...like it." He looks at me for approval. Again, I feel so proud of my work.

Wait.

"Let me style your hair as well!" And, before he can even protest, I jump on him and let my mind and imagination do the work. His hair was already spiky and standed up, for some odd reason, so I didn't really need any hairspray to intoxicate him with it.

We were almost at the same height. When I first met him again, he was really, REALLY short, I was taller than him. But now, he stands a few centimeters above me and I'm really proud of him for this. I don't even remember when he started to grow, seriously now. He isn't that tall like the other boys, but, honestly, he's perfect for now.

I managed to style his hair to look even more spiky, big and messy, as I moved his bangs to cover a bit of his right eye.

I take a step back to admire my work. I fainted.

"Ah, just like in my dreams..."
"What is that supposed to mean?" He questioned, clearly confused.

Damn he looked so good right now. Only if he would care a bit more about his appearence, because what I did right now was for pure fun and curiosity, I don't think it would make a routine for him.

He picks up the mirror once again, as he ran a hand through his hair. He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion.

I get it now. He must've felt really uncomfortable now. Even if he said that he liked it, he might have said that to make me feel better.

"I'm sorry, you must've not liked it. Sorry for torturing you like this. I'll take it off and get you back to normal." I say, a little sad. I turn my back to him and grab the micellar water from the desk. I heard him get up from the bed and come towards me. He put his hand on my shoulder, as he says "Wait." He looks at me, then back at the mirror, at me, at the mirror. Then he blushes and looks away.

"What is it?"

"I never said I don't like it. It looks...good." I think that's the best compliment Hiei has ever told to anyone. Good thing I haven't wasted any micellar water yet.

"YAAAAY" I stand up and hugged him really tight, I could hear him gasp for air to breathe. I was really happy that he liked it. He hugged me back, though not as tight as I did and muttered a 'Thank you'. We spent our night talking about our interests, music and watched me dance to multiple songs from my music player, until I eventually fell asleep into his arms and forgot to wipe his makeup off, so his eyes are probably gonna hurt tomorrow. Ooops. Wait, I forgot mine as well. OOPS.

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"Ok time to do my eyeliner..." I said to myself, while entering my room. I went over to my desk, searching through the dozens of colors. It took me some time to find the black one, but as I open it, I realise there was only a bit of it left.

"Weird? I bought it last week." I brushed the thought off and did the work.

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"Bhaaahaha!-" I continued to laugh and goof around with my friends, Botan and Keiko. I goofed around so much that I forgot that I hav emake up off and I ended up smudging it off my face. "Wait a sec girls, just look how I look right now, I gotta redo my make-up."

I opened my drawer to take out to eyeshadow palette and then searched for my eyeliner again. But, no matter how much I searched for it, I ended up making a big mess on my desk, as the eyeliner was lost.

"Um...I can't find my eyeliner?" Keiko looked at me with a questionable face, as Botan started searched under the desk and bed. After half an hour, Keiko found it between my lipliners AND empty.

"Found it, Dani!" I looked in her way, as she handed me the eyeliner. When I first held it, it was so light, I didn't even realised I was holding something. But when I opened it, it was empty as hell. "It's empty.." Botan said. "Why didn't you throw it out?"

"It wasn't me. I'm not the one who put it there, neither used all of it. I started using it four days ago." I said. Just who could've used MY eyeliner AND all of it. Yukina definitely not, I don't think she even knows what make-up is. Shizuru bought her own black one. Genkai DEFINITELY NOT, she's too old for that. And Botan and Keiko are here with me and they look too confused to make me think they used it. Unless them boys started feeling like a fem queen, I have no idea who could've touched my eyeliner.

I look deep in thought at the wall in front of me. Wait...it can't be.

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I opened the door to the apartament we all shared together during this tournament. We spent our night at a local club, where we blasted off Tokio Hotel. (pfft.) Even Hiei went with us, but at one point I didn't see him anymore.

"Damn Yusuke, who knew you could be so good at playing the guitar. You sure had Keiko in tears." Yusuke blushed madly and started hitting me, as Keiko was also red in the face, trying not to punch me as well. Those two lovebirds just won't admit their feelings to each other, yet they act like an old married couple, always fighting and arguing with each other.

"Hah, forget Yusuke! I was the best at the drums! Say Yukina..." Kuwabara yelled out, as he grabbed Yukina's pale hands. She looked at him puzzled.

"Did you liked how your soulmate played the drums, just for you, my love?"

I kicked him in the head. Simp. Poor Yukina. She doesn't understand all of this, yet she still likes him...in a friend way I think. Yukina doesn't really understand the concept of romance, but Kuwabara keeps flirting with her, which truly annoys me.

Kurama just laughed it off, before saying "I think Hiei's bass was super good, don't you think?"

"Hah, that shrimp? I don't even know where he even learned playing an instrument, he's all about power. I bet he wanted to impress someone!- AAAH!" I pressed on his foot, making him squeal in pain. "Look who's talking, number 1# Yukina fan. By the way, at one point he left to God knows where." Everyone agreed with me on this. "Maybe he drank too much and got sick?"

"He would've come back by now." Well whatever. Who cares. I went in my room to change to some more comfortable clothes. As I creaked the door open, I saw something that seriously caught me off guard.

"What are you doing?" *Papa's Pizzeria silly music playing in the background.*

Hiei turned into my direction, while holding a eyeliner in one hand, as the other one was pulling his eye to do it. "Um."

"So this is where all my eyeliners went, right?"

He slowly nodded, using that innocent face of his.

"You know, you could've just asked, not break into my room and do this, leaving me confused." He nodded slowly again. He knows I'm right, this is why he isn't arguing with me. "Has this become some kind of habit?" He nodded. "I'm assuming you left because you had to do it again?" He nodded. I let out a deep sigh.

"I will go out to take some fresh air, hopefully I'm drunk and this is a dream. Have fun." I closed the door, letting the princess of the darkness to continue her busy work. I rubbed my temples, in a way to relieve the aching pain of my head.

"Maybe I drank too much."

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