The nightmares came every night, flashes of his brother's cruel words, his mother standing by and doing nothing. Takumi couldn't escape anymore, he didn't have Gii to cradle him and caress his hair, telling him everything was going to be okay. Gii had other responsibilities as head of his floor, and Takumi would only be weighing him down. He brought his knees to his chest, trying to think of anything to take his mind off the fact he had woken up screaming again. At this rate he was going to pass out from exhaustion, he could barely keep his eyes open during class now. He groaned, the day wasn't any better than the night, panic attacks were a constant occurrence nowadays. His roommate had even transferred to a different dorm because of his constant breakdowns. There was nothing and no one that would help him. A small voice in the back of his head said that Gii would look after him and care for him, but he quickly shushed the voice. No, I can't go to him. He already has so much on his plate this term. Takumi hugged his legs closer, silently debating what to do. If he didn't get some sleep soon his grades were going to drop and he would most likely be kicked out of the boarding school. If that happened he would be even further away from Gii… No, he couldn't let that happen. Takumi took a deep breath and pulled his covers back, slipping out of bed and to his small dormitory closet to get a sweater. He slipped on his shoes and picked up the spare key Gii had given him to his suite. He gulped, if any of the administrative staff found out about this both of them would be expelled for sure. He faltered, was this worth all the trouble he could cause Gii? Gii said he would always love me, he would never push me away when I'm vulnerable. He huffed a little, affirmed his plan, and quietly slipped out of his room. He checked every hallway and staircase he went through to make sure there was no one out, he couldn't afford to get caught. When he finally got to Gii's door, he froze. Why did I think this was a good idea? Oh no, what if he has something important tomorrow? What if he doesn't want to see me? What if….. Takumi whirled his head around at the noise behind him, someone was coming up the stairs to his right. He had nowhere else to go, there was only one staircase, he quickly pulled out his key, trying to be as quiet as possible, and unlocked the door. He stepped inside in a rush, not knowing how close the person behind him was, shutting the door as quietly as he could. He let out a small sigh of relief at not being caught, locking the door for good measure. He took his shoes off and set his key on Gii's desk. He looked around the darkroom, the suite was indeed large. His eyes fell on a sleeping Gii, only his outline visible underneath the covers. Takumi stepped closer, making his way towards the bed, holding his breath. When he got close enough, he sat down on the edge, running his hands through his boyfriend's hair. Gii stirred slightly in his sleep, eyes twitching under his closed eyelids. Takumi has never really gotten the chance to gaze upon his lover like this. There was none of the seriousness that his face normally held, Gii was completely relaxed and calm. It was an unusual sight to see. Takumi pulled back the covers slightly, blushing when he saw that Gii wasn't wearing a shirt. Why are you getting flustered like a schoolgirl, you've seen everything already. He slid down into the comforting embrace of the soft comforter, welcoming its warmth. He scooted closer to his lover, not wanting to startle him awake, but yearning for his touch and comfort. He felt him stir, and Gii opened his eyes slightly.

"Takumi", Gii muttered groggily.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know where else to go and I haven't been able to sleep at all. Ever since you moved rooms my nightmares have been getting worse and there's no one there next to me. I just didn't want to add more to your plate, you already work so hard, and…"

Takumi trailed off when he realized that he was rambling. Gii blinked, his sleepy mind trying to comprehend what his frantic boyfriend was saying. He readjusted his arms so he could hold the smaller boy, pulling him close. Takumi melted into the touch, suddenly feeling instantly tired.

"Takumi," Gii said as he kissed his lover's forehead, "you have to talk to me and share your feelings. I can't help you if I don't know something is bothering you. We're partners, remember?"

Takumi felt tears gather in his eyes at Gii's words, he knew he shouldn't be getting so emotional about a simple statement but something in him just broke. He knew that he should've gone to Gii earlier and all of his previous insecurities dissolved. This was the man who loved him and cherished him beyond words. Gii hugged him tighter, placed kisses on his hair, and rubbed his back.

"I love you."

"I love you too, Takumi-kun. I always will."

Takumi snuggled closer, wanting all the distance between them to disappear. He needed to sleep and he knew it but he also wanted Gii to love him. It was stupid, but somewhere deep down his insecurities gnawed at him. He finally gave in to himself.

"G-gii, I n-need you to l-love me."

His voice was barely above a whisper, but in the quiet of the night, it seemed as if it echoed around the large suite.

"I already love you."

"T-that's not w-what I mean. I n-need you to r-remind me h-how much you l-love me."

"Takumi," Gii's voice was deadly serious, "are you sure of what you're asking?"

Takumi gave a small nod, all he needed was this boy's hands on him. Gii wasted no time, flipping them over and locking their bodies together. He slowly moved his hands to his lover's waist, pushing up the sweater, gripping the soft skin of the boy's waist. Takumi let out an involuntary gasp. Gii connected their lips in a gentle and passionate kiss, it was as if he was trying to convey all of his emotions towards Takumi in one kiss. The two continued to make out, Gii trailing his hands further up his boyfriend's sweater, before tearing it off completely. Takumi blushed, no matter how many times they made love, he always felt shy in front of Gii.

"You are most important to me. I will never let you go."

With those words, Gii kissed him on the nose, then cheek, lips, and finally down his neck, until he reached a rosey bud. He took the perky nipple in his mouth, swirling his tongue around it. Takumi arched his back, he was always so sensitive there.

"G-gii, d-don't stop," Takumi barely managed to get the words out.

Gii went back to his ministrations, using his other hand to twist the second small bud, eliciting a sharp intake of breath from the boy underneath him. He continued this process, whispering promises of days to come, the beauty that Takumi possessed, and other forbidden words. He gave one last lick to the sensitive buds, before continuing to kiss down his lover's stomach, taking care not to leave marks. Takumi hated when he left marks, it reminded him of the horrid things his brother had done to him in the past. Gii finally made it to his waistband, playing with it casually until Takumi gripped his hair, pushing him down further. If this had been any other night, Gii would've made a snide comment about how eager his boyfriend was, but tonight Takumi needed gentle encouragement and love. Two things Gii was more than willing to give the boy.