first thing I see, and last I think about

Darkness clouded someone's vision as water started to fill there lungs. They repeatedly started to tug on the bulkhead infront of them to hit the emergency launcher. Only to feel nauseated. There eyes blurred unable to breath. There grip on the bulkhead door started to loosen.

There eyes close slowly.

"EMMA!"

Azur Main, Family Housing, Pearl harbor, USA

0500

Arizona woke up with sweat beading down her flushed cheeks. Her breatha harsh and uneven as though she was drowning. He takes a gulps of air making sure she can breath. She eventually calms down enough to look at her surroundings. She was in a bedroom, various pictures and other furniture objects fill it. She looks at the nightstand next to her. It was a picture of her in a wedding dress standing next to a man in Marine Corp dress blues. Her wedding day, but the man was not with her. With a sigh and berating herself about the nightmare.

She twists her body so her feet land on the floor. However the door to her room opens up with a small girl with her hair and her husbands deep blue eyes. Holding a plastic toy of a lion if it where a machine.

"Emma? Are you ok?" The small girl asked.

Arizona smiles putting on a brave face for the young girl.

"I'm fine sweetie, don't worry about it." She replied.

"It's just...I heard you crying...is it because daddy's not here?" She asked not knowing what had happened.

She nods a little.

"Yea...I miss him..." Arizona replied.

The girl would walk up to her and place the toy at the foot of the bed and hug her.

"I miss him to Emma...and my big sisters."

Arizona sighs into her daughters shoulders as she held her in her arms.

"I know Ruth...I know."

Day Care, Azur Main, Pearl harbor, USA

0600

Arizona was in her uniform as she walked hand in hand with her daughter. Though she was in deep thought...she had that dream again...it was the...she didn't bother with counting it anymore. What made it worse...was that she couldn't talk about it with her husband in her letter's. At least he sends two every week. And her daughters out in the front make sure they get to eachother.

There eldest being a Gundam Pilot while the younger three where ship girls like she used to be. Sure they where barges but they where back like units compared to her Husband and eldest daughter. In fact it was her eldest daughter that saved her from her and many of her boys on her ship by dragging it to shore quickly.

Yet still more then half of her crew died from ether her forward magazine detonating or by drowning in the lower decks before capsizing. She could still hear there screams for help as she tried to open her ships connection pod. She shook her head to get it out of her mind, eventually getting to the day care door. Giving it a knock it opened to her oldest friend.

"Arizona, morning girl, and Ruth how are you!" The women said.

"Hey auntie Emily" Ruth replied with a smile still holding onto her toy. "And Liger 0 says hi too, and gave mommy a hug. She misses daddy."

The girl then holds up her toy, the orange painted eyes of the cockpit lid would stare blankly back at the women who just simply smiled as she then looks at Arizona with eyes of concern but it was subtle that the child didn't know. But kept up the act for her sake.

"I'm sure he's fine, did you two get any letters from Duron and the girls?" She asked.

Arizona nods with a smile knowing full well she's getting a talking to from Emily.

"Yep, Naomi sent his letter with hers. As for Stolt, Sylina, and Akai. There also doing well. Thought one funny story is a little to old for Ruth's ears."

"To old for what?" Ruth pipped up.

"Never mind that now go inside." Emily replied letting the girl in.

"Ok" Ruth said as she entered.

Emily then looks back at Arizona.

"Your off your pills again?"

Arizona sighs as her left hand pulls a little on her right arm.

"I can't take them...they...there addictive...or at least run the risk of addiction...I...I can't risk it. Not when...I can't for the sake of my family..."

"Are you sure that's a wise choice?" Emily replied. Concern written all over her face.

"Better to deal with it and soldier on then...I'm not sure why they wanted me on those pills...I'm not going to risk it...at least...know I know why Duron didn't want to be anywhere near me when I manifested...why he was so distant at first.."

Emily just listened as she nods in agreement.

"I understand. But Ari, please talk to someone about it. Especially your husband. Just saying it's all right will only make him worry about you more when he's on shore leave. Better to be blunt than silent and make him wonder if he messed up. Believe me Benson maybe dense but he knows something may be wrong even when I try to hide it."

"But what if It.."

"No don't think that Ari, I already tried that and it didn't work for Benson what makes you think it's going to work with Duron?" She replied. "Please just talk to him ok."

Arizona sighs

"Your not going to let it go are you?"

"No. Your my friend and I want the best for you." Emily replied giving her a hug.

Arizona sighs as she hugs back, some tears dropping onto Emilys sundress.

"I know."

Azur Main HQ, Pearl harbor, Hawaii USA

0700

The commander sighs as he unlocked the door to the office, Admiral Nimmits having left for a inspection tour leaving him in charge while he's gone for the week. He begins on the last page his predecessor looked over as he waited for his secretary to come in and help him out with the paperwork.

Hearing the creak of the doors hinges he lifts his head to see Arizona walking in.

"Oh, Arizona nice to finally meet you, Admiral Nimmits and Kimmel speak highly of you." He stated

Arizona just brushes it off kindly not really thinking much about it.

"It's not a big deal I just help with paperwork."

She then takes a seat to begin the sorting of the paperwork. Which doesn't take long to organize. To which the commander thanked God that Nimmits got her to be the secretary. Otherwise logistics would have fallen.

1200 hours

Arizona stretched out her back while getting up from her chair. The commander yawns as he puts some paperwork aside. They where about to go to chow when a girl with vanilla cream white hair and aqua eyes opened the door. She wore a diners waitress outfit that was also a cream white with the only other change of color being a ice cream cone badge on her right collar. She had three plates along her arms as she walked in.

"Commander, Emma, nice to see you two." She smiled.

"Sylina? I thought you where deployed to Guam."

"No Stolt is handling that while Akai is currently with Task force 58." She replied placing the plates on there respective desks. "My ship is currently being resupplied and will probably head out to Guadalcanal in about a week. So I figured I'd spend some time together with you two."

Arizona smiles giving her a hug.

"Ah...Emma your crushing me." Sylina stated

"Oh sorry please here"

Arizona pulls a chair from the small closet In the office to which Sylina took with a smile and began to eat her own plate. Arizona did notice how the Commander and her daughter looked at one another with small glances. Once she was finished eating she then takes a moment to think it over.

"Commander." Arizona says with a very...odd tone.

"Ah...yes?"

"Have you been dating my daughter?"

"Emma"

"Yes...how did you know?" The commander asked a little frightened.

Arizona sighs but smiles however it's filled with a underlined tone.

"You two are obvious even more so then when me and Duron where together." Arizona said. "But I've known you a while Commander, and I know your Nimmits best despite being so young. But I want you to know something."

"Emma please don't kill my boyfriend..."

A dark aura surrounded Arizona as her eyes turned red like the Banshee Gundams visor.

"If you hurt her in any way...my husband is not the only one that will tear you limb from limb."

"Understood ma'am!" The commander replied terrified of the battleship.

"Emma..." Her daughter sighs but couldn't help but chuckle.

"You know I take your well being seriously Sylina"

"Yes but Stolt, Akai, me, and Naomi are fine."

"*Sighs* I know I know." Arizona replied as she takes her seat at the secretary chair.

Sylina gets up and gives her a hug.

"Hey don't take it like I'm not going to be there for you. We love you Emma."

"I know...it's..."

The commander seeing that they want to be alone for a bit exits the office to give them some space waiting by the door.

"It's just... almost three years...I worry about you all...I don't want to lose you girls too..."

"You won't Emma, and Abba will make sure of that." Sylina replied letting her mother just rest against her. "I know you feel left behind, but we carry you everywhere we go. We know Abba does especially."

(trivia: Emma;Mother, Abba;Father)