Chapter 6: Indulge

I had been a coward. More than I could like to admit. I took refuge back on Mount Olympus once again. I needed to stop this; stop running and leaving her alone. I had been unable to face her after that day. I almost took advantage of her. Even after all that I had said. I took refuge on Mount Olympus sulking in my room. With each passing day my cowardice grew worse, and another day that boy… her half got closer to her. As much as it burned me. I could not bring myself to face her. I felt like a child. I almost lost control and took her right there. I could not live with myself If I had taken her and she would come to regret it. I sat up, dragging my hand across my face. She must be so confused as to why I left in a hurry like that. I just sat there staring at the floor. I could not bear it any longer. I quickly went to my chariot, racing to her. My heart had never beat so fast. Especially not for anyone else. I nearly crashed my chariot on landing. I ran to the front door banging on the front door. Moments later I could hear the door unlatching. The door opened, and there she was. Her eyes were red and puffy. I reached out to her and she immediately backed away from me. I sighed, stepping in and closing the door behind me.

I was finished with running.

She folded her arms. "Why are you here Sesshomaru?"

She sounded so distant, and rightfully so. I did not know what to say to her. I was afraid I would say the wrong thing, again.

"Are you here to apologize, again? Only to hurt me, again?"

"That is not the case. Please allow me to explain." I pleaded.

"I am getting very tired of this game that you are playing Sesshomaru."

"Kagome-"

She was holding back her tears. I felt a pang in my stomach. I did not want to see her this way. She was on the verge of tears and it was my fault.

"How long are you going to play with me like this? If you do not want me why did you say those things to me? Why would you touch me that way?" she asked, whispering the last part.

I did not give her time to back away from me again. I scooped her up in my arms, holding her close. I desperately held onto her. She struggled pushing against my chest. I would not give her any room to run away. I feared that she would finally be finished with me if I had. I carried her to her bedroom. I ignored her protests for me to put her down. I would disobey her wishes just this one last time. I sat with her on the bed.

"Kagome, I need you to listen to me. I want you. I want you more than you know. I have wanted you since the moment I laid eyes on you. It took me some time to realize that, but the desire... the need has always been there. It did not matter if I were only sitting in the room with you. That was enough... until it wasn't. I did not want you to feel as though I was behaving like him; like my father. I was struggling with this."

"So then why would you leave me the way that you did? Why do you keep leaving me?"

She was clinging to me. For that I was grateful. It was as if she was holding me together. That how fearful I was of losing her.

"You weren't ready, and I knew that. Knowing what I did, I almost took advantage of you. I never wanted to make you feel... used."

I felt her relax in my arms. She looked at me as if I was mad.

"Take advantage of me? Sesshomaru, yes I was nervous, but I wanted you. I still want you, but you can not just leave me like this every time without an explanation. I cried my eyes out for an entire day, thinking you did not want me."

I caressed her cheek.

"I am sorry. The last thing that I wanted to do was to hurt you. To make you feel as though I did not want you. It does not matter how many times I must say it. I will continue to. Kagome I want you. So much that it burns me. I cannot stand it when you are upset with me. I want nothing more than to make you happy and continue making you happy. To spend every waking moment with you… to kiss every inch of your body."

Those last few words had managed to slip out. I had meant to keep them in my mind, but I had gone too far to hold back now.

She licked her lips. "Then take me," she whispered.

That was my tipping point.

To hell with not getting in their way.

I flipped her onto her back, staring at her lips. I crash my mouth onto hers. They were warm and so soft. I've waited so long for this moment. I laced my fingers with me, pinning her arms above her head, wedging my knees between her legs. My cock was hard the moment she'd told me to take her. I rubbed against her, making her gasp. I took my chance to slip my tongue into her mouth. She tasted so sweet. I slipped my hands out of hers, grabbing her hips and grinding against her. Her hips rolled against me, her hands finding their way into my hair. I pulled away from her. I could see the confusion in her eyes. She looked so beautiful waiting for me to take her. I slid my hands up her thighs, pushing up her dress. I let out a deep sigh seeing her dripping wet. I grabbed her dress, ripping it, exposing her entire body. My hands roamed her body. Her skin was so soft; her breasts supple and nipples perky. Staring at her made me ravenous. I was caught between taking my time and devouring her all at once. I kissed around her breasts, rubbing my lips across her nipples softly. Her back arched each time I teased her.

"Sesshomaru, please."

I rubbed her clit with my thumb, slowly.

"Tell me what you want."

"I want you." She whispered.

I flicked my tongue against clit.

"Again." she whispered.

"I want you," she said breathlessly.

I groaned, taking her clit into my mouth. I kept my eyes on her. She gasped, gripping at the sheets. Her hips buckled each time I sucked and ran my tongue over her clit. I held onto her tight with one hand, slipping two fingers into her. Her walls tighten around her fingers. I could feel it coming; her orgasm. I pulled my fingers and my mouth from her. Her chest heaved and her eyes were filled with confusion.

"Do not worry. I am not leaving you... Not now, not again, not ever."

I towered over her. Siding my cock up and down from her clit to her hole. She held onto me, pulling me closer. I pushed in slightly, she was so tight. Her nails dug into me each time I pushed forward.

"Take a deep breath."

She did as she was told, and I did one quick thrust into her. I stayed there lying against her, letting her get used to me inside her. I kissed her cheeks, waiting for her to relax.

"Are you alright?"

She gave me a nod. I began to move my hips. She kissed me, biting my lips. I picked up speed. Her moans were music to my ears as they echoed off the walls. She was desperately trying to grab onto something; anything. I took one of my hands, pinning her above her head. As I dug deeper into her. She was beautiful. Her hair fanned out around her; skin flushed and covered in sweat. I stroked her bottom lip, slipping my thumb into her mouth. She suck on it, looking me in the eyes as she did. It made my cock harder. I grabbed her hip slamming into her. Her moans were music to my ears. I could feel her tightening around me.

"Oh God!"

Her legs locked around me, as her entire body shook. I kept thrusting into her, hitting the spot that made her cry out. Letting her ride out the wave of her pleasure, until her legs dropped.

I kissed her neck, moving closer to her ear, nipping at it. I kissed and down to her inner thighs. I was ready to ravage her again. I kissed her clit looking up at her, a smile on my lips.

"I am not finished with you yet."