NOTES: I'm back with a new chapter. It took a while, but u guys know: I never abandon my stories, I can't, I'm addicted to writing about Super Arrow, so I hope u guys like this one... and please don't hate me because I won't take long to update again (not after this chapter lol)

Enjoy.

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Chapter 4 - Surprise, Surprise

As promised, later that day Kara took Oliver to buy a few new clothes so he could have anything else other than Clark's two old clothes to wear. He wasn't too excited for that, but decided to just go with it. They visited a few stores and gladly didn't take long for him to find some nice clothes after all. They stopped to eat in a restaurant nearby and sat in a quiet corner as their food arrived. Kara's plate was huge, as usual, something Oliver was getting used to.

- How was it? Your… former home… Before everything happened? Like when you grew up there… – Oliver asked, being careful not to out Kara was Supergirl in public. Even if it was just the two of them there, he knew better.

Kara stared with a curious look at Oliver. She thought about it, trying to bring back her best memories of Krypton.

- I'm just curious. I've never met anyone from… far away like that – He said, noticing the look in her eyes. – If you don't feel comfortable talking about it, that's ok… I'm sorry…

- No, it's ok. It has been a long time since anyone asked me about my former home. It was beautiful and full of life. My mom was…part of the group of politics taking care of big decisions; my dad was a scientist just like my uncle. I have great memories of the times I used to baby-sit my cousin after he was born. It was just a few weeks before it all went wrong.

- I can't imagine what you've been through, but I'm glad you got to have nice memories of the place.

- Me too. – She smiled – I was really young, but I'm really glad I have the memories of the culture, the music, the art and the architecture, about our faith and the beloved people I left behind. Sometimes holding on to these memories is what gives me strength to keep fighting. I already lost a home, so I'll always do my best to keep the one I found.

Kara noticed the way Oliver stared at her, he was really listening. He was really showing interest about her past and her life. It felt really good to be heard like that. She wondered about his home, he never spoke that much about it and when he did, it was always about something negative.

- Do you miss yours? I mean of course you miss your loved ones but… The home you grew up in… Do you still live there? – She asked.

- I actually lost my childhood home, thanks to a psychopath that came back to my life to destroy everything I cared about… So I'm living with my sister Thea. She used the money of her biological father to buy a new condo and we live there. But yes, I miss it. Deep down I hope to be able to recover it, I have a lot of fond memories there.

- I'm really sorry that happened to you…

- It's ok. And see? It's another thing we have in common – Oliver teased

Kara stopped to think about it, noticing it was true. She noticed his hand was still holding hers, caressing it as if he was trying to comfort her and she welcomed it, never moving her hand away. She really felt seen and like someone could actually get it how it was for the first time in years.

- We both lost our original homes that we miss – She said in a low voice

Kara and Oliver got to the DEO after getting a message from Alex, saying they were needed as soon as possible. Kara worried so she managed to super speed them after making sure it was safe and no one was watching them. An attack happened downtown so Oliver volunteered to help Kara, Alex and Maggie, so they went on the mission together. He really missed home and his team and friends, but being there with Kara, helping her and her team to do stuff, it felt different, it felt a good different and he was willing to explore it a bit more. He was already in a place almost no one knew him; he had a chance to do better, be better. It made him feel excitement again, something he didn't feel for a long time. His life before coming to this Earth was a mess, he wasn't sure about anything anymore, so he was glad that even if he had no idea how and no one could explain it, he ended up on Kara's Earth, got to meet her and everyone at the DEO and maybe give a temporary new purpose to his life.

The missions were the easy part. After everything he went through, dealing with some criminal robbing a bank while Kara stopped some alien attack to happen was truly a piece of cake and every time they went on a mission together, there was always the happy hour moment later where they would get together at Kara's or Alex's place, eat something, have a drink and just share experiences, hang out, have fun. The game nights were fun too, he found out. At first he was reluctant about it but once he tried once, he thought it was rally fun and ended up joining them multiple times. He just wasn't a big fan of karaoke night. It wasn't like the game night, as Kara told him, it happened once in a while and Oliver found out Kara had an amazing voice.

- "Was there anything she couldn't do?" He thought when he heard her singing for the first time.

She definitely sounded like an angel.

One particular night, the four of them were at Kara's place, just drinking and talking, sharing stories and laughing. Those were Oliver's favorite moments, he found out.

- This is nice… - Alex said as she raised her champagne glass – The four of us bounding, as besties… - She said, making everyone laugh.

- Oh no, she's drunk – Kara laughed

- Not yet, my dear sister – Alex laughed.

- But yes, it is nice – Kara said, drinking her club soda.

- So… What made you become a vigilante? Because I've seen you in the field, are you sure you weren't from the army or something? – Maggie asked, finishing her drink and pouring a bit more to her glass.

- Years ago I was an idiot. I used to go out, drink a lot, cheat on my ex… I'm not proud of it, by the way – He added after the look the three of them gave him. – I was a spoiled rich idiot that had no idea he had the perfect life and no one around him deserved what he did to them.

- Alex told me you survived 5 years on an island… How?

Oliver started to tell them about the accident, and how he wasn't actually all the 5 years on the island, how he ended up working for Amanda Waller, and all the missions he had to do.

- Lian Yu is Mandarin for Purgatory. I believe that experience was my punishment, my personal hell. I had to do things I'm not proud of, to survive, I learned how to fight, how to use bow and arrows, how to kill… I came back home with a lot of trauma but at the same time, a lot to do. – Oliver said as he told them about his dad and the list and how everything went down until the day he fought Ra's and ended up on their Earth.

Alex and Maggie stared at him with a mix of shock, surprise. Kara knew most of that stuff, but a few things she was listening for the first time and then, she realized things were way worse than she imagined. He went literally to hell and came back.

- You told me once you had no idea how I could be so hopeful after everything I went through – Kara said, staring at Oliver – But Oliver, you went through hell… And you're still here, fighting for what's right, for your world… Still making sacrifices and putting other people's need above yours… and with no super powers, just your skills… How? And… Why?

That question caught him by surprise because he never really stopped to think why he was doing everything he did.

- Those 5 years taught me a lot, and I saw a lot of injustice and I learned that I could do something and that it would make a difference, even when it didn't feel like it. When I came back, I had that feeling that I needed to honor my father's wishes but after I met Diggle and he started helping me in my mission, he helped me see that we could use what we need to way more than just right my father's wrongs. I love my city sand it was deteriorating. I couldn't just stand by and watch everything burn. I didn't see myself as a hero… I think I still don't. But yes, we had skills and a way of making criminals pay and make people's lives a bit easier. I think deep down I wanted to compensate for being that idiot, wasting so many years with all the wrong things, and with time, I wanted to make the world a better place, at least I would do my best to help.

- Wow… That's admirable my friend – Alex said

Kara agreed, thinking about everything Oliver told them. Yes, everything was way deeper than she thought it was. She never met a human like him, for sure.

They talked a bit more and then, Maggie started to feel sleepy so Alex and her said their goodbyes and left to Alex's place. Oliver helped Kara clean everything and they said their goodnights, Kara going to her bedroom and Oliver to the guest room.

Kara took a hot shower and changed into her comfy pjs and tried to sleep but couldn't, her mind was filled with curiosity about so many things after hearing everything that Oliver told them. They talked before about it, but never that deep. She got up and went to the kitchen only to find Oliver there, in dark blue shorts and a grey shirt, having a glass of water.

- Couldn't sleep either? – Oliver asked as he put the glass down on the table.

- Yes. – Kara said also going for a glass of water.

- Twice in a week – Oliver said

- I think it's becoming a habit of ours – Kara teased, making him laugh.

As soon as she finished, she went to the couch and sat there. Oliver sat by her side, staring with curiosity at her.

- Is this something I can help with? – He asked.

- I don't know… I mean… I was just thinking about some things…We had a really good talk tonight – She smiled

- Yes, it made me think about a few things too…

- Like…?

- I was just reflecting on my life and everything. I still wonder how I ended up here, but I'm also glad, because being here has been helping me a lot.

- I'm glad to hear it – Kara smiled, turning a bit more to her left side, to face him better.

- It's refreshing to be in a place full of light and so calm… Star City is completely the opposite.

- But… What bothers you the most? Like, your thoughts, what's keeping you awake?

- I wonder if I'll ever go back… If things will be any different if I do or if I'll still need to keep pushing people away to keep them safe… If I should try to make things different…

- You mean… With Felicity?

Kara stared at Oliver understanding everything he was telling her because she did the same thing. She had to keep things separately, and focus on being Supergirl and she was always wondering if things were supposed to be this way or if she should just do something to change it, if she should risk get closer to someone, but then she remembered she couldn't just tell people she was Supergirl, at least not like this and she hated the idea of lying to someone she cared about. She knew way more than she wanted to admit how hard this life was.

- No… She was seeing someone before I left to fight Ra's and things were better this way. I don't think we were meant to be together… And I can't offer her what she needed. My enemies would keep targeting her, and she would always be in danger, I just…

- You wouldn't be able to live with yourself if something happened to her…

- You're talking as someone who has been there.

- I have. I get it. – She said – We have people in our lives that know about us, and they want to help but they can't do what we do, and it makes it dangerous to them. And we need to always be the ones making the right decision, doing the hard thing. You told me you faced this Ra's to save your sister and that your friends didn't want you to go fight him… That Felicity didn't want you to go… If I were in your shoes, I would do the same thing. I mean, not a long time ago I had to face my uncle and then I had to bring a Kryptonian prison to the space, knowing there was a possibility of me dying there. No one wanted me to do it, but it was the only way, I had to, even if it meant there was a small chance I wouldn't come back. And it didn't matter, because the world would be safe. Everyone would live and…

- They love us, but they don't get that we are the ones that need to make sacrifices because is the right thing to do – Oliver completed it, making Kara smile.

- Exactly. So… Sometimes I'm surrounded by people that I know they loves me, but at the same time, I feel completely alone.

- You described it perfectly.

Kara rested the side of her head on the back of the couch as she got lost in her thoughts. They sat really close from each other, her knees barely touched his knees and she stared down at her own hands.

- I never felt like I could open up like this… - Oliver said – Is the first time in my life I do it.

Kara stared back at him as she saw him reaching for one of her hands. She held his, feeling his fingers caressing her hand and she blushed, giving him a soft smile.

- Me neither. I talk to my sister, but it's still not the same…

- I'm really glad you found me, Kara. I don't usually open up about how I feel, that was one of the reasons it was so difficult for me to get really close to someone, no matter how hard I tried. But… I really feel like I can with you.

- I'm flattered – She blushed even more – and honored to be the one you can talk to. Is not easy for me either, especially because I feel like I need to be strong for everyone else all the time… So it really feels good to really talk about this with someone who gets it… And… I'm curious…

- Yes?

- Don't you feel…lonely?

Oliver stared down for a few seconds thinking about that question. He never admitted it before, or let anyone realize it, but he knew the answer, because it was his cruel reality.

- This is a lonely life. We keep secrets from people we love, we push people away to protect them, we make sure people don't find out about this secret because it could put our loved ones in danger, we don't get to have a normal life, just travel and chill and be happy… It's always lonely. And I can tell that you know what I'm talking about. By everything you told me, it must be even harder. I can't imagine my entire planet exploding and losing everyone I know and love. You're stronger than people realize. I don't know a single person that would be able to smile after going through all of that… maybe Barry, but…

Kara smiled, nodding with her head, feeling a strange comfort. Oliver got it all damn right.

- I feel like… I'm always losing people. My planet exploded, my parents had to send me away, I got here and my father had to go away to keep me and Alex safe, I had to get used to Earth and going to school and being forced to hide who I was, then I lost someone especial to me at school… I keep losing. I fell in love last year and couldn't even try to be happy because reality just hit and I knew I couldn't go on with that, with everything that was going on in my life… But it shouldn't be like this…

- I think that… Maybe, for you and for me, things just weren't meant to be? I don't know if it makes any sense – Oliver said as he scratched his head after noticing his hand still held hers.

- I think it does…

- I mean, it's supposed to be simple, right? You find someone; it's the right person and things just… Happens.

- That someone you can be yourself with – Kara said as she noticed the blue in his eyes even brighter than before – That you don't need to lie to, that understands…Wouldn't it be perfect?

- Less lonely. – He said in a low and serious tone

- Way less – She said, barely in a whisper, seeing as their faces were really close.

- I'm glad you found me… - Oliver said it again, as his fingers went to a few strands of her hair.

He put it behind her ear as they stared at each other's lips. Kara could hear that Oliver's heart raced a bit faster than it was 10 seconds ago. She stared at his lips once again and they stayed like that for a while. Oliver just let a small smirk form in his lips and Kara stared at him with curiosity.

- What are you thinking? – She asked, almost in a whisper.

- How life is funny.

- Why?

- Well, I met the perfect person… And of course she lives a whole universe away…

Kara froze, still staring at Oliver, understanding what he just told her. Her heart was the one beating a bit faster now and she felt a wave of nervousness taking over now as she blushed once again, but ten times more. She reached for his hand this time and held it, staring deeply into his eyes.

- Like I told you… I'm always losing people…

Oliver stared back at her, understanding what she was telling him underneath that phrase. He caressed her hand with his, knowing he had no idea when he was going to go back home, if they would ever be able to see each other again, all he knew was that her hands were really soft, she had the most beautiful smile he had ever seen and he really wanted to taste what her kiss felt like. The tip of his finger touched her chin as their faces approached a few inches.

- Let's just be hopeful it won't be like that… Somehow

- I'd like that – She smiled as he closed the space between them.

It was a soft shy kiss, like testing waters to see if they weren't too deep or too cold. Oliver's lips touched hers as his hand went to caress her right cheeks. His other hand held her by the waist as their bodies came a bit closer on the couch. Kara gave room for Oliver to deepen the kiss and she couldn't explain what she was feeling at that moment. It was like a huge weight was taken off of her back, she felt ten times lighter. She touched his face, feeling his short beard while her other hand went for his neck, caressing his hair on the back of it.

Oliver knew he was in trouble the moment he looked into her eyes and saw that spark, that look he hasn't seen anyone give him in a long time. The moment their lips touched, he was more than sure.

He was in trouble and excited about it. It was a good trouble.

He was finding it really hard to let her lips go, but he found strength enough to take some air and try to recompose as their lips went apart for a few minutes, both trying to catch their breaths.

- You were right, it is a lonely life… But it don't have to be – He said.

- Let's stop being lonely… together – She said, still caressing his face.

Oliver just approached his head to hers, teasing an almost kiss.

- I like this idea – He said as he crushed his lips against hers.

Kara kissed him back and this time, there was nothing shy or soft about it. It was a deep, passionate, determined kiss. Oliver lowered his body over Kara's as she rested her back, lying on the couch. Her hands went to his back, reaching for the edge of his shirt. She started lifting it until it reached Oliver's head and she helped him out of it, throwing it on the floor. Oliver played with her strands of hair, caressing her face while his eyes were locked on hers, not able to look away. He was mesmerized by her beauty, inside out, and he couldn't believe what was happening was real. Since he started this crazy vigilante life, he never thought it would be possible to one day, be with someone like this, fully in. He tried, multiple times and it never worked out, but now… Not if felt right. It felt good, it felt like all the peaces in a puzzle coming together to form a beautiful picture. He gave her a slow kiss, feeling the tip of her fingers traveling through his back. Their kiss became more urgent and deep as she felt his body completely pressed against hers and she knew there was no other place she wanted to be at.

There was a funny noise, heard by the two of them and suddenly, a smoky bluish sort of portal opened in the middle of the living room.

- Ollie? What the… Kara?

Oliver jumped, alert of it, ready to fight if he had to while Kara got up really fast.

- BARRY? – They said in unison, in complete shock.